The Mail Box

[moonflower]

I feel overwhelmed. I don't know if this is a good thing. All I know is I gave what I wanted to gave. I guess I just didn't know I would be so caught in the moment. So right now I am taking it easy so that it won't fizzle out.

[Wyld]

 

dearest chris,

 

i have no words for you other than... i am sorry. in my heart of hearts, i know that i have let you down in the worst way possible. i know that i have shattered the gift of trust that you have given me... and while im not trying to make any excuses for myself, the only thing i can say is... it happened and i do not regret that it did -- i only regret that it will hurt and wound you... deeply.

 

i am such a coward because i cannot tell you what is in my heart... i can only hope that you will take my silence as a sign that i need to breathe, that i need some space, that i have some issues to resolve... i sensed the frustration in your voice earlier... i know how hard you have tried to reach out to me... share my pain and know my grief and yet, this is something i must bear alone for now.

 

i dont know where my path shall lead me. i dont know what other twists and turns lie along the way... i only know that i am so blessed to have had you in my life. i can only wish that inspite of all this, you will want to continue to be in it...but if you decide otherwise, then ill leave you be. let you go without clinging... and wish you well.

 

i wish it did not have to be this way but... i feel i do not deserve you anymore...im not the cheery girl that the "sun has kissed and caressed" anymore ... (i still smile when i remember those words... no one has ever described a bad case of sunburn as sweetly as you did... )... and while i have not become a worse person, i am changed. completely, irrevocably changed - and i do not know how you will accept me now. honestly, im too scared to find out.

 

perhaps, i should move on ... leaving you memories of the sunkissed, carefree girl behind... taking with me memories of your shy, crooked little smile with me...

 

but then again, perhaps i should stay... and give you the gift of the person i have become... hoping you would still love me for me.

 

honestly, i dont know what to do. not yet. not now.

 

im sorry.

 

-nina

Edited September 20, 2004 by WyldChik

[icewulf]

Fanning the Flames

-=icewulf=-

 

 

Flames of wrath smolder for me,

A once disciple of light made angry.

 

Let your furnace glow crimson,

Burn them who ignored my voice of reason.

 

My plasma boils with hatred,

Let it flood and scald them, fill ‘em with dread.

 

Let me summon forth your blaze,

With that searing touch their lives I’ll erase.

 

Let me yield your inferno,

Allow me to char their souls and spread woe.

 

Dissolve their flesh, hear them scream,

Make them wish it was all just a bad dream.

 

They will beg and they will yell,

They’d rather want to be burning in hell.

Edited September 20, 2004 by icewulf

[moonflower]

H,

 

 

advance happy birthday!

 

 

 

i really hope to see you again. ur coming back soon, right?

 

 

i wish you the best. mwah! :*

 

see you around.

[Wyld]

to my warrior...

 

i can only share in your rage.

i can only rail at those who sling stones at you.

 

i wont meddle.

ill restrain myself.

 

just know im here for you.

to stand by you.

 

as always.

as promised.

inspite of.

Edited September 21, 2004 by WyldChik

[icewulf]

Reap What You Have Sown

-=icewulf=-

 

They say they know.

They say they feel.

All they see is what I show,

But they don’t even believe it’s real.

 

They call themselves my friends.

They call themselves my allies.

They call themselves my heaven-sents.

They call themselves my azure skies.

 

Time, sweat and blood I offered them too,

Family, friends, career and honor I sacrificed.

Just to find time to help and see what I may do.

But alas for them my efforts would not suffice.

 

Many times I gave yet another chance, and tried.

Ever more vigilant, ever more hopeful each time.

And all those times I just suffered and slowly died

Together with promises and hopes broken everytime.

 

I never asked so much they can’t give.

I hardly even asked at all.

All I needed was what was due me.

But all they did was drive me to the wall.

 

They took away my light,

They took away my tranquility.

They took away my one ally.

They took away my sanity.

 

If this unrest is what they want.

Then all the chaos I can stir they will get.

I’ll make sure they will heave and pant,

And all they did they will regret.

 

And so I bid them “See you in hell.”

I wave goodbye to their secrets and lies.

I assure them this would be a long farewell.

And they better pray someone will hear their cries.

[Icee_1]

My friend,

 

I miss you already.

 

I wish we could talk again.

 

Icee

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

Im sorry ... i don't want to disturb you ... jus want to know how are you ... it seems you are enjoying what you are doing ... ingat ka na lang palagi ... it's not the time to be sensitive about things .. im just missing you siguro .. pero i have to learn being ignored most of the time, i can't be important like your work .. i have my life to tend to .. i will never be part of your plans ... will just support you on your endeavors .. always on the shadows ... not getting on your way ...

 

M

[cracker_jack]

Where would I begin?

 

Will these words be enough to tell you how I longed to be able to be near you? To be near you and feel your smooth silk skin? To be near you and feel your sigh while we talk? To be able to see you closely and admire your bright eyes and luscious lips.

 

How long will I wait to be with you? How long will I still suffer life without you? I've been wanting for so long to be there beside you to hold your soft hands and say to you that "I love you". I want to hold you tight and never let go.

 

Wait for me, Hon for I will be there soon and we will no longer be away from each other.

[Chito]

My dearest,

 

truly our lives are fast changing....i dont believe in love at first sight...

i don't believe in Knights and shining armour....but i feel deeply in love with you...

it's truly umcomparable...

 

if you think they will try to come our way...well go ahead..this would make us stronger...we believe in each other..together we can make it work...

 

just to answer..that..yes..hold on dearest..we have a lot of dreams to fulfill..this time together...

 

 

you are my happiness...i love you

 

Sweet

:cry:

 

I hope you remember this.

Edited September 22, 2004 by Chito

[Guest LovingSouL]

hey you!

 

I appreciate your concern

I appreciate the care and thoughtfulness

 

I am glad to have spent some time with you

Those moments will linger until we see each other again

 

I will be fine...I will be stronger

Try to live up to what you're hoping for

 

 

Agai, thank you my friend

[tio_pot]

post ko lang ito... forwarded lang po...

 

 

 

 

 

pls. help me forward this to the club owners, media, various e-groups and all those concerned. pakiforward na rin sa iba't ibang topics dito sa MTC. thanks.

 

Isn't it disturbing that the news today are almost always about

women in the sex trade? there's this Senate inquiry on escort

services, there's this raid on a nightclub in Baclaran, there's SM

Cinema banning R-18 films and there's this group of upcoming

sexy starlets being declared persona-non-grata in Manila.

 

Bakit sila ang pinag-iinitan? And yet, in all these, hindi kasama

ang mga malalaking Clubs like Airforce One, East Asia, Pegasus,

Classmates, Genie, Love Boat and even the Massage Parlors.

 

I wouldn't mind, really, if after all those raids, senate inquiries

and, what-have-yous, there's equal or greater police accomplishments

and media coverage in terms of apprehensions of smugglers, drug

traffickers and tax-evaders.

 

Ang hirap sa media, ang nakalagay lang sa News eh yung pagkakahuli.

Hindi nila inilalagay yung mga eksena before, during and after the

raids. Alam ba nila na marami sa mga nagtatrabaho dyan ang

nakadevirginize mismo eh yung mga yan? Very close to committing rape?

 

All of a sudden, wala na ang pork barrel sa news. Kawawa naman ang

mga kababaihan and yet we all know that their crime is nothing

compared to what the authorities are doing. In fairness to Khudet

Honasan, she is right in asking the authorities as to why single

them out. At least sila hindi nagnanakaw. At least sila hindi

naniningil ng dagdag sa buwis tapos ibubulsa lang pala ang pera. At

least yung mga anak nila hindi nakikipag barilan sa isang restaurant

sa Greenhills. At least sila hindi sumusweldo ng milyon milyon taon

taon upang pangalagaan ang isang kumpanyang nalulugi ng bilyon

bilyon. At least sila hindi nagdeclare ng Martial Law at ipinakulong o ipinapatay

daang daang mga tao. At least sila hindi binomba ang walang kamalay malay

na Iraq.

 

It really amazes me, since I am a Club owner myself, as to why Gay Bars

featuring male dancers in the nude with only placemats covering their

private parts (nakasampay sa titi ha) are not being raided. Bakit hindi sila

pumunta dun, tumambay, uminom ng libre, kumain ng libre, at inspeksyunin

ang mga nangyayari sa VIP rooms???

 

Hay naku! It's really unfair since we all know that women are in this business

simply because we have a corrupt system of government. Bakit ba sila

napilitang pumasok sa ganyan?

 

Jun

[ngneer_hk]

Agassi’s eloquent presentation speech when he introduced his wife, Steffi Graf, into the International Tennis Hall of Fame….

 

"I truly consider it a rare honor to stand here today before so many of you that have done so much for our sport and have meant so much to me and Stefanie, Looking out across this audience filled with warm friends and great champions, I am overwhelmed with the history and the tradition of this moment.

 

"As I attempt to find words worthy to introduce the person that has changed my life, I realized that the words have yet to be invented that are large enough, colorful enough, or true enough to express the heart and soul of this woman I love.

 

"Stefanie, I wonder what can I possibly say to do justice to the way you've lived your life, and the lives that you have changed."

 

"You have never defined yourself by what you have achieved, rather, you have achieved by how you defined yourself, And even now, it has taken my breath away to see how you've quietly laid down your racket to pursue love and motherhood with the same zeal and high standards you have always demanded of yourself.

 

"No one has ever known you to be infatuated by your own accomplishments. In fact, as I have often said, anyone who speaks with you will mostly likely forget the great things you have done within the first 30 seconds, but, they will feel cared for, their feelings engaged, and you never let go of their heart until they know that they are completely understood."

 

"The history books will record for posterity your ability to embrace and rise above adversity, to play through injury, and to win again, and again, and again.

 

"Far in the future, people will analyze and discuss your place as the greatest of your time, And as those future generations hear of your strength and dominance, they may be tempted to think that they know you, or the real heart of a giant that beats inside of you. But for those blessed enough to actually see first-hand your quiet humility, to watch you represent your sport with unmistakable dignity, and for those of us who are even more blessed to be lifted out of ourselves by your laughter, to be on the receiving end of your always generous heart, we will have etched forever in us something a statistic could never contain.

 

"We have been touched deeply by your life. You have made us better, and we will never be the same.

 

"Stefanie, you have spent many years of your life competing. But right here where we stand, in the eyes of your children and right now in my heart, you have no rival.

 

"Ladies and gentlemen, I introduce to you the greatest person I've ever known. ..."

[bods1000]

I miss you....

I refuse to think you don't want me to share what's happening with you, what we have made together......

[Icee_1]

Hey you,

 

I miss you so much.

 

I wish I could talk with you again. Maybe I will, maybe I won't. It really depends on you.

 

Icee

[Wyld]

 

may i feel said he

ee cummings

 

may i feel said he

(i'll squeal said she

just once said he)

it's fun said she

 

(may i touch said he

how much said she

a lot said he)

why not said she

 

(let's go said he

not too far said she

what's too far said he

where you are said she?

 

may i stay said he

(which way said she

like this said he

if you kiss said she

 

may i move said he

is it love said she)

if you're willing said he

(but you're killing said she

 

but it's life said he

but your wife said she

now said he)

ow said she

 

(tiptop said he

don't stop said she

oh no said he)

go slow said she

 

(cccome said he

ummm said she)

you're divine said he

(you are Mine, said she)

 

now do you know what i mean?

 

[freakish]

i know what you feel

i know what you wish for

i think it is a waste of time now

to still dream of that day.

 

paths ends, they may cross

sometimes they maybe parallel

but there are those that are one-way

look back, but don't regret

just remember.

 

be happy,

be grateful

what you have now

is a blessing......

[Alex_Corvis]

Hayyy... i really really miss you. Kahit lagi tayong magkasama, na mi-miss pa din kita, hahaha. ang weird no?

[Wyld]

dearest thony

 

as you go on the last weekend of the bar exams, i just want to wish you success once again.

 

i know you will do well ... and im rootin for yah tiger!

 

i miss you lots.

 

-nina

[Sabine]

R,

 

I will forever be grateful for your encouragement and help when I was going through my personal hell. But other than my extreme gratitude, I don't owe you anything else. Not my time, not my tears, not my sanity. I've tried to make it work but you've constantly doubted my intentions and now, you've miscalculated my strength. I've had enough of your mind games, your illogical reasoning, your lousy excuses, your mean streak. It will never work out between us. Goodbye.

 

G

[Z]

Dear M,

 

Does one choose to be hit by a train? ....

 

 

E

[Chito]

And to you, you know who you are. It disgusts me to think that I even shook hands with you. I just want you to know that you have violated something very special ... and you have no excuse. What you have done is beyond the lowest levels of a deceiving and opportunistic mind.

 

I curse you. And here's my curse: You will never feel my pain.

 

You will discover what you really are, and you will realize that that's all there really is to you. From this day henceforth, you will live your life wanting to prove that you are something more, but you never will. You will forget me someday, and you will forget what you have done. Your life will be filled with illusions and delusions that you are something more, but deep inside you will gnaw the realization that all is folly.

 

And you will crave to feel the pain that I am feeling now, but you never will. Because what you are would never be capable of it.

 

You will never feel my pain.

[in_style]

my dear friend,

 

i will be seeing u around i guess. thanks for being a nice person.

thanks for being there all these years. will surely miss you.

its time we expand our horizons. god speed.

 

-xtn-

[SamanthaJones]

 

There we go again, back to where we were before. For a moment, I thought that I’ve successfully broken down the huge barrier that was between us. But I was wrong. I know how hard it is to forget the past; I’ve been thru that same situation before. And God knows how hard it was to forget somebody whom you’ve given almost your whole life to. The pain of being alone and being betrayed lingered in my soul and that it took me nearly three 3 years before I was able to finally let go. It shattered my whole life. He was the center of my life and when I lost him he took a big part of me with him. I didn’t know how it was to be without him. But then I had to move on. or else I’ll always stay bitter and hateful of the world .and besides the beauty that he let behind was enough for me to continue to keep on with the fight with life. Slowly, with the help of some friends, I started to gain back the confidence that I once had. I met other people who believed in me. And then I fell in love again. But maybe I was really not that lucky with love. I still got hurt. But this time I was more in control of my emotions. I am not the same girl that I used to be.

 

Then you came along, and everything changed. I knew you back then. You told me about your past. For a while, I thought I could understand you. That I can help you forget the bitter memories of the past. But no matter how hard I try to get thru your soul. I simply can’t because you’re always there in that small little cave of emotions that you yourself made. Probably, what I had to offer wasn’t enough for you. Or probably you weren’t just ready. You never really tried. And that what saddens me. I never really had the chance to take you out of that cave. I wish I could have done something for you. I don’t want you to stay in that kind of situation. And now, we lead 2 different lives now. I don’t think I could ever look into you sweet cute eyes again. Things have changed. As for now, I’ll continue to be the way I was before.

[Zerreit]

I'm giving in to part of what you all want. I'm taking over the family business now. It was her wish, so let it be granted. I know I can't do this alone though. I have very little knowledge in being a landlord. It is such a huge responsibility. I'll need all the help I can get from all of you.

 

Your dutiful daughter & granddaughter,

L

Edited September 26, 2004 by Zerreit