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[missmanners]

h.

 

it's difficult for me to trust in my faith... even if it has proven to be right all this time... how do i know it will continue being so in the future? how will i know for sure that no matter what happens, my faith in the truth will see us through?

 

you give me no indication that my faith has basis... you do, but those miniscule windows into your soul are so vague and few and far between. everyone says i shouldn't even bother waiting, let alone reading into what you do or don't do. but i can't help it. i look into your eyes and i know what's there and what you refuse to acknowledge. i want to reach out and hold you and tell you to not be afraid. but this is something you have to do on your own.

 

so what can i do but continue with my life as if it has a purpose away from you? as if i did not care anymore? sometimes my fear is i'm doing all this pretending so well that even you believe i don't love you anymore.

 

then again, maybe doubt is good. maybe doubt will push you my way. maybe doubt will bring us together.

 

because my faith isn't doing a very good job at it.

 

b.

[batibut]

J,

 

D ko na lang to papadala sayo. D ka naman sasagot e. D ko alam bat ka galit. Ano ba ginawa ko? O d ko ginawa? O basta, desisyon mo yan, so sige rerespetuhin ko.

 

Sabi mo dati sayang...oo nga sayang. Pero ok lang...masaya naman ako at nagkakilala tayo.

 

Pero sana nga d mo na lang sinabi. D ko naman tinatanong e. Natakot din siguro ako kasi d pa ko handa. Tapos parang d rin naman talaga nararapat. Daming sabit e.

 

Naisip ko lang, d lang naman ako may sabit. Ikaw din may sabit. Pero d na importante yon. D na kita sisisihin kasi d mo rin naman kasalanan. Pero ikaw pwede mo ko sisihin kasi kasalanan ko. Pasensha ka na. D ko naman sinasadya na masaktan ka. Sorry.

 

O sha. Yon lang. Pagpasensyahan mo na lang ako. Malabo talaga akong tao. Pero malamang naman alam mo na yon ngayon. Kung may kailangan ka o sakaling nais mo na ko kausapin, alam mo naman kung asan ako.

 

Good luck sa lahat.

 

Ingat ka.

 

B

Edited April 29, 2005 by batibut

[Wyld]

- para sa iyo.

 

galit ka na naman.

hindi ka na naman sumasagot.

bakit bawat sabihin ko

iba ang interpretasyon mo.

 

matutulog na lang ako.

baka bukas mas maayos na tayo.

 

hindi ko talaga maintindihan.

 

- mula sa akin.

[KristinLavransdatr]

iniisip ko kung dapat akong manghinayang sa yo. may tikas ka. may itsura. may talino. may kaya.

 

isa lang ang wala sa yo. wala kang isang salita.

 

pero ang dami mong sinabi. sa dami nila at sa galing ng pagkakabigkas mo, hindi na ako nag-isip. naniwala na lang ako. basta.

 

pero maliban sa mga sinabi mo. marami ka ring ginawa. sobrang tindi. sobrang galing. hindi karaniwan.

 

hindi ko tuloy alam kung saan talaga ako naniwala. sa mga sinabi mo. o sa mga ginawa mo.

 

pero hindi na mahalaga ang mga yon. wala ka na. kahit nandyan ka lang. malayo ka na. kahit kadarating mo pa lang.

 

at sana sa pag-alis mo uli, hindi ko na malaman para bumalik ka man, wala na akong pakialam.

 

o yan, tagalog yan. sana maintindihan mo pa rin. kahit papano. ang sinulat ko. at ako.

[Barenaked-NoMre]

Ate R,

 

Hope when you schedule to go to the house over the weekend ... it isnt in conflict w/ my plans. ;-)

 

A

_________________________________________________________________________

 

CPO,

 

Hope that you will be able to squeeze in that we meet this Sat. I want to see you ... I miss you a lot! ;-)

 

A

__________________________________________________________________________

 

P,

 

Have a safe trip!

 

Am flattered that you asked if I wanted something ... again, thank you!

 

See you when you come back!

 

A

[missmanners]

h.

 

you obviously still care. how much, i have no way of knowing. i'm trying so hard to show you i don't care, though. i'm afraid if i open myself up again, you'll trample on me once you've satiated your ego. i don't want to be calories for your ego anymore.

 

but i do still love you. even if you don't deserve me.

 

if you could kindly tell me how this is all going to end, i'd appreciate it.

 

b.

[Chito]

Reposting from one of the VIP threads......

 

im just wondering...you do some people who are into serious relationships still engage in having fubus...i just dont get the point e....kung serious ka, di ba di mo gagwin yun.....kindly enlighten me naman with regard to this topic o....thanks

 

 

I'm similarly wondering ...... you know there are some people who are so pathetically sex-hungry, that they prey on high school girls and have them as "fubus". There's this particular person who even takes videos of his sexual trysts with a very young girl, and when the girl wants to break off with him, he blackmails her and threatens to release the video in the internet.

 

He even goes to the point of hacking the accounts of everyone who ever had online dealings with the girl, and makes all sorts of threats. In his jealously-deranged mind, he thinks that everyone is having sex with his poor "fubu", and he wants her for his own perverted consumption. This guy is a psycho.

 

Kung matino ang pag-iisip mo, bakit hindi ka makakuha ng fubu na nasa tamang edad? Di ka na naawa sa bata. Pinagsamantalahan mo na, bina-blackmail mo pa.

 

Kindly enlighten me as to how this sick perverted individual ever turned out to be the way he is. I mean, I'm sure he was born a human being, right?

 

To you, let me tell you something: Huwag kang mag-malinis. Alam ko ang kagaguhan mo.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(To anyone who wishes to know the handle of the bastard I just talked about, PM me.)

[sweetpsyche]

damn!

what dont u understand?

just stop it ok?!

stop all the drama!!

can you not see what's happening?

or what has happened?

it's gone. zero. nada!

it's over!!

do you still want me to spell it out? O-V-E-R!

so please stop!!!!!

STOP IT!

 

the end.

[Barenaked-NoMre]

CPO,

 

Real shame that we couldnt see each other Sat. Anyway, I made up for it by catching up w/ KL ... we went to hear mass at Greenbelt church and did a little shopping! ;-)

 

Bought myself a new bag and a pair of shoes.

 

Hoping to get myself a haircut before my course starts on the 14th ... who knows there could be *interesting* MEN there! ;-)

 

Well, I hope when you're free ... you'd get in touch with me so we can hook up once more.

 

Am just here ... waiting.

 

A

[Z]

Dear E,

 

Our meeting, rather, our introduction was unexpected to say the least - a recommendation from my sister is not one to be ignored. I like what I see and would like to get to know you more. It would be too premature to think or say anything else except that I look forward to our next meeting. Get well soon.

 

Warm regards,

 

E

Edited May 2, 2005 by Z

[Alex_Corvis]

para sa matanong (read:maepal) na si SweetP (bwahehehe)

 

bakit nawawala?

kasi di makita

 

bakit nalilito?

kasi magulo ang mundo

 

bakit padalos dalos?

di kasi nagiingat

 

bakit napasubo?

kasi gutom (napasubo ng pagkain )

 

bakit puro karir inaatupag?

parang sya alang karir

 

bakit ayaw maghanap ng trabaho?

dami kasi labada ang plantashin, di makaalis ng bahay

 

ikaw pala dapat ang masermonan eh hehe

wushu.... parehas lang tayo hahahah!

 

alang magawalng alex_corvis

[sweetpsyche]

Dear alex:

 

maepal pala ha.. fine. wala kang pasalubong

 

wala ka nga ba talagang makita o sadyang nabubulag-bulagan dahil takot na may makita?

 

matagal ng magulo ang mundo... sa tanda mo yang dapat natuto ka ng sumabay sa gulo nito. haha

 

hindi nagiingat o hindi nagiisip? magkaiba yan...

 

matuto ka kasing ngumuya eh.. ok?

 

karir? ano yun?! bwahaha! hindi ako nangangarir... ako ang kinakarir. hahahahahahhaha jokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

 

trabaho din yun noh... trabahong bahay at walang sweldo. haha.

 

no comment. hahaha.

 

sweetp.

[Fî$hKęŊ]

dear sweetpsyche,

 

sana po ay may pasalubong ako pagbalik mo.

maraming salamat at sana lagi kang nasa mabuting kalagayan.

 

ken

[George Estregan Lives]

There is absolutely no chance that you will read this, that’s why I am emboldened to write this.

 

I guess this letter tells the story of our past five months; this habit of learning and meeting your needs. I have no qualms rediscovering you, what worries me is that I might not like the person I am reacquainting with.

 

It is evident to you now that I do not really know you. Sometimes, I suspect you take pleasure with this, because there were many times when you shove this fact right in my face just to score in this never ending power play.

 

Ok, I admit neglecting you to a great extent, so what now? When do we get a move on?

 

And one last thing: When will you start trying to know who I am?

[freakish]

it is difficult to go through the day feeling incomplete.

everyday i remind myself i am fortunate to be here, to be alive...

but why do i feel this way?

being busy isn't enough...

what i want to do, i cannot do...

do i need to really make that choice?

or just wait....again.

for how long?

will i have that luxury?

i hope so...

i hope so...