Writings of the Heart

[chubbywubby]

"It's funny how one incident can change you're life forever. And it's just crazy how most of the time we are afraid of being involved with someone just because that person doesn't fit our definition of "ideal". I would often wonder what the world would be like if every single person in this world is blind...literally blind. Love would be a different scenario. It would have a whole different meaning to each and everyone because people will not look at you and despise you or change their minds about you just because you're a little too overweight or your clothes are weird. People will pay more attention to what you have to say and they will listen very patiently to what your heart beats for. Your hearts will talk to each other, your touch would define who you are and your voice will express what you feel. The kind of world I wish to live in. But...that's not the way it is. The world is too cruel and time is too fast paced to take time for things like listening to the heart of someone. And life...life would be blunt. The sunset and sunrise, even the stars would be useless if we're all blind, for we wouldn't see how they shine for us..."

 

ME? I'd rather be blind for YOU...

[Queen Darkeinjel]

LOVE AND INFATUATION

 

onced you experience this feeling new

definition is not clear though given a few

hot blade on butter that is what it is

give it a shot make sure to hit not miss

 

some say that it is patient and kind

others it would drive you out of mind

said to send one stepping on cloud nine

and to feel it not it is a crime

 

definitions from fantasies were made

the truth concealed by lies that were laid

over rated this emotion to be called

reality to be faced no one has ever told

 

infatuation a feeling so common

mistaken for love give a reason

eyes are blinded misted and dreamy

heart and mind wake up to reality

 

infatuated dreaming of bells and doves

falling in love with the idea of love

perfect story lived with a happy ending

a faerytale life to one who is but dreaming

 

love that is true found by the one made wise

by experiencing pain, hurt, deceit and lies

perfect bliss or bed of roses love will never be

but a thorny path of trials or a boat tossed at sea

 

infatuation demands time for everything

future and life thrown away without thinking

wings to explore and grow to one another is given

lovers sacrifice made while the pain is kept hidden

 

-written 1991

-i was in my sophomore year (high school)

[sha79]

"finding love in the most unexpected place, in the most unexpected time,

and falling in love with the most unexpected person has created havoc in my heart,

my mind, and my soul...

but finding you made me happy and you are the sweetest thing that has happened in my life..."

[wifelessloved]

 

to my dear husband,

 

i know how we started wasn't how we both expected. we faced family life too soon. i know that you don't love me that way i do. i know that you've had relationships before that were far off better even the best than what we currently have. i loved you from the time we became "us" but i know that deep inside you, you felt otherwise. i felt no love. i was the only one giving it to you. we were married because of resposibility. we are loving each other because of responsibility. even when i hear you say you love me, i don't feel it. it even hurts me more. i just wish that you would be able to love me for who i am. i know i make mistakes, i'm not perfect for you.

 

i know that its not your intention to hurt me when i don't know things and don't understand you but i hope you'll be more patient. i'm not as smart as your previous ones but i'm trying my very best to be a dutiful wife to you. i can't always laugh on all your jokes because they really hurt me sometimes.

 

i wish that you could make me feel more of a friend, your partner, your wife...

 

i still love you

 

i will love you even if it hurts...

[ChoukoHanako]

I think i do need to do what you told me to.

 

And maybe it's the thing i should've done since the beginning. It was fun and okay. I didn't realize it'll come to a point where i have to feel jealous about someone. Who stays jealous over that kind of woman/girl anyway?

 

I can't even tell you how much you've grown inside my heart. But maybe, i am not the girl who likes staying on the losing end. Do what you want and be happy, my friend.

 

For i can never wish you anything less than that.... J.

 

i :heart: you.

A

[gomeili]

You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the

right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. f#&k, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.

[ChoukoHanako]

K,

 

Thank you for coming over on such a short notice. I know that you must have tons of stuff to do but instead, you came here and did what cheers me up the most... Pig out on Ben & Jerrys and just drift away on our witty and x rated musings on most mundane senseless stuff. I love you like that. You always flatter me with the things i hear and things i shouldn't. And yes, it's okay. You are forgiven.

 

I never asked you for anything my entire life and i was wondering of maybe you could do something for me now? Please keep me from happiness. I know its a bit f#&ked up of a request but that is what i ask of you.

 

I built the walls around me for a reason and you know why. I hate being open and vulnerable. The mere fact of being hurt by "commoners" as W puts it, makes me feel robbed of a lot of things. Look at me last night... I couldn't even concentrate on Alonso.

 

I can't afford to be hurt this much. Not again. Please... Help me.

Get me out.

For once in my life, let me do what i think is for the best.

 

A

[alexisko]

e,

 

i think i have hurt you beyond what an ordinary man can endure. im sorry.

 

it's almost 2am and instead of reviewing for my board exam, i sit in front of the computer surfing random things because all efforts not to think of you seem futile. i need to get my mind off you and focus on more important things. but i cant. it infuriates me that suddenly, you have this power over me. something i am not accustomed to.

 

i hope whatever we have leads to something beautiful.

 

goodnight. i hope you slept well even if i didnt.

 

v.

[Kharnall]

stay , stay and then we'll talk

Hold me when walk

we're all alone tonight

 

Lie, lie there's no need to lie

times' passed us bye

don't want to see you cry

 

Now i don't know what to say

you're leaving me away

and you know that i need you

 

Just can't the pain inside

Coz you're leaving me behind

but i'll have to let you go

Coz you know i love you so

So kiss me now goodbye

[the grudge]

Suddenly I felt something is different

about you.

 

Suddenly I began trembling

 

Suddenly my heart began to bleed

all over again.

 

For an unknown reason

My hand grabbed that mouse and

started to flicker.

 

One page to the next.

 

No, you weren't messaging me.

Perhaps someone else?

 

I see.

 

A new friend.

 

A new one to share your precious time with.

 

What am I talking about?

Why am I here?

I guess I'm lost again.

 

Suddenly not knowing where to go.

When I already know you aren't anywhere to be found.

 

Suddenly, I felt you've probably found somebody else.

 

Suddenly I am devastated again.

Helpless.

Hopeless.

[the grudge]

For all it's worth:

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR!

 

I still wish you the best of everything

that life has to offer.

 

GBU

[Miss Zelda]

This is an email i got today..he's an admirer from manchester.

Hi baby How are you?

 

Hey, you disappeared again! Where are you? I have no idea...so frustrating, Owly! And what on earth is happening with you and your boyfriend? Ijust can't imagine being with you and not wanting you! And if you ever whispered those things that you said to your boyfriend in MY ear, you'd drive me completely crazy and aching to go all the way with you ...he just doesnt know his luck, so strange! wonder what it might be like to taste your kisses, feel your naked body against me, touch your breasts, kiss your body all over...maybe one day we'll know for sure owly? When will you be coming back to London??????????? You asked what kind of girl I like? Well, I adore a tanned, cocoa/olive skin, elegant fingers, perfect complexion, almond eyes, dark hair, confident, funny, independent, and sexually confident in the bedroom..and out of the bedroom too! What about you baby? Write soon!

 

Hugs kisses and feel free to dream of me when you feel the urge...

 

G.

[LoveSpell]

Can you imagine a life without me? Now that we've met I cannot see my future without you in it. Every dream I have I see your face; every thought I have your name is in the whispers of the wind. You follow me everywhere, you are the reason I have a good day. You are the reason I smile when there is nothing to smile about. I know I truly love you when I look into your eyes and my heart skips a beat.

 

When I am sitting there with your head in my lap playing with your hair and you fall asleep, I know I can never let you go. You look so peaceful and my love for you grows. When you look up at me with those beautiful eyes I see nothing but the love you have for me! How could I ever possibly let you leave my life? Sometimes I don't understand why I love you so much, but that's the greatest gift of love, you don't have to understand it, you just need to enjoy it and return the love that is given to you.

 

I want to thank you so much for allowing me to feel the greatest feeling I have ever felt, and I promise to cherish it and always love you and do my best to keep you happy. I just wanted you to know how much you mean to me. Thank you for everything you have done for me! And I am looking forward to the life we will share together

[youknowme]

:heart: #11...

 

 

tapos na ang araw na kay tagal nating hinintay... isang taon na ang lumipas mula ng tayo'y pinagtagpo at pinagsama! ngunit ngayon tayo'y di na magkapiling.

 

 

may mga bagay talaga sa mundo na di nararapat at di makatotohanan... lalo na kung ito ay likha o hinugot mula sa kasinungalingan at pawang pagnanasa lamang ng katawan.

 

 

kung ikaw man ay akin nasaktan, ito'y di sinasadya... minahal ka ng puso kong di maintindihan at sana yan ang iyong pagkatandaan. ngunit puso ko'y di sanay na may kahati at di sanay sa tira nang ibang puso. latak ay di nararapat sa puso kong musmos.

 

 

pagsira ng pamilya ay di ko pinangarap, ngunit sa pagsasabi ng katotohanan ito'y napasakamay. sa pag di ko pagpili sa'yo ay para sa ikabubuti ng lahat.

 

 

ika'y napatawad na ng puso kong naghilom na...

 

 

ating alaala sa puso'y di na mawawala! mga salita mo'y naka-ukit na. mga ngiti na di makalimutan at higit sa lahat pagibig mo sa'kin ay pang habang buhay sa puso't isipan.

 

 

sana ituring mo itong una at huling sulat nitong puso kong darang.

 

 

paalam.

 

 

 

 

------------------ iyong kabit! :flowers:

[sha79]

crush,

 

hinintay kita ng ilang oras last time. nagtiis sa puyat. nag lasing sa kape. tiniis ang lamig, nag tiis sa jacket (pero mas masaya sana kung human jacket). haay bakit ang tagal mo?

sabi mo kanina..babawi ka. kelan kaya yun. bakit kaya nauso ang salitang busy?pati ako ganun narin madalas.

 

dati sabi ko sa sarili ko, sa susunod na maiinlab ako, sabi ko noon ayokong maging makeso at maging mapalabok. pero hindi ko maiwasan, kagaya ngayon na andaming tumatakbo sa isip ko gaya ng.. kumain na ba siya? anong ginagawa niya ngayon sa kama? anong posisyon niya kagabi habang natutulog, at ano kaya ang kulay ng suot niyang.... i meant, anong kulay ng suot ng puso niya ngayon. sana kulay red, parang lab. :heart: haaayyyy

 

crush..alam mo?

"Lab mo lang, busog na ko."

 

ang iyong crush,

S