The Mail Box

[Wyld]

I never thought I would love someone as much as I would love you .... but I do.

 

Your name is the one my heart speaks in the silence of the night.

 

Your scent is the one i breathe in each time i sigh.

 

Yours is the only name etched in my heart.

 

You are my love ... I want no one else.

 

For now. For always.

 

[missmanners]

i don't know if i'll get tired of you, as i usually do at some point. it's surprising that we even got this far... boredom would've gotten the better of me by now and i would've found some way to graciously (or not) exit from your life.

 

but here we are... and no one appears to be bored, least of all, me! and the biggest surprise of all is that i can't imagine being bored... and am even hoping i won't get bored. at least, not soon.

 

my mind wanders to you deliciously during my idle time... and whereas i would've thought of that as bothersome before, i welcome it now. i twirl my finger through my hair and bite my lip and try to imagine how it was the last time... and also try to not get too excited for the next. you have me happy and worried and hot and bothered and calm and wanting all at the same time...

 

i wonder how you do it. but then i really don't care.

 

i meant what i slipped last friday.

 

really.

[swtsexythng®]

katangahan to i know but...

how could you???

 

ndi m alam kung gaano nya ako nasaktan nung dumating ka sa buhay nya...

ndi m alam kung gaano nadurog ang puso ko nung iniwan nya ako dahil sa yo...

he was my strength then...he was my happiness...he was my life...

i know now that was wrong... but u couldn't blame me...

by now alam mo na kung paano siya magmahal...

kng bakit ganito ang aking nararamdaman...

 

ung tinutukoy m na parang ikaw ang pinakamagandang babae para sa kanya...

ikaw ang pinakamagandang prinsesa...ikaw ang kanyang reyna...walang iba...

siya nga yun...

 

ung "calls from diff parts of the country" and "romantic places"...

ung "spending time even if he's stressed out"...

ung mga yakap na parang wala na siyang ibang mahihiling pa kundi makasama ka habangbuhay...

siya yun...

 

u dnt knw hw much it cost me to loose all of those things to you...

but he's taught me how to love unconditionally...

and i was able to reach a point kung saan masaya ako na nakikita ko siyang masaya...

though i know i ain't the reason for that happiness...

bsta masaya siya ok na...

pero anong ginawa m?

 

how could you?

pinipilit kong isipin na may maganda kang dahilan...

pinipilit kong hanapan ng katwiran kung bakit siya nasaktan...

pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko maiwasan...

naiinis ako sa yo, minsan nagagalit ako...

and that's saying something...

kc kng kilala m ako...

malalaman mong ndi ako marunong magalit...

 

at the back of my mind...naiintindihan ko ang nangyari sa inyo...

pilit kong pinapaliwanag sa kanya kahit mahirap...

kahit hindi kita kilala...pinagtatanggol kita...

kahit masakit,pinipilit ko siyang mapatawa...

you must have your reasons as to why you've let 'tis happen...

pero sana naman, kahit konti lang...

nagawa mo siyang ipaglaban...

kc ipaglalaban ka nya...

ipaglalaban nya ung relationship nyo...

in a way na ndi nya gnawa sa relationship namin...

alam m ba kng gaano kasakit ang malaman...

na handa ka nyang ipaglaban kahit saan,kahit kailan...

pero ndi mo man lang un pinahalagahan...

in ur own words "u didn't choose to take that extra mile..."

how could you?

 

and now u're unto this charade of practically broadcasting to everyone that u're ok?

that u're going out? and moving on? and couldn't have been better?

haven't you done enough?

 

alam m bang he's always on the lookout for mickey mouse stuff for you whenever we're out?

the last one he's given you, ksama pa nya ako bumili...

ako pa nkakita nung store kc may winnie the pooh...

pero ndi nya npansin c winnie the pooh...

nkita nya agad ung mickey mouse...dahil sa yo...

(i never like mickey mouse <_< )

no u wouldn't know how that felt...

 

alam m ba kng ilang beses nya pinutol ang friendship namin dahil ayaw m?

alam m ba na nung minsan ako pa ang naghatid sa kanya sa mtng place nyo...

(kc ikaw ang nagdecide kng san kayo magmimeet at ndi nya alam un)

 

i know u're NOT ok...you're actions say so...

i also know he is NOT ok... his eyes say so...

i'm trying my best to keep his mind off things...

to cheer him up... but no matter what i do...

i know i cannot make him as happy as he would be

if u've just chosen to take the extra mile...

8months ago i've begged him to stay...

he stayed, but with someone else...with you...

and now you've let him go...how could you?

sana man lang kahit konti, u've fought for him...

like he would've for you...

 

it may sound like it pero ndi kita sinisisi...

di naman tlaga ako kasali...

i know wala akong karapatan at wla ako dpat pakialam...

i know umiiyak ka at nahihirapan..

ganun din sha, npagod n lng cguro siya,

ginusto n lng nya magpahinga...

pero ndi mo alam sa nangyari...

ndi m rin nman sinasadya...

at kahit ayaw ko...

nasasaktan ako...

how could you?

 

all i want is for him to be happy...

cguro nman un din ang gus2 m...

how could you?

Edited August 9, 2005 by swtsexythng®

[Guest simply_miss]

Ok na ako bago kita nakilala

Balik sa normal ang buhay ko

Mababaw lang naman ang kaligayahan ko

 

Ngunit buhat ng nakilala ka

Nagbago ang lahat

Ibang saya ang nadarama magkasama man tayo o hindi

 

Di ko alam, panandalian lang pala ang lahat

Di ko akalang mawawala na lang bigla

Di ko ninais na mahulog sa iyo ng ganito

 

Sana di na lang kita nakilala...ng di ko muli nararamdaman ang sakit

Ngunit kung di kita nakilala....di ko ulit mararamdaman ang saya

Salamat sa mga araw at sandaling ikaw nakasama...mahal kong kaibigan

 

Imissyousomuch

[Mike Chester]

Hi babes,

 

Censiya na, gawa ako ulit ng sulat sa iyo…

Kahit na last time na ginawan kita ng love letter, andami mong in-edit sa red ink pen mo

Ano magagawa ko, mahina talaga ako sa English grammar and spelling e…

Kaya ngayon tatagalugin ko na lang, para kaunti na lang ma I edit mo…

 

Sabi mo sa kin ayaw mo na kumain sa Jolibee pag mag de date tayo,

Sabagay naisip ko rin, dalawang taon na tayo pero lagi na lang sa Jolibee kita pinapakain

Sabi mo kasi sa akin nung simula pa lang tayo, paborito mo ung Spaghetti nila e…

Di bale, next time, sa sweldo ko try naman natin ang Mc Donald…

 

Nung araw, pag binibigyan kita ng maliliit na stuff toy na binili ko sa Blue Magic….

Kita ko sa mata mo ang ningning ng ligaya…..

Pero ngayon, pinalagyan ko pa naman ng blue ribbon ung Teddy Bear na regalo ko sa iyo,

Pakiramdam ko, gusto mong umiyak… sana na lang ung luha yan, dahil sa lubos na ligaya…

 

Naalala mo ba ung theme song natin nung araw, ung kanta ng Linkin Park na “In the End”

Tig-isa pa tayong earphone dun sa walkman ko, at sabay tayong kumakanta…

Bakit ngayon, parang wala ng halaga sa iyo ung kanta nila…

Binigyan pa naman kita ng lyrics sa MS word, kung saan picture pa natin ang nasa background…

 

Sana na lang, ung mga pagbabago mo na yan….ay hindi dahilan na hindi mo na ako mahal…

Alam ko naman, at sabi nga sa kanta, “langit ka… at baluga ako…”

Pero tandaan mo, na ang balugang ito, ang siyang nagmamahal ng lubos-lubusan sa iyo

Pagmamahal na walang makakapantay, at ito lang siyang maiaalay ko sa iyo…

[black cat]

Dear Batz,

 

Sus.. nakita ko na yun... sa bamboo sha di ba.. basta ang alam ko lang puro madungis ang mga member nun.. hahahaha!!!!

 

Saang simbahan ka ba sis di pa nakakapunta? Samahan kita.. para wish natin na pumasa ka.

 

Love,

 

G (ganda pa rin)

 

Unexpressed feeling daw:

 

Dear B,

 

Thanks for everything.. I am really overwhelmed by your kindness despite the fact na ang gaga ko no? Hanga ako sa tyaga mo.. maski napi-feel ko na inaantok ka na, kinakausap mo pa rin ako.. hehehe Tapos kahit lagi pa kita nai-istorbo sa mga meeting mo.. sinasagot mo pa rin mga wala kong kwentang text.. grabe ka, dapat siguro naging pari ka eh.

 

Siguro minsan.. tuloy natin yung masamang plano natin para naman mabawasan ang bait natin pareho.. hahaha! Sabay ganun eh. Hoy ha.. yun treat mo sa kin.. di ko pa din binubura yun kahit burado na yung usapan nating kalokohan.

 

Love,

 

G

[Lipstick]

Tomorrow, early dawn

 

My Gift,

 

It has been 8 weeks today since that first cup of coffee. Funny, coffee seems like such an innocent thing. And for such an innocent thing to result to what it is today is nothing short of magical. Magical is the only way I can attempt to describe it -- how you magically breathed life into me, how you magically made me eat my words and love it, how you magically managed to put a smile on my face each day for the last 8 weeks and how you magically make forever happen everyday. Yes, I remember, you love magic.

 

I'm sorry for being so weepy last evening, it is just that with you I am stripped of all veneers, with you I feel so safe. Yours is the voice that calls me home and no matter how good or bad things go, you are my home now. Sometimes I wish the circumstances were different and yet I know if they were we could not possibly love the way we do today as all of that makes us the sum of what we are.

 

I don't know what I was thinking or was I thinking at all saying whatever it is I uttered last night? Like you, I don't want to be severed from this now. Not now, I want to postpone the issues, not think about them. Nevermind that I feel my being tugged in opposite directions. I just want to enjoy this desire erupting, still, in it's first stages of violence. I could not be without you and yet as I love you increasingly with each day it makes me think of what it would cost me most to do just to show how deeply I feel for you. And do it I will.

 

We both have widened our circle of happiness my heart, as we have widened our circle of sorrow. Today there is much to be happy for. It is a special day. And while tomorrow may bring the inevitable may it never happen today. I am not going anywhere today and tomorrow you will, most likely, find me still in the same place.

 

Three words, I am bound and defined by those three words for all tomorrows plus a day.

 

Tu m'embrasse.

 

-L-

 

p.s. I could not sleep, the rains came in torrents and kept me awake much like my longing for you.

 

xxx

 

 

"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain" ~ Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet ~

[Guest simply_miss]

Mr. ""

i tried everything just for you to see how much i feel about you, but you never noticed... i did everything just for you to love me back, but you never did...

 

but whatever things may bring, i thank God for giving me a chance to love you...

 

Ms. {}

[Guest globetrotter]

i really enjoyed our talk this afternoon. if only i can be there to embrace you and personally tell you how much i love you.

i love you so much my dearest...

ayan, miss na agad kita...

[moonflower]

to hear your voice is such a gentle embrace. to know that you are reaching out is such joy.

 

 

 

[curian]

to chinie,

 

I know that there are a lot of times when we don't see eye to eye. but i want you to know that despite it all, nothing has or ever will change. you would always be the woman for me and that is a fact that i dare say to all who would listen. and i'm sorry if im not ready yet for a relationship, its just that i want to give you all my heart, love and passion when i finally go and stay at your side. it is a hardship being far away from you often but when i think about it, i feel as if you and i are never apart, you reside in me, that my heart is your heart and my thoughts and actions are for you. you brought me to a level of bliss i have never before experienced, much less contemplated to be possible. always you ask me how much i love you and never did i reply to any of your questions for how can i? when all of the greatest poets cannot measure how much love the heart can contain... i promise to be for you, whenever and wherever that may be... and like the little prince's flower, you have perfumed all of my planet... but unlike in the little prince, from the very beginning, i take pleasure in your grace...

 

 

-G

[Mike Chester]

Im looking for the thread where i can put this very sad letter, i guess this thread is the most appropriate one.

 

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.

He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.

I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.

I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.

I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.

I heard Daddy yelling back.

I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.

I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.

I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.

A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.

I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.

Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,

"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."

Complete terror is all I felt.

I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arms off.

It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.

It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.

I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.

Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.

I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away.

I had so many plans to make you happy.

Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.

Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.

No use now, for I was dying a painful death.

I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.

I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.

And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.

I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.

I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.

He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion.

I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."

I don't know what abortion is;

I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.

I tried very hard to live.

I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.

I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.

I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

 

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

 

Please be careful.

 

Love,

 

Your Baby Girl

 

 

I hope this could reach all those parents who are contemplating on doing this deed..

[curian]

To chinie,

 

 

you know that i adore you above all... and that fact hurts me more than i dare admit, i try to give you all that i can, and for that i am proud... but do you really love me? this is a question i ask myself time and again, because you do say those words but i see no effort behind those words... i was never a quitter, i was never a fool but now, i believe that i am the latter and starting to walk the path of the former. help me on this one my darling, show me the truth of your heart... be it to my ultimate pleasure or my perdition, i have ceased to care just as long as i know what you truly feel... i never believed in martyrs... nor do i wish to be one...

 

i would still love you whatever answer you will give me, though i do not know if i would love you close or from afar...

 

-G-

[Guest globetrotter]

hayyy.4 days of not talking to you is an eternity for me.i miss you badly.medyo busy ka kasi and at the same time, confiict yung schedules natin for this week.but i'll find a way.

love you very much.

[KristinLavransdatr]

you lost me there.

 

i wasn't expecting to be held in the hand and pushed to a place i wasn't prepared to enter. your openness, your willingness to share with me your life, your worries, your fears weigh a ton, a cubic ton (as you said) on my shoulders. i may sound ungrateful having been entrusted with such, but i am not the kind of person to take in everything easily. i am weak at hearing other people's worries and difficulties. i, having gone through my own, find it a weakness for others to magnify a catastrophe as if there is no tomorrow. you said it will come to pass too, but you don't sound like somebody who believes in that.

 

i am now confused. i care for you. but i have done so for you alone minus the things that make you you - yet. i intend to breathe you in one day at a time. i didn't expect you to make me live your life in one night. if time allows it, we will have enough lifetime to share your fears, your dreams, your ambitions. but you have to understand, i can only absorb so much. still, don't consider this as cowardice on my part. it is just me. and you know, you can trust me. with anything. but take it easy. i am of a weak heart. my mind may not be able to embrace the depth of your being just yet. please, give me time.

Edited August 16, 2005 by KristinLavransdatr