The Mail Box

[Wyld]

I never thought I would love someone as much as I would love you .... but I do.

 

Your name is the one my heart speaks in the silence of the night.

 

Your scent is the one i breathe in each time i sigh.

 

Yours is the only name etched in my heart.

 

You are my love ... I want no one else.

 

For now. For always.

 

[missmanners]

i don't know if i'll get tired of you, as i usually do at some point. it's surprising that we even got this far... boredom would've gotten the better of me by now and i would've found some way to graciously (or not) exit from your life.

 

but here we are... and no one appears to be bored, least of all, me! and the biggest surprise of all is that i can't imagine being bored... and am even hoping i won't get bored. at least, not soon.

 

my mind wanders to you deliciously during my idle time... and whereas i would've thought of that as bothersome before, i welcome it now. i twirl my finger through my hair and bite my lip and try to imagine how it was the last time... and also try to not get too excited for the next. you have me happy and worried and hot and bothered and calm and wanting all at the same time...

 

i wonder how you do it. but then i really don't care.

 

i meant what i slipped last friday.

 

really.

[swtsexythng®]

katangahan to i know but...

how could you???

 

ndi m alam kung gaano nya ako nasaktan nung dumating ka sa buhay nya...

ndi m alam kung gaano nadurog ang puso ko nung iniwan nya ako dahil sa yo...

he was my strength then...he was my happiness...he was my life...

i know now that was wrong... but u couldn't blame me...

by now alam mo na kung paano siya magmahal...

kng bakit ganito ang aking nararamdaman...

 

ung tinutukoy m na parang ikaw ang pinakamagandang babae para sa kanya...

ikaw ang pinakamagandang prinsesa...ikaw ang kanyang reyna...walang iba...

siya nga yun...

 

ung "calls from diff parts of the country" and "romantic places"...

ung "spending time even if he's stressed out"...

ung mga yakap na parang wala na siyang ibang mahihiling pa kundi makasama ka habangbuhay...

siya yun...

 

u dnt knw hw much it cost me to loose all of those things to you...

but he's taught me how to love unconditionally...

and i was able to reach a point kung saan masaya ako na nakikita ko siyang masaya...

though i know i ain't the reason for that happiness...

bsta masaya siya ok na...

pero anong ginawa m?

 

how could you?

pinipilit kong isipin na may maganda kang dahilan...

pinipilit kong hanapan ng katwiran kung bakit siya nasaktan...

pero kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko maiwasan...

naiinis ako sa yo, minsan nagagalit ako...

and that's saying something...

kc kng kilala m ako...

malalaman mong ndi ako marunong magalit...

 

at the back of my mind...naiintindihan ko ang nangyari sa inyo...

pilit kong pinapaliwanag sa kanya kahit mahirap...

kahit hindi kita kilala...pinagtatanggol kita...

kahit masakit,pinipilit ko siyang mapatawa...

you must have your reasons as to why you've let 'tis happen...

pero sana naman, kahit konti lang...

nagawa mo siyang ipaglaban...

kc ipaglalaban ka nya...

ipaglalaban nya ung relationship nyo...

in a way na ndi nya gnawa sa relationship namin...

alam m ba kng gaano kasakit ang malaman...

na handa ka nyang ipaglaban kahit saan,kahit kailan...

pero ndi mo man lang un pinahalagahan...

in ur own words "u didn't choose to take that extra mile..."

how could you?

 

and now u're unto this charade of practically broadcasting to everyone that u're ok?

that u're going out? and moving on? and couldn't have been better?

haven't you done enough?

 

alam m bang he's always on the lookout for mickey mouse stuff for you whenever we're out?

the last one he's given you, ksama pa nya ako bumili...

ako pa nkakita nung store kc may winnie the pooh...

pero ndi nya npansin c winnie the pooh...

nkita nya agad ung mickey mouse...dahil sa yo...

(i never like mickey mouse <_< )

no u wouldn't know how that felt...

 

alam m ba kng ilang beses nya pinutol ang friendship namin dahil ayaw m?

alam m ba na nung minsan ako pa ang naghatid sa kanya sa mtng place nyo...

(kc ikaw ang nagdecide kng san kayo magmimeet at ndi nya alam un)

 

i know u're NOT ok...you're actions say so...

i also know he is NOT ok... his eyes say so...

i'm trying my best to keep his mind off things...

to cheer him up... but no matter what i do...

i know i cannot make him as happy as he would be

if u've just chosen to take the extra mile...

8months ago i've begged him to stay...

he stayed, but with someone else...with you...

and now you've let him go...how could you?

sana man lang kahit konti, u've fought for him...

like he would've for you...

 

it may sound like it pero ndi kita sinisisi...

di naman tlaga ako kasali...

i know wala akong karapatan at wla ako dpat pakialam...

i know umiiyak ka at nahihirapan..

ganun din sha, npagod n lng cguro siya,

ginusto n lng nya magpahinga...

pero ndi mo alam sa nangyari...

ndi m rin nman sinasadya...

at kahit ayaw ko...

nasasaktan ako...

how could you?

 

all i want is for him to be happy...

cguro nman un din ang gus2 m...

how could you?

Edited August 9, 2005 by swtsexythng®

[Guest simply_miss]

Ok na ako bago kita nakilala

Balik sa normal ang buhay ko

Mababaw lang naman ang kaligayahan ko

 

Ngunit buhat ng nakilala ka

Nagbago ang lahat

Ibang saya ang nadarama magkasama man tayo o hindi

 

Di ko alam, panandalian lang pala ang lahat

Di ko akalang mawawala na lang bigla

Di ko ninais na mahulog sa iyo ng ganito

 

Sana di na lang kita nakilala...ng di ko muli nararamdaman ang sakit

Ngunit kung di kita nakilala....di ko ulit mararamdaman ang saya

Salamat sa mga araw at sandaling ikaw nakasama...mahal kong kaibigan

 

Imissyousomuch

[Mike Chester]

Hi babes,

 

Censiya na, gawa ako ulit ng sulat sa iyo…

Kahit na last time na ginawan kita ng love letter, andami mong in-edit sa red ink pen mo

Ano magagawa ko, mahina talaga ako sa English grammar and spelling e…

Kaya ngayon tatagalugin ko na lang, para kaunti na lang ma I edit mo…

 

Sabi mo sa kin ayaw mo na kumain sa Jolibee pag mag de date tayo,

Sabagay naisip ko rin, dalawang taon na tayo pero lagi na lang sa Jolibee kita pinapakain

Sabi mo kasi sa akin nung simula pa lang tayo, paborito mo ung Spaghetti nila e…

Di bale, next time, sa sweldo ko try naman natin ang Mc Donald…

 

Nung araw, pag binibigyan kita ng maliliit na stuff toy na binili ko sa Blue Magic….

Kita ko sa mata mo ang ningning ng ligaya…..

Pero ngayon, pinalagyan ko pa naman ng blue ribbon ung Teddy Bear na regalo ko sa iyo,

Pakiramdam ko, gusto mong umiyak… sana na lang ung luha yan, dahil sa lubos na ligaya…

 

Naalala mo ba ung theme song natin nung araw, ung kanta ng Linkin Park na “In the End”

Tig-isa pa tayong earphone dun sa walkman ko, at sabay tayong kumakanta…

Bakit ngayon, parang wala ng halaga sa iyo ung kanta nila…

Binigyan pa naman kita ng lyrics sa MS word, kung saan picture pa natin ang nasa background…

 

Sana na lang, ung mga pagbabago mo na yan….ay hindi dahilan na hindi mo na ako mahal…

Alam ko naman, at sabi nga sa kanta, “langit ka… at baluga ako…”

Pero tandaan mo, na ang balugang ito, ang siyang nagmamahal ng lubos-lubusan sa iyo

Pagmamahal na walang makakapantay, at ito lang siyang maiaalay ko sa iyo…

[black cat]

Dear Batz,

 

Sus.. nakita ko na yun... sa bamboo sha di ba.. basta ang alam ko lang puro madungis ang mga member nun.. hahahaha!!!!

 

Saang simbahan ka ba sis di pa nakakapunta? Samahan kita.. para wish natin na pumasa ka.

 

Love,

 

G (ganda pa rin)

 

Unexpressed feeling daw:

 

Dear B,

 

Thanks for everything.. I am really overwhelmed by your kindness despite the fact na ang gaga ko no? Hanga ako sa tyaga mo.. maski napi-feel ko na inaantok ka na, kinakausap mo pa rin ako.. hehehe Tapos kahit lagi pa kita nai-istorbo sa mga meeting mo.. sinasagot mo pa rin mga wala kong kwentang text.. grabe ka, dapat siguro naging pari ka eh.

 

Siguro minsan.. tuloy natin yung masamang plano natin para naman mabawasan ang bait natin pareho.. hahaha! Sabay ganun eh. Hoy ha.. yun treat mo sa kin.. di ko pa din binubura yun kahit burado na yung usapan nating kalokohan.

 

Love,

 

G

[Lipstick]

Tomorrow, early dawn

 

My Gift,

 

It has been 8 weeks today since that first cup of coffee. Funny, coffee seems like such an innocent thing. And for such an innocent thing to result to what it is today is nothing short of magical. Magical is the only way I can attempt to describe it -- how you magically breathed life into me, how you magically made me eat my words and love it, how you magically managed to put a smile on my face each day for the last 8 weeks and how you magically make forever happen everyday. Yes, I remember, you love magic.

 

I'm sorry for being so weepy last evening, it is just that with you I am stripped of all veneers, with you I feel so safe. Yours is the voice that calls me home and no matter how good or bad things go, you are my home now. Sometimes I wish the circumstances were different and yet I know if they were we could not possibly love the way we do today as all of that makes us the sum of what we are.

 

I don't know what I was thinking or was I thinking at all saying whatever it is I uttered last night? Like you, I don't want to be severed from this now. Not now, I want to postpone the issues, not think about them. Nevermind that I feel my being tugged in opposite directions. I just want to enjoy this desire erupting, still, in it's first stages of violence. I could not be without you and yet as I love you increasingly with each day it makes me think of what it would cost me most to do just to show how deeply I feel for you. And do it I will.

 

We both have widened our circle of happiness my heart, as we have widened our circle of sorrow. Today there is much to be happy for. It is a special day. And while tomorrow may bring the inevitable may it never happen today. I am not going anywhere today and tomorrow you will, most likely, find me still in the same place.

 

Three words, I am bound and defined by those three words for all tomorrows plus a day.

 

Tu m'embrasse.

 

-L-

 

p.s. I could not sleep, the rains came in torrents and kept me awake much like my longing for you.

 

xxx

 

 

"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain" ~ Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet ~

[Guest simply_miss]

Mr. ""

i tried everything just for you to see how much i feel about you, but you never noticed... i did everything just for you to love me back, but you never did...

 

but whatever things may bring, i thank God for giving me a chance to love you...

 

Ms. {}

[Guest globetrotter]

i really enjoyed our talk this afternoon. if only i can be there to embrace you and personally tell you how much i love you.

i love you so much my dearest...

ayan, miss na agad kita...

[moonflower]

to hear your voice is such a gentle embrace. to know that you are reaching out is such joy.

 

 

 

[curian]

to chinie,

 

I know that there are a lot of times when we don't see eye to eye. but i want you to know that despite it all, nothing has or ever will change. you would always be the woman for me and that is a fact that i dare say to all who would listen. and i'm sorry if im not ready yet for a relationship, its just that i want to give you all my heart, love and passion when i finally go and stay at your side. it is a hardship being far away from you often but when i think about it, i feel as if you and i are never apart, you reside in me, that my heart is your heart and my thoughts and actions are for you. you brought me to a level of bliss i have never before experienced, much less contemplated to be possible. always you ask me how much i love you and never did i reply to any of your questions for how can i? when all of the greatest poets cannot measure how much love the heart can contain... i promise to be for you, whenever and wherever that may be... and like the little prince's flower, you have perfumed all of my planet... but unlike in the little prince, from the very beginning, i take pleasure in your grace...

 

 

-G

[Mike Chester]

Im looking for the thread where i can put this very sad letter, i guess this thread is the most appropriate one.

 

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on Jesus' lap.

He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.

I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.

I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes.

I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.

I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.

I heard Daddy yelling back.

I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.

I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day.

I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened.

A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.

I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.

Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming,

"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."

Complete terror is all I felt.

I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.

Then the monster started ripping my arms off.

It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.

It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.

I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.

Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.

I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away.

I had so many plans to make you happy.

Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.

Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.

No use now, for I was dying a painful death.

I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.

I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.

And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.

I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.

I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to Jesus and set me on His lap.

He said He loved me, and He was my Father. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion.

I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."

I don't know what abortion is;

I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.

I tried very hard to live.

I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live.

I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.

I didn't want to die.

Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

 

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.

 

Please be careful.

 

Love,

 

Your Baby Girl

 

 

I hope this could reach all those parents who are contemplating on doing this deed..

[curian]

To chinie,

 

 

you know that i adore you above all... and that fact hurts me more than i dare admit, i try to give you all that i can, and for that i am proud... but do you really love me? this is a question i ask myself time and again, because you do say those words but i see no effort behind those words... i was never a quitter, i was never a fool but now, i believe that i am the latter and starting to walk the path of the former. help me on this one my darling, show me the truth of your heart... be it to my ultimate pleasure or my perdition, i have ceased to care just as long as i know what you truly feel... i never believed in martyrs... nor do i wish to be one...

 

i would still love you whatever answer you will give me, though i do not know if i would love you close or from afar...

 

-G-

[Guest globetrotter]

hayyy.4 days of not talking to you is an eternity for me.i miss you badly.medyo busy ka kasi and at the same time, confiict yung schedules natin for this week.but i'll find a way.

love you very much.

[KristinLavransdatr]

you lost me there.

 

i wasn't expecting to be held in the hand and pushed to a place i wasn't prepared to enter. your openness, your willingness to share with me your life, your worries, your fears weigh a ton, a cubic ton (as you said) on my shoulders. i may sound ungrateful having been entrusted with such, but i am not the kind of person to take in everything easily. i am weak at hearing other people's worries and difficulties. i, having gone through my own, find it a weakness for others to magnify a catastrophe as if there is no tomorrow. you said it will come to pass too, but you don't sound like somebody who believes in that.

 

i am now confused. i care for you. but i have done so for you alone minus the things that make you you - yet. i intend to breathe you in one day at a time. i didn't expect you to make me live your life in one night. if time allows it, we will have enough lifetime to share your fears, your dreams, your ambitions. but you have to understand, i can only absorb so much. still, don't consider this as cowardice on my part. it is just me. and you know, you can trust me. with anything. but take it easy. i am of a weak heart. my mind may not be able to embrace the depth of your being just yet. please, give me time.

Edited August 16, 2005 by KristinLavransdatr

[ziggyzag]

L,

 

Honestly, im not into it yet..

 

I'm sorry for this.. very sorry..

 

You just turned me on so much..

 

always does, since the first day i saw u..

 

I just can't resist you, when you were all over me..

 

but i just can't..

 

I already loved someone..

 

I'm sorry..

 

Z

[Guest simply_miss]

Let me see your face at least once a day. Don't take this pleasure away from me. Even I get confused when you pass by me and give me a glance! However, I wait the whole day just to see you. You are the view which quenches the thirst of my eyes. My respect for you in my heart is growing each day and now it's like big mountain, and it's becoming difficult to face you.

 

I am making no expectations from you because I am not waiting for anything in return, all I want is just let me see your face at least once a day!

 

It is becoming difficult for me and many times I don't want to see you because this inspires me a lot and makes me more attracted towards you, and I don't want such feelings to grow anymore, but in the end I'd like to say let me see your face at least once a day!

[ink]

i like you.... but it just aint meant to be.

 

age, interests, status, values... we differ in so many ways.

 

they say opposites attract. i can't seem to buy that.

 

the friction's there-- and it's just too strong.

 

what do i do?

 

wait.

 

i wish that someone who'll complement me will find my way...

 

or i find his.... whichever case, i still wish that person's you.

[curian]

hi C...

 

you confuse me...

then again...

i hated simple things..

 

-G

[Wolf]

Hi. You won't be able to read this anymore but I just want to tell you that whatever happens, you'll always have a special place in my heart. You know that. If you need me, you know where to find me... I'm just glad that we're talking to each other again. I miss you, my friend. :*

[cdma]

Wednesday

4:30 am

 

 

 

We went to my favorite ristorante and vinotek, where the food does not vary with the turning of the seasons or the capriciousness of culinary whims. Like the wines they offer, it endures, forever faithful to its eccentricities, and full of surprises. It is my place of choice for a special date.

 

I vaguely remember most of what we talked about that evening. We could have been murmuring things lovers say when chances are good they'll end up naked soon, smiling naughty smiles, kicking off shoes, fingering buttons, and acquainting body parts. But we were not lovers, and making love was not on the menu.

 

She was resplendent that night- a glorious blend of charm, cheer, and chic. If I made a list of things I adore about her, the 4th to 12th would be sights to behold. She was the piece de resistance.

 

The evening was full of surprises. Several sups of the apple and pumpkin soup later, I was no longer staring at her. I was ogling at her shamelessly. Politeness yielded to covetousness, and my manners melted like butter in lemon juice. They must have put something in my apple and pumpkin soup. I started to crave not for the grilled flatfish from the Northern Atlantic on the table before me, but for the delightfully sinful feast across the table in front of me. But we she was not mine, and she was not on the menu.

 

Lustful thoughts took command. The food turned risque, and the drinks, racy. Green peas ushered in images of pink nips, and the meat of the halibut, of tender lips and inviting fleshy folds North and South of Venus. Even water tasted like it was drawn from a pleasure spring. To hell with urbanity. I abandoned my four-week seduction strategy and decided to go for all the heavens.

 

Dinner sans dessert lasted for almost two hours. It was time to launch. Unfortunately, my revised go-no go indicators were all flashing red. I thought of telling her we could have coffee and smokes in my office which was a few blocks away. I held back until we were in the car. I wanted the element of surprise on my side, and I was not sure there was coffee in the office.

 

When one's lucky stars conspire, an enchanting evening does not end with a lovely dinner. Ours ended with a kiss...

 

... six delicious hours later, just before the stars went to sleep.

[swtsexythng®]

...'tis would be read on my wedding day

at times when bouts of yearning assail me, i close my eyes and pray that i'll wake up w/ someone who truly loves me, ONLY me. i'd cook him breakfast and he'll wake up with a smile at the sight of me.

i wanna be able to cater to him any way & every way i can.i want the feeling that i have a partner with whom i'm building a future. i wnat the feeling that after work i've to ruch home 'coz i've to be ready when he does, simply 'coz he needs me to be there.

that when i turn the key, i would not be alone in my own home, and my presence would be enough to take away all the exhaustion and anguish from his day. i want the feeling wherein dinner won't be just a haphazard activity being done 'coz of the human necessity to satisfy hunger, but a langurous time wherein i'd be lookin' deep into his eyes, needless of words 'coz communication is not tangible.

i want the feeling of MAKING LOVE. having sex is one thing, but making love with someone who's loving your body as well as your soul is more than different. the memory goes down to a chestbox full of treasures.

i don't want one-too-many. the "one" would be more than enough. one who'd accept and appreciate everything that i have, all that are in me and everything that are not.

i know he's out there. i might have met him already, i might have not. i refuse to think he doesn't exist, for without him i would not feel these wants and needs, for without him, i would not hold on to this hope that someday i will find myself living my life just the way i did in my dreams.

people cry for what they have had and lost, i had my share of that. but now i'm crying for what i don't have, something that's seeming to be increasingly elusive. funny how i want all these things but i'm not searching, i'm enduring the torture of waiting. people would not understnad that while the yearning is so strong, the desire to save myself and all those wants and needs for him is stronger. unfair as it is, my words will come across as something that hinges on the verge of craziness,but i refuse to believe that i would not have it, for without these dreams, these thoughts, my faith, i would have nothing.

 

 

 

*****************************************

 

 

...'tis had been written with you as my inspiration,

 

 

thank you for igniting the desire in me to write again....

 

 

...and 'tis would be sang on my wedding...

 

 

****************************************

without you

charlie wilson

 

 

Without you

Mmm...hmm...

It feels like a lifetime,

A thousand days have passed by

Since I held you close to me

If I could see that smile from my friend

I know that I could live again

I need you here with me

 

Heaven knows what to say

Even though for right

Nw you’re so far away

I hope and I pray

Somewhere in your heart I’ll always stay

 

Girl, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you

Never noticed what it feels like to be without you

Feels like I took my last step

And my last breath in my life ending

Had to say just what I was feeling, girl

‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,

Sun doesn’t shine without you

 

This is more for me than for you

Girl, I finally see there’s no substitute

For what we have

Do you know how much I love you

 

Heaven knows what to say

Even though for right now you’re so far away

Gonna tell you and show you

Do whatever I can do to get back to you

 

Girl, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you

Never noticed what it feels like to be without you

Feels like I took my last step

And my last breath in my life ending

Had to say just what I was feeling, girl

‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine,

Sun doesn’t shine without you

 

[Guest simply_miss]

Siguro nga dapat na kitang iwasan

Habang di pa kita mahal na mahal

 

Pero paano nga ba kita iiwasan

Kung lagi kang hanap ng puso ko

Kung lagi kang nasa isip ko?

 

:cry:

[Wyld]

Sweetest...

 

Alam mo ang cute mo... I never thought you were lookin forward to the short messages I usually leave for you around here... But when you told me you did, that endeared you to me all the more...

 

Here is a short message just for you. Nothing profound, nothing much... Just all the love in my heart that I have for you .... Sent to you in a simple message. I dont know when you will get to read this, next week promises to be yet another manic week...

 

Take care and dont wear yourself out. Remember your promise ...

 

Nuninuni....

 

[Barenaked-NoMre]

CPO / FWB,

 

Receiving that text from you that you have arrived from the US after 2 months on vacay there ... really made me smile.

 

Just to think that you're near ... more accessible. I was hoping to meet you the weekend after you had CUM home.

 

Am sad to hear about your work.

 

Like me ... maybe it's time for you to look at what you really want to do.

 

If you want ... maybe we could work together? ;-)

 

Anyway, you will pull through this. Just a bump along the road of life!

 

Am here for you like you were for me, k?

 

Mmmmwah!

 

A