The Mail Box

[Grimace]

i miss you Z... yun lang!

[Guest cool_k@reem]

byers...peeps nice knowing you

 

 

 

:mtc:

[Zerreit]

My dearest friend,

 

I still feel bad that you had to leave for the U.S. I miss the times we had here. I miss everything about you. The silly things we do. The laughter we both shared. Me dissing your boys, you dissing mine.

 

I have to admit I was angry at you when you left a couple of months ago. I never told you though. I felt it was selfish of me to be angry at you. I felt like you left me alone here. I sometimes cried myself to sleep. I just felt really angry at you. You were my best friend, you were the closest thing I had as a sister, and you left. You told me you were coming back but you're not coming back.

 

There were times when I just ignored your emails and your text messages. I placed you on ignore on my ym. I just didn't want to talk to you anymore. But I guess I couldn't stay away from you. You're my dearest friend and I miss you a lot!

 

I now am wishing, more than ever, that you are still here in Manila. Now that you know what I am currently going through. You're the only one who knows. I was so happy to talk to you again the other week! I honestly thought I was going insane! I guess I'd be in a much better emotional and mental state with you here. We always supported each other. We always cheered each other. Now I am groping blindly through everything here, and I am scared to death. I really am. I need you now more than ever.

 

You told me you're coming home soon. Well, you better be home soon because I need you here. You're the only person who can keep me sane.

 

Your friend forever,

L

Edited September 20, 2004 by Zerreit

[tio_pot]

..,

 

ok lang ba?

 

j

[moonflower]

I let down my guard with you last night and this afternoon like I have never done before. I feel stripped, barenaked. You have seen my very soul for I have shown it to you. I have made you feel what I really am when I am in abandon and surrender. I was just letting the feeling and the sensation wash over me. That I do not regret. I wanted to do it. I would be willing to do it again....over and over with you. I hope it will be better. I hope I would be more ready and sure, emotionally as well, for if and when it would really come.

[moonflower]

I feel overwhelmed. I don't know if this is a good thing. All I know is I gave what I wanted to gave. I guess I just didn't know I would be so caught in the moment. So right now I am taking it easy so that it won't fizzle out.

[Wyld]

 

dearest chris,

 

i have no words for you other than... i am sorry. in my heart of hearts, i know that i have let you down in the worst way possible. i know that i have shattered the gift of trust that you have given me... and while im not trying to make any excuses for myself, the only thing i can say is... it happened and i do not regret that it did -- i only regret that it will hurt and wound you... deeply.

 

i am such a coward because i cannot tell you what is in my heart... i can only hope that you will take my silence as a sign that i need to breathe, that i need some space, that i have some issues to resolve... i sensed the frustration in your voice earlier... i know how hard you have tried to reach out to me... share my pain and know my grief and yet, this is something i must bear alone for now.

 

i dont know where my path shall lead me. i dont know what other twists and turns lie along the way... i only know that i am so blessed to have had you in my life. i can only wish that inspite of all this, you will want to continue to be in it...but if you decide otherwise, then ill leave you be. let you go without clinging... and wish you well.

 

i wish it did not have to be this way but... i feel i do not deserve you anymore...im not the cheery girl that the "sun has kissed and caressed" anymore ... (i still smile when i remember those words... no one has ever described a bad case of sunburn as sweetly as you did... )... and while i have not become a worse person, i am changed. completely, irrevocably changed - and i do not know how you will accept me now. honestly, im too scared to find out.

 

perhaps, i should move on ... leaving you memories of the sunkissed, carefree girl behind... taking with me memories of your shy, crooked little smile with me...

 

but then again, perhaps i should stay... and give you the gift of the person i have become... hoping you would still love me for me.

 

honestly, i dont know what to do. not yet. not now.

 

im sorry.

 

-nina

Edited September 20, 2004 by WyldChik

[icewulf]

Fanning the Flames

-=icewulf=-

 

 

Flames of wrath smolder for me,

A once disciple of light made angry.

 

Let your furnace glow crimson,

Burn them who ignored my voice of reason.

 

My plasma boils with hatred,

Let it flood and scald them, fill ‘em with dread.

 

Let me summon forth your blaze,

With that searing touch their lives I’ll erase.

 

Let me yield your inferno,

Allow me to char their souls and spread woe.

 

Dissolve their flesh, hear them scream,

Make them wish it was all just a bad dream.

 

They will beg and they will yell,

They’d rather want to be burning in hell.

Edited September 20, 2004 by icewulf

[moonflower]

H,

 

 

advance happy birthday!

 

 

 

i really hope to see you again. ur coming back soon, right?

 

 

i wish you the best. mwah! :*

 

see you around.

[Wyld]

to my warrior...

 

i can only share in your rage.

i can only rail at those who sling stones at you.

 

i wont meddle.

ill restrain myself.

 

just know im here for you.

to stand by you.

 

as always.

as promised.

inspite of.

Edited September 21, 2004 by WyldChik

[icewulf]

Reap What You Have Sown

-=icewulf=-

 

They say they know.

They say they feel.

All they see is what I show,

But they don’t even believe it’s real.

 

They call themselves my friends.

They call themselves my allies.

They call themselves my heaven-sents.

They call themselves my azure skies.

 

Time, sweat and blood I offered them too,

Family, friends, career and honor I sacrificed.

Just to find time to help and see what I may do.

But alas for them my efforts would not suffice.

 

Many times I gave yet another chance, and tried.

Ever more vigilant, ever more hopeful each time.

And all those times I just suffered and slowly died

Together with promises and hopes broken everytime.

 

I never asked so much they can’t give.

I hardly even asked at all.

All I needed was what was due me.

But all they did was drive me to the wall.

 

They took away my light,

They took away my tranquility.

They took away my one ally.

They took away my sanity.

 

If this unrest is what they want.

Then all the chaos I can stir they will get.

I’ll make sure they will heave and pant,

And all they did they will regret.

 

And so I bid them “See you in hell.”

I wave goodbye to their secrets and lies.

I assure them this would be a long farewell.

And they better pray someone will hear their cries.

[Icee_1]

My friend,

 

I miss you already.

 

I wish we could talk again.

 

Icee

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

Im sorry ... i don't want to disturb you ... jus want to know how are you ... it seems you are enjoying what you are doing ... ingat ka na lang palagi ... it's not the time to be sensitive about things .. im just missing you siguro .. pero i have to learn being ignored most of the time, i can't be important like your work .. i have my life to tend to .. i will never be part of your plans ... will just support you on your endeavors .. always on the shadows ... not getting on your way ...

 

M

[cracker_jack]

Where would I begin?

 

Will these words be enough to tell you how I longed to be able to be near you? To be near you and feel your smooth silk skin? To be near you and feel your sigh while we talk? To be able to see you closely and admire your bright eyes and luscious lips.

 

How long will I wait to be with you? How long will I still suffer life without you? I've been wanting for so long to be there beside you to hold your soft hands and say to you that "I love you". I want to hold you tight and never let go.

 

Wait for me, Hon for I will be there soon and we will no longer be away from each other.

[Chito]

My dearest,

 

truly our lives are fast changing....i dont believe in love at first sight...

i don't believe in Knights and shining armour....but i feel deeply in love with you...

it's truly umcomparable...

 

if you think they will try to come our way...well go ahead..this would make us stronger...we believe in each other..together we can make it work...

 

just to answer..that..yes..hold on dearest..we have a lot of dreams to fulfill..this time together...

 

 

you are my happiness...i love you

 

Sweet

:cry:

 

I hope you remember this.

Edited September 22, 2004 by Chito