The Mail Box

[Icee_1]

Questions for you:

 

Am I strong enough to do this, that what you think I should do?

 

Do I love him enough to see him through this, or should I love myself and leave him be?

 

What do you think will become of me, when everything else comes to pass? Will I become the person you thought me to be, or will I just fade into nothingness, a mere shadow of myself, as I conform to what he wants me to be?

 

Do you think love is still possible for me despite my hardened heart? Despite the experiences I've been through? Will there be someone there for me after all this is through?

 

Do you believe in me enough to think that these things I can do? For myself, for my good? But what of the greater good, the one that will be best for all concerned? Does that necessarily mean what is good for me, will be good for all else?

 

What is it that I want from you; what is it that I expect? I do not and cannot presume too much, for you are your own person, and you have made up your mind.

 

I am losing myself, my friend, and I don't know what to do.

 

But hopefully you will still believe in me and this belief (and our faith in God) may see me through.

 

Icee

[freakish]

friend,

 

sometimes we have to be brought down to our knees to know the person we really are..

we have to hit rock bottom to make our self whole again..

sometimes, we just need to hold on to that hope to make it through.

[Ladyrocker]

U read this... this is for YOU!!!

-----------------------------------------------

 

On a dark lonely night

All alone, sitting inside

You came along in my mind

Reminds me of the little time

 

Those sweet thoughts

... can make me smile

Those fruitfull talks

... can speak to my heart

Those funny memories

... can ease my boredom

But, Those days of your absence

... can make me cry

 

I guess...

Im just missing you...

[Wyld]

in the depths of despair.

alone.

 

i almost let go.

i tried not to.

 

still alone.

as usual.

 

ever.

constant.

 

alone.

still.

 

if i fade into nothingness.

will anyone ever notice.

 

alone.

always.

 

sent a cry out to you

it went unheeded.

 

inspite of your promise.

you were not there.

 

alone.

forever.

 

:cry:

 

i could have vanished earlier and no one would have known...

Edited September 15, 2004 by WyldChik

[Ladyrocker]

Fly me to the hills

Show me the real pictures,

... of the beauty of nature

Let us be the first one,

... to greet the sun as it rises

And Let me be with you,

... as you watch the suns goes down

Let the moonlight shines

... during the night

And As we lay down on the grass

Let us watch the stars

... that sparkles above

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

I've cried .. though i didn't want to .. i did ... i've been rejected again .. by you ... i did not want to invade your privacy .. im keeping my promise .. i wanted so much to know you ... but then my efforts are rejected .. i was shown out of your door .. it hurts so deep i don't know what to think .. i've accepted the fact you don't want me in your life .. yeah i remember im just a friend nothing else .. a friend indeed you can count on ... just a friend .. how can i forget so silly of me ... yeah you've introduced me as a friend no more than that .. i was just a nobody you can be proud of .. if i can just teach this foolish heart to stop beating ... make my mind forget ... i should've retreated to my shell .. wrap my heart with ice .. no feelings .. it could be easier for me to go on .. yeah why didn't i thought of that .. i'll just ignore the pain everything ... discard all the wartmth and be stone cold .. it's me before you came ... maybe i can just go back to my old self .. unfeeling .. and cold ...

 

M

[Zerreit]

I can't take it anymore. You have to realize I am a different person! I am sorry to disappoint you but I am not you! I will never be like you! I don't think I want to be like you! I will never be good enough! You never appreciate what I do. You've hurt me very deep this time. I don't think I can live with what you've said to me. I'm sorry to say this but I hate you!

 

:cry: :cry: :cry:

Edited September 16, 2004 by Zerreit

[Wyld]

resolution

 

i always have managed

to pull myself out

from the pits and depths

from the blackness and fear.

 

and i have done so yet again.

life is a challenge.

ill face it.

as i always have.

 

alone or not.

i will.

and come out...

smiling.

 

[Ladyrocker]

SOMEONE WHO NEVER LET GO

 

If you see me walking the road with someone else

It's not because I like his company

Its because you're not brave enough to walk

beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time

Its not because he pleases me

Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new

Its not because I love him

Its because you're not there to catch me if I

fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere

I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path

Or just completely turn around?

Will we just let go of what we had

Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him

Its you I want to walk with

Don't let me talk of him

Its you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for him

Its you I want to fall in love with.

[roxysnonie]

 

it saddens me that you feel like what you feel, what you have in mind is a noble gesture, but nobility is not the real world. people who love you, care for you depend on you is...

 

please think about them, think about how they'll need you more in due time. the disadvantage of what you're considering is too great to ignore, and in the end it will surmise to a really bad decision onn your part, and it would reflect on us as well because we let you...but we wont.

 

please change your mind, for everyone's sake and your's as well.

 

you are too valuable to sacrifice.

[gen_g]

the waiting is irritatingly accepting at the moment...the information is aastounding and swelling inside my brain....the work..more or less the same....the senses lingering....being....sealing the reality within......

[in_style]

dear you,

 

i guess this is the time when we have to say goodbye.

i'm not apt to discuss it either as it will only bring in more emotions.

you will always be remembered and the time spent will be treasured.

will always wish you the best. take care.

 

-xtn-

[Icee_1]

My friends,

 

I am sorry for having failed you, and myself, again. I know you believe me to be strong and a survivor, and I believed the same of myself too. But now circumstances have shown that I am not so. I have stayed within my comfort zone, and refused to up and go. I have given up the fight for what is rightfully mine, yet I am playing it safe by staying where there is no tomorrow, unable to face the unknowns of today.

 

Since I have met you guys, my life has changed. You have made me rethink things and challenge what life has to offer me. Although I cannot fully accept what occurs around me, I will trek my own path and make my own happpiness, with or without my cross. Perhaps it is not yet meant to be for me to be absolutely happy. Or perhaps I can make the most of this situation, and be happy trying out whatever is available out there.

 

Hopefully though, whatever my choice may be, you guys will still be there to see me through.

 

For this, I thank you.

 

Icee

[Zerreit]

Only one thing comes into my mind right now. Pablo Neruda's Tonight I Write The Saddest Lines. I don't know why but it's in my mind.....

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

Im hurt by the way things are going between us ... it hurts me so much when you push me out of your life ... i shouldn't be but then how can heart forget the pain ... my mind can just ignore it but deep inside im numb with pain ... im asking myself should i give up and just let go? my mind says yes but my heart says no ... do i really deserved to be treated the way your treating me now ... is this the price i have to pay for letting you in my life? ... Im slowly retreating to my old self ... cold as stone ...unfeeling ... so i can't hurt anybody and myself ... so i won't find myself crying at night and feeling hurt ... don't worry im still here ... a friend you can count on ... just reach out im here ... and when the day comes you are willing to let me in your life without the if's and what's i hope it's not too late ... i maybe back to the person i was before you came ...

 

M

Edited September 19, 2004 by Leslie Garcia