The Mail Box

[KristinLavransdatr]

don't expect me to call because i won't.

don't expect me to be there because i'm busy.

don't expect me to do the first move because i won't.

don't expect me to send you flowers, i don't have time.

 

don't expect me to act like the rest of the girls,

i was taught at the school of virginia, simone, and sylvia.

 

i will call you, bug you, want you, need you when i please --

no norms will tell me i shouldn't, mustn't, couldn't, wouldn't.

 

but don't turn me away and give me those cold shoulders.

i will stop when i please, and when i do

no one can tell me i shouldn't, mustn't, couldn't, wouldn't.

even you. especially you.

[Barenaked-NoMre]

CPO,

 

I know you're going thru some changes ... with work, your health, eating habits.

 

It's like we're playing the cat-and-mouse game of sorts.

 

I cant read you.

 

I dont know if I was ever able to.

 

Valentine's is fast approaching. I'm not sure what days to keep free for you ... us. Will there be any plans?

 

Well, it's been 2 weeks since we were together last. Hope to see you this weekend. ;-)

 

A

[Barenaked-NoMre]

C,

 

Was GREAT to meet you (finally!) over lunch... then have "dessert". Mmmm ... ;-P

 

You're extremely funny ... handsome and good in between the sheets!

 

Hope to CUM together with you again ... when you're ever in town. Aye ...

 

Til then ... I have my memories of the afternoon delight we had. Was short but oh-so GOOD! ;-)

 

A

[KristinLavransdatr]

to the "user" above me:

 

CPO and C, are they one and the same? hmmm... unlikely.

 

there are juicy stories you're keeping from me, girl. :upside:

 

have men become that oh so easy now? how come i seldom get a piece of the pie? :hypocritesmiley:

[Icee_1]

Dear M,

 

It's been sooo long since we last saw each other; more than a year ago I think. I miss you terribly. I wish you were here, or that I was there with you guys.

 

So how's the cold weather? I never did get to experience weather as cold as you had gone through recently. Just my luck that when I was there, it wasn't snowing or anything. Oh well, maybe I could catch a flight over there some winter time and we could ski. He he. Or maybe not skiing, and just building snowmen.

 

I remember how we used to hang out together daily when I was there with you. I remember feeling so homesick, but because of you and your wonderful family, I made it through the year. Remember how I used to cry everyday when I first got there? Kakatawa talaga 'no?

 

Hay naku; it's just so hard to communicate my feelings through mail. But I really miss the times when we would all get together in the village when we were young; the times when we would hang out with our enormous barkada in the park, in your house, or in ours; the times when we went to HK to go shopping and just chill; the times when we would go out for coffee, shopping, good food, in your new hometown; the times when we would just hang out in Keats, checking out the bartender. Sometimes we would talk non-stop about anything or nothing in particular, yet when we get to our respective homes, we'd still talk on the phone til the wee hours of the morning. Funny, but we do have lots of good memories together, don't we?

 

Looks like I won't be able to visit you this year. Hopefully, next year I could get to visit you, with my babies in tow. If not, maybe you could visit me this year, with your family in tow.

 

I just wish our group could be together again, even just for a brief vacation. You think B would agree to travel one time, just us girls without the kids and hubbies. Baka magalit sa akin mga asawa niyo niyan eh.

 

Anyway, hope to see you soon. And do keep in touch.

 

Love,

 

M

Edited February 10, 2005 by Icee_1

[KristinLavransdatr]

i just want to tell you where i find myself today:

 

i am here in the emptiness of your un-embrace.

 

i am cold in the company of your absence.

 

i sulk in a corner crowded with your once-touched's.

 

i am here fighting for normalcy.

 

i am here waiting.

 

i am here.

 

i am.

[LB]

why don't you come back today

 

your tight hug is haunting me

 

would you believe i forgot

 

the reason we drifted apart

 

it must be very petty

 

just as i told you in the beggining

 

usually, i make senseless decisions

 

and used to letting go easily

 

though, i never did regret

 

most of the after-us life was fun

 

yet, all i can see now is your eyes

 

when asking for that kiss

 

damn it, i miss you badly...

Edited February 11, 2005 by lovelybabe

[black cat]

Dear Y,

 

I told you I hated you for coming into my life. And I hate you for even wanting me to be your friend despite everything I've said and done. I hate you for seemingly not to feel anything bad against me. I hate you because you don't hate me at all.

 

But you know what, I really missed you. I wish I could just say yes everytime you'd ask me to see you.. but I really can't.

 

I'm sorry for everything. Sorry, for not even having the guts to tell you goodbye personally. I wish I could have hugged you one last time.

 

Your fool,

 

BC

[LB]

it is my fault, always been me and my erratic way of thinking. i

 

hoped that you could bend and mold me into a better person. but i am just like this, stubborn in nature.

 

i wanted to fight for us, but i can't. i was never born to war with emotions. my survival is to accept and

 

experience the world's wonders. besides, life is for us to know people and not to get stuck with

 

someone who would just make us feel terrible. that is why i had to walk away. no goodbyes honey, just

 

silence.

Edited February 15, 2005 by lovelybabe

[Icee_1]

Dear you,

 

I miss being with you. I miss talking with you. I miss having you around. Funny thing is life has to be this way, I guess. Life is getting to be boring though, totally boring.

 

M

[LovenFaith]

my dearest honey peter :heart: ,

 

thanks for being the driving force of my life...

believe it or not, i only find happiness when i knew you...

alas that we lost our baby...but someday soon she'll be back on us

again...

I'm looking forward to our promise to each other of growing old together...

playing with our lovely grandchildren in our wonderful home sweet home in

tagaytay...

i'm so sorry if oftentimes i'm hurting you of my stubborness...i didn't mean it,honestly...

promise i'll try my very best to be the better person you've ever wanted me to be...

and i assure you that no matter what, i'll be by your side 'til my last breath count...

thank you very much for taking care of me...

i love you and i always will.......!!!!!!! :* :heart:

 

your sweet baby jessie :heart:

[Clinks]

This was a letter not sent. I hope this reaches her, one way or the other....

 

 

Hi,

 

I still love you…..

 

There are times in my day that I just stop and think about you. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, something I saw, heard, smelled may have triggered it. Basta bigla na lang akong tatahihimik, titingin sa malayo, parang wala akong ginagawa, kahit busy ako. Kahit may GF ako iniintay kita. Iniintay ko na sabihin mo sa kin na wala na kayo. Iniintay ko na sabihin mo sa kin na: “Wala na kami, break na kami.”. Anim na taon, everytime na makikita kita, makakasalubong kita, tinatanong ko, kinakamusta ko kayo. Kahit sa mga ka batch natin, common friends natin, tinatanong ko kung kayo pa. Akala nila siguro nakikibalita lang ako or what, di lang nila alam, at kung alam man nila hindi sila maniniwala na after 6 years, iniintay pa kita….

 

 

At tumawag ka na nga…..

 

Wala akong tulog nun. Bigla kang tumawag, sinabi mo wala na kayo. Nagulat ako, di ko alam naramdaman ko pero parang nagising at red alert buong katawan ko. “Wala na kami. I want to have dinner with you.”. Nagulantang ako. Nagulo mundo ko. Nataranta ako. We set up a dinner, at nagkasakit ako. Hindi ko sinabi pero since may lakad ka na alam ko na mas importante kaysa sa dinner na hinintay ko for 6 years eh sabi ko postpone na natin. Bigla ka di na tumawag, din a nag text. Araw araw tinext kita, tinawagan kahit ni reject mo. Mali ako pero di ko matiis….hanggang sa nag reply ka at sinabi mo na hurting ka pa…na wag ako mag assume na galit ka sa kin. Bakit naman ako mag aasume na galit ka sa akin? Porket ba na all caps yung text mo at pasigaw ang words mag aassume ako? Mula non hanggang ngayon di ka na nag text or call or kahit YM message wala…..

 

 

Isang linggo na akong ganito, walang sigurado. I don’t know what will happen to me, to us. I don’t even know if you will even speak to me. Pero sa ngayon, hindi ko ma shove yung idea na I will lose you again, for the second time. It eats me every f*cking day. I will be destroyed, yet again., like before. Sana lang you’ll give me another chance…sana di ako biguin ng theory ko na mahal ako ni Lord at ibibigay nya sa kin yung opportunity na yun uli. The mere shot is a big miracle na, I am not asking him to give you to me, I just want a shot. I don’t know what will happen for the next couple of weeks, but I will end this letter how I started it…..

 

 

I still love you……

[chienneamore]

akala ko for keeps ka, akoy sawi, ginamit mo lang ako!!!

doormat lang ang katapat ko, ako ako ako.

 

sana hindi na kita nakilala

sana hindi na nasilayan ng aking mata ang iyong mukha.

sana tao ka.

mali ako..hindi pala totoong wala kang puso,

 

wala kang kaluluwa!

[KristinLavransdatr]

PAUL,

 

who would have thought i'd fall for you? we didn't speak the same language. though we both speak english, our accents are a world apart. you liked kimchi. i preferred anything but kimchi.

 

you were like a girl when you were in love. you'd walk miles to deny time of its power, to defy the present reality of where i was to where you stood. oh how you'd rather brave the unkown than wait for the uncertain. "of me not being there and you just waiting, dying til you see my face again." i have not heard a more beautiful poem than that. and you couldn't even compose a rhyme! and you didn't even know what a rhyme is!

 

you might not have known the phrase, but oft times, i saw how i literally took your breath away. i needed only look at you and your face would break into a smile, the most beautiful i've ever seen. i needed only touch your hand, and for a while i had your soul.

 

i have not been loved that way since i have been loved by you, almost three years ago.

 

where are you? is xiamen just a place in china or an eternity of neverland?

 

yoon-ji

[gen_g]

seeing through the rose colored lenses of time...the commonality of reaching out and making an understanding with another is key...but it sets you apart from the rest. at times it keeps u sane or ur alone iwth yourself, your thoughts, your world.in the end the world is what u make it and its up to u to make up your own......................