Wyld

darnit!

hahah what a question.

for my part, i tried to stay away but it isnt easy. its almost as if your heart, mind and soul pushes you towards that person and you are powerless...

what i realized is il just let it happen. however way it turns out. see... its good enough that i love.... one really should not ask for anything more.

for my dearest tiger... :evil:

a few more days and you go off to test your mettle against that formidable foe... the bar exams...

i know youre distracted and of course i understand... iv already told you many times over that i AM rooting for you... prayin for you and keeping my arms, legs and all other appendages crossed for your success.

i wont wish you luck ... luck is feckless and aimless... rather i will pray and wish for your success... i know you have it in you ... i believe in you. i also know things have not been easy lately... in more ways than one... i can only tell you to keep your eyes on the goalpost... affix your steady gaze to that one aim... be firm, be steadfast.

i know it will be a hellish several weekends for you ... heck, i know its, as of this writing, a hellish time for you... but it will soon be over... i know so. hang in there...

funny how things seem to be falling into place ... i do think we will get our hang-out time soon... prepare your comfortable shoes, our book basket and all the stories we plan to trade... get ready for a never ending rush (caffeine and otherwise...) ... it will be one long hang out time ...

im prayin for you tiger... take care and hang in there...

missin you heaps...

-n

am comforting myself now w/ a white chocolate reese peanut butter cup... <_<

i want the chocolate souffle at max brenner's

and the chocolate dome cake at store cafe.

and i want ... well yeah. i want ... you... <_<

clammy hands.

cold feet.

a thudding heart.

a reeling mind.

you.

me.

eternity.

a yearning.

a void.

a mirage.

a certainty.

a random thought

warm hands.

warmer feet.

a still heart.

a focused mind.

resignation.

acceptance.

excitement.

anticipation.

joy?

maybe.

happiness?

hopefully.

when?

no one knows.

why?

no one knows.

one just feels.

:heart:

way kewl FreaKin Hot!!!...

ive several earrings... but i think iv to give them up soon...

schoolteachers cant have too many earrings...

so .. methinks il get me a tat somwer... :boo:

tumescent

 

:boo:

dear god...

help me convince myself

its okay to turn my back

and walk away.

its for my own sanity.

thank you.

Kung may pag aalinlangan sa iyong isipan

Ay ano ang dapat gawin...

Tila dumarating ka sa panahong

Oo kay daling maniwala sa

Talagang mabulaklak na dila.

O di kaya mas madaling...

Hindi bigyang pansin ang sinasabi ng kutob

At ipinapangusap ng isipan...

Naway lumabas, pagpapatunay na hinahanap...

nung nakilala kita...

parang...

nahanap ng isip ko

ang katapat nito

nakita ng aking puso

ang kahati nito

at natagpuan ng aking kaluluwa

ang kakambal nito

iniisip ko pa lang...

sinasabi mo na...

ngingiti pa lang ako...

alam mo na agad kung bakit.

naririnig ko pa din

ang boses mo sa isip ko...

nadarama ko pa din

pagaalala at pagkalinga mo.

malayo ka na kahit andiyan pa din

hindi na abot kamay

nakikita at nakakausap...

pero di maaring hagkan at yakapin.

tama na muna sa akin iyon.

siguro balang araw...

ewan natin.

baka nga.

:heart:

i know there is a struggle goin on in you.

i know youre fighting the odds...

tryin to stay afloat in this crazy world.

i know the exhaustion.

i sense the sheer tiredness.

i feel your need to just ... let go.

i wish i could do more for you my struggling warrior.

i wish i could hold you and never let go...

i wish i could snap a finger and everything will be okay.

but we know why i cant do more.

we know why i cant hold you right now.

and we know snapping a finger never really solved anything.

i can only continue to be here for you.

to listen and hear.

to feel.

just hang in there.

fight the fight.

live the life.

it will be okay eventually.

i cant just tell you when...

but i know it will be.

:heart:

thank you for a weekend spent among friends.

it gave us a chance to get to know each other better...

and it allowed us to accept each one ... quirks and all.

came across this in a magazine... its a nice affirmation to keep in mind.

I am the only unique me that will ever be...

I have the power to make a difference in this world...

I look forward to taking on the grand adventure of life...

Living and always remembering to be myself...

I love being me!

this just about sums it up for me tonyt.

I Love You, Goodbye

Wish I could be the one

The one who could give you love

The kind of love you really need

Wish I could say to you

That I'll always stay with you

But baby that's not me

You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you

Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can

Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do

You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be

Who'll give you something better

Than the love you'll find with me

Oh I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a crime

I know I'd only hurt you

I know I'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone

Is the hardest thing to do

When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you

Baby it tears me up inside

But I'll never be the one you're needing

I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out

I love you, goodbye

ive so many questions in my mind right now...and the weird thing is there are really no answers forthcoming. not in the near future at least... i guess the only important thing is to try and keep it real... and remember that dreams and fantasies ... are just that. dreams and fantasies. it is best to keep on living ...

again i only have myself to rely on. and only myself to make sure i come out of this alive. and in one piece.

darn. i so hate having my fixed up little world messed up this way.

but i still dont regret any of this. if anything, i cherish the the lessons im learning along the way.

i just hope that with recent events you have come to wonder about the people you decided to trust...

its the same story over again...

think and feel...

DISCERN...

thank you for the blessing.

i got in my program

ive not sent you a message in a while but i came across this quote and ... it just about sums up what i had wished for... what i think we had and what i know ive lost...

And I wanted you so much

Just like i do right now

I wanted us to be the one poets write their books about

I wanted it to last

I wanted to grow old

But life got in the way.

i still miss you sometimes... not as much as the first few days... but i still do.

More Than Words

Extreme

Sayin I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

Its not that I want you not to say

But if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldnt have to say

That you love me

Cause I'd already know

What would you do

If my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say

If I took those words away

Then you couldnt make things new

Just by sayin I love you

More than words...

Now that ive tried to

Talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is

Close your eyes and just reach out your hand

And touch me

Hold me close dont ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldnt have to say

That you love me

Cause i'd already know

What would you do

If my heart was torn in two

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say

If I took those words away

Then you couldnt make things new

Just by saying I love you

no words. just feelings.

dear god

i hope it all goes well tomorrow...

thank you

It is never too late to be positive. It is never too late to let go of the anger, the fear, the worries and anxieties that have been draining you.

No matter how far back you may have fallen, you still can turn around. Your current direction is far more important than your current location.

Imagine how great it would feel to be moving forward. You are, this moment, just one step away.

Take that step forward, and then another. Put momentum on your side, and get time working in your favor.

Start giving to life, rather than fighting against it. Begin now to fill each moment with positive purpose, with meaning, with real fulfillment.

No matter where you are, or what you've already done, it is never too late. The time to move forward is here and now.

this song is for... well he knows who he is.

:heart:

the reason

im not a perfect person, there are manyt hings i wish i didnt do

but i continuelearning. i never meant to do those thigns to you.

and os i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know.

ive found a reason for me, to change who i used to be

a reason to start over now, and the reason is you.

im sorry that i hurt you, its something i must live with everyday

and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away

and be the one who catches at your tears, thats why i need you to hear

im not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you

and so i have to say before i go that i just want you to know

ive found a reason for me, to change who i used to be

a reason to start over new and the reason is you

ive found a reason to show a side of me you didnt know

a reason for all that i do, and the reason is you.

sadly, some things just arent meant to be... :cry:

at ng mga relo, bracelet, rings etc.

hubad...

shoes

i want it NOW.

lol loggin off to go score me a latte.