Wyld

dearest god-

you never have let me down

in the entire time that

i had to be far away

from my family in manila,

you have continually blessed me

and stood by me.

thank you for helping me

pass that test.

thank you for the blessing.

i love you dear god.

-your wyldchild

thank you again dear god for helping me pass my state certification test.

light blue bikinis...

after reading tons and tons of manuals for my state certification test, i finally finished

praying for sleep by jeffrey deaver and have started blowfly by patricia cornwell.

after blowfly, i hit the books again, this time to read pedagogy and professional responsibilities... :cry:

pwend

i dont know why

but i wont attempt to find out.

g`bye and take care.

-your used to be pwend.

white printed bikinis today... :evil:

pink printed bikinis... :evil:

UCC Coffee...

 

You should try either the Sumiyaki...If you dont like it, come to my office, ill reimburse your coffee expenses.

 

If you have the cash...Blue Mountain.

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i just might take you up on this offer

seriously id have to agree, UCC's coffee is prolly the best in the Metro... il take a cup of their house brew anytime...but yes, the sumiyaki rocks!

the blue mountain is a bit too steeply priced for me

turtle pie has an outer crust made of chocolate cookie crumbs... inside is a mousse of caramel, chocolate and vanilla. with tons of chocolate bits and syrup.

 

heaven on earth.

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oh yes i agree!

crave crave crave!

i also miss the mango torte in that place in san lorenzo... that also sells honey cake... argh!

for you.

you did not come into my life in the best of circumstances.

yet you did.

you are god's gift to me,

and for that i cherish you.

i promise to be the best i can be for you.

no matter what.

inspite of.

we are in this together...

i will not let you down.

all this is for you.

i love you already.

-kai

my 2nd test is tomorrow.

its a biggie too.

please guide me as you always do.

thank you dearest god for all your blessings.

thank you for my trials too - they affirm my strength.

dont give up on me please?

thank you.

ang bulong sa kin ng hangin

tama na.

tigilan na.

isuko na.

ang sagot ko.

malapit na.

ei tiger are you back?

welcome back!

post away!

i missed you bunches! :*

i cannot name you

for to name you

is to drive a nail into my heart

a heart im trying to save...

i can only say

that sometimes

what you do

wounds me to the quick

for each and every act

clearly shows

that you do not care.

that i am nothing.

in the grand scheme of things

i am probably

an afterthought...

an aside.

i should move on

and spare my heart and soul

the torture.

i cant.

but i will.

in time.

i value me too highly

to stay.

dearest thony

as you go on the last weekend of the bar exams, i just want to wish you success once again.

i know you will do well ... and im rootin for yah tiger!

i miss you lots.

-nina

may i feel said he

ee cummings

may i feel said he

(i'll squeal said she

just once said he)

it's fun said she

(may i touch said he

how much said she

a lot said he)

why not said she

(let's go said he

not too far said she

what's too far said he

where you are said she?

may i stay said he

(which way said she

like this said he

if you kiss said she

may i move said he

is it love said she)

if you're willing said he

(but you're killing said she

but it's life said he

but your wife said she

now said he)

ow said she

(tiptop said he

don't stop said she

oh no said he)

go slow said she

(cccome said he

ummm said she)

you're divine said he

(you are Mine, said she)

now do you know what i mean?

to my warrior...

i can only share in your rage.

i can only rail at those who sling stones at you.

i wont meddle.

ill restrain myself.

just know im here for you.

to stand by you.

as always.

as promised.

inspite of.

dearest chris,

i have no words for you other than... i am sorry. in my heart of hearts, i know that i have let you down in the worst way possible. i know that i have shattered the gift of trust that you have given me... and while im not trying to make any excuses for myself, the only thing i can say is... it happened and i do not regret that it did -- i only regret that it will hurt and wound you... deeply.

i am such a coward because i cannot tell you what is in my heart... i can only hope that you will take my silence as a sign that i need to breathe, that i need some space, that i have some issues to resolve... i sensed the frustration in your voice earlier... i know how hard you have tried to reach out to me... share my pain and know my grief and yet, this is something i must bear alone for now.

i dont know where my path shall lead me. i dont know what other twists and turns lie along the way... i only know that i am so blessed to have had you in my life. i can only wish that inspite of all this, you will want to continue to be in it...but if you decide otherwise, then ill leave you be. let you go without clinging... and wish you well.

i wish it did not have to be this way but... i feel i do not deserve you anymore...im not the cheery girl that the "sun has kissed and caressed" anymore ... (i still smile when i remember those words... no one has ever described a bad case of sunburn as sweetly as you did... )... and while i have not become a worse person, i am changed. completely, irrevocably changed - and i do not know how you will accept me now. honestly, im too scared to find out.

perhaps, i should move on ... leaving you memories of the sunkissed, carefree girl behind... taking with me memories of your shy, crooked little smile with me...

but then again, perhaps i should stay... and give you the gift of the person i have become... hoping you would still love me for me.

honestly, i dont know what to do. not yet. not now.

im sorry.

-nina

resolution

i always have managed

to pull myself out

from the pits and depths

from the blackness and fear.

and i have done so yet again.

life is a challenge.

ill face it.

as i always have.

alone or not.

i will.

and come out...

smiling.

in the depths of despair.

alone.

i almost let go.

i tried not to.

still alone.

as usual.

ever.

constant.

alone.

still.

if i fade into nothingness.

will anyone ever notice.

alone.

always.

sent a cry out to you

it went unheeded.

inspite of your promise.

you were not there.

alone.

forever.

:cry:

i could have vanished earlier and no one would have known...

strange, but im both scared and steady at the same time.

i know that so much will change.

so much will become undone by events of the past days...

but ... this much i know for sure.

i have never been more than ready to face life as it is now...

i have so much courage in my heart that i know...

i can look life in the eye and take what it dishes out to me.

i have to be strong. i will be strong.

even if i have to be strong by myself.

we both deserve nothing less.

it will be good for you and me dearest one...

i promise.

:heart: :heart:

dear god...

each day seems to bring a new set of trials i must face.

make me strong enough to face them

with my head up high and my shoulders straight.

i know i have tough choices to make

as the days pass.

guide me towards the right ones...

help me.

gather me in your arms.

keep me safe.

help me.

i know i have to be strong.

to face life alone.

help me.

i want to move on.

i should move on.

help me.

to the gods that govern love and attraction...

please help me give him up.

i want out.

now.

:cry:

dearest...

youre back.

please dont be.

not yet.

im not ready.

im not able.

and yeah.

im not willing.

not yet.

-nina

Thony the Tiger

tomorrow is the day! the bar exams! the event you have been prepping for forever.

im glad to have read your email, gladder to know that youre hyped up and feeling positive about the tests... im sure you will do well but as promised, i will continue to pray for your success...

im looking forward to our regular email exchanges... and certainly lookin forward more and more to our hangout, bookbuying, coffee-guzzling, storytrading extravaganza when i come home.

for now... i give you my wishes for success, a clear mind, a sure pen and the sharpest of wits... and of course a good luck :*

take care of you tiger... and i will see you soon.

-wyldnina