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[Magaling]

Everytime I see your little red car parked by the driveway, I would get tempted to invite you for coffee. Have a ltitle chat. Find out how you're doing. Ask you if there's anything I could help you with. Can I be part of your life?

 

I want to tell you how I hate to see you raise your kid all by yourself. How maybe I could be a father-figure to your daughter. Read her stories before it's time for bed. Pick her up from school when you're stuck in the office with no one to take care of her.

 

I want to listen to what your plans in life would be. Maybe you'd be interested to know how I planned my career and perhaps even pick up a few pointers? I want to share my experiences with you. Maybe you'd even be impressed to know how I picked my life up from the gutter to where I am today.

 

Sometimes, I'd be stuck in my hotel in a far away place and I'd wonder how it would be like to have you with me. I'd look out of my window silently calling your name knowing fully well that there's no way you could hear me. And it's not just the distance. I've travelled far and wide and yet the greatest distance there could ever be is from where I am to where your heart is. Even if in the geometric place, we could be just a few feet apart.

 

For you have largely ignored me. I guess you're still at a point in your life when life is not yet to be taken seriously and so the endless parties go on and on keeping you from settling down to more serious business. Not recognizing that maybe you need help and I could help you. Right now, I don't even count do I? In spite of what I have become, I am not the dashing knight you probably have in mind.

 

Too bad you've met me when I am only a shadow of what I once was. If you have met me then, it could be that you'd be proud to have me by your side. There once was a time when I could fly! Now, all I am is a member of the club of the walking wounded.

 

Or maybe it's the other way around. Once bitten and twice shy as the saying goes. Your failed marriage has caused you to treat men like me with suspicion? Perhaps trying to prove that you can make it on your own without help from any man? My dear, I wish that I could tell you that life is hard enough even when you have someone there to catch you when you fall. It could be even tougher when you're all alone. Yet I once reached out a helping hand to you and you wouldn't take it.

 

Besides, what can I possibly offer? Bottomline: you would be my mistress and that's the best-case scenario. Sometimes, it grieves me to think of you and how my case has only a snowball's chance in hell. Yet, if that's the case, then why did I even have to feel the way I do today? Am I not too old for this s**t? Why then can't I get rid of thoughts of you?

 

Geez, I wish life were less complicated. I guess you don't need someone like me in your life and you are right. Unfortunately, I'm still here stuck in the twilight zone. Still struggling to make sense of what hit me. The only thing going for me is that until now, I have managed to keep my feelings to myself knowing fully well that I'd be a fool to get it off my chest.

 

Tang ina! Isang beer pa nga!

[Magaling]

Magmula nang masilayan ko ang iyong kagandahan ay iniukit ko na ang iyong larawan sa aking puso. Matapos ang puso ko ay akin nang isinara sa iba pang pagsuyo at ang susing ginamit sa pag-kandado nito ay itinapon ko na sa pinakamalalim na bahagi ng dagat na pinaliligiran ng mga pating upang hindi na muling masisisid pa at mabuksan ang puso kong ito.

 

Upang patunayan lamang sa iyo na ang aking hangarin ay wagas at dalisay, tatawirin ko ang mga bundok at ilog makapiling ka lamang sa bawat sandali ng aking buhay. Makamtan lamang ang iyong sulyap ay pipitasin ko ang mga buwan at bituin upang ialay sa iyong paanan.

 

O aking sinta! Ang bigkas ng iyong pangalan ay huni ng ibon sa aking pandinig. Ang samyo ng iyong bango ay katulad ng hasmin na pumapawi sa anumang luha at pighati. Dulot mo ay ligayang walang hanggan. Liwanag na daig pa ang sikat ng araw sa tanghaling tapat!

 

Kasing tapat lamang ng aking pagsuyong walang bahid ng alinlangan at puno ng katapatan. Sa dulo man ng panahon, ito ay hindi kukupas at mananatiling matingkad gaya ng dugong dumadaloy sa aking puso at sumasariwa sa aking walang katapusang pagmamahal.

 

Nais kong iduyan ka sa aking bisig. Iluklok ang iyong ganda sa dambana ng pag-ibig. Nawa ay malasap ang tamis ng iyong halik. Sing tamis ng pulot sa mataas na pukyutang aking aakyatin. Ikaw ay hasmin sa hardin ng Eden na siya kong sasadyain. Perlas ng silangan, na aking sisisirin. Sa gabing malamig, hayaan mo sana giliw na ipadama sa iyo init nitong damdamin. Manapa ay gumising sa bukang liwayway na ang unang mababanaag ay kislap ng iyong mata at ang mukha ng langit.

[Mayella]

B,

 

darn it! just when i thought i would be fine, i get this sick twinge again... sigh! i'm sorry, i cannot help it... no matter how much i psyche myself up to just ignore it, i realize that my efforts are futile... don't worry, i guess i will be okay soon... i just don't know when though...

 

L

Edited May 21, 2004 by mayella76

[bods1000]

Y

 

God that was good!!!

It was so nice to hear from you again, to talk with you again,

To luxuriate again in that child-like lilt in your voice......

Oh, to be happy once more!

Talking with you brings out all the superlatives of the moment.

I love you, sweetie......

So nice.........

 

N

[Wyld]

C...

 

i am slipsliding away. i think.

i hope you feel that.

 

come and save me.

 

please.

 

-k

[Zerreit]

You confuse me so much. I don't think I need this kind of confusion right now. Why do you always come back when I've completely forgotten you?

[LostCommand]

Poolside writings

 

You look around and chat with your friendly taxi driver, trying to support his family in a shanty somewhere. You make small talk with the jeepney driver, all of whose kids are working at such tender ages. At the sales counter of SM, you flash a smile at the counter ladies, and they smile back so genuinely (and not because I look like some movie star)

 

You sense the inherent cheerfulness, hope, and faith of the everyday Filipino in their future. Our typical countrymen, at ths point, are not yet so corrupted that his soul is sold to the devil at birth. Our race still has that youthfulness in it, not the jaded, bahala na attitude of so many other countries I have visited.

 

Of course, there are lots of bad eggs.

 

But so long as the essential soul of the Filipino nation is intact, so long as the common people help each other out in their daily lives, so long as the passengers in a jeepney still pay their fare without the driver asking, then we have hope yet.

 

It becomes our responsibility, as leaders and as leaders to be, not to fail our contrymen. The precise means is not yet clear to me, but surely involves the following:

 

1. Preparing ourselves by education, exposure abroad, training, finding jobs that suit our skills if we can, or simply finding jobs that tran us, and going about our daily lives in respect of our poorer countrymen.

2. Accumulate and save money, if we can, for the rainy days, or to invest that money at some point.

3. Live within our means, frugally, so that we are always prepared for the worst are not tempted to break too many rules.

 

and

 

4. If Fate chances that we are in a position to do change, as we go up the levels of society, we must be always prepared to maximize on that (brief) chance, and also to use our conscience at that (brief) moment.

If the chance did not pass one by, then, he was spared a brutal task. Such a thing as luck...

 

This present time of agonizingly slow change is best used by training, developing, preparing, and growing ourselves. Then we just strain our eyes for the opportunity to make good. I think the Fates will give us that opportunity, for I think they agree with us when we say that the Filipino is still worth fighting for!

 

The dying, I reserve for the bad eggs. Personally.

 

-Felix Villaflor IV

[irshes]

M,

Hey. I'm just thinking about how much I'd miss you.

You said it makes you sad; well, I feel that way too. I guess we got so used to having each other around. I wanted to be with you, but I need this time off. I have to sort out things.

I keep that book with me always. Your face would grace the front pages. Damn, your scent and those beautiful hands I love so much to see and hold... I will crave for them all the more.

When I come back, I hope to see you in that black shirt.

Be good.

 

T.

[Guest gorgeous_23]

i just dont wanna eat, i wanna spend the rest of my break hugging and kissing you... i dont care if im hungry, starving, whatever, as long as im beside you... im full... i just love you the way u r and u r so unforgottable...

 

i love you.... i love you...

[Guest chunky]

GG,

 

I never expected to feel the way I do right now,

I never really thought I'd fall.

And though we're separated only a short distance,

I can't even give you a call.

 

We're separated not by walls,

not by seas, or oceans, or space.

We're so close, and yet so far,

We're so far out of place.

 

I long to touch you, to hold you.

Be with you right now.

But the circumstances won't allow it,

Be with you, I don't know how.

 

Tempted I am to sweep you,

take you from your suffering.

What I may do is right or wrong

But is it good to you I bring?

 

I love you, you already know that,

can't really be too obvious.

I can wait, I will wait,

Even if your mom's furious!

Edited May 23, 2004 by chunkyhunk

[gen_g]

GG,

 

I never expected to feel the way I do right now,

I never really thought I'd fall.

And though we're separated only a short distance,

I can't even give you a call.

 

We're separated not by walls,

not by seas, or oceans, or space.

We're so close, and yet so far,

We're so far out of place.

 

I long to touch you, to hold you.

Be with you right now.

But the circumstances won't allow it,

Be with you, I don't know how.

 

Tempted I am to sweep you,

take you from your suffering.

What I may do is right or wrong

But is it good to you I bring?

 

I love you, you already know that,

can't really be too obvious.

I can wait, I will wait,

Even if your mom's furious!

 

all i can say for now inspite or despite where we are right now is..............thank you...u have opened my heart,my mind, my soul to the real world........at the moment im still learning a lot about myself and recovering what i have left all these years...thoughts and yearning ive had that got lost with "living"........but of most of all i miss u...being with u....really "talking" to u...............but i learn to cope...i learn to live and move on...the thought that u luv me....keeps me going...i hope it never fades..........take care always..................no matter what im here for u always...........as much as i can..............until next time................be on the rampage...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....

[Chito]

I'm counting the hours.....the minutes....and even the seconds.

 

I hope you have not changed your mind. The mere thought of it can certainly drive me crazy... but I'd like to think that I'm a stronger person now.

[Chito]

Dear Senor Embajador,

 

I wish I could say out loud that one of your subordinates, who goes by the name of _________, is a GODDAMNED PERVERT!!! It might interest you to know that despite him having a very smart, sensible and beautiful fiancee (who happens to be my friend) AND being a diplomat of high rank, he still finds it in himself to debase his rank and his social standing through covert "undiplomatic activities".

 

If I were a vengeful person, I would have brought this matter straight to the SFA. But in deference to your office, which has always had cordial relations with the Department, I wish to give you a chance to deal with the matter beforehand.....at your option. I'm hereby submitting a hard disk containing about 300 Megabytes worth of data that would clearly and convincingly illustrate how Mr._____ has managed to show the very low regard he has for Filipino women. For shame Mr. Ambassador! For shame!

 

Do the right thing Mr. Ambassador. Should you fail to act, I will be forced to submit this same data to the SFA ...and possibly to all major newspapers both here in the Philippines and in _____.

 

Good day to you.

Edited May 24, 2004 by Chito

[Zerreit]

Una de las cosas mas duras que tendre que siempre hacer es embalar sus cosas y enviarlas a los Estados Unidos. Lamento verdad el tener que decir "cuidado de la toma" cuando le caí del aeropuerto. Deseo que podria tener dicho mas. No sabia que sera la vez ultima que le veo por un tiempo muy muy largo. Le faltare tanto.

 

L

Edited May 24, 2004 by Zerreit

[freelicker]

Is it just me or do I get the feeling that I've lost a part of me?

 

I used to look around and I would see you there,