KristinLavransdatr Posted January 28, 2005 Share Posted January 28, 2005 M, thank you for letting me be, for giving me space. there are things you need to know. but not yet. i am not done sorting out those that need to go from my systematized chaos. contrary to what you once said, i know what i want. but you know what my real problem is? i don't know where to get it from. but the even bigger problem is i'm down with two options. and both are good. please, wait for me until i have learned a lesson from this. don't hold my hand, i can manage. Y Quote Link to comment
bugoy101402 Posted January 29, 2005 Share Posted January 29, 2005 to my GF... i love you... Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted January 29, 2005 Share Posted January 29, 2005 (edited) almost. but not quite. i almost lost you again precious bundle gift from the gods my reason for being life seems to conspire against us but i wont let it get in our way we have the rest of our lives to live i'll hang in here if you promise you will too. i love you. more than you can ever imagine. by some miracle. Edited January 29, 2005 by Wyld Quote Link to comment
LB Posted January 29, 2005 Share Posted January 29, 2005 (edited) when you came into my life,i was staring across the table.i never looked your way but you walked towards me and held my hands. yes,i remembered the dance.i watched the people grooving on the scarce floor.i told myself 'what am i doing at the center of the crowd with you?' i met you that night.i was indifferent.i have to admit,flattery was present because of your persistence and kindness. until now,it is still you and i after all you did for my sake.the story of us,i don't know if there would ever be.i am sure about one thing though,i cannot bear the thought of losing you.pardon me,i never answered back with 'i love you.' the good thing is we are still living. Edited January 29, 2005 by lovelybabe Quote Link to comment
de hunter Posted January 30, 2005 Share Posted January 30, 2005 Sabi mo noon huwag na akong mag post sa MTC kasi wala akong mapapala dito. At yung mga b***e dito ay mga p*****e paano kung malaman nila itong sinabi mo? Kaya pala ganoon ikaw ang babalik dahil di ka makatiis na di mo balikan ang iyong mga ?????? hmmmmmp malala ka na talaga.... Quote Link to comment
LB Posted January 30, 2005 Share Posted January 30, 2005 dec 25, 2004 i loved you much but the feeling is now gone.i abhor lying,i cannot do it anymore.maybe,we are better off as strangers again in each other's world. in spite of us ending this way,i want you to know that everything i said was real.and,i have no regrets whatsoever. thank you for stopping over in my life. :cry: Quote Link to comment
smaug Posted January 30, 2005 Share Posted January 30, 2005 L, after what you did to me last nyt you have the guts to ask me to go out today? you got some nerve. putsa, alam mo kse na---------- tangna, intayin moko jan, ihanda mo nadin um wallet mo! from now on, i'll be an a-grade assh*le sayo. P Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted January 31, 2005 Share Posted January 31, 2005 HOW DARE YOU!!! how dare you talk about me and my life as if it were a common commodity in a public market? you do not know me and have no idea who i am and what i am all about, yet you have the guts to make those sweeping proclamations about what i have done and not done in my life. you may be smart and you may have it all but ... there is something you do not and will not ever have, and that is my respect and my trust. if you think that acting all "concerned" about me will hack it, then you have another think coming. you do not fool me, with your sweet winning ways. i have seen right through you. manipulative little twerp. Quote Link to comment
Icee_1 Posted January 31, 2005 Share Posted January 31, 2005 (edited) Ramblings and unanswered questions It's winter once again in my heart. And the cold is creeping, enveloping, consuming me. The warmth I thought I felt before was a farce; the feelings I thought I had developed were just dreams. The happiness and the peace of mind that I thought I had are now just memories. And now, the harsh reality of my life I must face. Alone? Perhaps; but hopefully, not. I realized that it's love I am obsessed with; and that I am not in love. Good? Maybe so, my friends and my family definitely think so. Yet, funny thing is, I still need someone to keep me warm, to hold me tight, and to stave off the loneliness that comes unbidden at night. What do I do now, now that I feel I am incapable of love; now that my heart has been rent and torn to a million pieces, time and time again; now that persons who claim to love me have judged me as if they did not know who I am and what I am capable of? What do I do now, that the persons closest to me feel I should keep myself cloistered until everything has been undone? What do I do know that I find myself unable to even begin the process of undoing everything? Why do I rush, they ask; do you have someone new in your life? Truth be told, there is no one in my life right now; but, I don't think it would be wise to wait until then before I start to do something about my mistake. They do not support me in my decision; they feel that I should grin and bear it and that we should pretend that everything is all right. But, although I love them immensely, I want to start loving myself too. I don't want to be miserable, and I know that grinning and bearing it will make me miserable, hardened, and cynical; it will make me a person I don't want to be. Yet they feel that since I have chosen wrongly, I should suffer the misery that comes with such wrong choice. But, have I not suffered enough? Should we not correct the mistake, since there is a possibility of doing so? Am I selfish in thinking about my happiness? Should I do what I feel would make me happy, or should I do what would make other people happy, and be contented with the happiness that I had given them? Maybe my family and friends are all right; maybe I should not even entertain the notion of love, or of like, as the process has not yet even begun. Maybe I should not socialize, and should keep my head buried in the sand for the shame of what has happened. Maybe I should just keep myself locked up at home, and suffer the consequences of a wrong choice I made several years ago. Or maybe I should just up and go off to a foreign country, to search for myself, to start anew, to do all the things that they had dreamed for me, yet I have been unable to do because I made my wrong choice. What do I do now? Where do I go? To whom do I run for succor and support? I know I have my family and friends, who have seen me through the ups and downs of my life. Yet, I still long for someone special to hold my hand through this. I wish I had someone special who will protect me when the going gets tougher than it already is. I wish I had someone special who will be there for me and talk me to sleep when the pain is unbearable. I wish I had someone special who will bear my problems with me as we struggle through life together. But that is all wishful thinking. I know now that I am alone, and that I will be alone for the long haul. That that someone special is a dream, and will remain a dream maybe until I am old and gray. Since these problems have not killed me yet, then maybe they will be good for me, and will make me stronger and better. Maybe I will turn out to be a loving, generous, caring and warm individual of whom my loved ones will be proud. God willing, I will emerge from this a warrior who cannot be fazed by anything. God willing, I will emerge victorious. God willing... Edited January 31, 2005 by Icee_1 Quote Link to comment
KristinLavransdatr Posted February 1, 2005 Share Posted February 1, 2005 handsome, being with you always brings new surprises. nothing seems to repeat itself from the first day we met 3 months ago to the moment i kissed you good night just half an hour ago. i want this friendship to last. romantic relationships will ruin what we have. let's keep it this way. you're a beautiful person. you're smart. you're considerate. you're funny. you've got every good thing that the best men in my life had. you're an epitome of perfection. if there is such a thing. you're the only one who was able to make me eat sugar-based strawberry donut. i cringed at every bite. but i adore you so much i endured sweetness from the source. i'm sorry but i don't really eat chocolate donuts, heart-shaped though they are. eating the strawberry donut was heroism enough! oh, i hope you didn't say much to her about me. but need you tell me about every encounter you make? don't make me your meterstick to measure up every girl you meet. honey, we've just got too much in common, and when we meet there are dynamites. we speak the same language. we commit the same sins. we say the same prayers. and if there is more than one girl like me, this world will be the boring-est of all! i'm already one girl too many. till you drive me crazy again. KL Quote Link to comment
Zerreit Posted February 1, 2005 Share Posted February 1, 2005 It's so unfair! Why do I have to be responsible for everything? Why me?! Quote Link to comment
arrow Posted February 2, 2005 Share Posted February 2, 2005 boo, i want to tell you something..,but im afraid you'll get mad.but then again here it goes..,are you ready? i love u. sweet Quote Link to comment
Icee_1 Posted February 2, 2005 Share Posted February 2, 2005 Ikaw, oo, ikaw, Pasulpot-sulpot ka sa buhay ko. Minsan nandiyan ka, minsan naman wala. Ano ba ang gusto mong mangyari? Ang labo mo eh. Medyo sumama na nga ang loob ko sa iyo. Pakiramdam ko kasi, nung nagsimula yung mabigat na problema, bigla kang nawala. Kaibigan ba talaga ang turing mo sa akin? Bakit hindi mo na lang ako kausapin nang diretsahan para magkaintindihan tayo? Sa pagkakaintindi ko, magkaibigan tayo; sana naman yun, pinagkakasunduan natin. Pero paano tayo magiging magkaibigan nang lubos kung hindi tayo makakapag-usap ng maayos? Alam mo bang marami nang nangyari sa buhay ko mula nung huli tayong nagkausap? Marami sana akong ikukwento sa iyo tungkol sa mga iyon, pero wala pa tayong oras mag-usap eh. Masyado tayong maraming pinagkakaabalahan ngayon eh. Magulo rin ang isip ko. Pero kahit ganun, kung gusto mong mag-usap, nandito ako para sa iyo. Ganun naman ako sa mga kaibigan ko eh. Sana naman pag-isipan mo nang mabuti ang sinasabi ko sa iyo dito. Ang dami ko pa ngang nais sabihin sa iyo, pero mas mabuti sigurong sabihin ko na lang ito pag magkaharap na tayo. Sana magkaroon tayo ng pagkakataong masabi ko ang lahat ng ito sa iyo, at masabi mo rin ang mga pangyayari sa buhay mo sa akin. Sige, hinintayin ko na lang ang susunod nating pag-uusap. Paalam muna, Ako Quote Link to comment
LB Posted February 2, 2005 Share Posted February 2, 2005 I realized that you really love me. k*ll me, I am guilty for making you fall. On the other hand, I could do it. I was trapped too. A bit unsure though. :grr: :cry: Quote Link to comment
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