LostCommand Posted January 29, 2006 Share Posted January 29, 2006 (edited) I have worked late, through these last weekends, skipped many meals, partied hard, gone gyming, written much in many sheets and crevices, and boards, I am running away, full tilt. If I should stop, then truth would catch up with me! I am now near exhausted. I am only waiting for myself to finally give out and totally collapse, the last kilometer on the bike machine, the last ten repetitions of the weight set, and now these wee hours of the morning, using my last ounce of energy to make a few more decisions, finish a few more sentences, make out one more report, one last essay, I am tired and the awful truth is snapping at my heels I am about to tumble and fall and face the truth, and scream (The marble was so cold to the touch, even now, I jerk my fingers away) She is gone, truly gone Edited January 29, 2006 by LostCommand Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted January 30, 2006 Share Posted January 30, 2006 D, You seem nice. Talking to you over the phone ... was wholesome. Yet, our textes werent. ;-) Anyway, hope to meet you soon. May I not be too taken by you. It's too soon for me, I think. I'm still trying to get over him ... Be patient with me. May we be friends ... w/o any of the sexual intonations. I'd like that. Seems we can even be biz acquaintainces too ... later on. We'll see. Til then. A Quote Link to comment
LostCommand Posted January 30, 2006 Share Posted January 30, 2006 I can not reach you now lady,Time, distance, and my own pride conspire,I told you, once, that all I had were words...I see you understood, Good night, and take care, C Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted January 30, 2006 Share Posted January 30, 2006 Thanks for not even bothering to tell me that you would be gone for this long. Inspite of my best intentions not to be hurt, I am. It just makes me realize a whole lot of things. Not any of them good. But still... Silly stupid me. Quote Link to comment
archon Posted January 30, 2006 Share Posted January 30, 2006 All good things.... Quote Link to comment
LB Posted January 31, 2006 Share Posted January 31, 2006 hey, it is too early to say. but, gosh our friend is right. we could click. here i go again. just maintain that amazing look in your eyes when you are talking to me. the traveling thing, i am not sure though if i would like to meet your family and friends. i am not ready. let's prolong that getting to know each other thing. Quote Link to comment
missmanners Posted January 31, 2006 Share Posted January 31, 2006 i had such an off day today. my head ached like an elephant was sitting on it. i had to put my game face on and face clients on the very day i doubted i could. or would. and it's still not over. i wish you were here to give me mefenamic acid and hug my exhaustion away. i miss you. hurry!!! Quote Link to comment
Z Posted January 31, 2006 Share Posted January 31, 2006 Dear R, I've also waited for someone like you for a long time. Finding you, having you with me now makes everything I've been through worthwhile. Know that I am with you always. Love, E Quote Link to comment
MiSsEd StReSs Posted February 1, 2006 Share Posted February 1, 2006 I thought I'm not be into this things again... but still I am right now... I'm hurt... really hurt... why can't I not stay away from you... why can't I... I want to start a new life... I hope I could find out where to start... I know it may be tough... but I know I can.... Quote Link to comment
Zerreit Posted February 1, 2006 Share Posted February 1, 2006 I now know what I want. I now have a clearer path. It's not going to be easy but I now also have enough confidence to say, "I can do this, damn it!" Why can't I? I am sharp, smart, brilliant! To hell with those people who think otherwise. I can make things happen, just wait & see! There's no turning back now. It's my time to shine. This opportunity belongs to me & no one else. L Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted February 1, 2006 Share Posted February 1, 2006 Never underestimate the power of that which is unspoken. That is one home truth that has hit me rather hard in the past days. I don’t blame anyone except myself for this sad and sorry state of affairs. I had the power to move away. I had the power to turn my back. I had the power to say no. Yet I didn’t. Blindly, I forged on, fuelled by bravado, powered by feelings. All this backfired on me. In a big way. Not in what was done, but in what was not done. Not in what was said, but in what was not said. In the end, I was left holding on to the proverbial empty sack. Empty. Devoid, Null. Nothing. Sometimes I wonder why this happened to me. Why now, when I need my wits about me. Why now, when it takes so little to unhinge me. And then I remember – what was once had made me happy too… even for a while. What was once had made me sparkle and shine… even for a moment. That in itself is good. If for anything, I am thankful that this happened. Its just that I am human too. Prone to the frailties of human nature. I get hurt…I ache. Sometimes, it seems to me as if you overlook that tiny but definitely not trivial bit. Sometimes, it seems to me I am no more but a complication that you don’t need. Sometimes, it seems to me as if I should just …… Quote Link to comment
LB Posted February 2, 2006 Share Posted February 2, 2006 huy, alam ko nahuhulog ka. bat kase nag-iinarte ka pa kanina! di mo naman pala kaya. ayan tuloy napa-iyak kita. kunwari ka pa. nagawa ko na yan noh. iniisip mo pa lang. siguro nga, mashado ka pang bata para saken. pero gusto naman kita. mukha namang bagay tayo. pinagtitinginan nga tayo sa labas di ba (mukhang sang-ayon naman ang mga tingin). di nga lang ako handa sa ngayon baka masaktan ka lang. ayokong magalit ka saken. isantabi mo muna yang mga plano mo. mashado pang maaga. Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted February 2, 2006 Share Posted February 2, 2006 I still struggle to forget. You've already seemed to have forgotten how we've met. The good times ... the memories I'd want to erase. Especially that CUTE smile I'd grown to love on your face. Soon, couples will be sharing a day to celebrate their love but I will be floating around aimlessly like a dove. Quote Link to comment
X Posted February 2, 2006 Share Posted February 2, 2006 Holding back the heart that slows to a crawl I force thy hand to think the words to scrawl And as the life from thy Mother expires The Son she brought up was not of one's desires Holding back the tears streaming down thy face Thine mother moves from this to the next place And what of the dream where she came forth to thee She holds thine hand just so to set thee free Holding back the sorrows in thy soul Its battered remains has but one less hole And how therefore should one carry on She thus let go of the Son she came upon... Quote Link to comment
LB Posted February 3, 2006 Share Posted February 3, 2006 huy, naiinis na ako sayo ha. bwakanang lech! bat kelangan ka maglungkot-lungkutan. ako naman itong si tanga, pinatulan ko pa. pero nakakatuwa kase alam ko na masaya ka habang nag-uusap tayo. di naman talaga ako lasing. meron konting tama. naalala ko lahat nang sinabi mo at lahat nang nagmula sa aken. bweset ka! madaling araw na di ako nakatulog dahil sayo. tapos ngayon kung ano-ano ang pinagsasabi mo. wala naman akong ineexpect mula sayo. nag-iisip lang ako kung ano ba ang gusto mo. halos tanungin ko na nga kung ako ba ang dahilan kung bakit malungkot ka at kumplikado ang buhay mo sa ngayon. pasensha na talaga. basta, babawi nalang ako sayo. pramis! Quote Link to comment
missmanners Posted February 3, 2006 Share Posted February 3, 2006 funny how the thought of not being able to see you brings me to resort to childish tantrums. all that's lacking is the pursed lips, the fists banging on some surface, the incessant cries. but i might as well be doing those with how horrible i feel. sunday is oh so far away. Quote Link to comment
Barenaked-NoMre Posted February 4, 2006 Share Posted February 4, 2006 D, Thanks for the Cafe Mocha, lunch and the movie. Although, I think Narnia would have been better than the Zathura we did happen to watch that day. I dunno what to think about you. There's no REAL connection there. I might just be "using" you ... coz you're there paying me the attention I'd rather have someone else do. I know that's unfair. I feel guilty about it. I dunno... A Quote Link to comment
Intuition Posted February 4, 2006 Share Posted February 4, 2006 sometimes i wish you'd you'd just see me for what i really am. i am your morphine, your coke and your poison. as much as i give you pleasure, i k*ll you slowly. Quote Link to comment
bluegreen717 Posted February 4, 2006 Share Posted February 4, 2006 C, Just give me one call, let's pretend nothing happened. Quote Link to comment
LostCommand Posted February 5, 2006 Share Posted February 5, 2006 In between Mr. Friend and Mr. Rightlie a score of different coloursand for each colour, a dozen different shades There are those complicated ones who would defy any crude categorisations Quote Link to comment
bluegreen717 Posted February 6, 2006 Share Posted February 6, 2006 Ayaw mo? E di 'wag mo. Quote Link to comment
Z Posted February 6, 2006 Share Posted February 6, 2006 I finally found the source and the culprit and am deeply disappointed with the lie. <_ Quote Link to comment
mariejoy Posted February 6, 2006 Share Posted February 6, 2006 you're one of the best things that happened to me. thanks...i love you Quote Link to comment
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