The Mail Box

[Wyld]

 

fading fast, falling quick

as it should have been right at the start

dousing a flame was easy

each part of me screams to hang on to you.

 

over and done with, thats what it seems to be

us was a good word while it lasted

though i know now, it was destined to end...

Edited June 25, 2005 by Wyld

[darkAngel25]

Someday you'll suffer more than I do right now.

[curian]

hi,

 

i've just got one question, why?

 

G

[Guest PK_pang_alis_kati]

i ache for every moment

for each second of waiting

sometimes i think, i wait in vain.

 

but i resent not the little little pinch of reality

i embrace each day with a grateful heart

knowing that now is just as good as when we were last together.

 

fear me not

for i dare not cross the line nor break the rules set for me

the stillness gives me strength.

 

endure me please

for i can only be who i am

embrace me.

 

till the day of reunion i shall be waiting

bearing an oil lamp with more than enough fill

ready for the wait that may be forever.

Edited June 27, 2005 by PK_pang_alis_kati

[batitsman]

29th birthday

7295 miles away

16 months since you left

100 plus emails

 

infinite silence...damn

[Wyld]

one blow after another... when it rains, it really does pour.

 

im probably at my lowest now ... down in the dumps.

 

ill stay here for just a bit more... humility is always a good lesson to learn.

 

then ill move on.

 

with my head held up high.

 

and ill smile again.

 

soon.

 

[cdma]

Tuesday

11 pm

 

 

 

 

I miss her today... more than yesterday, but less than tomorrow. It must be the apple and pumpkin soup. They must have added something in the apple and pumpkin soup. Was it honey or ginseng or powdered black rhino horns?

 

I must go to shower now lest I burn with the thought of her. More later, I promise.

[batibut]

I,

 

Its always nice seeing you. 2x na ha..unexpected! You're really looking good. Your career has taken off and you seem quite fulfilled. Tell me, is it everything you dreamed of? The fame and fortune? The rock n' roll lifestyle? I am happy for you and your success. I know no one deserves it more than you. You have worked very hard. I guess I just miss the good old days. The late afternoons I spent watching you play football by the beach under the fiery glow of the setting sun reflected on crystal blue waters. Don't you miss it too? *Sigh

 

B

[darkAngel25]

i loved you...i will always loved you.

 

i've walked away not because i wanted to leave you

 

i left because i know this is the best for all of us.

 

someday i will be able to accept the fact that you're not there anymore...

 

but for now let me continue to love you in silence.

[Lipstick]

The rains have come.

 

I can hear the raindrops beat a steady rhythm, I imagine it to almost be like the sound of your voice humming, vibrating on my skin. The smell of wet earth slowly ascends and infuses itself in the air and I am intoxicated by it, I imagine that this is how clean you smell when naked. I close my eyes and again imagine myself under the rain, all those raindrops on me like a million kisses you put on my skin. Everything goes to my head and suddenly all becomes blurry. My mind slips in and out of consciousness, I feel light-headed and it's like that dreamy state I spent sleepwalking through the days with you.

 

And it rains and rains and rains. Let it. I want to drown in you.

[missmanners]

and so, after much consideration, i've decided to let you go.

 

don't blame the hormones. don't blame my neurosis. don't blame my work. it's not me.

 

it's you.

 

you were put on a pedestal you didn't deserve to be on. the rose-colored glasses have come off... and i see you as the sad, pathetic little boy you really are. i didn't listen to my friend when she said this was headed nowhere. and i didn't listen to that inner voice when it echoed those same sentiments. but i've finally heard the wisdom in their words.

 

and the funny thing is, my heart is not broken.

 

call me cruel but i wish yours will be.

 

it was nice doing business with you. thanks for the ride.

[Wyld]

Honeyed words.

String of events.

Sad stories.

Bunch of halftruths.

 

Sincerity doubtful.

Motives suspect.

Belief suspended.

Trust compromised.

 

[curian]

it is the sea that reminds me of you...

its beauty, calm and eloquence

and its elemental power...

the creator of life and in my case, love...

thank you... more than words can say...

more than actions can show...

[icewulf]

Back.

What now?

What to do?

Wait and see.

So shall it be.

 

B,

What a sight for sore eyes!

 

A,

So, now do you have the time?

 

K,

Ummm..what's all this? Hope all is well.

 

M,

Pa ra pa pa pa!

 

M2,

I still haven't called.

I didn't forget.

Just outta load.

 

M3,

Hah! *snickers*

 

A2,

See you around.

 

A3,

Congratulations!

Wish I could be there for a double celebration!

 

 

Icewulf out.

[turi_guilliano]

hey,

 

wow that was fast. or maybe i was just more into it than you were.

anyways, i remembered that time rotterdam played my beloved on home soil... we were lucky coz dad got us tickets to watch the game... i know u hated it, but u still went with me knowing that it meant that much... even foregoing your trip to go visit van gough museum that day... remember that red scarf we bought? i came accross it this moring... brought back memories... and yeah, that kluivert goal was splendid... but watching it with you made it more special... darn, i shouldve let one of the de boer brother's sign the damn scarf when i had the chance... i can hear you saying "i told you so" already... well its ok... thats life i guess... you'll never miss what you never had... hey, c u soon...

 

j