The Mail Box

[KristinLavransdatr]

N,

 

i was advised to write you a note. but what's the use? words have been said. a process has been ended.

 

but it is the right thing. has always been the right thing.

 

i am not about to explain myself to you. i leave to you exactly what you think of me. and i forgive you if most of them are wrong.

[Leslie Garcia]

To you,

 

Goodbye

 

I just wanted you to know I'm as happy as I ever been

I learned not to look back and say remember when

 

It took me a while just to get over you

I just couldn't’t forget all the pain you had put me through

 

I put away all the pictures and locked the memories away

I burned all the love letters, for tomorrow is a brand new day

 

Im letting go everything, and looking for something new

I am such a better person now that im not with you

 

So please don’t bother me, I don’t want you to call

I don’t want to hear your voice; I don’t want you at all

 

I just wanted to thank you, because you helped me come to realize

That a relationship is just not worth it if it’s only a bunch of lies

 

So goodbye to the one who once had my heart

I am taking it back now, so you won’t tear it apart.

[Leslie Garcia]

This is how i feel now ....

 

Shall Not Breathe Again..

by ThundersRose

 

Drown out the screams full of sorrow,

Make me suffer, let me live for tomorrow.

Never have you let me have my way,

You've never given me my last day.

 

Stare at the girl in my reflection,

So far from any kind of perfection.

Her eyes brimming with tears of pain,

So much poison seeped from each vein.

 

Eyes closed tight, her hands are tied,

Nowhere left for this angel to hide.

Another black feather falls from her wings,

Tears fall down slow as she silently sings.

 

"Broken tears left my each eye,

Prayers sent above to the sky.

I wish to be held in Father's arms,

I fell for each of Satan's charms"

 

With each teardrop upon the floor,

Each breath becomes such a chore.

Breathing in deep toxic air,

Grasping for a hand that isn't there.

 

In the eyes of the reflected child,

Lies an amount of pain so wild.

Screaming and lashing out to be released,

Please free me from my inner beast.

 

A China face with deep broken wires,

Hides a broken life the devil's desire.

Scream abuse at the depression in you,

I am done with life, if only you knew.

 

Rope binding her bleeding young wrists,

Whoever knew this angel would come to this?

Jet black feathers upon the cold floor,

She could not take this pain any more.

 

Head bowed down between her two knees,

You never saved me, didn't hear my pleas.

Surrounded now by all of her pain,

This broken angel shall not breathe again..

[Z]

Dear S,

 

My call was unexpected and perhaps the bottle of Merlot is to blame but these little things make for a simple but perfect day. I look forward to next year with no expectations. Thank you.

 

All the best,

 

E

[Alex_Corvis]

you know who you are

 

You are, and will always be, the one great love I have in this lifetime.

[poknat]

dear july,

 

i think about you all the time. its been a year and a half. it was a mistake to do what we did. im truly sorry. i'll never forget you. im sure you know whats happening in my life. maybe one of these days i'll visit you.

 

love

A

Edited October 30, 2004 by poknat

[roxysnonie]

 

hey you...

 

 

 

 

...le destin décidera pour vous!

Edited November 1, 2004 by roxysnonie

[cee]

Welcome To My Life

Simple Plan

 

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don’t belong

And no one understands you

 

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

 

No you don’t know what it’s like

When nothing feels alright

You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

 

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

When you’re down

To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

When no one’s there to save you

No you don’t know what it’s like

 

Welcome to my life

 

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more

Before your life is over

 

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With the big fake smiles and stupid lies

But deep inside you’re bleeding

 

No you don’t know what it’s like

When nothing feels alright

You don’t know what it’s like to be like me

 

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

When you’re down

To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

When no one’s there to save you

No you don’t know what it’s like

 

Welcome to my life

 

No one ever lies straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I’m happy

But I’m not gonna be ok

 

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don’t know what it’s like

What it’s like

 

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

When you’re down

To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

When no one’s there to save you

No you don’t know what it’s like

 

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

When you’re down

To feel like you’ve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

When no one’s there to save you

No you don’t know what it’s like

 

Welcome to my life

 

Welcome to my life

 

Welcome to my life

[cee]

Ei!

One more thing...

 

Stay for a while and read for one more time

Remember the moments we shared

We're more than friends then

We'll take on the world

We just don't care at all

 

I never wanted to believe that you could hold back

Good memories of friendship

And here I stand I'm still the same

I watched you change

You wont come back

 

I wonder what it's like to be like you

To never really care how bad it hurts

So go ahead and keep moving on

It's all about yourself you're never wrong

I hope you will not crash and burn this time

 

The day is gone

It's cold out

I walk away as you fade out of my life

I don't know why I'm reaching out demet!

And now I know you wont come back even as friends

 

I hope you'll not crash and burn this time

You think you're never wrong and you keep moving on

[akoi2]

to bang

 

you are my only love and yet you taken it for granted. i have known what pain and sorrow is when yuo left me. and still after 4 years i still love you

[ukyo_batusai]

Am I confusing?

Now, as unbelieveable as it might seem, there are some people who find me confusing. Is this because I am confusing or is it because my intellect is at such a superior level to those people that I only seemed confusing to them?

[roxysnonie]

 

mama and lala,

 

since you guys left, i've stopped counting, whats the point! a lot has changed, and it'll never be like it once were, no matter how hard we tried, yes the bond is there but...

 

tomorrow ill be seeing you both, feeling the cold of marble instead of the warmth of flesh embrace, seeing names etched, instead of your beautiful faces...

 

walking back alone, instead of hand in hand.

 

till tomorrow...

[KristinLavransdatr]

Didn't realize it has been 11 years since we became friends. you got married, bore a son, separated from your husband, fought for your life you almost lost. and i, despite the sad stanzas of your life (your life is a poem, not a prose), would go to lucban to visit.

 

in lucban, i met your friends who,too, became my friends. i met J--, dated him in Manila as he studied in that school along Taft. (No, the rumor was wrong, we never dated in L--)

 

it was funny how you connived with the rest into having him and me, gaoled in some place dark and spooky about 5 years ago. you see, nothing happened beyond what i could allow. and you know, oh how well, what my limitations are. and i was sorry to disappoint you and the gang. the alcohol didn't cooperate, because as you know, i never got drunk.

 

but last night, i met him again -- with his wife. no big deal. she's pretty. and so am i. did i see regret in his eyes? i didn't. because i didn't look -- for fear, i wouldn't see what i expect to see, feel, what i feared, i would.

 

but again, i'm happy. i'm going back home to my parents. on the fortnight.

 

---

 

it was this day when S started bothering you with his messages. begging for the time you couldn't give -- just yet.

 

if only you could read this as i write, i could have warned you of the hurts S would bring. forget about the bliss, which as you now know would pass.

 

i could have warned you not to mind him, not to waste your time.

 

but since you can only read back and not relive, i give you all of life's regrets.

Edited May 1, 2005 by KristinLavransdatr

[Leslie Garcia]

To you,

 

For your information ... I've aleady buried my bruised and pained heart ... mourn it and get over with it ... you are now free ... don't bother to give me answers for i know i will get none ... you don't have any commitment to me anymore .... I'm doing this in your behalf ... you betrayed me ... used me ... played with my feelings ... i shouldn't have let you in ... so foolish of me ... forget you ever know me ... please do so ... i'll move on .... goodbye.

 

M

[Icee_1]

Dear P,

 

You have been my oasis in the desert, my solace, my source of strength. That is why I cannot turn my back on you at the time when you need me. I will be as you were to me, your oasis should you need one, your solace, and your source of strength.

 

Please try to understand me now, however, as your revelations came as such a shock to me. Please give me time to digest what I had just learned, and give me time to gather my thoughts.

 

I thank you for telling me everything as soon as you did, but I still am disappointed in the way you had handled things. I was open with you from the beginning, yet you chose to keep secrets from me. Secrets which would definitely affect our views and appreciation of things. Nevertheless, I thank you for revealing these to me sooner rather than later.

 

Just give me time, and I will get back to my old self, dear friend. I will once again be there for you. I just ask for time to get over my shock, to analyze my thoughts and feelings on the matter.

 

I trust that you will be willing to wait for me, while I undergo what I think is necessary for now. I don't think it will take very long, but should you be unwilling to wait, then there is nothing I can do.

 

I only ask that you take care of yourself, and deal with your issues as best as you can.

 

Always,

 

Icee