The Mail Box

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

I don't know what to feel ... im missing you badly ... i need your arms around me to assure me that everything's going to be fine .... but i can't reach you ... the distance is overwhelming not physically but mentally ... let me know if you wanna let go, im willing to let go if it makes you happy ... my life now is full of uncertainties ... my mind's in turmoil ... im pretending to be strong but my resolve is crumbling beneath the facade ... i wanna cry but i can't, i have to face all these alone ....

 

M

Edited August 31, 2004 by Leslie Garcia

[Wyld]

 

cmc...

 

i had decided to let it go.

i had resigned myself to a life without you.

but your call earlier...

made me realize how brave those words were.

and how empty.

 

i cannot imagine losing you.

not having you call me sweetie in that voice.

not nagging you to ease up on work a bit...

not having your sweet shy smile brighten up my day...

not having you to love.

 

but your words scare me.

you know me. you know how i shy away from ties.

you know im not ready. you know im still searching.

but you also know i want. i yearn.

i hope. i wish.

 

i hate ultimatums. i dont like being forced in corners.

yet thats what you did today.

i half expected me to turntail and run.

but im still here. adrift. searching.

looking for an answer.

 

trying to find that middle ground you said i squandered away.

trying to regain the trust.

trying to find the love.

trying.

i hope not in vain.

 

argh!!!! why!?!

Edited August 30, 2004 by WyldChik

[roxysnonie]

 

be careful in what you think is your decision

for this has been your battlecry...

to decide for yourself

but do you consider consequences and end results

you say "so be it, it was my choice, ,blame me and me alone for it"

 

i am also a friend, i do not let my friends get hurt, thats just me,

if i see one about to fall, shall i wait and catch her

berate her later why she did it..

or should i tell her to stop and think for a moment

and ask her why and hear her out...

 

its so funny in this make believe world,

here, where you are, reading this

we're all superlatives in our own making

sometime we forget, sometimes we insist

but which is false, which is the truth...

 

but friends come in all size, shape and disguises

ask yourself who will be at your side

sans pretense, sans all this make believe, sans the sweet words

Edited August 30, 2004 by roxysnonie

[freakish]

i'm still clueless

can you give me a sign please?

is this another phase of waiting?

am i asking too much?

i'll let it go then....

best of luck!

[moonflower]

H

 

if you say so. i believe in you and your principles in life. stick to them and don't sell out. u know where to draw the line...i know u do. just take care. im just here. you know that , right?

 

 

[moonflower]

you bring a smile to my lips, and more importantly to my heart.

[moonflower]

i'm losing you

i'm scared

how can i be like this?

its like im losing my memories of you

and i cannot make it happen

i won't allow it

i'm stubborn that way.

[moonflower]

 

 

Dear God,

 

 

please give me the strength to keep the good things abt him and the good things that we share ....if only in my memory.

[Wyld]

you are UNFAIR!!!

 

i said i needed time to think.

but of course you had to turn around

and call. and call. and call.

 

leave me be!

i dont know what i want yet.

i dont even know if im coming or going...

 

making me realize what i will miss...

hell, making me realize how much i miss it...

will not make my decision process any faster.

 

you should know me well enough by now.

i dont respond to pressure. not at all.

so leave me be.

 

let me figure things out for myself.

the same way i figured out how i felt for you.

the same way i knew you were the one.

 

leave me be.

 

:grr: :grr:

Edited August 30, 2004 by WyldChik

[moonflower]

God,

 

 

will it be so bad if I give up? i find it harder and harder to keep the faith ...and this is so not fair to my friend.

[Wyld]

 

Clinging ... holding on tight.

Meandering... losing my grip.

Chances are... this is it...goodbye.

 

:cry:

[icewulf]

The Curse

-=icewulf=-

 

Nearly all my life I have been cursed.

Sleepless nights and teary eyes.

Wet pillows and heavy sighs.

 

Recurring nightmares with vivid scenes.

Pain, lonelines, fear, surrounding me.

Everything I do a catastrophe.

 

Accident prone I have become.

Breaking things or getting broken as I come.

My bestfriend is a blade and a bottle of rum.

 

Happiness always turns to madness.

Hardly forgiven but always giving forgiveness.

Fighting for oneself, always useless.

 

Sacrifices abound.

Offering myself all around.

Any thanks? None. Not a whisper, not a sound.

 

Should you feel the same, get in the tub.

I bid you welcome! Welcome to the club.

The club of the cursed, cursed by love.

[icewulf]

Unresolved

-=icewulf=-

 

A new phase and a new day,

New challengers to the fray.

 

A new phase and a new day,

New problems have come to stay.

 

A new phase and a new day,

Fear not, face it if you may.

 

Confusion, complication,

Time to make a decision.

 

Confusion, complication,

Can’t wait for revelation.

 

Confusion, complication,

Where is realization?

 

Heart, body and mind clashing,

Worlds begin to start crumbling .

 

Heart, body and mind clashing,

Your decisions left hanging.

 

Heart mind and body clashing,

Life’s pains, all complicating.

Edited August 30, 2004 by icewulf

[Ladyrocker]

someone sent this to my mailbox...

 

 

E veryone's little darling

L ovingly embracing her youthfulness

A dores and praises God wholeheartedly

I n my heart and spirit she sets us my model

N o one can give me that sweet smile in the midst of my trouble

E laine, i want u to know that Im so blessed iv met you!

 

 

nakakataba ng puso

Thanks alot!

[Wyld]

how little you know how much your careless heedless words hurt.

 

i dont ask for much but ... even that little i do ask for...

 

is not meant for me.

 

thats probly the saddest thing.

 

:cry: