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[misbyutiful]

im experiencing an inexpressible gaping sense of loss here without you... i am carrying on, though.

keep asking myself..will i ever be satisfied?

 

-margret

[roxysnonie]

 

 

thanks!

 

for hearing me out...

[Wyld]

 

dearest friend...

 

nothing can ever wound than the realization that your friend, someone whom you had bared all to ... does not really know you.

 

i guess it was a big failure on my part that you dont know what kind of person i really am... and inspite of my wanting to change this... ill just keep silent.

 

friendship, once offered cannot be taken back. thats yours to do with as you please.

 

just remember, you have a friend in me.

 

weird as it may seem.

 

 

-k

[icewulf]

What I Say Isn't Always What I Mean

-=icewulf=-

 

I don't care anymore.

Whatever you do concerns me no more.

All my begging is over and done.

Nothing can change my mind, noone.

This time it's finally over.

Your memories are all that linger.

Our love has gone and so must you.

Until death overcomes me I'll despise you.

Because of you my life is ruined.

Always and forever now gone with the wind.

Can't anymore bear the sight of you.

Kiss me goodbye...adieu.

[freakish]

It was nice hearing from you and i'm glad I did the effort to reach you. For that brief moment, we were able to say what we could have said few years back. I was glad though to know them anyway, late as they may seem it answered the questions I kept asking myself and it took the gnawing feeling that sometimes eats me up.

 

I haven't heard from you again, I do hope you are okay. At the back of my mind though I am asking if I said/did something wrong again to make you silent again. I just want to let you know that during the moments of pure craziness and when I thought I couldn't bear it, you were there and you listened to me. I am grateful.

 

Take care always, please do remember, i am always here.

[gen_g]

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!:evil: :cry: ...thats all folks.....kelangan ko lng ilabas......

[Alex_Corvis]

Forwarded email sa kin, author unknown

Para sa mga nagmamahal na di minamahal

para sa mga bulag na di namamansin

 

Question: Bkit ba ang hrap mging isang

kaibigan?

 

Answer: Madaming bagay na kelangan mong i-consider

para

lang maging isang ordinaryong tao...

 

sa hindi ordinaryong tao para sa iyo.

 

Kapag kasi nagmahal ang isang tao, gusto niya, laging masaya ung taong mahal nia, kahit hindi sha kasama sa mga bagay na ikaliligaya ng taong iyon. Masakit para sa kanya, pro ang pwede lang

niyang gawin ay ngumiti at sabihing...

 

"WOW! Talaga? Astig, kaw ha! Hindi ka nagku-

kwento saken! Daya mo talaga!"

 

Hahaha..nakaktawa tlaga. Yung mga pa-epek mo sa kanya, akala mo totoo. Ang hirap kaya nun? Yung pipilitin mong paniwalain ang sarili mo na kaya mo at ok ka lang sa mga nangyayari. Hindi yun

ganon kadali.

 

Una, iisipin mo na "Aw..buti pa siya, mhal niya." Andun ang inggit. Inggit na sana, ikaw na lng ung mahal niya. Na sana, ikaw ung iniisip

niya at sana, ikaw na lang yung kinikwento nya sa ibang tao. O diba, ang sakit?

 

Pangalawa, andun yung iisipin mo na, "Bakit ba hindi na lang ako, eh mahal naman kita?" -

Shempre, hindi mo naman maaaring pilitin ang isang tao na mahalin ka. Iba iba ang mga tao. Kung hindi ka nila mhal, wala tayong pwedeng gawin dun. Shempre, it's what we call the "Freewill". And hindi tayo pwede makigulo kay Free will dahil yun ang gusto niya eh.

 

Pangatlo, masakit sa puso. Yung thought pa lang na tatawagan ka niya para magkwento 2ngkol sa taong gusto niya, hindi ba ang sakit sakit na nun? Kasi masaya sha, tapos maaalala ka lang niya kasi meron syang magandang kwento. Tapos maya-maya, merong call waiting sa kabilang line, sasabihin niya sau, "Uhm, ok lang ba tawagan na lang kita mamaya? Kasi tumawag sha eh...pleasE?

Kinikilig tuloy ako. Tswagan kita ulet, kwentuhan kita sa usap namin ha?? Yehey..babay!"

 

Maghihintay ka ng parang walang katapusan.Nakatulog ka na't lahat, hindi pa rin tumatawag. Kinabukasan tatanungin mo siya, "Bakit di mo na ko tinawagan?"

At ano ssbihin niya sayo?

"Eh sorry, sa sobrang kilig ko ata, nklimutan

ko. Sorry po."

 

Bakt ba kapag mahal mo isang tao, kahit na wala naman siyang ginagawang masama sa iyo, yung fact pa lang na nagkukwento na siya tungkol sa taong gusto niya, kahit na HINDI NAMAN KAYO eh

nagagalit ka na. Minsan pabiro mo pang sasabihin sa kanya, "Hay nako, nagseselos na ko nyan!" pero totoo na pla.

 

O diba? Naisip mo ba na KAYO BA? Hindi naman. Pero sobrang selos na selos ka talaga. Tapos pag hindi ka tinawagan, magagalit ka. Eh wala naman syang obligasyon sa iyo. Meron ba? di naman kayo

dba.

 

Meron pa, pag nagtxt ka sa kanya, tapos nagreply sya, shempre ang saya saya mo na nun. Tapos txt ka ulet, tapos di na siya nagreply, iisipin mo na ndi ka na niya binibigyang halaga. Iisipin mo na rin na kasama nya ang "buhay niya". Magseselos ka na naman. Bakit ba?! hindi naman kayo dba?

 

Ang gulo ng mundo tuwing umiibig ka. Bakit ba di na lng gawing "mahal-ko-mahal-ako"? di pwede. Asan ang thrill?!

Asan ang feeling ng "sense of fulfillment" na pag naging kayo, ang sarap dahil alam mong hinintay mo ng matagal yung pagkakataon na iyon.

 

Pero maghintay ka man, minsan, di naman darating.

Yan ang nakakapagod sa lahat. Aasa ka, pero wala naman.

 

Sabi nila "Dont stop dreaming. It might come true."

Pro pag di nagkatotoo, sasabihin mong masama si Lord.

 

Bakit, sino ba may sabi sayo na maghintay ka? Wala nman diba? Ikaw lang mag-isa ang gustong maghintay! Ikaw lang ang tanga jan na mukhang ewan na pilit hinihintay ang araw na mahalin ka rin nya.

 

Eh kung hindi nga dumating? Ano napala mo? Sinarado mo ang options mo 4 other people. Hindi mo alam, habang nagpapaka-saya ka dyan at nagmamahal ng ibang tao...

 

...mrong ngpapakatanga at nagpapaka-kahirap sa iyo, hinihintay rin na mahalin mo rin sha... dahil baka balang araw dumating un.

Edited August 29, 2004 by roxysnonie

[moonflower]

tossing and turning at night. just can't sleep without thinking of you...everything about you. im trying to remember the times you made me smile. you still make me smile in rare and cherished moments. they live inside me and my mind spins in a way that i cannot explain. yet... uh... i dunno.

 

 

im confused.

[Wyld]

 

im gonna give you up.

soon.

i will.

watch me.

 

<_<

[cee]

ML

 

It may be easier to give up

than it is to keep going

It may be easier to say

it's someone else's fault

than to take the blame yourself

It may be easier to make excuses

than to offer apologies

but there's no guarantee that

the easy way through

is the best way

it up to you to create your life

don't be so concerned about finding

the easiest roads to travel

but follow the roads that lead you towards

being the person you really want to be.

 

C

[moonflower]

to me, myself, and I

 

 

why the confusion? for what?

is there a rhyme or reason to it?

 

how can one be confused and be sure at the same time?

 

oh man!

[roxysnonie]

 

bakit nga ba?

 

bakit?

 

anyway, life's greatest challenge is knowing the answer to this five lettered word(three, if english)

 

 

 

 

wo ini *****e!

Edited August 29, 2004 by roxysnonie

[Guest cool_k@reem]

Friend....i didnt gave up on you....believe it or not...busy lang talaga me

[Guest cool_k@reem]

here's to sumone out there...alam ko bihira ka nalang dumalaw sa MTC....

 

 

ops...bago mag react hindi sha ito..iba ito!

 

I'm trying to keep my feet on the ground

I'm getting to like this feeling I've found

I'm getting to love the thought of

Having you around and

I will never let you down

Your friends were all well - meaning

When they said no one is good enough for you

But if they play with your emotions

Dismiss the notion

And do what you have to do

Cause people don't take chances with their hearts

Since I've met you I am past the hardest part

So remember one thing

I will never let you down

I'm trying to keep...

Sometimes you feel defeated

But it's OK...

You're not the only one

And all the complications,

The bad situations - happen to everyone

It doesn't matter how it ended or began

Sometimes the best that you can do is change your plans

I hope you understand that

I will never let you down

I'm trying to keep...

[Z]

Dear M,

 

We finally had that chat, something that may have been 15 months overdue, but then again everything has its time and place. We both may have much to ponder on - especially you - and much more to achieve in the next year. Regardless, the line has been drawn yet not to my chagrin. That you would prefer me to remain as a friend surprisingly holds no bearing but the fact it is of no consequence. Tonight you have shown me how much I can give - unconditionally, effortlessly. Thank you. The tears I shed is two pronged - the dimming of a flame to be rekindled again for one as worthy; and a stayed hand, reducing myself to a spectator as you spread your wings. Funny how we can conjure so many words and ways to say 3 simple words - I love you. And having said that yet not, feed yourself and be happy. I'll be here for you in whatever way you'll have me. Come what may.

 

Love,

 

E

Edited August 29, 2004 by Z

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

I don't know what to feel ... im missing you badly ... i need your arms around me to assure me that everything's going to be fine .... but i can't reach you ... the distance is overwhelming not physically but mentally ... let me know if you wanna let go, im willing to let go if it makes you happy ... my life now is full of uncertainties ... my mind's in turmoil ... im pretending to be strong but my resolve is crumbling beneath the facade ... i wanna cry but i can't, i have to face all these alone ....

 

M

Edited August 31, 2004 by Leslie Garcia

[Wyld]

 

cmc...

 

i had decided to let it go.

i had resigned myself to a life without you.

but your call earlier...

made me realize how brave those words were.

and how empty.

 

i cannot imagine losing you.

not having you call me sweetie in that voice.

not nagging you to ease up on work a bit...

not having your sweet shy smile brighten up my day...

not having you to love.

 

but your words scare me.

you know me. you know how i shy away from ties.

you know im not ready. you know im still searching.

but you also know i want. i yearn.

i hope. i wish.

 

i hate ultimatums. i dont like being forced in corners.

yet thats what you did today.

i half expected me to turntail and run.

but im still here. adrift. searching.

looking for an answer.

 

trying to find that middle ground you said i squandered away.

trying to regain the trust.

trying to find the love.

trying.

i hope not in vain.

 

argh!!!! why!?!

Edited August 30, 2004 by WyldChik

[roxysnonie]

 

be careful in what you think is your decision

for this has been your battlecry...

to decide for yourself

but do you consider consequences and end results

you say "so be it, it was my choice, ,blame me and me alone for it"

 

i am also a friend, i do not let my friends get hurt, thats just me,

if i see one about to fall, shall i wait and catch her

berate her later why she did it..

or should i tell her to stop and think for a moment

and ask her why and hear her out...

 

its so funny in this make believe world,

here, where you are, reading this

we're all superlatives in our own making

sometime we forget, sometimes we insist

but which is false, which is the truth...

 

but friends come in all size, shape and disguises

ask yourself who will be at your side

sans pretense, sans all this make believe, sans the sweet words

Edited August 30, 2004 by roxysnonie

[freakish]

i'm still clueless

can you give me a sign please?

is this another phase of waiting?

am i asking too much?

i'll let it go then....

best of luck!

[moonflower]

H

 

if you say so. i believe in you and your principles in life. stick to them and don't sell out. u know where to draw the line...i know u do. just take care. im just here. you know that , right?

 

 

[moonflower]

you bring a smile to my lips, and more importantly to my heart.

[moonflower]

i'm losing you

i'm scared

how can i be like this?

its like im losing my memories of you

and i cannot make it happen

i won't allow it

i'm stubborn that way.

[moonflower]

 

 

Dear God,

 

 

please give me the strength to keep the good things abt him and the good things that we share ....if only in my memory.

[Wyld]

you are UNFAIR!!!

 

i said i needed time to think.

but of course you had to turn around

and call. and call. and call.

 

leave me be!

i dont know what i want yet.

i dont even know if im coming or going...

 

making me realize what i will miss...

hell, making me realize how much i miss it...

will not make my decision process any faster.

 

you should know me well enough by now.

i dont respond to pressure. not at all.

so leave me be.

 

let me figure things out for myself.

the same way i figured out how i felt for you.

the same way i knew you were the one.

 

leave me be.

 

:grr: :grr:

Edited August 30, 2004 by WyldChik

[moonflower]

God,

 

 

will it be so bad if I give up? i find it harder and harder to keep the faith ...and this is so not fair to my friend.