The Mail Box

[in_style]

To Whom It May Concern,

 

yesterday we posted a commentary about foreigners using wrong grammar in the similar thread and we are just reacting to the one posted by nzchick but unfortunately a MOD (we dont know who he/she is, syempre) deleted our posts because of the fact that some people are nasty they cant accept that sometimes they fall on the same filth. the MOD deleted our posting because its OT but as i back read a little a MOD posting also fall on the same category. what is this? double standard? thats hipocrisy!

 

well some people are indeed nasty and feel superior than others. such little power given to this person can be dangerous.

 

critically yours,

cee

 

ps. hey! i didnt observe the formal format of this letter. what the heck! hehehe...

 

dear cee,

 

i came across your mail and i just wanna stress that there is no and there shouldnt be double standard in this site. it is unfortunate that u and some other people had experienced that. perhaps the admin can help you in tracking who deleted what.

 

rest assured, the admin and the mods are mandated to follow strict rules and apply them here. power tripping will and is not to be tolerated at all cost.

 

thank you very much for bringing up this concern.

 

 

--angel eyes--

[Lipstick]

Cee,

 

I was the one who deleted your post and jazzmine's post due to its OT nature. You yourself said it was OT. If your post was in the RANTS and RAVE thread then no MOD would have the right to delete your post. It's nothing personal.

 

Now, I don't know which post you are referring to that was OT by a MOD. I just caught the last page of the thread and deleted as I deemed it fit. But if you must know, there have been instances where MODS delete other MODS' posts due to OT, but of course you also never notice this because you also don't monitor all the threads. Just because you personally don't see it happening it doesn't mean that it doesn't happen.

 

If you have a problem with this then kindly report it via PM to any ADMIN. I shall remain steadfastly righteous in my decision of deleting your post and jazzmine's post. See, the problem with OT posts is that they encourage more OT posts so MODS are tasked to nip them at the bud.

 

p.s. I just checked the last 2 pages of the said thread and the only MOD that posted would be me. What was so OT about my post?

[Chito]

____________,

 

Oh great.....that's just what we need right now.

 

=====chito

[Zerreit]

My dearest,

 

I never thought you can hurt me any more than you have already, but you did. What have I done to you to deserve such? Because of you, I am now experiencing infinite sadness. My heart is shattered into a million pieces, I don't think it'll ever be whole again.

 

L

[Zerreit]

I have closed the gaping wound and dried the tears. A scumbag like you don't deserve my blood, my tears, and any emotions from me.

 

L

[Sabine]

Kuya,

 

At last, after waiting for over a year, your big day is finally near. I can almost taste the champagne. Remember when you came home one night, you smelled of alcohol and told me you didn't know what to do without her, that you wanted to marry her the soonest? I couldn't help but laugh because aside from the fact that we never discuss matters of the heart, the sight of my tough, macho brother, half-drunk, dead serious and absolutely love-struck was indeed a Kodak moment.

 

Yes, you make a picture-perfect couple but I would have preferred someone who can compensate your shortcomings, who was raised with the same values that we were taught. But you are so alike in a lot of difficult ways that has caused Mom and Dad a lot of hurt and pain. I can see that you adore each other but love does not stop at accepting each other's faults. It also entails growing together into perfection, or at least with the sincere effort to do right.

 

I pray that you both learned from last year's drama. Whatever we do, good or bad, will affect the family. It doesn’t matter how old we are. We may move away from home, get married, have our own lives but we never really outgrow our family. I am comforted by the thought that we always have each other to fall back on. Mom and Dad raised us well. Perhaps their only fault was loving us too much, even if they sometimes quietly disapproved of our actions.

 

Be thankful that in this universe of madness, you have found your clarity. Love her, nurture her, grow in God's grace together and teach your children the proper values, just like what Mom and Dad have tried to teach us. I'll be leaving them both in your care so please take care of them as we give them back the unconditional love that they have showered us our whole lives.

 

Congratulations again Kuya. I will miss all of you.

 

Love always,

Your little sister

[Shiro]

There you go again... blaming your inadequacies and your inability to deal with life by placing the blame on your favourite scapegoat... me.

 

Well it's not going to work this time. I refuse to take the blame for anything this immature, ill-considered, and utterly selfish tantrum of yours, our break-up, results in. You started this, you deal with it.

 

Deal with my near total lack of feelings for you. Deal with the fact that I will rub my right to access to our daughter in your face forever. Deal with the fact that the entire reasoning behind all this is because you are a spoiled child who didn't get what she wanted from me. Deal with it all. And be responsible for it all.

 

Because I will no longer be responsible for all your screw-ups. I realized I never was. Because despite wgat i may have caused you to do, it was still your decision to do. You've lived your life in mock deference to the will of others to acquit yourself of your responsibilities... find someone else to play your scapegoat now honey. I'm through.

 

And one last thing... deal with it when I finally find someone I can truly love.

[irshes]

Don't be bothered by what you read, what you hear, what you see. I assure you, I am in control.

One more month, and we will be together. I can't wait.

 

T.

[Shikura]

ANGEL'S SONG

 

 

Hitoribocchi nanka ja nainda to

Yoru ni nigekonde iikikaseta

Kekkyoku sore wa jibun no kodoku o

Hinihini ukibori ni shiteku dake datta

 

Kensou kara hanareta kaerimichi

Itsumo to nani mo kawaranai noni

Kurikaeshiteku noka to omottara

Kyuu ni namida ga komiagete kita

 

Tayorinakute nasakenakute

Fuan de samishikute

Koe ni naranai koe de

Nukumori o hoshigatta

 

*Nee kimi wa tashika ni totsuzen araware

Watashi no kurayami ni hikari sashita

Soshite sukoshi waratte daijoubu datte unazuite

Watashi no te o totte arukidashita

 

Kimi no se ni tenshi no hane o mita

 

Tsuyoku naritai to nagatta no wa

Itami ni nibuku naru tame ja nai

 

Tasukerarete sasaerarete

Ataeatte yurushiatta

Ano hi mamotte ikitai

Mono ga dekita kara

 

**Nee kimi wa tokidoki muboubi sugiru kurai

Watashi ni subete de butsukatte kuru

Sore wa amarinimo mabushi sugiru hodo de

Watashi wa mabataki sae mo oshimu no

 

Kimi wa se ni tenshi no hane o motsu

 

* (repeat)

 

**(repeat)

 

Kimi wa se ni tenshi no hane o motsu

 

Kono kanashiki jidai no giseisha ni

Kimi wa douka naranaide hoshii

Setsunaru omoi ga todoku youni to

Watashi wa kyou mo inoru youni utau

[Shikura]

For my Little Bebe,

 

Daddy misses you a lot and I want you to know that I love you. I would give up everything for you. You are everything to me and everything I am, i give to you. Can't wait for you to come home.

 

Daddy T

 

English Translation of the above..

 

ANGEL'S SONG

 

 

Escaping into nights, I told myself

That I was not at all alone

But after all, it revealed

Nothing but my loneliness day by day

 

On my way home from the bustle of the city

Though it was no different from any other day

I thought I would repeat such pattern of life

And tears welled up suddenly

 

Feeling weak and wretched

Uneasy and lonely

I wanted some warmth

In a faint voice

 

*But it's certain you appeared suddenly

And a ray of light shone in my darkness

You smiled a little, told me it was all right with a nod

Took my hand and started to walk

 

I saw an angel's wings on your back

 

It was not because I wanted to be dull to pain

That I wished to be strong

 

I was helped and supported by you

We gave and forgave each other

I got what I wanted to protect

On that day

 

**Sometimes you are too unprotected

And come face to face with me with all your might

It's so much dazzling

That I even spare the time of a blink

 

You have an angel's wings on your back

 

* (repeat)

 

** (repeat)

 

You have an angel's wings on your back

 

I heartily hope that you will not be

A victim of this sad age

I sing this song today just as I pray

So that my dearest wish may reach you

[irshes]

Yeah, oohh

I stare at your face

Into your eyes

Outside, there's so much passing us by

All of the sounds

All of the sights

Over the earth

And under the sky

Too much cold

And too much rain

Too much heartache to explain

 

[Chorus]

Who needs the world when I've got you

Switch off the sun, the stars and the moon

I've all I need inside of this room

Who needs the world when I've got you

Oh, no no

 

I walk on the street

Talk in the dark

I see people, strangers, falling apart

I open my arms

Try to be true

Seems my only truth is you

Am I wrong or am I right?

All I want is you tonight

 

[Chorus]

 

Who needs the stars so bright?

And the grass so green?

And the morning light?

Who needs the wind to blow

And the tide to rise

Who needs it?

I don’t know, I don’t know

Yeah

 

 

B,

 

I'm listening to this song as I type this. You never fail to make me smile.

I was thinking how mad I was when I first found out what your "alterego" here is like. I never realized that discovering that side of you would instead make me understand you better, and thus make us even closer.

I've told you so many times, but I can never tell it often enough. Our friendship is something I value very much. I feel so lucky you're still here after all these years.

I can't wait to see you again. I will be counting the days until I do.

I love you.

 

T.

[Guest the_eight_of_orbs]

Dear FORGETFUL JONES,

 

あなたの幼稚な微笑は私の脊柱に震えを送る。

あなたの柔らかい接触は私の睡眠の精神を覚醒させる。

あなたの甘い少しする私に微笑を接吻する。

あなたの炎熱の舌の部品は私の足何でも好む。

私達が窒息させたいと思うあなたの笑い声の作り。

あなたの中国人- 日本の目は私の精神に穴を開ける。

あなたのくすくす笑いは私の耳へecstasy のため息である。

あなたの滑らか、 グライドを見るために私が抵抗することができない線形ボディ。

私をつける、 私は私の小さい接吻との破壊したいと思う。

 

赤ん坊を心配してはいけない、 私は私が立つどこに知っている。

私により私達に両方の悩みを引き起こさない。

私が私の心を離れて得るようであることができないけれどもあなたのことを考えることにおいて私を責めてはいけない。

私を忘れてはいけない、 赤ん坊。

 

I hope this makes sense.

 

Eight

[Zerreit]

I'll be alright. I know I will. I'm a strong girl but I have my moments of weakness too. It's what makes me human. Things can only get better. I still have myself, and I am fortunate to realize that. I have friends and my work to dwell on. These are the reasons I will myself to be strong. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine.

 

L

[Zerreit]

I sit here alone in the dark. Crying in agony, knowing no one can see and hear me. Wishing someone is here with me to comfort me, to hug me, to tell me everything will be alright. But there is no one. I am alone. I wipe the flood of tears. I try to wipe them dry but they keep on flowing. I wish it would stop. I am in so much pain right now. I don't think I can handle this. But I have to get past this. I will not let it ruin me.

 

I feel numb, empty, emotionally void. I told myself I won't cry. But I did. I still am crying. Tears are almost blinding my eyes right now. This will be the last time I cry over this, over you. This will be the last and only time I allow you to hurt me this bad.

 

I now have exhausted all tears. Enough already.

 

L

[in_style]

dear you...

 

inasmuch as i dont wanna be a burden...

i feel that i owe it to you and to myself to be honest,

m tired already. i dont think i can stay this way.

its not that i am letting this go without a fight.

been there... done that.

this will always remain in my heart.

you will always be special...

and i will always wish you well.

 

thank you.

 

 

me