The Mail Box

[Zerreit]

Dearest Grandma Nena,

 

On Sunday it's going to be the 40th day since you've passed away.

 

I tried very hard not to cry during the wake and during the funeral. I know being the eldest of all the grandchildren, everyone would be expecting me to be strong, to help out, to watch over Grandpa. I tried very hard. I really did.

 

Sometimes I wanted to weep when I am alone, but then I'd feel your presence next to me. It's like you'd comfort me whenever I feel like my strength is fading. I appreciate that.

 

It was very nice to see the entire family whole again. I was looking at you inside your coffin and you were smiling. I am glad that even if it was such a sad event that everyone came together, you still found it in you to smile.

 

I hold true to my promise to Mom and Dad, and to everybody. I will watch over grandpa and take care of him.

 

I love you and we all miss you. You're always in my thoughts and definitely always in my heart.

 

Love your granddaughter,

 

L

[Wyld]

J -

 

you are probably the only one who can wound me this deeply and this quickly. its funny how you managed to unhinge me with just a simple phone call. i thought i was okay... i had deluded myself into thinking all was well.

 

but a two minute call...not even fifty pesos on your next cellfone bill...and i am up til 2 in the morning, thoughts a churning in my head, heart beating so fast that i have to breathe into a bag just to stay sane.

 

thanks. maybe i needed the reality check. maybe i needed to know that... im still in limbo. floating. unmoored.

 

i need to get my life back from you.

 

the question is when.

 

- K

Edited March 3, 2004 by WyldChik

[irshes]

I still think about you.

I shouldn't. But I do.

I miss you.

[Wyld]

Dear Mommy,

 

I was always a Daddy's Girl. You were always the Mommy who punished me whenever I was a bad little girl -- and that was often.

 

But when Daddy died, and I went into my rebel phase, you were there. When the dust settled, and I became a normal human being, you were still there....

 

In time, as I grew older, I cherished the way our relationship changed. From being mom and daughter to ... housemates and friends. Yes we would have our rows... and our arguments but... you were one of the constants in my life.

 

It was not easy for me when you passed away. It was hell coming home to an empty house... at times it still is. But I knew you would have wanted me to be strong and move on. I will never forget your last words to me -- asking me to get you out of ICU because you were worried about the cost... How typically Mommy. That last hug. That last touch.

 

And now, im writing to tell you that.. im finally setting out to do what I have always wanted to do. What I know you always have wanted me to do... Im going to try and make a go of it outside the Philippines. I know it will not be easy. But I also know i owe it to me and the memory of you to try.

 

Most of all, I know you will be guiding me and cheering me on... As you always have. As you always will.

 

I love you Mommy -- those were words that were never really easy for us to say to each other -- we had always let our actions speak our feelings... But I do love you Mommy, always will.

 

I know im not a Mommy's girl, but what I am now, what I will be tomorrow is partly because of you.

 

Thank you Mommy.

 

I will do you proud.

 

-K

[de hunter]

Dear someone,

 

Ang lalaking ito ay minahal ka ng tapat, ipinagmalaki at tinanggap kahit ano o sino ka man. Lagi siyang nasa tabi mo sa mga sandaling ikaw ay nalulumbay at lumuluha, Laging handa ang kanyang dibdib at balikat upang iyong himlayan. Sa oras ng iyong kagipitan at pangangailangan siya ay hindi nagpapabaya.

 

Sabi mo ay mahal na mahal mo at ayaw mong siyang mawala sa buhay mo.

 

Pero bakit ganoon? pag kausap mo ang ibang tao siya ang masama, may kasalanan at siya ang nang aaway. Wala kang tale sa leeg na tulad ng isang aso kagaya ng sabi ng iyong kausap. SELOS? di siya nag seselos o nag babantay, nais lamang niyang ituwid ang mali mong gawi at baluktot mong katwiran na di kayang ituwid ng iyong magulang at kapatid.

 

Sana di ka na niya binalikan iyon ang sabi mo.. kundi lang ano?... iniwan mo na siya. Bakit ka umiiyak kapag di siya tumatawag sa iyo sa phone. Mag iiwan ka ng message na please tawagan mo naman ako ..miss na miss na kita. Ganoon ba ang mang iiwan? Sinabi mong marami ang may gusto sa iyo, ayaw mo lang tanggapin dahil mahal mo siya. Pinayagan ka niya na humanap ng iba pero ayaw mo at sabi mo pa siya lang ang lalaki sa buhay mo. Pero taliwas yun sa mga sinabi mo sa bawat iyong makausap, Ikaw ang hinahabol at binabalikan, totoo ba yon?

 

Nasira ang magandang reputasyon ng taong ito ng dahil sa iyo. Pinagbintangan, sinisi, napasama ng dahil sa mga sinabi mo tungkol sa kanya. Baka naman napadala ka sa mga matatamis na salita ng iyong kausap at kanilang berdeng pangungusap. O talagang ganyan ka na di mababago.

 

Walang mahalaga sa iyo kundi ang iyong sarili, mapabuti ka lang ay gagawin mo ang mga bagay kahit na ikasasama ng mga taong nakagawa ng kabutihan sa iyo.

Wag mong sabihing di ito totoo... may kasabihang kung ano ang buka ng bibig iyon ang laman ng dibdib.

 

Sana, sa pamamagitan nito mabawasan ng kahit kaunti ang hapding kanyang nadarama ngayun.

 

Abang siya lamang

Edited March 5, 2004 by de hunter

[archer_dude]

Man I better start taking care of myself or else I'm gonna die young.

[sweetpsyche]

hey ALEX!

 

ur poem is great

 

sweetp.

[Mayella]

dear ***,

 

i want out already. can't take this anymore. i'm sorry i led you to believe that we still had a good thing going. but i have been contemplating the past few days and i realize that i don't want to settle anymore for just this.

 

L

Edited March 6, 2004 by mayella76

[Z]

Love Yearning

 

I dream about you lady

transcending both space and time

I've always yearned to have you with me

I have fumbled in my search

in your eyes will it be such a crime?

 

To have you in my arms

your heart so close to mine

bound in this, our eternity

What walls must I breach?

Alone under the full moon till the right chime

 

Till then my dear baby

Sweet nothings twinge to be free

Melodies in my head as I be fully mine

Sand in my hand, I walk the beach

This love I've claimed, cherished fine wine

 

I dream of that day lady

Two hearts one beat, together side by side

Sweet kiss of your lips, soulful embrace

I soon wake from this sweet reverie

Face to face, our forever, our time

 

06-03-2004

Edited March 6, 2004 by Z

[Alex_Corvis]

Hey SweetP,

 

Thx for appreciatin'

 

alex

[Guest gorgeous_23]

i mishu

[Switlass]

written October 2003

 

Dear ****

 

I may have been moody, and I may have been at fault. Right now I'm scared I just lost you but more afraid of having to explain the cause of yet another unexplainable mood swing. Afraid that the love you have been profesing is not enough to make you cope with the attitude.

 

So afraid I don't even want to turn on my phone in fear of a scary message you might have for me.

 

Have I pushed you too far?Was your love too shallow that all it took was a lousy week of not seeing each other for it to fade?

 

Is it you? OR have I become unbearably moody for not having your flesh on mine for too long? Has my actions made you think twice about my love for you .. It is not only lust after all.

 

I think.

 

So what if I'd rather not see you if I can't have you in me? on me? SO what if i'd rather go out with friends if you just want to hang out?

 

It isn't lust after all.

 

I think.

 

Dee

Edited March 7, 2004 by swit_lass

[sikosci]

to you,

 

im not good with words but i hope this song pretty much tells you how i feel

 

FALLIN by boyz II men

 

Everytime I think of you

The woman all my life been waiting

There's nothing that I'd rather do

Than love you endlessly

Don't know what you see in me

Girl you bring out the best in me

And I realize when I look in your eyes

There's nothing that I can do

 

Chorus:

Catch me I'm fallin'

Head over heels in love with you

Oh bless me fallin'

And no one can do

Catch me I'm fallin'

And my heart is like brand new

I'm falling in love, falling in love

With you

 

Everytime I see your face

Its like sunshine on a cloudy day

Its a feeling that can't be replaced

Like the feeling when we embrace

Out of everything that you do to me

For your love I'll do almost everything

And I realize when I look in your eyes

There's nothing that I cannot do

 

Chorus

 

Now tell me how much you love me

And show me how much you need

I'm waiting right here for you

Whenever you need

 

I'm fallin', fallin', fallin' in love with you

[Leslie Garcia]

DEAREST.....

 

You don't really understand me .. when i said a word no one can change that not even you .... you are such a fool ....

 

just me

Edited March 7, 2004 by Leslie Garcia

[Z]

Dear Tito,

 

Just let it go, f**king let it go before I lose my repsect for you as a businessman.

 

 

E