Writings of the Heart

[lemon]

,

 

i know where i sit... even if you sometimes don't seem to think that i do? i do. and for someone you know who don't seem to have a consistent trail of thought, you also know that you can always close your eyes against the tumult of the wind and reach for my hands until the final piece of debris settles into the calm. up close and never far. i can even feel your breathe against my face and that is where i sit.

 

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[Leyna]

I'm just glad that you're doing fine, making friends and got a bit tougher. I don't know how I can keep up before the cycle goes through and change catches up and make me more different than when I left. But one thing's for sure. I was happy at the relationship that we had when we were together, even after the rough times and the shame of hurting you quite often, and that if when I come back, if we are too different, then there's no point in going on with this. No matter how long we have gotten.

 

You are not alone in suffering and loneliness. I may not make it seem so fair sometimes, but I have been doing my best also. I am wounded too. But I still know that I still want you to be happy everyday, even if i fall short of doing so. Please, honey, don't take it out on me. Our distance is the culprit.

 

-- Leon/ 31-01-09

[pencilbrain]

xXx Colors xXx

 

A grasp with a handful of colors

I indulged myself with no factors

I tried gray to match my scarf

As brown made me feel like a dwarf

 

I swapped my black cardigan for blue

With a thought that a change was due

Somehow yellow stood out in my mind

That's how it all came down to a bind

 

I hid yellow behind a glass closet

Foolishly believed I'd soon forget

There I discovered a green stain

Wonder what might soothe my pain

 

Then I stumbled on brown in a cue

Just to find yellow hidden in blue

Can you tell which color its whom

As it tells a love epic of six in gloom

[TanglewoodBoy]

love you so much my boo!!

 

[Guest Riveria]

You will never know what you do to me every time I see you, but it kills me that right now we can't be together. No matter that I will always have something in my heart for you, and it would make my life complete if you were in it. I love everything about you, and I miss getting to see you. I just want you to know that I will be here ... waiting for you.

[pencilbrain]

Love Is Like Magic

 

Love is like magic

And it always will be.

For love still remains

Life's sweet mystery!!

 

Love works in ways

That are wondrous and strange

And there's nothing in life

That love cannot change!!

 

Love can transform

The most commonplace

Into beauty and splendor

And sweetness and grace.

 

Love is unselfish,

Understanding and kind,

For it sees with its heart

And not with its mind!!

 

Love is the answer

That everyone seeks...

Love is the language,

That every heart speaks.

 

Love can't be bought,

It is priceless and free,

Love, like pure magic,

Is life's sweet mystery!

[pencilbrain]

Because Of You

 

You are the one that caught my eye

From the moment you first walked by

You are the one that blows me away

As time goes on throughout each day

 

You are the one who I found to be beautiful

In heart, mind, body, and soul

You are the on who gave me a kiss

Something I will treasure and hope I will never have to miss

 

You are the one who I see when I close my eyes

My heart skips a beat and makes me feel so alive

You are the one that I would do anything for

Cause you're my angel and the one I adore

 

You are the one that is so lovable

Cause everything about you is unforgettable

You are the one who always amazes me

And for that I will love you for eternity

[brochador69]

Ang hirap magmahal. Lalu kung hindi siya para sayo. :cry:

[Guest Riveria]

So as i sit and wonder why. Why i couldn't of just told you the truth about how i really felt. The feelings I've kept inside for so very long. It's just so hard to let them just come free. But deep down i know that telling you is the right way to go. So as you read this i hope you get a hint of how I've really felt after all these years of my feelings so deep down i think now its just time. Time to let them come out. And I'm hoping you'll get where I'm coming from with all this. And i am sorry it took so long. But now the feelings are out so please let me know how you really felt.

[Guest biancaanne]

I chanced passing by a book that I know I shouldn't have even paid attention to in the first place. But anyway, knowing how temptations work, I did scan this intriguing book. It enumerates what I should start doing if I were to survive this arrangement of ours. And frankly, I don't know how long I would be able to keep smile at you without you seeing the sadness in my eyes. I hate it when realizations start to sink in, and when thoughts creep into my head, thoughts that I shall never tell you because I'm too afraid to have history repeat itself. I want to take it one day at a time, and not overwhelm you. It's becoming a herculean task to mask the tears and the impending grief. It is wrong for me to hope, and yet somehow, I am hoping that you would be the one who would save me from myself, and ultimately understand that I have these bouts of self-pity and emotionality. But if this hope will result to nothing, then I will accept hitting rock bottom for the nth time and pick myself up, just like I have always done.

 

One thing's for sure, I'm never going to scan that book again, so much as to go near it.

[Leyna]

Honey, even if things don’t go as planned, I want you to know that I have tried, am trying, and will not stop trying. It might take more than usual for me to recover from pitfalls, but, I assure you that I can. Just be patient. I’m trying now, as hard as I can, and there won’t be enough hugs or kisses to make me feel okay if I could not pull this off. As much as I’d hate it, because this means that I might act like a jerk once in a while, you are at my softest core. It is not me who put you there, so I do not know how to handle this. You are deep within me now that it is now impossible for me to make it without you. Please be kinder when I’m unkind. Even monsters need understanding sometimes.

 

Please wait and be patient with me. I have the most imperfect of imperfections. Marry me when I pull this off, ’cause I think I cannot be worthy of you if I fail.

 

--Leon 3/10/08

[Guest redhotlips]

excerpt from The Prophet

 

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

 

 

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

[Leyna]

I love you… and it is the potential in you great enough to not need me anymore that makes me fear everything about who I am. It is not you who couldn’t find another. It is me. Even at my worst state of anger, even at the worst state of our relationship’s demise, it is me who couldn’t leave you behind. I just couldn’t leave you alone.

 

--Leon 3/10/08

[pencilbrain]

I'm Sorry

 

There's no other way to say it,

Nothing left for me to do

But to say once more I'm sorry

and I always will love you.

 

I've let my life escape me.

I've forgotten what was real.

Like how you take my breath away

And how you make me feel.

 

I've hurt the person I love most.

I let love slip away.

I have no right to ask for this

But I'm begging you to stay

 

I'm sorry for the things I've said.

I hate what I have done.

I hate that I have hurt you.

When I know you are the one.

 

There's nothing more than I can say

No excuse that I can make

But to beg you not to walk away

If only for love's sake.

 

No matter where life leads us.

Whether we're together or apart.

Remember that you fill my soul

and will always have my heart

[ryujin6190]

Whatever happens, I'm always right behind you no matter how big the problems that you are now facing. I have faith that you'll overcome these trials. Love you so much.