Sitti of TVS

Follow your heart and never doubt. When you doubt you lose

but if my heart are into pieces... which piece do i follow..?

that everytime na ginagamit ko yung puso ko, hindi talaga gumagana yung utak ko.. so im thinking if papano ko matatanggal na ng tuluyan yung puso ko...

the only thing i should do is to grow into the best human being i could be.

if i dont love myself first i will always be chasing after people who dont love me either.

everytime i start to follow my heart i always end up being hurt. that's the thing with me. whenever im using my heart i shut down my mind. the result. im more broken than before.

been dreaming about him for the last 4 days straight na. not the usual dream ko about him before where my dreams are my memories of us.. these past 4 days been dreaming of him trying to win be back... been dreaming of him crying, telling me he miss me, the dreams are not clear but i always woke up crying. kala ko it's just because somehow i miss him padin. pero just receive a message sa facebook from the woman she super love before... and it really breaks my heart... how is he doing na kaya... ok lang ba sya... bakit nagkakaganun nanaman sia... haist i wanna be with him but i know he wouldnt let me . i know he will just push me away. i waana hug him. i wanna cry with him.. we will just cuddle all night kakalimutan namin for a while yung mga bagay bagay. i just know him too well alam ko whatever he does my reason sia for it.. maybe he's faliing apart again.. haist.. he will alwasy be my cuddle bug.( the client who i gave my everything )

i think everyone has the same heart as mine. and that's whats f#&king me up.

'what kind of woman are you'

its been long since i last posted in this thread.

it's so hard for a thera to trust a gm ( vice versa ) but once the walls are down and she completely let you in. just imagine how long it will be for her to build it again once you leave her. yes in some cases or in most cases yung mga gms lagi yung parang naaargabyado. kasi they invest 'financially' . but we, (theras) we invest our reputation, our emotions, binababa namin yung defense namin. some may be monsters. i personally know some. pero nag cross kaya sa mind nyo na that 'monster' was once a princess, a damsel in distress, imagine how being in this industry can suck the life out of us. nauubos din kami. nag dedeteriorate. only time can tell when we will start to lose our self respect. or even ourselves. then we become numb. and when that 'prince charming' finally comes. will a prince charming be able to love a monster that we become..?

i agree na yes mas malaki yung succeeding level if you fall for a thera na bago pa lang sa industry. kasi di pa sia durog eh. maybe di pa sia nasasabihang p#ta ng harapan ng ibang gms. maybe di pa sia nababato sa muka ng pera. maybe di nia pa naeexperience ma pin sa wall.. maybe it's easier for her na makaalis sa industry kasi di pa sia nakakain ng sistema. maybe that thera still believe in happily ever after. then came this gm na lalaruin lang sia. will make her fall. then wooshoong will break her heart.. then the outcome..? another monster.

paulit ulit lang paikot ikot lang. yung bagong thera sasaktan ng gm. then yung gm sasaktan ng thera. paulit ulit na cycle. then they will hate each other. hayst i really dont know what im trying to say. this thing just crossed my mind. but the bottomline. spakols are just a place where you should relax and temporarily forget your problems in the outside. and we should only provide the service na pinunta nyo. you didnt go here for love. we also didnt work here to find love. just let things be what they should really be.

sa mga nasa sitwasyon nato. just think about this. for gms, isipin mo muna if totoong kaya mong tanggapin yung past nia.. yung totoo ha. hindi kunwari lng. and if she really love you to the point na she's willing to leave the 'comfort' or lahat ng luho that this industry can give . and have a decent job without you asking. for theras, loving with your heart, and 'loving' with your mind are two different things. if you love a client with your heart, then do what you should do i know your heart knows. but if you love a client with your mind, please stop. and just work hard. you can leave this industry without hurting anyone.

just my two cents.

To all theras in this thread:

If a thera goes ATW with a client for more than a year already doing it 2 to 3 times a month, will that be an indication that the thera has feelings for the client? Or can that be a case of trabaho lang?

 

A friend (non-member of mtc) pays the thera everytime they do it. No formalities. No commitment. No dates. And he has not asked the thera of her feelings for fear it may ruin whatever they may have.

 

Your views are much appreciated.

hmmmm if i have feelings for a client.... il do it for free..

if a thera can easily give an atw... there's a possibilty that she can/will do it kahit kaninong client with no emotions involve..

just my 2 cents.. have a great day..

How Girls with anxiety love differently.

You’re swimming in an ocean, and without notice or warning you begin slipping under the surface. You kick and kick, slowly losing your breath. You can’t breathe, but you keep kicking. No matter how hard you kick, how hard you try to scream, no one can hear you or help you. Your lungs are burning from the lack of oxygen; you can’t reach the surface. You keep reaching toward the sunlight; you see the surface, but you can’t get there. You’re stuck 10 feet under. You’re without air; you're without your breath; you black out.

That’s anxiety. Anxiety consumes you; anxiety becomes you, and for hours you’re alone. You’re drowning, and no one can save you, no matter how loudly you yell.

As a result of constantly feeling like this, girls with anxiety have their guard up. We handle almost everything with worry, and we are on edge, wondering what will set off our anxiety next, and just like that, we're back feeling like we're in that ocean.

Girls with anxiety love differently. But I promise you, we will love you like no one else ever will. We will love you like you are our one and only, you're our safe space, you're the person we know we can trust, and our love for you and our appreciation for you will never go unnoticed.

We need reassurance.
Please be patient when we ask you for the tenth time if you're leaving. We are not in control of our anxiety most of time, so we always want to know what you are thinking, so we are not blindsided because we want to be in control of something in our life. Even though we make you repeat yourself, do not ever think we are ever doubting you. The feeling we get when you know you aren't leaving is so calming. We will love you for it, forever.

We need to feel safe.
Overprotective? Yes, please. Girls with anxiety need to feel safe in their relationships. We are independent, so don't get confused. We just need a little more safety. We need to know you are there, and you care. When we are out in public, we really don't like randoms hitting on us or making us feel uncomfortable, and we'd really like for you to step in and handle it calmly. Because we need to feel safe, girls with anxiety will never go out of their way to converse with randoms. You are our safety net, and you are the only one we will ever want. Please always remember that forever.

We form close bonds.
We lean on you a little more than normal girlfriends. When we're happy, we're happy; when we're sad, we're a mess. If we feel an ounce of anxiety, you are the first person we need. You are the only person we trust to handle us when we're shaking, and when we are gasping for breath. Because you see us so vulnerable, we form a bond with you that you won't ever have again, I promise you.

We will love you like no one else.
We tend to be a little much at times, yes. However, we trust you with our entire lives. Anxiety is real; what we feel is real, and knowing we have someone there who is attempting to understand and not leaving no matter how many times we question it. We love you because you are our protector, our lover and our calmer. You are so much more to us than a significant other. You are our world, and we are so incredibly thankful for it, and we will tell you 10 million times a day.

We will never let you go to sleep without feeling loved. No matter how many times you ask if we are OK, we always say yes because your happiness is more important than our own, even though you always know when something is wrong. We will hold you like no other woman will, and we will appreciate all the small things you do.

Anxiety controls your body. Anxiety controls your heart. The simple "we need to talk" throws our body in flight-or-fight mode, and we lose feeling. The simple "I don't know anymore" turns our hearts inside out. Breakups are hard, but girls with anxiety will struggle to find themselves again because they put so much faith into you. They love you more than you can ever comprehend, and once you love like that, it's almost impossible to ever love like that again.

So, if you are dating a girl with anxiety, she is not a mess; she is not a prisoner; she is not a burden like she always thinks she is. She is a gift that should be treasured. We tend to need a little more TLC, but we will cherish you for it. Girls with anxiety love differently. But I promise you, we will love you like no one else ever will.

By MacKenzie Nicole Meadows

the thing is, some people dont know how to handle the pain. for example. the pain of rejection. there are some clients na magclaclaim or magtatapat sa thera that he loves her. then the thera rejects him... next thing the client do. its either accept it. find another thera. and move on. or gawing goal yung pagdestroy sa image ng thera or try to destroy her emotionally. i once experienced it. my client na i refuse to do. kasi he told me he loves me. then one time i have no choice but to service him. know what happen..? he just makes me feel like im a thing. weird.. super weird kasi parang pinaramdam nia saking oh bababayaran kita you should do this blah blah blah as in sobrang nakakabastos talaga.. he wasnt like that before. then he shortchanged me. which wala naman na din ako pakialam. doesnt matter. then i told him we can be friends but i dont wanna see him here. lol. kasi siguro sobrang hurt sia. di nia makontrol and i can feel it through his actions. unintentionally his trying to hurt me emotionally.

top 3 super lovable theras i've met. (in all aspects. )

1. heily

2. star

3. rose

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever.

This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect.

You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you.

This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you¡¯re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined; it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

i just read this somewhere and well.... somehow i agree...

sharing sharing... hmmm i fall inlove with my bestfriend... kaso it didnt work.. siado madaming naging conflicts.. and marami akong bagay na alam about sa kanya and vice versa. masyado ko siang kilala to the point na alam ko it wont work... but still we are still friends kaya lang parang nagkaron ng invisible wall... though we both decide to stop. ewan nagkaron na talaga ng gap unlike before... but it's ok... kasi may natutunan naman kami both...

then next i fall in love with someone i believe to be perfect. him. mr. e ( client ) i admire him sobra. kulang nalang sambahin ko sia. to the point na minsan kahit alam kong i dont deserve the pain kasi its too much na. pilit pa rin akong gumagawa ng excuse for him sa mga ginagawa nia. as in lahat ng gawin nia sobrang hinahangaan ko. kahit at the back of my mind alam kong mali na.. maybe thats the very reason why di ako makamove on before kasi iniisip kong perfect sia... but then i realize na maybe lahat lahat illusion ko lang.. imagination ko lang. yeah he is a great man. but he is not perfect because nobody is perfect...

then lastly, now. i fall inlove with someone like me.. everytime i look at him.. nakikita ko yung sarili ko. every time i listen to him it was like im listening to myself. ang cute lang parang im seeing myself, the man version of me. same thinking. same kilos. same way of loving. minsan iniisip ko pa lang then sasabihin na nya. gagawin ko pa lang, ginagawa na nia. the sad part is he is broken. much way broken than me. and i find it really scary. kasi im finding it really hard to fix myself to be able to give my best.. pano pa kaya sia...? he is way more broken than me.. i cant imagine how nia ififix yung broken heart nia. we are both in the wrong places. both in the wrong time.. both in the phase of destruction. both with a tragic past. can we help each other put our missing pieces together..? or we will just gonna waste our time?

direction. i think that's what missing in my life right now. kagabi narealize ko wala nanaman akong nilook forward for the future.. walang plano.. walang goal... well... kaya need ko na mag isip isip and magreflect if ano talaga want ko para maayos na and makapag set na ng goals.....

career.

gym instructor : mabigat ba..? kung nabibigatan ka eto nalang .. wag mo pilitin..

me : di ko naman pinipilit ah.. naglelet go nga ako eh..

^^Nilayasan ka nagpa delete / nagpa ban ng account, bwahaha!

nagmessage din po sia sakin na burahin ko na accounts nia.. sabi ko mamaya na kasi nag eenjoy pa ko away muna kako kami... eh nagpadeactivate din po pala sayo... ang daya nun tinakbuhan ako.. huhu

monggi bat nagpadeactivate ka agad..??? anu ba yan...!!! now palang namimiss na kita!!!!! ipagluluksa ko ang pagkawala mo sa community... nu ba yan kala ko pa naman may magpapasaya na sakin at panandalian akong malilibang eh sinukuan mo agad ako... huhuhuhuhuh.... if ever maisipan mo uli gumawa ng account away ulit tayo ha..? il be waiting mua!! i miss you monggi...!!!

nu ba yan ang lame!!! super lame!!! hahahahahahahahaha naexcite pa naman ako... akala ko malilibang ako.. and hellow... my words compare to yours..? duh!!! as if... !!! hmmm.... beauty is in the eye of the beholder... while pagiging monggi ay nakikita ng lahat iisa tingin sa monggi... hi monggi... pakiayos mo naman siadong lame eh.... please entertain me!!!

tska paretoke mo mukha mo.. salamat.. i dont wanna see your ugly face, mukha kang bakla seryoso.. ayaw lang aminin ng mga tao kasi, moderator ka, takot maban ang account, ako? i dont give a s@%t..

lol im earning 100k a month, if its because of this 'ugly' face.. i get paid for this ugly face... bat ako paparetoke..? hahahah im loving it super!!! hahahaha kamalas malasan mo lang for a year na moderator ako ikaw palang nababan ko lol obvious much hahahaha... and fyi this community dont need your gawa gawang kwento.. and i dont need your 500 pesos so even care bears dont care...

nde ako makapagreply sa updates, naban ba ulet? yun lang ata alam mo gawin eh. mag gym ka, seryoso, panget mo, kadiri ka, mukha kang bakla na katawan lalake. fight club? kawawa ka lang babae ka.. i dont hit girls, kasi nde ako bakla.. btw, whats monggi? and whos mongi?

oh talaga..? hahahahah alam mo ''former Gm again' bakla ka ba?ako nde' housekaba?!? unsemiretiredGm' Semi retired Gm' TryingtoretirenafromspaMp' 7incock. chinitoguylibis monggi means mongoloid.. monggoloid ka diba..? hahahahha lol...

if im fat, then what are you..? if im ugly, then anong tawag sayo..? monster na ganun...? maawa ka sa sarili mo aba...

calling calling 7incock / baklakaba chuvacheness leggo fight here im so bored!!! come on bring it on monggi...

I promised myself years ago that I will cease to post in this thread. But since my daughter is immersed in the discussion, I am duty bound as a dad to step in.

 

May mga lalaki talaga na walang balak panindigan thera gf nila. Pero sila lang may alam nun. Ang thera gf madalas clueless. That is asymmetric information. Sa business man o sa pag ibig resulta palagi niyan ay failure.

 

May mga gm naman na sa simula ay may intensyon na panindigan ang thera gf nila. Marami sa kanila binahay, ni live in, sinuportahan thera gf nila in more ways than one.

 

Pero kung ang thera ay nananatili sa industriya kung sa ano pa mang kadahilanan, mas mataas ang probability of failure than probability of success.

 

Bakit anak ko maitanong mo?

Kasi sa bawat flirtatious conversation sa thread, sa bawat malupet na fr graphic man o cryptic,sa bawat pm ng mga gms ay parang mga punyal na isa isang itinitirik at ibinabaon ng ibinabaon hanggang umabot sa sugpungan ng espiritu at kalukuwa ng gm.

 

Iilan lang ang kilala kong gms na nauwi sa kasalan o sa tahimik na pagsasama. Sa kanila may paghuhugutan ng pag asa ang mga gms na piniling mag mahal sa kanilang mga thera gf.

 

Sana nakatulong ako sa sarili mong pagsasaliksik anak.

 

Your dad who loves you unconditionally, intentionally, and sacrificially. edwinT

my heart is captured by a client, client na almost lahat ng thera sa spa na pinaggalingan ko eh nakuha na nya. tay can you imagine how i feel everytime mababalitaan kong nag sspa nanaman sia..? can you imagine how it's killing me, tinatanong ko sarili ko if hindi pa ba ko enough.. there are times na hindi ako makahinga.. sobrang sakit. . everytime im seeing him viewing other thera's profile. iniisip ko maybe same nung sakit na yun yung nararamdaman ng client na nainlove sa thera everytime makakabasa sila ng frs from other gms, that is one of the reason din if bakit gang maari ayaw ko na mag pa fr kasi mjo nag aassume ako na somehow special ako for him na baka kung ano isipin nia pag nagkakafr ako.. ever since, sinasabi ko and super open ako sa mga bagay bagay dito no filter kumbaga sinasabi ko what i feel, what i think. tay, sa mga oras na gusto ko ng mamatay. alam mo po isang tao lang yung naging sandalan ko. si part-e yun. sa mga oras na nawawalan na ko ng tiwala at respeto sa sarili ko. si part - e yung nagbabalik nun. kaya sa totoo lang po sumasama minsan loob ko pag sinasabihan mo po ako minsan na di ako dapat magsayang ng oras sa kanya. kung nasaan man po ako ngayon pasasalamat ko po sayo yun.. sobrang thankful po ako kasi naging malaking part ka po nun.... pero tay kahit ilang balde pa ng luha iiyak ko kahit umiyak pa ko ng dugo, mahal ko talaga yun eh hays... sobrang damang dama ko yung thread na to kasi i know how it feels, yung bestfriend ko na nagmahal ng thera i see how sia nasira because of her dahil sa love nia dun sa thera, and ako i love a client na di ako mahal. kaya it really breaks my heart whenever makakabasa ako ng mga posts na grabe hays. im crying! yan pinaiyak mo na ko tay penge ice cream!!!

Anong ibig sabihin ng panindigan? Financially? I guess this shouldn't be all about money. its more of like a two way thing. give and take...

no sir.. what i mean po by panindigan is ... if you cant stand by her till the end... if sa simula mo lang accept if kung sino or ano sia... if puro sa simula lang... then hayaan nalang makapagtrabaho ng maayos yung thera diba... if yung love na kiniclaim eh may expiry pala sana wag nalang guluhin yung thera besides siguro may reason naman sia bakit sia andun sa place na kinalalagyan nia in the first place...

simple lang naman kasi talaga kung iisipin eh nu..... kung di kaya panindigan dapat wag nalang simulan...