simon b

i don't know where I am now, if I'm still at that halfway point I'm not sure.

 

I saw her last night (mistake? I know) and I tried to play it cool being my usual calm and collected self.

 

and then she comes in all girlfriendly and stuff, even brought me candies and s@%t

 

and even before that, apparently she's been speaking of me to the other girls. As soon as I tell the cashier who I want and pay the toll, the door to the attendant's room opens and three girls none of which I know (save for one who I got when I got a "twin" with her and THE girl, an experience that should have sent ABANDON SHIP signals, but that's another story) all peek outside, and start whispering "sya yun" plus some other incoherent words. Cashier looks at me, smiles and then shakes her head, a big red "AWKWARD" sign appears over me.

 

anyway so we go over the motions, and we're just laying there, she keeps staring into my face which made me feel really awkward. And then she blurts out, "we should have met 5 years ago, but I'm glad I met you anyway", kisses me full on the lips (the kiss wasn't sexual in any way) and buries her head in my chest. The gf and I are celebrating our 4th year in 2 months. It didn't stop there.

 

So I try to lighten the mood, ask her about her kid, how she is at home, everyday type stuff, and then she gets back to staring. I immediately try to make things unawkward for me, but it comes out wrong and I say "Stop it with the staring, you might fall in love, BAWAL mainlove." she says "too late"

 

but wait, there's more.

 

so I leave and get home, and all the while we're exchanging texts, just random stuff. As I was ready to finally get to bed, she comes up with the mindf*ck of a lifetime. She sends me a text which basically read "if you didn't have a girlfriend now, I'd leave this job for you", now to put things into perspective, this job is the only thing that's keeping her afloat financially, she has a kid, a sick mom, plus all the other expenses that come with it. Now it could have just been an in-the-moment thing or it could have been genuine, but the fact that she even considered it means that she's upped the ante. That and all the rest of the things that were said has turned my brain into mush.

 

I know what I must do, and it sucks because I know that I will destroy this girl, and I right now I don't think I can handle that kind of thing hanging over me.

 

go ahead laugh, I deserve it for being a schmuck.

now this is worth seriously contemplating about before it gets fatal. for the girl, you and the significant one.

if i were you id ask myself - am i in love with her? she with a kid, sick mom, other guests and all?

or are you just being softened with the special attention she is giving?

come on we like it, enjoy it when a woman falls for us, regardless if we like her the way she likes us.

i think its better to break her heart now by staying away , than doing it later.

unless, as i said earlier, you're ready for substitution.

and im not laughing, larry. not when a woman's heart is at stake. ..

make that two for the unaware significant one.

and three, yours, who will have the burden of all the consequences whatever you decide.

ok, larry , since the warnings up for the thread to be merged, time to start another thought provoking, sex laden topic...

it does get messy when she wants to hear 'i love you' and all you can muster to say, but avoid saying, is 'i like you, specially when im bored and horny'.

and so you hug her, not wanting to hurt her feelings being a likable guy , compensate by giving her more bfe and a bigger tip...and it gets messier

of course larry knows the answer and what to do in this messy situation. im assuming he wants to hear what the ladies have to say about it.

naka sampung bote

kaya nagsi-sweet kamote

nami miss ka din

kahit na may sayad

pero anong gagawin

gusto mo ng bayad

na di pera

at di nasusukat

pero itoy pwera

at sobrang bigat

in a man's life there will be a significant one but there will always be the other woman. yours is an mpa, some their sister in law, some their friends, and some their mother in law

its a shame and women find it disgusting but we are made that way. just like werewolves when full moon comes,

we itch and crave to go out and hunt, devour, ok, f*ck someone other than the one in our bed.

then we go home and take care of our beloved. til the next full moon.

the difference is how we handle the itch. some go all the way. some take it like meryenda. some take it home and ruin their lives.

best to take it like an afternoon delight. unless you're ready for substitution - the other for the significant one...that is until the next full moon...

and it starts again...

yes, we never learn.

dont look for romance... it will find you

there is no ideal man, so throw out the checklist

and go on dates...you'll know who to avoid after

and in case you meet someone who sweeps you off your feet...

look beyond the sweet smell, smart get up, nice car, steady job, 5 star dinners

and funny jokes

knowing a facade is easy if you use the brain instead of the heart

and lastly, married men can bring excitement but its best to avoid them

magnificent body with a venomous tongue...

better fondle a cold pilsen

good looking/nice smelling/funny married men

the scourge of hopelessly romantic single ladies

moneyed and confident married men

the scourge of women - single or married, young and not so young

a curse to fathers who pass on to their sons their greed for power and money

might-have-beens bring out smiles of pleasure with sprinklings of bearable pain

could-nots poke and open old wounds and create new ones

i was wallowing in the sadness of your absence

when the wind brought your dagger

deep into my dying heart

and i wilt

and i fall

and i die

like a hundred times before

sana...

di ka rin makatulog

upang ika'y makapiling

sana...

ika'y mahulog

sa panaginip ng gising

sana,,,

wala na siya

at di na babalik

upang maging akin

na ang yong halik

again...my thought are drifting

towards you...again

the pull and the longing

for you..but then

there's an ocean of complications between us

and the waves are battering me and...thus

i go back to the lonely hill

and dream and wait until

you call

and most of all

fall...

in love

with me

though i know

it will never be

oh jessica alba ng buhay

di na yata ako magtatagumpay

sa laing na hinaharap

eh recipe di naman mahirap

makurbadang victoria beckham

ang pagluluto ba ay agham

ibabahay kita...

sana

dahil kabahay-bahay ka

kung makapal lang...

sana

ang aking mukha

at

bulsa

piniritong tinapa

sabel ni bencab

pusong kumakaba

sisinghap-singhap

ikaw ang hinahanap

sa altanghap

at

alapaap

ng guni-guni

ang daming sabi-sabi

ikaw daw ay nabibili...

ipagbunyi ang mga di kagandahang mga lalake!

isang matikas na saludo kay chito

german juggernaut just went kaput...

on the brighter side...the spaniards are better looking

saan ako pupunta nang di ako masisilayan ng iyong liwanag?

kailan ako lalaya sa tanikala ng yong kariktan?

luhaan

at

sugatan

sa pagsintang

walang kahihinatnan

quite a discovery isnt it?

learning you're not who he thought you are...

should do you both good

if not you know where to find me...

dont forget the six pack

chances are

johnny matthis

her vicious appeal had me crumbled

how else do my eggs go but scrambled

you were a few days late

and i was a few days early

if we met before that date

we'd be together happy

europa

santana

get a grip

they are imagining things you are not