Holly Golightly

My partner sending me a wholesome picture of himself and me thinking, "If it isn't the face I'll sit on next time I see him."

I got my partner Creed Aventus Cologne for Christmas. It smells lighter and fresher than the og and fits his personality better - refined, laidback, and good-natured.

Him asking if we could meet halfway in Abu Dhabi for what he refers to as a sex week. (Though I said we should revisit this proposal when we're less busy with work and our personal lives.)

Yes. I wish I were taller. My partner is 6'3", and I’m 5'5". We look like Nate and Maddy from Euphoria. And during sex, there are some positions that we can't get to work. 😅

I'm in Utrecht, doing a bit of work on my laptop while waiting for him to come back from the office. We had sweaty sex last night and also this morning. In an hour, we'll head out to have lunch and hangout at a cafe all afternoon. Sometimes I think this could just be it.

He said, "Please never tell me how many people you've slept with."

I'm so intensely attracted to him that I can hardly hold eye contact. He’s so attracted to me that he’s willing to go the distance to see me. Am I really that good at giving brain? 🤣

"Should I fly to Turkey to see you?" he asked. "Let's discuss it over the weekend," I replied. "Of course, yes, let's discuss it over the weekend. It's not like I've already booked flights or anything." "Oh my god. You've booked." "I promise to stay out of your way when you're working."

Deleted dating apps on my phone. Wth is wrong with me?

"That's going to be a lot of flights between us," I whispered. We sat on a mall bench, our gaze fixed on a blank stretch of wall. "I'll make it work," he told me, his voice soft but certain. For the first time in a long time, I wanted to believe the words of another human being. But I'm such a coward, it breaks my own heart. I drew in a slow breath, and told him I needed space.

A man who is emotionally regulated

Being home.

How dare you drive 7 hours just to say goodbye before my flight home?

Went to Scotland and fell for a Dutch. I want to go home to Manila.

You're in my veins, you fuck.

Someone gave me a box of fruit scones and a tub of Cornish clotted cream.

I'm gifting another close friend a boudoir photoshoot session with this amazing Manila-based boudoir photographer. Rates start at PHP 15,000. I will also book a hair and make-up artist and a venue (hotel or airbnb).

Not a smile, more like a giggle. My psychiatrist of ten years just said that she's referring me to another psychiatrist who specializes in NPD.

A guy friend just got into a relationship. The bastard actually said that if their love story were How I Met Your Mother, I’d be Barney.

Probably should’ve gotten a couple more fucks out of him before ghosting him.

back to friends - sombr

I've already answered the original question, so I'll just share something more recent. I gifted my best friend a photoshoot in a castle to celebrate a milestone. It was £400 for 1.5 hours, probably one of the priciest gifts I've ever given a friend. Guys, take note: your partners might appreciate a themed photoshoot as a gift (or a colour analysis session).

Moscow, February 2014

Emotionally available men

As soon as I read the live updates about Iran striking a U.S. base in Doha, I was on my laptop booking backup flights for all my travels from now through September, rerouting everything through Helsinki to avoid the Gulf region. Costly, true, but part of me is happy to have layovers in Helsinki, which feels like home to me.