cynophile

masakit na ulo kakaiyak (everynight naman)

CUDDLE ONLY NO PENETRATION STORY. (this made me smile haha) Naalala ko yung time na nag-post ako sa Red*** app I just wanted an overnight na puro cuddles, touch-touch, but no actual sex. Akala ko walang papatol, like sino ba mag-aagree sa cuddle-only setup? 😂 Plot twist: i got 200+ messages out of that post Cuddle community exist haha 😌 I only met a few na aligned sa vibe Dinner somewhere nice (hindi fast food LOL). Hotel na maayos, hindi pang-scandal motel. Cuddles. Chill. Breathing the same air. And siyempre, real talk May mga naka-meet din ako na halatang nag-expect. I mean, let’s be honest. Some probably thinking, “baka pag nasa hotel na kayo, she’ll say yes to fuck." Pero here’s what made me smile: nung sinabi ko hindi, they didn’t force anything. Walang pilit, walang pressure, walang guilt trip. They respected it, quietly, naturally, without making it weird. May iba, after nun, poof! Gone. But honestly? Okay lang. The fact na naranasan ko yung ganun,na tratuhin nicely, with respect, no pressure, no payment, just… soft connection, masaya na ako dun. It made me smile today remembering na hindi pala kailangan laging may kapalit para i-treat ka nang maayos. 🤍 And coming from a past where things often transactional, that hit different.

Crashing out of so much frustration this year. I'm crying while typing this. My business suddenly declined this year, until I finally decided to close it last month. All my plans… I ended up letting them go one by one. I’m still paying for my condo and parking, and I even requested the developer to just combine everything and give me a resale/older unit that fits my total. I got one, yes, but ang daming kailangan ayusin, so I still can’t use it until now. Same thing with the other unit I bought this year. It was supposed to be my place so I could stop renting. Pero ngayon, I can’t even move in because my budget for renovation is too tight. On top of that, my lolo is in the hospital and the bill has reached 200k+. No income coming in, everything is just expenses. And all I can do is cry. I didn’t expect life to humble me this hard. I even reached a point na naisip kong makipag-date from Reddit just to get free breakfast or dinner. Then kapag niyaya mag-check in, magdadahilan na lang ako. Ang patay-gutom pakinggan, but that’s how low and desperate things have felt lately. Sometimes I just end up crying about everything that’s happening. Life has been… heavy. And right now, it feels like I’m just trying to survive each day.

closing for good. welcome to buhay tambay

nakakalungkot lang na hindi mabigyan ng justice ng mga camera and pictures yung Face Value ko. Pangit na pangit ako sa sarili ko sa pics. pero alam ko sa sarili ko na maganda ako sa personal. Even mga naging handler ko, pag pinupush ako sinasabi talaga nila sa client na pauwiin ako pag di ako maganda sa personal, and so far never pa naman ako napauwi. May mga nag uupgrade pa ng package pag nakita na ako. Its just that, ang hirap magstay sa industry na picture ang labanan. Kahit gaano kapa kaayos sa personal.

Was able to secure 16km slot! ihhhh. Tara po register din kayoooo haha. https://raceroster.com/events/2025/111612/run-bgc-2025

1month na kong walang income. Puro labas lahat ng pera. sobrang hirap

Sad realization today. I just realized na silently ako natanggalan ng work. or should I say, sideline. 😅 May handler ako na nagbibigay ng clients sa’kin for massage, on-call setup. Madalas may client ako weekly, consistent talaga siya mag-bigay. Pero last last week, he confessed na type daw niya ako, humahanap lang daw sya ng tyempo kasi nahihiya siya at sana daw ay may chance. Honestly, hindi ko siya gusto kaya sinabi ko agad na hindi pa ako interesado sa mga ganung bagay and I only see him as a friend or kuya (since I actually call him kuya). He replied na edi hihintayin daw nya maging interesado ako sa mga ganung bagay. I didn't reply na kasi ayoko talaga. Since then, bigla na lang akong di nabibigyan ng client. Mag weeks na I still message him na available ako, minsan pa nga I tell him I badly need it. Oo lang siya ng oo pero wala na talagang binibigay. Nakakalungkot lang kasi malaking tulong talaga yung mga clients na binibigay niya, pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun na dapat magkagusto rin ako sa kanya. I could never like someone who knows the reality of my work, yet chooses to let me stay in this kind of industry. Unless this person could give me ibang opportunity. I continue my schooling this year, (grade 12) actually nagsstart na mga classmate ko na mag inquire sa mga preferred university nila to secure their slots for entrance exam. Sinasama nila ako kasi nga ubusan daw ng slot yun, pero nagdadalawang isip parin ako kasi baka masaktan lang ako pag makapasa ako tapos hindi ko naman pala kaya dahil nga sa sitwasyon ko sa buhay ngayon. I used to earn a lot before pero lugi na negosyo kaya bumalik ako sa pagthetherapist, as a breadwinner hindi kakayanin kung papasok ako sa mga minimum wage kind of work. Unless i give up ko nalang talaga yung studies ko. Ang sad na parang wala akong choice. 🙃

I just realized na I've been running for 8months na, have joined 10 fun run events alone, lahat ng takbo ko weekly alone. and may upcoming pa akong tatlong running event. (Jco, Minions and Mcdonalds) wala lang share ko lang. Sana sa susunod may kakiss na din ako sa finish line 😭 char haha. Kainis, hndi pala ako sa pagod mamamatay, sa inggit pala.🤣

Hello po! nag papapasok parin po ba ng magjojogging sa running/bike path ng CCLEX? hndi po ba naapektuhan ng earth quake? I always run kasi sa cclex every punta ko here sa cebu safe po kaya?

FAILED NOSE IN PARKING/HEAD-IN PARKING ATTEMPT. Hays, Bat andaming eagirls na umiiyak sa parallel at reverse parking when infact yun yung pinakamadaling gawin because nakikita mo sa side mirrors ang everything. Unlike sa pukinginang nose-in, nakakabadtrip bwisit. nakaka frustrate. nakakalungkot. nakakainis. hinagpis. poot at pasakit hahaha charot. PS : Di po ako nakabangga, ayaw lang talaga sumakto yung pasok kaya di ko na pinilit haha.

Saan po kaya may affordable na COLONOSCOPY? free sana sa PGH, kaso di po kaya pumila doon ng matagal Nagpa-quote ako St.Dom bacoor, almost 20k ang aabutin bawas na lahat ng discounts incl senior dscount. (this is for my grandfather) baka may mas mura pa pong hospital for this procedure?

dati bet ko yung "a thousand years" then naging "daylight" dahil swifties ako. ngayon, "I do cherish you" tapos si Michael Pangilinan yung kakanta haha New dream unlocked tuloy, saka na ko magmamahal pag afford ko na yung talent fee ni Michael Pangilinan para sya kakanta sa wedding ko. 🤣🤣 fantasy yarn hahahaha

I do believe in marriage. I'm a date-to-marry type of woman. Ang mindset ko, kung di mo ko nakikita as someone na pakakasalan mo someday e wag mo ko utuin. haha (yan yung di maintindihan ng friends ko e. kesyo matagal na daw ako single, na basta humihinga pwede na daw yon haha hell noooooo) 🤣

I found myself crying while typing my answers to the email I received from my father’s lawyer regarding their annulment. I just realized that I grew up having to accept the fact that there’s no such thing as perfect parents. While I was growing up, they were also growing as individuals and as parents, especially since they started their life together at such a young age (Mama was only 20, Papa was 19). I have to remind myself that everything that happened before was new to them, too. But maybe it’s really my inner child that’s still hard to heal. That part of me that longed for stability and safety, umiiyak pa rin siya. 💔

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Last night I broke down thinking, “babalik na ata ako sa dati kong buhay.” Sales have been declining, and akala ko retired therapist na ako for good, pero after almost 3 years, parang kailangan ko ulit bumalik kahit ayaw ko na. Pwede naman akong maghanap ng ibang work, pero I don’t want to give up my studies just for a minimum wage job na hindi rin kayang tustusan yung mga installments ko ngayon. Nakakalungkot lang. From earning 6 digits to halos mag-abono na. Life really has a way of humbling us. 😔 Natatakot ako, natatakot akong one day lalabas ulit ako ng pinto ng kwarto ng hotel na umiiyak kasi pakiramdam ko nabastos ako at hanggang doon nalang ako. Hindi naman lahat ng clients will make you feel that way but there are some talaga na kung bastusin ka, pilitin ka akala nila nabili nila yung buong ikaw. 😔

Saw a comment saying, "TUTUWAD PERO HINDI MAGPAPASAKOP." 🤣 I created a tiktok video and didn't expect it to blow up. Like, ang dami din pala nakakapansin na may itsura talaga itong si Engr. Brice. hahaha Cinompile ko lang yung videos nya from senate hearings with a caption, "Minsan ka nalang magka-crush, kay Brice Ericson Hernandez pa." 🤣 haha! attracted lang naman ako sa looks, like sheeesh eto ba ung tinatawag na "DADDY ISSUES" ? charot, ibalik nila yung ninakaw nila sa taong bayan! 🤣

may asawa sya ih

When im starting to like someone but God whispered, "Not this one, anak." 🥺

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