cynophile

eto naba yung tinatawag na situationship? 😭 need distraction huhu

wala sad lang. feeling ugly duckling ganon.

yung nakita ko sa tiktok. niregaluhan ng boyfriend nya ng golf clubs. HAHAHAHAHA ingat na ingat ako tapos sa inggit lang pala ako mamamatay. Anyways, it made me smile knowing na there's a lot of girls parin na being treated right. Nawa'y lahat.

Ano pong golf club and brand yung recommended for ladies and begginer (di pa ganon kalakas mag swing ha) haha. May inooffer kasi sakin na 2nd hand doon sa driving range. Yung mizuno 28k, and prgr 25k. Baka may reviews kayo dun? and kung goods naba yun sa price nya or inegotiate ko pa?

I’ve decided to include my photo in our Manila lineup (yes, in my own oncall spa). just felt like trying it again. Haha! But I’m not telling anyone kung sino ako doon. I’ve mentioned before how I was never really the type of thera na clients picked back in my therapist days years years years ago so let’s see if anything’s changed. Or not. Haha!.

Aw, thank you. Pero honestly, parang hindi yan yung kailangan ko. Maybe my inner child still grieves sometimes. She still carries those old wounds from growing up in a broken family. Pero hindi naman ako kulang, siguro I'm just silently healing from things I don't talk about.

Every time I cry, my dog runs to me right away. Clings to me and refuses to leave. I’m not even sure if he knows I’m crying, (or sad?) but the way he looks at me is full of curiosity, This dog never fails to make me smile in the middle of my breakdowns. Grabe… what did I do to deserve a soul like this?

Lately, napansin ko how I easily get emotional. May makita lang akong couple na mukhang masaya, a wedding video, a parent playing with their child, and suddenly, I’m in tears. (as in hagulgol si tanga) I’m not even sad. I genuinely love myself. But maybe there’s a quiet part of me that’s finally being heard. I’m not sure if it’s sorrow… or longing for something I’ve never had. All I know is, something in me is searching. even if I don’t fully understand kung ano yon.

May bagong open na fuel station samin. Super mura ng fuel nila, naeengganyo ako magpa fulltank haha (been loyal to petron since the start, pero ang laki talaga ng itinaas ng gas ngayon) Are you familliar with this brand? meron dn ba nito sainyo? what are your thoughts?

omsim haha charot. yan lagi advice ni ichan sa tiktok, sa ilegal daw talaga yayaman.

Akala ko pawis ko pa yung tumutulo kanina, luha ko na pala yun. Buti nalang umulan din. Hindi na halata. / While I was out for a run earlier, I saw something simple but deeply moving. A father teaching his grown-up son how to ride a motorcycle. I grew up with absent parents. Kaya kahit gaano ako ka-independent and strong ngayon, sobrang lambot ko pag nakakakita ako ng ganitong moment. Habang tinatype ko nga to umiiyak ako. Kasi halos lahat sa buhay, natutunan ko mag-isa. How I wish na sana si papa yung unang nagturo sakin magdrive, na sana kay mama ako natuto magluto, na sana si papa nagturo sakin magbike tapos pag nasugatan ako si mama ang gagamot. Madaming sana, sana na hindi na mangyayari. Buhay naman sila, absent lang talaga.

Sharing a realization after almost 2 years of owning a car and using it as my main transpo. Mas mahal talaga siya compared sa commuting. 😅 (I mean, given naman kasi nga comfort, pero malaki tlga yung magiging difference sa expenses mo from commuter days to owning one and medyo hurt na ko dito.) May yearly registration, PMS every 6 months or 10k km, tapos yung mga surprise repairs and maintenance pa. I mean, I’m earning enough to sustain it naman, pero nanghihinayang din ako sa mga nagastos, especially now na narealize ko na ang dami palang times na pwede akong magcommute instead. Like today, I went to school via commute. Trike from my condo to main road for 10 pesos. Jeep to school 14 pesos and 3-minute walk to the gate That’s ₱24 one way, ₱48 round trip. Wala pang parking fee. Ang layo ng cost sa daily gas + parking. So kung usapang pagtitipid, hindi talaga nakakatipid ang may sariling car. (again hndi naman pagtitipid ang rason bat ka magkokotse eh. alam ko yon) Siguro advantage lang is yung convenience. alis ka agad, no waiting. But the downside? Parking. Kahit anong aga ko minsan, ubusan pa rin ng space. Minsan mas malayo pa nilalakad ko dahil malayo ung vacant. Kaya ngayon, I'm thinking na mag-commute na lang kapag hindi naman super hassle. What do you guys think? May naka-experience din ba ng ganitong shift? Curious ako how others manage their car use para hindi masyado magastos.

48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene

You know what makes me sad today? Someone keeps reporting all my FB account. from business page to my personal account and they won’t stop. Alam nila lahat ng pages ko naka-link sa personal ko. I have proof kung sino, pero kahit meron, what can I do? Wala namang aamin, and confronting might just make it worse. I keep creating new accounts and appealing, pero hanggang kailan ganito? Even school group chats are affected. Nakakahiya na, to be honest. At nakakapagod na rin, sa totoo lang. I’ve been dealing with this for 2 months now, and in my 3 years of operating, ngayon lang ako napeste ng ganito.

What made me smile today? Good sex after 8 months of being untouched haha. Additional ₱20k in my pocket (Thankyou! haha) And a peaceful coffee moment at High Street Lounge, Shangri-La The Fort. feels like a well deserved come back, next year ulit! papashikip muna ulet charot. hahaha thankyouuuuu

bigo parin sa 5k sub30. dati hndi ko nman problema to, as long as i keep moving. okay na ko don, i just run at my own pace. pero ngayon ewan nabaliw na ko pati to kinakalungkot ko na haha

nagrun sa moa seaside. walang pupuntahan at magpapachange oil pa ko bukas ng maaga sa petron LT0 laspiñas. sabay ko na renewal kung kaya ng oras.

May stock na ng novablast5 sa asics moa. Pambili nalang kulang hahaha! ganon pala pag pangarap mong running shoes no, kahit di mo mabili. Makita mo lang mapapangiti kana hahahaha.

my squammy side. hays. so ayun, pinakyuhan ko yung car sa likod ko. madaming beses haha busina kasi sya ng busina e hndi ko nman kasalanan na matagalan kaming lahat sa expressway. The car sa unahan ko, akala ko nga nag insuff bal sya kasi nag abot sya ng cash. busina na ng busina yung car behind me at that time. So when it finally my turn, hindi na read yung sticker so kinuha ko yung rfid card ko mabilis lang naman kaso busina na naman ng busina yung nasa likod. taeng tae sya as a short girly, di ko maabot kay ateng cashier yung card kaya bumaba pa ako sa car at inabot ung rfid card ko tapos lumingon ako sa likod at pinakyuhan ko ng dalawang kamay yung busina ng busina sa likod ko. Lalo syang nag ingay e. haha Nakakalungkot yung katangahan nya. At nakakalungkot din yung pasensya ko hindi man lang umabot sa bahay.

Pag ba may time na hindi nari-read ng scanner nila yung sticker, glitch ba ng system nila yun o mali lang yung pasok ko? (haha taena may tamang pasok ba?😆) so ang ending, kukunin ko pa yung physical card ko para i-tap or ipa-tap if may tao doon. Bihira naman sya mangyari sakin sa ibang daan. pero medyo madalas po sa kabihasnan parañaque entry haha yung near petron and jollibee. Laging tap card ang eksena kasi di nareread mismong sticker.