The Mail Box

[Guest Insomnia Girl]

Who cares about the subtleties of flavors now?

 

I bite into a piece of strawberry, which everyone had assured me would be sweet. I bite down. Hard. Like my hunger is a curse. Like I'm famished for something that I can't have. Like I have been starving for an eternity. My teeth sink into the fruit. The juice flows into my mouth. My tongue refuses to taste anything else but the salt of my tears.

[Guest Insomnia Girl]

I have no way of knowing when today becomes tomorrow. The nights are all white to me. They say that one trick the sleepless play to get some sleep is this: They pretend it's time to get up. But, you see, they forgot to ask this question: What if there's nothing worth getting up for?

 

What if you knew that tomorrow would only be a rehash of today and the bleak days before? Would pretending that it's time to get up still lull you to sleep? You're better off counting sheep. Or counting snails. Or catterpillars. Anything to numb your mind.

 

If you're brave, you count the hours that pass. It's a risky game to try to figure out how much more time you can allow to slip away. You look as the hands of the clock inch closer and closer to another day. And you can't do a thing. The world will not stop to comfort you.

 

If you remain awake as the days change, you can deceive yourself into thinking that you've just had one very long day. Then you can stop being guilty for your sadness.

 

I don't know exactly what to do. I just stay awake. I count sheep but the third one I envision always dies on me. I watch the clock but the ticking drives me crazy. The days bleed into each other, heedless of my inconsequential pain. And it make sense--my troubleshardly cause a ripple in the world. My torment is confined to my own private universe of white nights and evil clocks. And sheep who let me down.

[wjc-934]

hen I first talked to you

I felt like I had known you forever,

telling you my problems

and what I didn't want ever.

 

You listened to me

I bet you thought I'd never end,

who would have thought

we would be the best of friends.

 

Over a period of time,

I got to know the real you.

A guy so charming and gentle,

with a heart so true.

 

You've survived your life

with me by your side.

I told you I'd never leave

because of the feelings I have inside.

 

There was a time

I wanted to explore,

what would have happened

if I would only open the door.

 

I know you

like no one I have ever known,

and sometimes I wonder

what do I do when we're alone?

 

So I have decided

time answers all.

If it is meant to be

time will remove the wall.

 

Standing between us,

holding us back,

allowing us to feel

It's the relationship that we lack.

 

I love the way we are together,

you can always make me smile.

Will it ever really be forever?

I guess I will have to wait awhile.

 

Time will reveal, what lies ahead

but always remember

what I have said.

Meeting you has changed my life

and I really love you so,

the feelings I feel for you

I am never letting go.

Remember me always

and I will too.

 

I will always think of

me and you.

[Shiro]

you travel this road alone

you demanded i not follow

i let you go then

to find your own destiny

to follow your whims

 

know that my love goes with you

even if you don't want it to.

[Alex_Corvis]

My dearest,

 

If i could just stop the snow from falling, i would.

I'll do anthing just to make you happy.

 

me

Edited March 19, 2004 by alex_corvis

[Z]

Dear God,

 

Thank you! All of what was, what is, and things to come are encapsulated in those two words. It is all I can endeavour and hope for in the entirety of my existence, and it is all that you ask of me put simply. You have never let me down, not once, and in the moments darkness seems to swathe around me I catch myself with eyes closed. Even there the light shines brighter. So what else can I offer to one who has and has given everything but gratitude? Thank you for the blessings, for the love of friends, the gift of family; the love and life I've been given and their fruits hundred fold; for every little experience especially ones hard to hold. Thank you thank you thank you and for stories yet to be told.

 

 

Love,

 

E

[orbicularis]

How much pain can 1 heart take before it gives up and move on everytime I see you I must remind myself that there can never be a me and you if I can keep all those words my room would be already full of such sad reminders that life with you is impossible I love you the best that I can but my love is not what you need I know that one day I see a life beyond you

[freelicker]

Is it possible to love you too much?

To feel this feeling I have so much that

I long for you constantly

I wish to be with you every minute

I am willing to risk everything I have for you.

 

Because all these I feel for you so much

that it hurts so much if I cannot show it to you

and I feel that my heart could not take it anymore.

 

But then, whenever I'm with you

Loving you too much

Is loving you just enough.

[Shiro]

tired soul, tired mind, tired body

weary heart, restless spirit

searching for a sloace

elusive

 

resolute

the will to live must be heeded

but the weight of past wrongs

threatens to k*ll even that

 

i move forward, alone

on a path towards a future

that may no longer

include you

[wjc-934]

i love you for making each of my life beautiful

and all my life's labors seem worthwhile.

for as i go through my day, no matter how rough it gets,

i can think of you and smile....

[wjc-934]

love,

 

i love you for sharing all the moments of my life and letting me talk, laugh and dream beside you...

 

kit

[Wyld]

you....

 

now iv realized... time is a tease. fate is a jester. life is strange.

 

often we know that our chosen path is THE one. we know that the course we have charted for the ship called our lives is the right one... one that is guided by our true north... its such a wicked twist of fate when... after following that one guiding star we look at the opposite direction and we see yet another star waving at us and enticing us to go that way instead of this.

 

thats when you give yourself a kingsized wop on the head for speaking too soon, deciding too hastily and running instead of walking...

 

thats what im doing right now. i made a choice. one that i must stick to. and then when i had made that choice i found something pulling me in the opposite direction of that choice.

 

irony of ironies. all is irony.

 

you are my biggest irony.

 

-k

[wjc-934]

I just don’t understand

Why you runnin from a good man baby

Why you wanna turn your back on love, why you’ve already given up

See I know you been hurt before but I swear I’ll give you so much more

I swear I’ll never let you down, cuz I swear it’s you that I adore &

I can’t help myself cuz I think about you constantly & my heart gets no

Rest over You....

[wjc-934]

jean,

 

 

 

I love you for letting me speak my mind, and when I am through, carefully considering the way I feel...

 

for letting me be myself and helping me to realize who that really is,

always inspiring me to pursue ideas that are lasting and real....

 

 

kit

[sweetpsyche]

doubts doubts doubts... i have lots of that.

esp on you - YOU, yourself, your intentions, your feelings, everything! I know its not good, im sorry. but i cant help it. can u blame if i am being wary?! if im having a "self-protection-kind-of-attitude"?! of course you can not...

i do not know if they will go away

i do not know if they will fade.. eventually they might..

i dont know when though...

 

i need your help on this matter.

pls bear with me.

im scared.

[freelicker]

Is is possible to love some one too much?

Such love that is so much that it makes you want to cry

... or feel hurt and rejected...

... or give an empty feeling in the pit of your stomach..

... whenever she's not around?

 

Is is possible to love some one too much?

When all you can think of is her

and how she looks when she smiles.

 

Is is possible to love some one so much that is almost hurts?

 

Maybe, but then for me, loving you too much.

 

Is loving you just enough.

 

[wjc-934]

moon,

 

 

I love you for standing close when i need you,

and standing back wheb i need to be alone, always sharing the sunshine

and shadows of my days.For your comfort when i am weary and your strenght when the world seems too much to handle...

 

 

kit

[wjc-934]

Can you ever love me for me?

For the me that I am true and true

Can you love me with my imperfections?

Can you see me as I am and not as what you want me to be?

 

Can you ever love me for me?

For the me that makes mistakes and speaks without thinking

Can you love me even when I am unreasonable?

Can you see me as I am and not for the Angel you seek?

 

Can you ever love me for me?

For the me that cries when a stranger child is hurt

Can you love me when I am sad without me having a reason to be?

Can you see me as I am not as what I once was?

 

Can you ever love me for me?

[Shiro]

i woke up this morning...

 

and realized

that i can live alone

i have to

 

it doesn't mean

i'm gonna stop loving you

or hoping

 

for the day

we don't have to

be apart

 

waiting

for you and your heart

to look

 

at me

[wjc-934]

Look into my eyes,

to find my heart.

Words could never express

what I feel for you.

Look into my eyes,

and there you will find,

the mirror to my soul.

Look into my eyes,

and there you will find,

a burning reflection,

of eternal love,

for you and only

you.

[irshes]

35 BED SHEETS

 

The first time the deed was done

A 15-year record was broken

The pleasure in prying fingers

The power of words spoken.

 

“Congratulations” was what I told you

I haven’t wetted my bed since I was four

Little did I know in the nights to come

I am up for a whole lot more.

 

The next day you hand me a new sheet

You said it was to replace

The one I ruined the night before,

A sheepish grin on your face.

 

The dark of night excites me

It’s when distance need not matter

Daytime pales in comparison

To midnight trysts with my lover.

 

Lusty thoughts, fiery passion

Fuelled by memories, the love we made

Writhing bodies, intense moans

We reached the peak as the music played.

 

Darling, you have bewitched me

You didn’t even have to be near

A single phone call will do

And it’s like you’re already here.

 

I remember you, my baby

Every time I lie in bed

All the things we’ve done

All the words you have said.

 

Though you’re not with me now

My love for you is still alive

As sweet and warm as your bed sheets

Which I lost count of at thirty five.

 

 

For J, who is the embodiment of everything I have ever wanted.

You who will always be in my heart.

- T.

[Shiro]

L.,

 

I've no regrets for all that we went through. The good and the bad and all in between. Although the bad is all you choose to remember, I'm here to hold on

to the days that made us smile.

 

In my heart I will keep those first phone calls and text messages, the first smiles and laughs, our first touch... although they are there with everything that drove you away from me, the good things, the happy things are the ones I'll be treasuring.

 

I cannot change the fact that now all you choose to see are the bitter memories. But I hold on to the sweet ones, to keep me going. Keep me reaching for that day, the day I will see your smile again, touch your hand, hear your laughter knowing I was what made you happy.

 

I go through life lonely but determined, to make more sweet memories for you and me...

 

Love always,

 

E.

[wjc-934]

I've still got a lot to learn,

But at least I know where I can turn.

When I'm in my times of need,

I know all things are possible just as long as I believe....

[sweetpsyche]

M,

 

these are the words i wish i can say

but i can not...

go.. please... just go.

 

i dont know why.

i can not bring myself to say,

utter, type even whisper it

so please dont let me say it anymore

just do it.

just go.

 

me.

Edited March 24, 2004 by sweetpsyche

[wjc-934]

jean,

 

When you are sad, I will dry your tears

When you are scared, I will comfort your fears

When you need love, my heart I will share

When you are sick, for you I will care

 

 

kit