forbidden Posted January 6, 2005 Share Posted January 6, 2005 O______, You're probably wondering why I never contacted you these past two weeks you were home. Man, I know we were tight - I don't know - that was then. The last time you came home, it was cool, but then we talked for three hours that night before you left about our plans; the problem was, it was mostly you trying to set me on a definite course with mine. I had no clear idea what the next step would be for me, but I knew where I wanted to be at a certain point in the future. You always had it crystal clear in your head - your five and ten year plans were laid out like measuring tape, each number defined and predictable - first 1, then 2, then 3 and so on and so forth. You were and accountant, and now just finished your MBA - exactly what you had planned back in 1996 when we graduated. I don't know man, there were times I really prayed fro the clarity you have - your choices were simple and so to you, you knew what you had to do. I on the other hand wanted to do so many things. I was given a lot of talent man....talent to create. I didn't want to fill in spreadsheets with GDP data or earnings projections every f**king quarter. God, man, I wanted more to life than just that. I never So last year - was it last year? Yeah, it was last year. We sat in Hotshots and I was telling you what I had realized over the past year. But it was all clear to you already - and you asked me for a defined and predicateble path towards my goal. That's where it all changed, man. That's when I kind of got tired of you evaluating what I wanted to do with my life, and throwing this endless line of questions to make me think about it more. You're important to me - don't think otherwise. We grew up together and we know so much about each other; we've been through a lot together - no secrets man, no secrets. But this time, I just don't want to hear you get all John Maxwell on me. I have my own way of doing things - damn, I'm doing these things already and the goals I set for myself are already visible and nearly within reach. I'll do what I need to do. I just don't want to talk about it right now - not with you anyway. Maybe I'll get in touch with you tonight. You leave tomorrow and I wouldn't want you to go back to California wondering. Quote Link to comment
Lipstick Posted January 6, 2005 Share Posted January 6, 2005 I'm so tired of living without you. Quote Link to comment
moonflower Posted January 6, 2005 Share Posted January 6, 2005 give me the strength and the wisdom to understand set me free. i just loved and is still loving... i just want to give even without receiving. but why does it have to hurt? i just want to do the right thing. why do i find it hard to find it in me to be happy for him? Quote Link to comment
forbidden Posted January 6, 2005 Share Posted January 6, 2005 the cold............awakening the senses and the mind...but yet the tired mind and weary heart still goes on...<{POST_SNAPBACK}> ...for such is our fate as human beings. gen_g, that was close to what I was feeling the other morning. Here's to the cold of the night... :closedeyes: Good Morning! Quote Link to comment
smaug Posted January 7, 2005 Share Posted January 7, 2005 K Dai ko kya na mayo ka sa tbi ko. Mis ko naun Pg gising mo skon, bako lang ako ma late. Si isay na mg tao sakuya ng contact lens? Si isaynamgtint kan eyeglass ko? duwang banggi na mi ulila sa imo, tulong buwan pa na mayo ka, garo nko gadan... uli kna baby ko... J Quote Link to comment
Wyld Posted January 7, 2005 Share Posted January 7, 2005 In every winter's heart, there is a quivering spring. - Kahlil Gibran My heart is numbIt refuses to feel It has gotten tiredIts beating has slowed down It has just about weathered its last stormShadows will embrace it and claim it for its own So many times this heart has riskedCountless times has it loved And in as many times it has risked and lovedIt has bled and hurt too My heart is numb.It refuses to feel. Will I ever find the spring of my wintry heart? Quote Link to comment
Zerreit Posted January 7, 2005 Share Posted January 7, 2005 I feel numb right now. Physically, mentally, emotionally... I want to go away and never come back. I just might..... Soon enough. Quote Link to comment
swtsexythng® Posted January 7, 2005 Share Posted January 7, 2005 what i don't understand is that i haven't heard of any formal training for killing or hurting fellow human beings.... neither have heard of any educational practice on placing one's life in misery... or generating cruelty and injustice... but how come people are so good at it... all throughout childhood, i've been thought of the importance of honesty and loyalty, but how come it feels like those things don't really exist.... and in instances that they do, the recipients are less than a few... all throughout i've been thought that the best things i could give are love and peace.... but why it is that the more i give.... the more i loose.... it's a fact that "no man is an island", but why is it that selfishness overrides selflessness... with all of these, it's funny people still keeps wondering why the world is in such a chaotic state... Quote Link to comment
KristinLavransdatr Posted January 8, 2005 Share Posted January 8, 2005 (edited) Dear, it sure is a mystery how two people meet and know exactly that they will meet again and again...not by chance this time, but by force. that which draws you to me -- even when our hands don't touch, nor our eyes lock... now i know what the cliche "you take my breath away" means and feels. because that's exactly what you do to me. who ever said those words first, must have uttered them without thoughts to creativity. because they are so exact, so precise. but there's another thing you do to me: you defy my signature... Y Edited January 12, 2005 by KristinLavransdatr Quote Link to comment
Guest chunky Posted January 8, 2005 Share Posted January 8, 2005 Alexa, I know there isn't any possibility of it, but I can only wish to have you back. I no longer know which of my visions I am to believe. I no longer care. But at least, I have the memories of you intact. With that, I thank you. The old fool... Quote Link to comment
roxysnonie Posted January 9, 2005 Share Posted January 9, 2005 (edited) dearest, too bad it was SRO last nite, it would've been the icing on the cake to a wonderful night! it was as if time stood still and yet time flew and before we knew it work beckons me and you hafta go back home...sigh! till the next episode... take care! Edited January 9, 2005 by roxysnonie Quote Link to comment
missmanners Posted January 9, 2005 Share Posted January 9, 2005 (edited) YOU! yes, you... are you staying or going? decide and stick to it dammit. Edited January 9, 2005 by missmanners22 Quote Link to comment
arrow Posted January 9, 2005 Share Posted January 9, 2005 vanity, pls,pls...dont turn ur back on me.my world already stop spinning.i no longer feel the same as the trees and the stars.i miss u sooooooooo much. died when u left Quote Link to comment
WayneTruce Posted January 9, 2005 Share Posted January 9, 2005 " Years had passed but you are still here.. Why? This is not the way I planned things to happen.. I'm fulfilling my dreams without you.. Life is a choice and I chose to stand, to walk in a road that is less-travelled.. What's waiting for me there.. I don't know.. All I know is that, you are still here.. I may reach the end without you in sight.. But I'm tired already.. I can't see anymore.. but I would still walk this road until I got there..until.. I die.. " Quote Link to comment
Manticore Posted January 11, 2005 Share Posted January 11, 2005 (edited) M, I'm not sure where you want to take this, but what the heck. Life's too short to keep second-guessing yourself. Just keep your wits about you, Bro'. Your actions will have an effect on others, this time around, so consider them carefully. Have a good one! Su buen amigo,S Edited January 12, 2005 by Manticore Quote Link to comment
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