The Mail Box

[bods1000]

Y

 

"waiting" has now become an archaic word.

"missing you" has devolved into the realm of dead languages.

"anytime" i now consider the sweetest word I've heard from you.

 

even only through voice, i thank you for allowing our lives to merge more freely now. unlike before when my thoughts were like beasts straining on a leash, now they are free to alight on you. like birds in formation, our everydays would now fly in the same direction.....love you so much, sweetie.

 

N

[Victor Davion]

I saw you today. You smiled and waved at me across the library. You asked me about my review and I grunted out a reply. The conversation went back and forth and yet all the time I was concentrating on your eyes. Never mind that you flashed me that beautiful smile of yours several times, never mind that your scent still sends shiver down my spine. It was your eyes. They look happy. They are happy. Deep inside of me, I hope that your eyes are happy because of me, but then we'll never know right? We'll never know until I screw up the courage and endanger the stability of the core. The other members of the core, give me encouragement and they tease me about you, but all of us know that the moment I cross the line, the moment when I betray your trust, the core will never be the same again.

 

**sigh**

[wjc-934]

nag txt ka sakin kanina...

 

para mag tanong lang kung paano mag share a load!

 

akala ko panaman ay something special na... kaasar talaga!!!!

[gen_g]

a "job" is a job................people don't take that lightly

 

as for me im letting myself be at a standstill....................even if people say im not supposed to...keep myself moving.........or my mind at least...............if i give myself another month of torment or torture will i recover?...............have to "heal" in my own way.............the thing is sleep comes at the most abrupt times nowadays....been trying to do something about it...it was almost normal until today.............oh well.....later....

[Victor Davion]

I'm tired already. I feel sleepy and would really welcome the warm embrace of my nappy spot. You're playing games though, you know I really can't fall asleep until I've gathered each and every text greeting from the core. I think you purposely held yourself to be the last one to text me. You think you're being playful, you really don't know the depths of the cruelty that you're causing me. I can feel the tick of every single agonizing second, waiting for you to text me. I have a glazed look in my eyes whenever my phone signals that I have a new message.

 

 

 

And then you texted me: happy birthday thony!

 

 

With those three simple words, reality comes crashing back in, I'm both relieved and sad. I know, I'll see you later. It it the only thing that will really get me out of bed, the thought of seeing you.

 

For now I sleep, safe and secure that you still don't know...

[boy_kokok]

PI,

 

this one is for u...

 

I Couldn't Ask For More

 

I'm lyin' here with you Listening to the rain

Smilin' just to see

The smile upon your face

 

And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive

And these are the moments

I'll remember all my life

I've got all I've waited for

And I could not ask for more

 

And looking in your eyes And seeing all I need

And everything you are

Is everything to me

 

And these are the moments I know heaven must exist

And there are the moments

I know all I need is this

I've got all I've waited for

 

I could not ask for more Than this time together

Could not ask for more

Than this time with you

And every prayer has been answered

And every dream I have has come true

And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be

And here with you here with me

Oh, oh, oh

 

(repeat 1, 2)

 

 

I could not ask for more than the love you give me Cause it's all I'm waiting for

And I could not ask for more

 

ED

[a_ngel]

G

 

Today starts forgetting,

 

nice knowing you,

[boy_kokok]

KS,

 

 

Before i fall in love

 

my heart says we've got something real

 

cannot trusts the way i feel

 

coz my heart's been fooled before

 

am i just seeing what i want to see

 

or is it true? could u really be...

 

chorus:

 

someone to have and hold

 

with all my heart and soul

 

i need to know b4 i fall in love

 

someone who'll stay around

 

through all my ups and downs

 

please tell me now

 

before i fall in love...

 

i'm at the point of no return

 

so afraid of getting burned

 

but i wanna take a chance

 

oh please give me a reason to believe

 

say you're the one

 

that you'll always be...

 

Chorus

 

bridge:

 

it's been so hard for me to give my heart away

 

but i would give my everything just to hear you say...

 

 

Before i fall in love...

 

BK

Edited June 28, 2004 by boy_kokok

[Wyld]

m...

 

thank you for sharing the gift of song with me.

 

you have made another rainy day here in sunny texas inordinately bright.

 

your "rainbow" rocks...

 

btw i hope you are feelin better already!

 

-n

Edited June 29, 2004 by WyldChik

[boy_kokok]

pi,

 

the gift

 

got anotha song for u...

Winter snow is falling down

Children laughing all around

Lights are turning on

like a fairy tale come true.

 

Sitting by the fire we made

You're the answer when i prayed

I would find someone

and baby I found you.

 

All I want is to hold you forever

All I need is you more every day

You saved my heart

from being broken apart

You gave your love away

and I'm thankful every day

for the gift.

 

Watching as you softly sleep

What I'd give if I could keep

Just this moment

if only time stood still.

 

But the colors fade away

And the years will make us grey

But baby in my eyes

You'll still be beautiful.

 

All I want is to hold you forever

All I need is you more every day

You saved my heart

from being broken apart

You gave your love away

And I'm thankful every day

for the gift.

 

(instrumental)

 

All I want is to hold you forever

All I need is you more every day

You saved my heart

from being broken apart

You gave your love away

I can't find the words to say

That I'm thankful every day

for the gift.

 

...ed

Edited June 28, 2004 by boy_kokok

[Wyld]

 

para sa king bud-

 

wag ka na ma-sad na ang tinuring mo palang kaibigan ang tatarantado sa yo.

 

at least now alam mo na ang tunay na kulay nya. diba?

 

you are a wayyy better person than him. at tanga lang ang di makakapansin non!

 

stay real bud and il see you soon.

 

-k

[Wyld]

ate m real proud and glad that youre gonna start workin again soon.

 

be brave. im here behind you. always.

 

-k

Edited June 29, 2004 by WyldChik

[Wyld]

to you... friend of my :heart:

 

sana di mo na lang sinagot.

kaka hurt.

 

sad.

 

-k

[Mayella]

hey you!

 

i don't know what's gotten into you. now i realize you're so self-absorbed that you think that the world revolves only around you. get a hold of yourself! you disappoint me. tsk tsk.

 

L

Edited June 29, 2004 by Mayella

[bods1000]

I know you better than that. Please don't disappoint. I understood you; please try to receive me with understanding...... Edited June 29, 2004 by bods1000

[Wyld]

friend of my :heart:

 

it never does feel good to be brushed aside.

thats how it felt.

as if it was your duty. not your pleasure.

 

-k

[boy_kokok]

I'm sailing away.

Set an open course for the Virgin Sea.

'Cause I've got to be free,

Free to face a life that's ahead of me.

On board I'm the captain,

So climb aboard.

We'll search for tommorow,

On every shore.

And I'll try,

Oh Lord I'll try,

To carry on.

 

I look to the sea.

Reflections in the waves,

Spike my memory.

Some happy, some sad.

I think of childhood friends,

And the dreams we had.

 

We lived happily forever,

So the story goes.

But somehow we missed out,

On the pots of gold.

And we'll try best that we can,

To carry on.

 

A gathering of angels,

Appeared above my head.

They sang to me this song of hope,

And this is what they said.

 

They said

(chorus)

Come sail away,

Come sail away,

Come sail away with me, lads.

Come sail away,

Come sail away

Come sail away with me.

Come sail away,

Come sail away,

Come sail away with me.

Come sail away come sail away come sail away with me.

 

(bridge)

 

I thought that they were angels,

But to my suprise,

They climbed aboard the star ship,

And headed for the sky.

 

Singin'

Come sail away,

Come sail away,

Come sail away with me.

 

(repeat till end fading)

[a_ngel]

G

 

WTF are you doin?

You ignore me and then your back

Please stop it,

You brush me aside then you send me flowers,

what's that for?

 

guess what I made up my mind,

friendship is all we'd ever make,

not even the kind that has benefits,

 

I'll enjoy my life, wether you want to be a part of it or not.

 

Make up your mind, you silly goose

[Shiro]

the one thing that is so difficult about being free again... is knowing what to do with yourself.

 

[Wyld]

para sa isa ko pang kaibigan.

 

alam mo na mas mabuti kang tao.

iyon na lang ang isaisip mo parati.

 

at kung apektado ang ibang tao

sa sasabihin ko...

 

ibig sabihin nun...

go figure

 

lol...

 

-k

[Mayella]

to you...

 

it's been a wonderful week. thanks. take care, okay.

 

L

[Magaling]

Dear Mom,

 

This is the first letter I’ve ever written you in over a decade. Come to think of it, haven’t written anything in ages. Perhaps it’s because I’m so overwhelmed with the goings-on in my life that I could hardly find time for anything personal. And when I do, either I’d get paralized by the fear of opening a pandora’s box of emotions I know would be difficult to deal with.

 

Let’s start with something simple. I miss you. I know that you wanted me, among other things, to be independent. And I remember being the confident young man eager to step out of your shadow and ready take on the world by my lonesome. Yet, now that I have my own life away from you, not a day passes by without me thinking of you and wishing you were here. Life, indeed, is full of ironies.

 

I long for the warmth of your embrace. I long for the time when, as a child, you would hold me and I would fall asleep in your arms knowing that no harm could ever come to me. I long for the sound of your voice. I remember the many conversations we had that seemed to go on and on. I would talk to you about anything. You would listen and give advice. You had wisdom and oftentimes, you would be right. More than a parent, you were my best friend. Celebrating my most trivial accomplishments. Sharing my deepest of sorrows.

 

So many things have happened that I wish I could share with you. My life has turned out pretty well. You probably would have been proud of me! My son has your smile and takes after our side of the family. That is to say, he’s good-looking! Once in a while, he would ask about you and I’d show him a picture of you that is still in my wallet. I would tell him how great a mother you were to me and remind him always that he has a grandma who always prays for him.

 

I have taken care of my siblings. Don’t worry. As you have wanted, I have remained the big brother that they know they can always count on. Leading them and being strong for them the way I think you would have done if you were here. This is a heavy task that I have to bear and there are times when I’d regret taking it on especially in times of grief when I, too, need to be consoled. I always do the consoling.

 

Have you seen dad again? And Miggy? They left just a few months apart from each other. You know very well that I’d give up everything I have just for them to be with me even just a little longer. Especially Miggy who’s like a son to me. But there’s really nothing I could give that would make him stay. I guess, you need company. Sometimes, I would find a bit of refuge listening to songs and memories that bring me back to the time when he wasn’t yet part of our lives. Only to realize that life has never been more joyful as it was after he became part of it! I think about him all the time. Please send my regards to him and dad.

 

Yesterday, we went to Plaridel. The cradle of my childhood. We passed by the old house where you grew up and where I myself spent countless summer days. It is now home to people I don’t really know. Still, I saw images of you waving me goodbye just like the last time that I saw you. Somehow, I am torn in my affinity to this place. This is where our roots are and this is the birthplace of thoughts that will linger in my mind forever. Yet, the generations of people I still know are almost all gone. And I despair that the only reason for me to keep coming back is to visit you, dad, and Miggy. To see your names written on an epitaph. There...in your grave.

 

I light a candle for you every night.

 

Your loving son,

 

Magaling

[Wyld]

 

you know what...

il let you go on deluding yourself.

 

il also let you go on thinkin what you wanna think,

cause u know what... i dont really care.

 

you were an error in judgment.

one by one things are comin out.

 

things u denied.

or made a joke out of.

 

such a flagrant liar you are.

twisted tongue and honeyed lies.

 

user and abuser.

thief and absconder.

 

be gone.

 

-k

[Guest cool_k@reem]

another lousy poem

 

it hurts deep inside

that I have to abondon my lovely home

which is MTC

to walk alone for a mean time

to reflect on myself

and what happened before

this sudden turn in my life

hoping it would do good for me

coz i know deep inside

that what I'll be letting go

would be a big part of me :cry:

and hoping that I would get my closure

when I move on

I guess this would be the last of my lousy poems

until the day I bid farewell MTC

more power! :mtc:

 

Vissions of Sunset

 

Oh Yeah

Lived all my days trying to embrace

Life with my heart by all the beauty

I feel and create it spins and moves

Flows at my pace telling its story

From the tear running down my face

 

[Chorus:]

Visions of a sunset just appear when

I close my eyes

Takes me closer to heaven when the

Flute starts to fly

And the violin cries

 

Confusion leaves while peace

Orchestrates runs through my

Veins and in other seekers it

Penetrates my reason why

The big city air smells so

Sweet takes me through journeys

In time from my youth to as

Far as I can see

 

[Chorus ]

 

It's all I need in my life

It's all I need and no one

Can take your place by my side

You're all inside of me

 

[Chorus ]

 

We'll free from all sorrow

Like the wind blows from the sky

Takes me closer to

Heaven when the

Flute starts to fly

[boy_kokok]

... when the heart weeps for what it has lost, the soul laughs for what it has found...