The Mail Box

[dFoXyCriSSy]

I love u. I dunno til when. Much as i wanted it to last, i know time will come that i have to give u up. But til then, i wanna make u happy, so when inevitable takes place, there wud be happy memories of me u can go back to and hopefully puts u in a smile.

 

You know who u are.

[Guest temperamental]

My heart is numb.

 

So is my mind.

 

So do not think that I am crying not because I have fallen for you.

 

Do not think that losing you is losing myself.

 

Do not think that I will never ever get over this state.

 

My tears are for myself.

[Guest simply_miss]

It's only now that I am entertaining the thought of going out again

But then there are a lot of fears and anxiety

What if this would not work the way I want it to be?

[KristinLavransdatr]

To you, sexy eyes:

 

it doesn't hurt much to wait. it doesn't hurt much to let go of something that could have been so beautiful.

 

the joy of the present for which i have put a stake on in september surpasses the pain of waiting. the pain of letting go.

 

it could have been you. it could have been me. but you believed in my multi-definition rhetorics, never in what lies beneath them.

 

it could have been more. it could have been forever. but your stars are farther off than mine. your path is more defined than mine. your steps moved forward. mine just stayed on.

 

KL

[gen_g]

just when you think everything is fine and everything else over there is but inside its still the same.just calculating and doing what needs to be done........even if u know its going to take time...as usual.......its not exactly a comforting thought..u just have to make it comfortable...oh well.tis is life.... later ppl of the world...

[Barenaked-NoMre]

Am happy that you look happy with her in your pictures. Sorry, I "invaded" your space on the web ... to "check" you out.

 

Hope we can somehow get past our past ... and be acquaintances at least. We should ... we will no doubt meet at EBs. I dont want to always worry bumping into you ... how I should be.

 

Let's end 2004 well and be better individuals for 2005. ;-)

 

You will always have a special place in my heart ... JB.

[roxysnonie]

 

why does my heart beat faster still with you around? a feeling of a certain high yet indescribable, why oh why?

 

[warhammer]

T,

 

‘Dre, hope you’re doing well - if ever you read this.

 

I’m writing to you cuz you apparently do not know what you are getting into. I’ll be straight with you. I’m not gonna lecture you with lines like “she’s playing with you”, or “she’s just like T – believe me, I know” or “have you forgotten what she did to you in public?” cuz it won’t mean anything.

 

My advice for you, go with it. You need to experience this to know what I mean. You have to get through hell to realize that this one’s just using you.

 

Heard you talked with M sometime ago. I was talking to her this afternoon. She told me that you had this notion that this woman will eventually change… I just told M that she should just back off – just like what she did with me.

 

Don’t worry, man. You won’t personally hear anything negative from me, even if you ask me to explain it to you straight. But know this…

 

You will get hurt.

 

You will, also, eventually know what I mean.

 

Go ahead. Love her with all your heart. Always give her the benefit of the doubt. Always take her side. Don’t listen to us when we say that she’s bad for you. Let her repeatedly humiliate you, while you bask in her glory while she exercises her domination over you. Follow your masochistic urge to get hurt. Don’t listen to us. Listen to your heart.

 

Eventually, you will learn.

 

Don’t worry… when this is all over, I won’t say “I told you so”…

 

D

[gen_g]

changing pace and supposedly face...style...grace. hanging on....holding on.......clinging to dear "life"....searching...trying.....consuming the insides.....

[KristinLavransdatr]

L,

 

i swear i never had any man wait for me for 2 1/2 hours. but you waited. and there was no trace of irritation in your face when i entered the door. instead of a frown you gave me a smile. i didn't have to explain much although i could have completed a book had you given me time to explain. but you only asked how my day was.

 

for the seven weeks i've known you, you have been nothing but a streak of sunlight through my darkened windows, a majestic symphony in the cacophony of rock bands.

 

you...are amazing!

[Manticore]

My dearest G,

 

Hi. Been quite awhile since I've written you, so please don't see this as some sort of intrusion upon what I hope is now a blissful married life. I've broken my vow to end all communication between us, because I feel there is no more need to protect your feelings for him. Each time I visit that fateful day in my mind, I can't help but become convinced that it was the right thing to do. Had I insisted on keeping you for myself, you'd probably be miserable by now. How selfish I was to think that you belonged to me! Anyway, that's all in the past. It's taken this long for my feelings to catch up with what my mind has acknowledged a long time ago. I wish you nothing but the best in life. You deserve it.

 

Your new friend,

M

Edited December 17, 2004 by Manticore

[Guest simply_miss]

Mr.M,

 

Few hours from now, we will part our ways, but I'd like to thank you for all the kindness you've shown me and for all those laughters and fun. I am really looking forward of spending those nights with you again.

It's nice to know someone as cool, free spirited and very polite person like you. I will just be right here, same spot, waiting for you .

 

I wish you will have a grand time with your family and friends back home .

 

Simply,

Miss

[limpbwisit]

to myself,

 

you have been through a lot. you deserve to be happy in the arms of the person you love most. you are entitled to your dreams and hopes. most of all, you have the right to be happy.

 

you have suffered for so long. you have been battered and bruised. people hurt you and scorn you and say a lot of things about you. you took all the blows.

 

you need a break. sometimes you need to be selfish. you thing to look after your self. try to love yourself because in the end there will be no one left to support you but the man you see in the mirror.

 

you are a strong fellow. use your strenght to your advantage.

 

we remain,

yourself

[Guest chunky]

Kuya,

 

I appreciate your concern over the whelping beats of my heart. I was not fully aware of what has happened between you and T till recent. It's bad thing she did to you.

 

The thing is, I was already aware of the goings on and the true nature of the one I was setting my heart into. I wasn't complacent enough, so I made sure I won't get hurt "much" if what I saw will indeed happen.

 

For what it's worth, she was worth something to me. She has woken the sleeper in me. She had shown me a few things (nothing physical, mind you) that no "normal" woman would ever dare. For all her obvious faults, she gave me something no one else had.

 

True Inspiration.

 

Of all the things I could do, I could do jack s**t. She opened my eyes to what I could do with what natural talent I have. She moved my ever chaotic thoughts into order, despite keeping hers in chaos. No, she did not change me, she woke up who I am.

 

But then, someone told me that a muse can NEVER stay with the one she inspires. And that I am only too aware of. The same person said that he didn't want to rock the boat, buut I merelt said, "you can't rock a boat if it ain't on water."

 

So I shielded myself from the storm. Before it happened, I was prepared enough so that only my ego was hurt and not my heart.

 

You need no worry. Mama M wasn't. I've been through so much hurt not to be wise enough to bring a cushion for me to fall on. But then again, I've been through so much pain that the scars have made most of myself numb. There is a pplace remining in me that is still untouched, and that I keep for myself.

 

I won't even go to whose loss it is. I didn't lose her, for how can I lose what I NEVER had.

 

Sally forth, my brother and friend. Though she might still hold a special place in my heart, I don't think I can afford nor allow myself to be wary.

 

Maybe someday, she'll realize I'm not so bad after all...

 

The Chunkster

[LICKERO]

TO THE ONE WHO FOUND MY 4-1000 PESO BILLS. USE IT NA LANG WISELY HA? CONSIDER IT A CHRISTMAS GIFT FROM ABOVE WITH A LITTLE HELP FROM ME.