colette Posted April 3, 2004 Share Posted April 3, 2004 mahal kong nanay, bakit ka may favoritism? why am i always the one washing the dishes at night? hindi mo pinaghugas pinggan si ate. why??? pag si ate late dumating sa bahay, you always have food in the oven for her. pero ako, nothing. nanay, kung hindi ka magbabago, lalayas na ako sa bahay. i'll marry my black penpal. at hindi kita padadalhan ng dollars. sana maisip mo din akong ipagtabi ng ulam. nagmamahal mong anak na malapit nang hindi ka mahalin, colette Quote Link to comment
colette Posted April 3, 2004 Share Posted April 3, 2004 dear ambong, i dunno why you could not wait for me and married marina in obando. were you too horny that waiting for me was torture? i told you i'd only be ocw for 2 years. 2 years! so we can build our dream home in paombong. i heard marina is pregnant. here's wishing the manananggal visits her at night. and don't you dare hang garlic by the window. she is garlic-proof! ambong, i'm so lonely without you. i still remember the times you would call me collect. i was always so happy. not like dolores who would curse because of astronomical phone bills. you see, i love you so much. i don't really care if we are poor, as long as we are together. why, ambong? tell me why you couldn't wait! crying all the time, colette Quote Link to comment
Wolf Posted April 3, 2004 Share Posted April 3, 2004 hi.i'm really sorry if i screwed up the other night.would love to see you again and make up things with you.before you leave. Quote Link to comment
Shiro Posted April 3, 2004 Share Posted April 3, 2004 Apparently, I can no longer make mistakesApparently, there is no one important in your life except yourself.Apparently, you are a spoiled brat who does not know how to listen.Apparently, you say you do not love me.Apparently, you've been playing the world for a fool.Apparently, you thought we'd never notice.Apparently, not. Goodbye. Grow up. Quote Link to comment
wjc-934 Posted April 3, 2004 Share Posted April 3, 2004 jean, sa piling mo, ang oras ay parang lumilipad...diko maipaliwanag ang aking nararamdamang itomasaya ako pag kasama ka...ikaw ang minimithi gabi at araw...na ang magmamahal sa akin ay ikaw... kit Quote Link to comment
colette Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 dear ambong, now that i'm back in the barrio, it still feels as though i'm still not here.everything has changed. you are not the ambong i know. you left my life,my dreams, and this barrio you grew up in. i don't know what life you live in obando with marina. or if you are ever happy.i'm not sure i want to know. it pains me to even think for when i do, i see youwith her and it's a stab in my heart. ka igme asked me out the other day to watch a movie. i could not bring myselfto go with him. deep down, i still feel attached to you. i feel i must stay faithfuland loyal. but of course, i should not. i am not blind and stupid to still wishwe'd be together. ps. someone told me she saw marina dancing. why? is she infertile? your one and only colette Quote Link to comment
colette Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 dreams no more remember, when we would sit by the riverbank, holding my hand. your other hand holding a stick. drawing some imaginary figure. your dreams for me? for us? you were at it the whole time. i wondered. but did not ask. you were in some world i could notgrasp. but i was never insecure. not ever thinking that maybe itwas someone else you were thinking of. because you were holdingmy hand. i felt your heart. your pulse, alive. in love. those dreams, i still wonder about. and at night, when there are no stars,and the moon has not woken, i sit by the window, trying to look far, because maybe, maybe, those dreams are out there. with my eyes, holding tears, i would find them. i would find the figure your stick drew. i'm staring at my left hand. the hand you held tightly. it is cold. not warmedby you. it is cold. and almost dead. it breathes not. it dreams not. it claspsnot your hand. crying all the time, colette Quote Link to comment
colette Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 your picture and when there were no more tears falling, when my body, close togiving up life, would not respond to more sadness, i would sit onmy bed. feet under thighs, my whole being aching silently, i would utter your name. softly, at first, a faint whisper. i would say"ambong" repeatedly. the name of the man i love. and then i would close my eyes. my thought i would send off. to journey into space. into worlds unknown. so they may find you.so they might touch you, where my hands cannot. so they may kissyou, where my lips cannot. oh, ambong, if only you know how much i suffer. how life no longerbegins n the mornings with the crowing roosters. if only you know my days now are spent, waiting for my last breathbecause life has ceased having meaning. i don't want life.i don't want life. when it's not with you. crying all the time, colette Quote Link to comment
colette Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 the fiesta we were so happy then. we danced the night away. and you even joinedme in the kitchen, where a plate of tatay's adobong palaka was set asidefor us. and then you said, "colette, remember when the kids at school would teaseme? they said my eyes looked nananabik like hayok eyes of palaka?" that grossed me out, ambong. i imagined i was chewing eyes. but of course, i was not. frog's leg dangling on my lips. but i said "ambong, of course, i did not laugh. i thought your eyes were beautiful. they would sometimes look gulat. but harmless, really." and then you kissed me. my tongue trying to reach your throat. trying to taste swallowed viand. trying to taste you. my love. my reason for being. and then you pulled my arm. you walked fast, and i followed. you tookme to inang's bahay kubo. on the bamboo floor, looking up to the santosand santas imahen, you devoured my virginity. i confiscated yourmanhood. we rocked our world. the anahaw roof fluttering with each thrust.the floor creaking with each moan. i was so wet, ambong. and you werein and out like a mad man. then suddenly, "ay, nahugot!" i exclaimed.and you, quickly re-inserting. into that place so deep, the cave that washome to your hito. it will be fiesta time. but i don't wait with eagerness. it is not fiesta without you, ambong. i'm so tigang without your hito. crying all the time, colette Quote Link to comment
colette Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 i swear one of these days, ambong, i will turn up at your doorstep, when marina has left for the fields. you will open your door to a woman naked. a woman in love who wants you to see her naked, that you might remember her as she was before, when her erect nipples made you drool. when you would flick your tongue on them as your fingers played with her pussy. yes, ambong, i shall turn up,and you will see the world you left behind. you used to say, you were always full after you've sucked on them.you used to say after you've devoured my juices, for three days, youwere not thirsty or hungry. i'm pinching my nipples now, ambong. i'm imagining they are being kissedand sucked by you. i'm rubbing my pussy with a pillow. pretending it's your hito rubbing it. ahh, must love only exist in dreams i make? but i swear to you, ambong,when i turn up at your doorstep, you open your door to a womangrabbing your hito. not anymore crying but horny instead, colette Quote Link to comment
wjc-934 Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 jean, Siguro nga hindi ito ang panahon para sa ating dalawa. Hindi ito ang pagkakataon para sa pag-ibig ko sa iyo. Natatandaan mo nang minsang tanungin mo ako Kung sino ang babaeng mahal ko? "Darating din ang panahon na malalaman mo...” yan ang naging sagot ko sa iyo. Ngayon ay sasabihin ko na, ikaw yun, ikaw ang laging laman ng aking mga panalangin, ng aking paggising at pagtulog. Ikaw ang nagbibigay kulay sa mundo kong ito, at sana ay madinig mo ito. kit Quote Link to comment
irshes Posted April 4, 2004 Share Posted April 4, 2004 M, I'm still heady, with alcohol, conversation, smoke and laughter. Tonight was the first time we danced. Each time we get close feels like a brand-new experience. I can never fully predict what will happen when you get that close to me. Your scent never fails to render me powerless. Until now, I'm still reeling... I can just imagine the looks we'll be exchanging later. Now you know why they keep the tequila bottle from me I can't wait to see you. T P.S. The look on your face when I tease another is priceless.. but I know you like that, don't you? Quote Link to comment
Shiro Posted April 5, 2004 Share Posted April 5, 2004 i'm so tired...so hurt... for so long. i want this all to endi want this love to wither and die i want to stop hurting i have to let you go but i can't. Quote Link to comment
tio_pot Posted April 5, 2004 Share Posted April 5, 2004 You give your hand to me and then you say helloAnd i can hardly speak my heart is beating soAnd anyone can tell you think you know me wellBut you don't know me No you don't know the one who dreams of you at nightAnd longs to kiss your lips longs to hold you tightOh i am just a friend that's all i've ever beenCause you don't know me I never knew the art of making loveNo my heart aches with love for youAfraid and shy i let my chance go byThe chance that you might love me too You give your hand to me and then you say goodbyeI watch you walk away beside the lucky guyOh you will never know the one who loves you soWell you don't know me You give your hand to me and then you say goodbyeI watch you walk away beside the lucky guyOh you will never know the one who loves you soCause you don't know meOh no you don't know meOohh...you don't know me Quote Link to comment
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