spongebobby

tuyo na'ang damdamin -- apo hiking society

Minsan kahit na pilitin mong uminit ang damdamin

Di siya susunod, at di maglalambing

Minsan di mo na mapigil mapansin

Na talagang wala nang naiiwan na pagmamahal

At kahit na anong gawin

Di mo na mapilit at madaya

Aminin sa sarili mo

Na wala ka nang mabubuga

Parang 'sang kandila na nagdadala

Ng ilaw at liwanag

Nauubos rin sa magdamag

Minsan di mo na mapigil mapansin

Na talagang wala nang naiiwan na pagmamahal

Di na madaig o mabalik ang dating matamis na kahapon

Pilitin ma'y tuyo na'ng damdamin

Tuyo na'ng damdamin

ha......

the thrill is gone -- b.b. king

eerie how an old song captures your sentiments at the exact moment.

"daylight is good at arriving at the right time...all things must pass"

great musicians can touch you with their music. and they don;'t need to be alive.

all things must pass -- george harrison

mull of kintyre--wings

spongebob squarepants,

what were they thinking when they named you number four in the list of most annoying cartoon characters? morons!

doesn't matter to me. i love your color. i love your show. and you always make me smile, especially when i learned that you're popular with japanese women.

you are a legit film star! even david hasselhoff was in your movie and you know what that means.

if only kit were there, it would've been perfect.

sb

when this involves more than just sex and money for either or both parties, it becomes complicated.

the irony is it needs to go beyond sex and money to grow. otherwise, it's just a transaction.

it requires a lot of understanding, and shedding of traditional beliefs about relationships. you may even need to reorient your moral compass.

i remember an incident some years ago, when i had snacks with my friend, his mpa gf, and one or two of her friends.

the mpa gf kept on bragging that she had a lot of suitors, all from the mp. they were rich, pogi, mabait, etc. eventually, one of the girls got so annoyed that she said: eh bakit ka pa nila kailangan ligawan, eh for 3 thou, sex at gfe na ang binibigay mo!

there was a moment of stunned silence and then everyone just laughed.

what struck me was not the comment, but that the mpa gf didn't take offense, and as my friend later confirmed, she totally forgot about the incident. for her it was normal, harmless, and she didn't even realize that my friend got hurt.

kainis. dapat talaga dalawang siopao ang binili ko kanina.

though you outranked me before, and despite my nice guy rep, i've always known you feared me. intimidated even.

you yourself said that i have a dark side--one reserved for those who've been bad.

well former friend, you've been really bad.

and you can no longer hide behind the skirts of our mutual friends.

Oo. Nagmakaawa na ako, lumuhod na ako. Hindi naman nya ako iniwan. Eventually, iniwan ko rin sya. Ndi ako nadala ng pagmamakaawa nya. Ganun ata e. Pag lumuhod ka na kasi o nagmakaawa, unti unti na ring mawawala yung pagmamahal mo sa kanya. Kasi kung mahal ka nya, ndi ka nya papayagan gawin yun diba?

good point. you can't even bear to see the one you love crying, much less totally humbling herself.

on my part, i've never begged though someone else begged when i broke up with her. very uncomfortable, but you know if you give in you're just delaying the inevitable. you have to spare both of you the agony.

finally, my brain is revving up.

and fatigue matters not when i'm in my zone.

why do beautiful women fall for ugly men?

simple. because there is justice in this world.

kakalungkot naman. break na pala si jolina at bf niya.

i guess one can never fully understand a relationship like this unless one has either been a client or mpa/gro.

in my case, i once fell in love with an mpa.

she was new then, i think just a week at work when i met her.

i visited her several times, and we spent more time laughing than having sex, even in that mp.

after a while, we knew our feelings were growing and we became a couple

after about two months of being an mpa, she retired. she said she just couldn't bear making love to me when just recently she was intimate with a stranger who paid her.

she tried odd jobs and worked as a clerk getting minimum pay. i could've given her much more money, but she refused, insisting that the last thing that she wanted me to think was she just wanted my money.

we were together for eight months. was the sex good? not the best as i've been with more, well, skillful women. but the experience was the best. we spent more time cuddling and laughing and having sex. and i guess that's what made is special.

during the relationship, she never asked me to buy her this or buy her that. she knew all she had to do was ask and i would've supported her financially, but she didn't.

eventually, we broke up as the guy who once got her pregnant wants the "family" to be complete, though more than a year later they still haven't gotten married. it broke my heart, as did hers but she said she had to do it for the child. the breakup was so difficult that she just kept crying and crying when we're on the phone.

eventually, though we started to heal. right now, we still talk, txt and chat. whenever her problems seem to overwhelm her, we talk. but we agreed to never meet again, though we both want to. as we know that seeing each other will just rekindle the relationship.

what have i learned from this?

first, rules don't matter. i had a rule: never fall in love. she had two rules: it's just work and you can't trust your customers in this trade. we both broke our rules. so never say never.

second, it's not just about money. i could've given her much more than she was earning, but she repeatedly refused.

third, there are decent women who work in clubs and mps. and yes, you can find love there. but it is more complex. more difficult, and more painful.

chismosang friend,

naman naman. the kid is not my son.

tulirong ginoo.

outliers by malcolm gladwell. finished it about a month ago.

konti ang putukan ah. dahil ba sa recession, o dahil umulan?

ken lee by mariah carey. lol.

it's been a while since i was surrounded by so many successful writer-friends.

you remind me of the choice i made many years ago, when i chose not to follow your lead and go my own way. numbers instead of words.

tough the psychic rewards are less, i know i've made the right choice.

i suddenly remembered you, when i heard alanis' "you oughta know."

especially since you compared yourself to her and quoted the line: "is she perverted like me/ would she go down on you in a theater?"

yeah, you were really wild then. sana you've met the right guy.

i want a woman whose self-worth comes from within, not from me or any relationship.

good point spongebobby...

 

hanggang saan mo kakayanin?...

 

paano kung magka-siping kayo sa kama, di mo ba maiisip na kanina lang eh may kasama siyang iba... and in vice-versa, for the girls. paano naman kung ang mga mpa/psp/gro naman ang makabasa ng fr ng bf nila? sa tingin niyo ba madali yun? di niyo rin mawawala sa mga babae na lagi magselos at maging praning dahil sa ganitong mundo kayo nagkakilala... alam ng mga babae na hobby niyo ang pambababae, so lagi ring iisipin ni girl na may kasama kayong ibang babae... ang hirap kaya ng ganito... kaya ang laging issue sa ganitong relationship, is yung trust eh...

 

 

oo nga naman pala. i didn't think of the gf's reaction when they read their BFs FRs.

masakit sa both parties, but if you can transcend the pain then you have one heck of a love story.

ang galing ng acronis. damn best backup software i've seen. and i've seen a lot.

Hi, thanks for your inputs though i'm not the threadstarter, well mejo mahirap talaga, pero am willing to take all the risks of this relationship lakas ng tama ko eh. I don't have any GF besides her. All I can do now is to understand the situation, help her and stand by on her side always.

 

Ewan ko guys...this is the primary reason bakit ako na pa-member sa MTC, looking for advises about this kase wala ibang may alam nitong gingawa ko ende naman kase maiintindihan ng friends and family ko, sarado kase utak nila sa gantong bagay.

 

Merry Christmas po sa lahat =)

Sir, just curious: what would you do if you if you read an FR about her in MTC? And what would you do if you discover that her "moves" are even more special with her clients? I know someone whose MPA GF told him that she doesn't know the cowgirl position. Kumpleto pa ang emo at acting. Though incredulous, he accepted the story...until he read FRs about her. After that, it was never the same again.

Kung kaya mong magbasa ng FR about your GF, without the need to confront or hurt her, then your relationship has a chance. Otherwise, walk away for both of you.

partner,

you ask how i can walk away from it all: the stocks, the position, the trips to america and europe.

two words: delayed gratification.

you know i'll get to eat my marshmallows later.