Ephemeral

It takes a big effort, and a lot of alcohol, to free yourself from the memories.

Hi.

Its been almost 2 months of no contact (on your side at least). You're tougher than I thought. I envy you because until now I can't move past that night when we had our last talk. The confessions you made, those kept me awake at night, most nights. I kind of expected those but hearing them verbally is a different thing. In a way, it's a good thing that you confessed up. It made me realized that my fears we not unfounded, that my mind is not playing tricks on my sanity. We should have ended it a long time ago, but I just love you too much to let you go. I just can't bear the thought of going through my days without talking to you or thinking about you. I wanted it to be for a long time, if not forever. But destiny is not working with us. Now here we are. You have your life and your things, and I have mine. I hope you are happier now whomever you are with. I'm still alone and kind of lonely but that's the way it should.

A part of me will always be loving and waiting for you but we have to work on our own issues, on our own. If ever you found this letter, know that I will always be here, ready to accept you at your worst. If you are not coming back to me, I just hope you meet great people, do great things, raise a great family, and have a wonderful life.

Goodbye and goodluck.