cynophile

Finally got to play golf again after almost a week of unfriendly weather 😭⛳️ Used my first ever Callaway Solaire ladies golf set today. Gagi, palong palo siya ih 🔥🤭 Definitely made my day!

Sad realization today. I suddenly realized that the thing that makes me happy… is also the thing I don’t want to keep going through. Yes, I like the attention. I like the feeling that someone wants me. But if it’s not real or not consistent I don’t want it. Temporary affection isn’t worth the confusion it leaves behind.

freediver ako e. haahahahaha😆

Class Suspension? haha actually, natawa ako kasi namiss ko yung ganitong feeling 😆 yung nag aabang ng walang pasok advisory hahahahahahaha

Nagising sa ibang room. HAHAHA so nag inom kasi si ate girl nyo sa bar ng hotel. when I woke up, I was like, "hala sino to ampogi at hindi ko kwarto to" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! hays.

Realizing na ang vulnerable ko parin talaga. Isang araw lang ako binigyan ng atensyon, nawala na naman ako sa sarili. At nahihirapan akong bumalik. Punyetang strong independent woman. Utuin mo lang ata ako ng isang linggo ako na bahala maghabol buong taon e🫠 Bat ganyan kayoooo 😭 ang hirap magfocus ulit sa sarili.

eto naba yung tinatawag na situationship? 😭 need distraction huhu

wala sad lang. feeling ugly duckling ganon.

yung nakita ko sa tiktok. niregaluhan ng boyfriend nya ng golf clubs. HAHAHAHAHA ingat na ingat ako tapos sa inggit lang pala ako mamamatay. Anyways, it made me smile knowing na there's a lot of girls parin na being treated right. Nawa'y lahat.

Ano pong golf club and brand yung recommended for ladies and begginer (di pa ganon kalakas mag swing ha) haha. May inooffer kasi sakin na 2nd hand doon sa driving range. Yung mizuno 28k, and prgr 25k. Baka may reviews kayo dun? and kung goods naba yun sa price nya or inegotiate ko pa?

I’ve decided to include my photo in our Manila lineup (yes, in my own oncall spa). just felt like trying it again. Haha! But I’m not telling anyone kung sino ako doon. I’ve mentioned before how I was never really the type of thera na clients picked back in my therapist days years years years ago so let’s see if anything’s changed. Or not. Haha!.

Aw, thank you. Pero honestly, parang hindi yan yung kailangan ko. Maybe my inner child still grieves sometimes. She still carries those old wounds from growing up in a broken family. Pero hindi naman ako kulang, siguro I'm just silently healing from things I don't talk about.

Every time I cry, my dog runs to me right away. Clings to me and refuses to leave. I’m not even sure if he knows I’m crying, (or sad?) but the way he looks at me is full of curiosity, This dog never fails to make me smile in the middle of my breakdowns. Grabe… what did I do to deserve a soul like this?

Lately, napansin ko how I easily get emotional. May makita lang akong couple na mukhang masaya, a wedding video, a parent playing with their child, and suddenly, I’m in tears. (as in hagulgol si tanga) I’m not even sad. I genuinely love myself. But maybe there’s a quiet part of me that’s finally being heard. I’m not sure if it’s sorrow… or longing for something I’ve never had. All I know is, something in me is searching. even if I don’t fully understand kung ano yon.

May bagong open na fuel station samin. Super mura ng fuel nila, naeengganyo ako magpa fulltank haha (been loyal to petron since the start, pero ang laki talaga ng itinaas ng gas ngayon) Are you familliar with this brand? meron dn ba nito sainyo? what are your thoughts?

omsim haha charot. yan lagi advice ni ichan sa tiktok, sa ilegal daw talaga yayaman.

Akala ko pawis ko pa yung tumutulo kanina, luha ko na pala yun. Buti nalang umulan din. Hindi na halata. / While I was out for a run earlier, I saw something simple but deeply moving. A father teaching his grown-up son how to ride a motorcycle. I grew up with absent parents. Kaya kahit gaano ako ka-independent and strong ngayon, sobrang lambot ko pag nakakakita ako ng ganitong moment. Habang tinatype ko nga to umiiyak ako. Kasi halos lahat sa buhay, natutunan ko mag-isa. How I wish na sana si papa yung unang nagturo sakin magdrive, na sana kay mama ako natuto magluto, na sana si papa nagturo sakin magbike tapos pag nasugatan ako si mama ang gagamot. Madaming sana, sana na hindi na mangyayari. Buhay naman sila, absent lang talaga.

Sharing a realization after almost 2 years of owning a car and using it as my main transpo. Mas mahal talaga siya compared sa commuting. 😅 (I mean, given naman kasi nga comfort, pero malaki tlga yung magiging difference sa expenses mo from commuter days to owning one and medyo hurt na ko dito.) May yearly registration, PMS every 6 months or 10k km, tapos yung mga surprise repairs and maintenance pa. I mean, I’m earning enough to sustain it naman, pero nanghihinayang din ako sa mga nagastos, especially now na narealize ko na ang dami palang times na pwede akong magcommute instead. Like today, I went to school via commute. Trike from my condo to main road for 10 pesos. Jeep to school 14 pesos and 3-minute walk to the gate That’s ₱24 one way, ₱48 round trip. Wala pang parking fee. Ang layo ng cost sa daily gas + parking. So kung usapang pagtitipid, hindi talaga nakakatipid ang may sariling car. (again hndi naman pagtitipid ang rason bat ka magkokotse eh. alam ko yon) Siguro advantage lang is yung convenience. alis ka agad, no waiting. But the downside? Parking. Kahit anong aga ko minsan, ubusan pa rin ng space. Minsan mas malayo pa nilalakad ko dahil malayo ung vacant. Kaya ngayon, I'm thinking na mag-commute na lang kapag hindi naman super hassle. What do you guys think? May naka-experience din ba ng ganitong shift? Curious ako how others manage their car use para hindi masyado magastos.

48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene

You know what makes me sad today? Someone keeps reporting all my FB account. from business page to my personal account and they won’t stop. Alam nila lahat ng pages ko naka-link sa personal ko. I have proof kung sino, pero kahit meron, what can I do? Wala namang aamin, and confronting might just make it worse. I keep creating new accounts and appealing, pero hanggang kailan ganito? Even school group chats are affected. Nakakahiya na, to be honest. At nakakapagod na rin, sa totoo lang. I’ve been dealing with this for 2 months now, and in my 3 years of operating, ngayon lang ako napeste ng ganito.