My Prayer

[Barenaked-NoMre]

This is sad ... from my HRPhilippines egroup:

 

Sent: Tuesday, October 23, 2007 1:44 PM

Subject: For we don't know when and where ...

 

Good day everyone,

 

I wish I were writing under different circumstances.

 

I would like to inform you that my wife Leslie Cruz was part of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 Mall bombing in Makati City, Philippines.

 

She was supposed to have a minor out patient surgery at Makati Medical Center at 230pm.

 

I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there. We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parents place in QC to babysit at around 10am.

 

Wethen proceeded to Makati and was there at 1230pm. Since she had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she wanted to move around and listen to some music while I grabbed a bite to eat. We parked at the basement of Park Square 2, and headed for the Glorietta 2 entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator, she turned right towards Filbar's while I went left towards the restaurants. That was the last time I would see her.

 

Around 120pm, she had called me so that we can meet at the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her appointment. As I made my way there from Glorietta 1 through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn the corner, I heard 2 deep thumps and the shock-wave from the blast hit me.

 

At that moment my heart dropped as I knew that the origin of the blast came from the same place where we were supposed to meet. I tried getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too much and it was as if I was staring at a white wall.

 

I still tried to convince myself that she was able to make it out, and that after ringing her mobile without a response only meant that she dropped it in the confusion. After 6 hours of searching from Makati Med. to Ospital ng Makati, the blast site, and back again to MMC - with the help of all the people I could get hold of, that I was able to get confirmation in what the

state of my wife was.

 

My Dad and Uncle signaled me in from the ER of MMC. My Uncle (who's a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie's appearance to another group of doctors. I saw in the eyes of one that the description made sense. Instead of confirming it to me, they huddled together, then brought me to a small examination room. It was only through a digital camera that I was able

to confirm (and deny) that she was indeed gone.

 

I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner. I should have ran instead of a brisk walk. I should have not chose to park where I did.

 

I should have braved the dust and went in the blast site. I should have ...

 

Today's the 4th day. It is still terribly difficult to breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source of strength, your best friend doesn't lie beside you on your bed. That my deepest worry is when Amber starts asking for her Mama.

 

I am glad that Amber's too young to understand the loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the details of how her mother died, but more importantly I would like to raise her as how her mother lived - a loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring, and nurturing. She has always cared for her family and friends, and sacrfied her career for being a full time mom and home maker.

 

As with all couples we had our ups and downs - none of which I regret not going through. The sweet is never as sweet without the sour. For almost 4 years of marriage, we've finally hit our balance in life only to be taken away in an instant. I have no regrets about our marriage. She has loved me and Amber beyond her capacity. I will always love her.

 

It is my first time to write to egroup as I've lurked and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want now is that for each of the couples here is to cherish each moment that we spend with our loved ones. Pretty simple to say, very easy to take for granted.

 

Thank you all for the prayers. I would still like to ask you to please include Leslie in them until her 40th day so that the path to God's kingdom is well lit and she is no longer in the dark.

 

Sincerely,

 

Carlo Cruz

 

I do pray for the Cruz family ... immediate and extended.

 

Please give them all the strength they need to get through this ...

[sensible33]

Lord i promised you from the start that im gonna let you lead my life..and here i am again Lord,askin for guidance..was it a good decision i made? but i still do love him...pero bakit po ganito?....im confused now...please clear my mind...i trust everything to you to You...

[Mobius Stripper]

Lord,

 

Since you hit me with the flu, you might as well let me shoulder all the physical discomfort of my dear mum & spare her the agony she goes through each change of season.

 

And by bearing the burdens without hearing a complaint from me, you grant a shackled entepreneur her wish for freedom to be all that she can possibly be, I'll be so grateful.

 

OK?

 

P.S. Do you think you can make me well enough to fly off for the weekend, even on my own? Just testing ... :-)

[yellowmoon]

Lord,

 

could you give me the will to make myself productive..

keep my friends safe.

keep my family healthy and safe too...

 

and could you let me meet the one for me.. atleast befriend him...

 

and btw, thanks so much for the answered prayers! :hypocritesmiley:

 

love you! :flowers:

[Guest lustfortravel]

Dear God,

 

I really need a miracle today and tomorrow . I can't do it by myself anymore, please help me .......

[Guest lustfortravel]

Thank you Lord :flowers: :flowers:

 

As Max Bialystock in "The Producers" would say, boy you work fast!

[sha79]

Dear God,

 

I am terribly depressed by losing the most important person in my life.

sometimes..i always thinking that life for me is always been unfair.

Help me get through w/ it.

[iwalkalone]

Dear God...whatever you decide...just don't let me die from old age or sickness..ok? got that? ok? ok. please don't you forget about that...ok? ok?...okay.

[chiquezee]

Father,

 

I pray for that one man I love so dearly now. May he overcome his trials, and do well in his endeavors.

Protect him from any illness, and give him warmth in the cold.

Let him find You and Your peace, that he may go through the days with a lighter heart.

Bless him and the work of his hands, and may he see Your Truth in the dark.

Lead him to You when he goes astray.

Teach him to trust in you, and give him the grace to understand your ways.

Show him mercy and never ever let him out of your sight.

Send your angels, one on each side, to protect him, guide him and secure him.

 

Thank you, Lord, for your loving kindness. All these I ask, in Jesus.

 

Amen.

[iwalkalone]

Lord hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kailangang mangyari ito sa akin ngayon...

ngayon...?

bakit? bakit ngayon pa?...hindi ba talaga ako pwedeng maging masaya?

bakit palaging may kontrabida? hindi naman ako si marimar ah! =(

bat di mo naman ako hayaang mabuhay ng maayos at masaya...kahit ilang taon lang...

na walang pabigat na kahit ano? bakit ba?!

[tio_pot]

Dear God,

 

I know that everything has a reason. But why take "Pokey-Pokey"? She's one of the nicest and happiest student that I had. But if it is your will that she would join You n Your kingdom at an early age, I wouldn't question it. It's just hard to accept the fact that she's not with her class anymore. I ask that You guide her mom for I know that she is grieving the loss of one of her angels. May you also enlighten my class so that they can move on with their lives and make the best out of it.

[sha79]

Dear God,

 

Can you help me?help this girl please?

i love you. Wag ka makulitan sken.

[iwalkalone]

God! this Hate I feel..even for my loved one...is starting to get the best of me...again...it's beginning to consume the good that's left in me!...DON'T LEAVE MEEEH!!! I beg of you!!! please..stay with me!!

i don't wanna suffer any longer!! please...let me please live the rest of my days mindless!...so i can go...so i can go...

Edited November 19, 2007 by iwalkalone

[bachr32]

Lord,

 

Thanks a lot for your understanding and blessings,

I ask you today for the speedy recovery of my love.

 

thanks a lot

[wEbStAr]

God, di naman masama hinihingi ko. I tried my best to be good and I think did fairly well. Sana naman po dumating na yun.