The Mail Box

[lord_rochester]

to that someone i haven't met yet,

 

i know i haven't met you yet. maybe someday i would, maybe someday i won't. what i'm trying to say is that all my life i have waited and hoped that you would come and rescue me. that you would take my hand and pull me out of this mess i call my life.

 

several people have tried and for some time i thought they would succeed. that maybe i don't need to wait for you anymore, then they would give up and leave.

 

someday we will meet. or maybe someday we won't. but if that someday comes. i may as well be dead. for this mess i call my life has tried to k*ll me for as long as i can remember. and when you come it may well be too late.

[forbidden]

Dear forbidden,

of course u r welcome to post anything here.. i mean anything as long as it is in accordance with the objectives of this thread...

with regards to ur story and other short stories we have no problems with that.. i would be glad to read ur future posts..

and im deeply touched that u like this thread and that in some ways it helps u..

take care..

 

looking forward to ur future posts,

sweetp

Thanks sweetp! I will definitely be posting some more in this thread. Definitely my thoughts and feelings, and maybe future installments of the story I just began

 

Once again, thank you

[sweetpsyche]

NZCHICK: it really is. thats why i posted it here.. so touching...

hayyyyyy... hehehe...

 

FORBIDDEN: well i will look forward to that sir

question though... are u gonna sell that story? is it like a book or pocketbook or something? well if it is and if u will indeed sell it.. let me say now that i will be the first one in line to buy it and ask for ur signature hehe...

goodluck!!!

[Icy Tea]

it a other day waiting for you...

and i discover that your hidding something...

i hope you will say it to me...

i will always understand...

[Switlass]

You,

 

Things I normally would never say I am saying now.

Reactions i've never allowed anyone to see, I have showed you.

 

You taught me that honesty is indeed sacred,

and games are not for this.

You will not see my mask.

You will not feel my cold,

 

and even now as i lie here, I know I am not alone.

It's only a matter of time now.

 

And I know our love will be here forever

 

 

Me

Edited November 3, 2003 by swit_lass

[sophia]

for you..........

 

 

 

Mem'ries light the corners of my mind

Misty water-colored mem'ries of the way we were

 

Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind

Smiles we gave to one another for the way we were.

 

Can it be that it was all so simple then

Or has time rewritten every line

If we had the chance to do it all again, tell me, would we, could we

 

Mem'ries may be beautiful and yet

What's too painful to remember we simply choose to forget

So it's the laughter we will remember

Whenever we remember the way we were.

 

The way we were.

 

(hums first line and a variation on the second line)

 

[forbidden]

She was inconsolable at the other end of the line.

 

The receiver was eased back into its cradle; she paused for a moment to recollect what had just happened, hunched over on the sofa. Outside, the steady drum of raindrops; surely the tree would have its water today, she thought. It had been raining for the past two hours, and for a moment she thought - she hoped, that the rains would be too much for the old tree. Maybe with that, they would both be free to do exactly what they wished.

 

A glance at the puddles outside the window, and then a long sigh.

 

When the heart is heavy, one cannot ignore it. You have to get the weight off your chest - you can escape the burden, but not for long. Eventually, you have to think about the cause, the effects, the what-will-be's. You have to feel the pain, too. She regretted not being in the habit of drowning her sorrows out with shots of vodka; if she were, maybe she could have just sunk into the mud for the next three months while this whole army of despair rumbled through her life.

 

The rain was relentless. It had not eased since breakfast. In between moments of calm there would be angry outbursts that beat hard on the roof; at one point, one corner of the garden was under an inch of water. She looked at the flowers in their pots - the water had collected and was overflowing out of the pots. She wanted so desperately to go out and save them, but she couldn't move; part of her had no hope, and that part of her believed that the flowers were already lost.

[Guest BB]

hi! it's been a while, huh? i'm sorry i haven't visitied you but i kinda got tied up here in manila.

 

i just had to ask you something though and it's ok if you don't answer but that weird month right before you left... what the hell was that? we were friends, but somehow i had this little knot in my gut that kept bothering me whenever we were together.

 

especially the night we celebrated your birthday - i thought we'd be meeting up with your pals but it turned out it was just you and me - i'm not complaining of course. that just wasn't right. and let's not even get to what happened when i walked you to your gate. that whole night was the highlight of strangeness for me. you and me are just not right for each other. you're a brat and i'm a prick. but...

 

i just had to ask, what would have happened if i asked you to stay? and what will happen when i see you again?

[in_style]

the one,

 

funny as it may sound, sometimes i really think if time will come that we will both have nothing to say to each other. comfortable silence i mean! we've talked about the u and the me for like a hundred times already. though fruitful and there's always a learning, it feels like a never ending saga.

 

has it ever crossed ur mind that maybe thats the direction that we should take? to just let things move on its natural pace. i did noticed the change. u've shown me a side of you that i thought u wouldne be caught showing. thanks... u've made me feel even more special. i guess i am not good in saying those words of appreciation. but i tell u, u're much appreciated. more that u know!

 

so now i wanna tell u that we should take this one step at a time. enjoy every move each time. maybe it will yield something nice or even something nicer. so i dare u to take my hand and lets walk side by side. not one after the other. if this is a ride, i wanna spend my time enjoying it with you. as i always tell you .... time will tell.

 

take care....

 

 

ur the one

[lord_rochester]

to fhm (just a code),

 

today i decided that i will stay away from you. what we have is something we can't acknowledge. something forbidden something we shouldn't have. i decided that the time has come to say goodbye...before things get out of hand.

 

i saw you standing there. i wanted to ignore you and i did. i just went past you and didn't look back... a few steps from you that's all i took.. before you reached out for me, grabbed my hand and trapped me in your embrace.

 

i wanted to make nothing of it. so i asked... what's wrong with you? you said, i just wanted to hug you... and i said "you already did... so let go of me"... what you said hurt me... you said "not yet... just a little bit more before i let you go."

 

Is this your good bye? or is this a hello? i don't know. how can i say goodbye to you when everything you do hinders me from leaving you.

 

we have to end this madness. we are not free. i love him and you love her. it's time.

[sweetpsyche]

dear....

 

the song...

 

Somebody told me you were leaving, I didn't know

somebody told me you're unhappy but it doesn't show

somebody told me that you don't want me no more

so you're walking out the door

 

nobody told me you'd been crying every night

nobody told me you'd been dying but didn't want to fight

nobody told me that you fell out of love from me

so i'm setting you free

 

let me be the one to break it up

so you won't have to make excuses

we don't need to find a setup

where someone wins and someone loses

we just have to say our love was true

but has now become a lie

so I'm telling you "I love you" one last time

and "goodbye"

 

Somebody told me you still love me, I don't know why

nobody told me you only needed time to fly

somebody told me you'll come back

when our love is real again

 

just turn around and walk away

you don't have to live like this

but if you love me still then stay

don't keep me waiting for that final kiss

we can work together through this test

or we can work through it apart

I just need to get this off my chest

that you will always have my heart

 

let me be the one...

[sweetpsyche]

Dear childheart

 

remember this?

thanks...

 

Mula sa malayo ako'y nakatanawa

Sa pagbubukang liwayway ng haring araw

at sa aking pagmamasid ay nananalangin

sa pagsapit ng dilim ikaw ay darating

at muling mabuksan ang harding nakapinid

taung naghintay sa iyong pagbabalik

luma na't kinakalawang yaring mga pintuan

at di na maaninag ang landas na laan

ngunit maghihintay harding marikit

di man batid kung ikaw ay babalik....

 

just me...

[mistaj]

hey you! yeah you!

i don't know you personally but if you happen to read this, i just wanna tell you that nobody messes with me! back off!

[sweetpsyche]

MY LAST SEVEN DAYS

 

If I had seven days to live

And you'd ask me what to do

I'd spent my first six days with God

And my last day with you

 

On the first day, I'd ask the Lord above

To take care of the one I love

Co'z there's no one else I'd rather have

Than you, my one and only love

 

I'll pray to Him the second day

To take away your fears

Co'z it'll only break my heart

To see my love in tears.

 

The third day I'd be asking Him

To forgive me from sins

And if I may, I'd beg Him please

For another chance to live

 

The fourth day's for Thanksgiving

For the blessings we receive

He had blessed me when I met You

THE BEST GIFT I RECEIVED

 

On the fifth day will be prayers

For all of Mankind

That all may find peace in their hearts

And soon will reunite

 

A prayer for preparation

Will be on the sixth day,

That He may take me to Heaven

And not the other way

 

I'll thank God for the seventh day,

Co'z I'll pass my time with you

That before I leave this world, you'll know...

How much I LOVE YOU

the opposite of DOM's post.

 

MY 7 last days..

 

if i had 7 days to live,

and ud ask me what id do,

id spend my 1st 6 days with u,

and with God on the last day through

 

on d 1st day, ill give u my wisdom,

so you can realize the ways of the world,

ill show u all my doubts and fears,

so despite them, you'll take life slow

 

on d 2nd day, ill give u my touch,

so you can feel the warmth of my company,

ill show you the people ive lost,

so despite that, you'll be secure of my presence

 

on the 3rd day, ill give you my strength,

so you can endure all hardships,

ill show you all my weaknesses,

so despite them, you'll be strong to conquer every strife

 

on the 4th day, ill give you my turst,

so you can have my faith in God and destiny,

ill show you how ive been lost before i found you,

so despite that, you'll be guided along the way

 

on the 5th day, ill give you all my memories,

so you can be reminded of my days,

ill show you all my sorrows and pain,

so despite them, you'll have the sweetest memories yet to be made..

 

on the 6th day, ill give you my love,

so you can prove its endlessness,

ill show you it failed me and made me give up,

and despite that, you were there to make me beilieve it exists

 

I'd spend my time with God on the last day

so He can have my life and see through it

[forbidden]

PART3

 

She knew it was a moment of selfishness.

 

It had been a long time ago. She reflected on the one mistake she had made that had streched its disgusting hands through time and which were now clawing at her heart.

 

She had met Sabine three years ago. Why was she so intrigued by her? How did it progress from quaint afternoons over coffee to moments of intense intimacy? And afterwards, not being able to look in the mirror without seeing someone else - someone new. That first time, when Sabine had kissed her, it was electric - how could she have resisted it? She was reaching for something in the back seat; she leaned over to grope for it, her head inches from Sabine's. For a moment, she felt a disturbing calm - as if someone was contemplating murder; then she felt Sabine's hand glide accross her neck, and every inch of skin that made contact with Sabine's soft fingers screamed with delight. She looked up at Sabine - she was still in that awkward position, and her face was a carnival of shock, hesitation and excited anticipation. Sabine's face hovered in front of hers for what seemed to be an excrutiatingly long time. Then, in an instant, their lips met, and her entire body felt like it was charged with some pleasurable current.

 

That was the first time. She still remembered it clearly. She almost forgot the box of cinnamon rolls she had bought for him - an act of love completely overshadowed by the power of a new pleasure.

 

That went on for a year. Behind his back for the most part; but he found out anyway, and that was when everything began to go to the dogs.