The Mail Box

[Z]

You have a weird way of saying goodbye. It really isn't that difficult to ask for a hug and yes I didn't deserve that comment. What did you want from me? Sorry but I had to think out loud on that one. So this is the goodbye? Goodbye then

[Macy]

Dear Dad....

 

I met someone I wish you had the privilege of meeting..... he is so good to me.

 

I remember one of the last things you said to me when you lay there sick and I was holding your hand..... that I was a nice person and I deserve the best man.

 

Well Dad, rest your soul... I found him.

 

Your Daughter

[Chito]

Fantasy -

In Memoriam

R. Luis Flores

 

The dream was beautiful while it lasted.

- King Arthur, First Knight

 

It only goes as far

as the ink runs.

Once the pen dries up,

the story will be over -

devoid of any favorable ending

or sensible conclusion.

 

No spare ink bottle

can ever hope to resurrect

the narrative in its sudden demise.

For to end

is to end,

is to end.

And what is left

is a story

that is both wanting

and hopeless -

the transition between fantasy

and tragedy

lost

to the frustratingly dull fact

that the dream

has ceremoniously ceased.

 

In a world of dream-slayers,

the storyteller is powerless.

A victim

to the constant radiance

of reality,

from which he has no escape.

 

21* November 1999

[sweetpsyche]

Dear sweet one

 

I didn't know that loving you would be this hard.

I thought love will come to me like a gentle wind

But I was wrong

It came to me like an angry thunder

ready to tear me apart.

It is like a battle

but 'm not yet ready to fight.

I'm not sure how long will I last

for day by day... it is slowly killing me.

How can something beautiful,

be so lethal

 

Loving you is too draining.

 

sincerelyme.

[LostCommand]

Dear Chief:

 

Not all advertising people are shameless.

 

-L-

 

 

araaayyy! to naman, sabi ko shameless types, yung mga trying hard...

 

sssoooorrrryyyy!!!

[LostCommand]

Dearest LC,

 

I have to agree with Lipstick. Not all advertising people are shameless. Some of us are honest, ethical & hardworking people. :cry:

 

Sincerely,

 

Zerreit

 

 

now for strike two! I think I can now post in the "you know you are a loser when..." thread

 

sorry din po, drinks on me next!

[irshes]

If you, if you could return

Don't let it burn, don't let it fade

I'm sure I'm not being rude

But it's just your attitude

It's tearing me apart

It's ruining everything

And I swore, I swore I would be true

And honey so did you

So why were you holding her hand

Is that the way we stand

Were you lying all the time

Was it just a game to you

 

But I'm in so deep

You know I'm such a fool for you

You got me wrapped around your finger

Do you have to let it linger

Do you have to, do you have to

do you have to let it linger

 

Oh, I thought the world of you

I thought nothing could go wrong

But I was wrong

I was wrong

If you, if you could get by

Trying not to lie

Things wouldn't be so confused

And I wouldn't feel so used

But you always really knew

I just wanna be with you

 

And I'm in so deep

You know I'm such a fool for you

You got me wrapped around your finger

Do you have to let it linger

Do you have to. do you have to

do you have to let it linger

[Guest ginny]

Dear _____,

 

Sana naman makunsensya ka na. Bayaran mo na utang mo sa kin. Kung ayaw mo pa rin, sana tubuan ka ng kulaba sa katawan.

 

Ako pa rin,

 

Ex mong maganda

Edited February 13, 2004 by ginny

[Zerreit]

now for strike two! I think I can now post in the "you know you are a loser when..." thread

 

sorry din po, drinks on me next!

Dearest LC,

 

It's ok. I was just harping on you.

 

Zerreit

[Chito]

Dearest _____,

 

Just recently*, I visited your house in Cainta. You probably saw me…..that is, if some part of you still lingered there. I’d like to think that indeed, you were there. But I’ve always had an active imagination. I could remember happier days when your house would be filled with the buzz of children running around, the noise of the TV, the chattering of the house helpers, and the occasional laughter of the barkada, among others.

 

Now there’s only silence. It’s sad, you know, seeing your framed graduation picture – smiling confidently, ready to take on the world. How were we supposed to know that deep inside, you were fighting a losing battle with the same demons and monsters that you seemingly vanquished just a few years back? You never told us.

 

I have always admired your family for its fighting spirit. I particularly admire your mother, Tita _____. She never let her cancer, (and her failed marriage) determine the way she wanted to live her life. Your brothers I likewise hold in high esteem. Finally, I also admired you. It’s not easy to leave college on the pretext of a psychological disorder, only to return years later when all your closest friends have graduated already, and to start all over again. I was there, I saw how you’ve rebuilt your life, and I consider myself honored to be counted as one of your friends. Then when everything was seemingly going perfectly for you, you left us.

 

Most of us already stopped blaming ourselves for what happened. But I still don’t understand why you chose a course of action that was so dark and hopeless. And since you are gone forever, perhaps I never will.

 

Outside your house, life goes on as if this world never took notice of your brief passing. Some of us, your friends, are working now. And of course, a considerable number are married now (Married! Imagine that.) Some of them are even doctors already. I won’t deny the fact that with the fast pace that we find ourselves in, it is very easy on our part to forget the memory of you. If it’s any consolation, we also could barely find the time to round up the old gang in Colayco Hall.

 

The rest of us will live for 30, 40 or 50 more years. I am told that Time, the thief, has a way of erasing even the most cherished memories. But I don’t think I would ever completely forget you.

 

 

===== Chito

[irshes]

So you sailed away

Into a grey sky morning

Now I'm here to stay

Love can be so boring

 

Nothing's quite the same now

I just say your name now

 

But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had

You don't want me back

You're just the best I ever had

 

So you stole my world

Now I'm just a phony

Remembering the girl

Leaves me down and lonely

 

Send it in a letter

Make yourself feel better

 

But it's not so bad

(Not so bad...)

You're only the best I ever had

You don't need me back

(Need me back...)

You're just the best I ever had

 

And it may take some time to

Patch me up inside

But I can't take it so I

Run away and hide

And I may find in time that

You were always right

You're always right

 

So you sailed away

Into a grey sky morning

Now I'm here to stay

Love can be so boring

 

What was it you wanted

Could it be I'm haunted

 

But it's not so bad

You're only the best I ever had

I don't want you back

You're just the best I ever had.

 

 

You have affected me too much by doing too little.

You will come back. But I will no longer be there, waiting.

 

T.

[irshes]

A day after Valentines. My first, in more than four years, without you. I post a letter I wrote the morning I found out the news.

 

J,

I know you would no longer be able to read this. I know you hate seeing me cry, but I can't help the tears. I am drowning in my misery, and you are no longer here to save me.

You are my love, my teacher, my friend. You have taught me what passion is about. You have shown me the beauty of things, great or simple. You have been nothing but kind and understanding.

I'm trying to be strong. You taught me that. Eventually I will love again, but it will never come close to what we had.

No one can ever hold a candle up to you. No one can make me feel the way you did. No one can ever take your place. No one can ever fully have me. A part of me is forever yours.

You have changed me. You live in me. You are me.

I will forever love you.

T.

[Z]

Dear Yve,

 

Glad you joined us last night and I sure hope you enjoyed yourself. I'd normally write this down and give it to you personally but I still haven't got a wink of sleep. It was fun hanging with you last night with friends

 

Always,

 

E

[vixen]

...,

 

I may have been hurt a lot before, but that's not your fault. If I have trouble dealing with my issues, that's not your problem either. I may be confused, but it's because I didn't ask enough questions.

 

I'm sorry you think I snapped. Forgive me please?

 

T.

[in_style]

dear you,

 

i used to write alot. i kept a journal and it contained all my thoughts. somewhere along i way i kinda gave it up. in that same ''along the way'' situation of my life, i have learned to deal with opportunities as they come. practice makes perfect when i try to apply my ''keep quiet if u dont have anything nice to say'' attitude. but of late, keeping my thoughts to myself seem to be the wrong strategy.

 

i guess what i'm saying is... i wish i can tell you what's on my mind, even my heart. i wish u can see and understand even if i dont utter a word. i'm in this limbo now. i want to tell you whats on my mind but the same feeling is stopping me that telling u will not do any good. in fact, it might even make things worse.

 

i'm sure you know that i've been trying to get away. m sure u know too that i'm finding it hard to do that. i wish i can make that first step and then the second and then the third. i wish i can stay because i want too but i dont think its the right decision.... for my good and ur good. if things can only be a bit more simple but i do know it cant and it wont. we're both complicated.

 

i shouldnt tell you how special you are as i know you know that already.... u will always be.

*********************************

 

Overjoyed

 

Over time, I’ve been building my castle of love

Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason

I’ve gone much too far for you now to say

That I’ve got to throw my castle away

 

Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true

Though you never knew it was of you I’ve been dreaming

The sandman has come from too far away

For you to say come back some other day

 

And though you don’t believe that they do

They do come true

For did my dreams

Come true when I looked at you

And maybe too, if you would believe

You too might be

Overjoyed, over loved, over me

 

Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone

Just to find, I had found what I’ve searched to discover

I’ve come much too far for me now to find

The love that I’ve sought can never be mine

 

And though you don’t believe that they do

They do come true

For did my dreams

Come true when I looked at you

And maybe too, if you would believe

You too might be

Overjoyed, over loved, over me

 

And though the odds say improbable

What do they know

For in romance

All true love needs is a chance

And maybe with a chance you will find

You too like i

Overjoyed, over loved, over you, over you

[princess-sophia]

Because I have more love in my heart for you,

than a person can gather in just one lifetime.

Without you I could not walk the earth.

For you are the reason I exist.

You are my whole heart as well as my soul.

Without your love I would be empty.

 

 

 

*sigh*

[skitz]

I'm sorry... it's all that I can say...

 

I was a fool... and should've treated you better when... we were together...

 

Life... without you... the rest of my days... is punishment... I must take... and will... must...

[irshes]

Blue moon,

You saw me standing alone,

Without a dream in my heart,

Without a love of my own.

 

Blue moon,

You knew just what I was there for.

You heard me saying a pray'r for

Someone I really could care for.

 

Blue moon,

You saw me standing alone,

Without a dream in my heart,

Without a love of my own.

 

Blue moon...

Without a love of my own.

 

You met me this way. You gave me hope. But I know you will leave me in the same state you found me. Wiser maybe, with the way things are, with the way love works. But nevertheless, still alone.

 

T.

[pedro hilaga]

Even now when I have come so far

I wonder where you are, I wonder why it's still so hard without you

Even now when I come shining through, I swear I think of you

And how I wish you knew, even now

--manilow

[Akim]

Searching all my days just to find you

I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know it

When I see you

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom

Staying up all night just to write

A love song for no one

[sweetpsyche]

Sweet one,

 

When there is nothing else but our love for each other..

I will still have everything I need.

 

thank you for those touching words.

I'm not sure if I will be worth it though...

but believe me... I will try

 

justme

[sweetpsyche]

Areiz,

 

I always wanted more from you

than you were willing to give;

So now we've gone our separate ways

each with different lives to live.

 

The bond will always be there

the friendship always intact;

But the time for us has come and gone

and the pages of time, you can't turn back.

 

I will always be a friend to you

and wonder how you are;

The smiles and laughter I will remember

and our fights have become painless scars.

 

Sometimes on those busy days

when you've a thousand things to do;

Please let me glide slowly through your mind

and spend some time with you.

 

In that quiet moment

when you're surprised to find me there;

Just remember even with the distance between us

I am still someone who cares

 

a borrowed poem

 

K.

[Zerreit]

My Dear,

 

I give up.

 

I'm letting you go.

 

I hope you'll be happy. It is all I wish for.

 

Sincerely,

L

[LostCommand]

Honey,

 

It is that time of year again, a time of beautiful tingling

 

When the wind is yet cool on the cheeks, and the grass still so green

Yet already the skies are clear, crystal, cloudless, an infinite heartbreak blue

The brilliant sun coexists with a rain rich earth

 

February and March where our months, we called that time graduation weather,

and we breathed in that fresh scent of cut grass on those long weekends

in the vast sighing northern fields I called home.

 

But that coexistence, like the weather, did not stay. I lost you, your husky voice,

smooth tan skin, and such sharp skills of mind and words.

I lost you, and your delicate fingers.

 

I march on, enslaved to bitter destiny. Perpetually the seasons cycle

and return to our months. I cling with hungry hands to the memory,

hoping that you too remember, and that you too will return.

 

All partings are temporary! Love is perpetual!

 

Hope is forever.

 

 

--Felix Villaflor IV.

[Zorro]

to sabrina,

 

i saw u, we talked, we smiled, we laughed.

after 7 long years, ive forgotten.

 

you've invaded once more my head.

the mem'ry keeps on coming back.

 

how can i resist

you're still lovely as you were

and sweeter you look now

 

the sight of sadness

i saw from you as we bid goodbye

made me realize how sorry you are

 

you're always been here with me

you are still . . . my beloved frustration