The Mail Box

[chiquezee]

c -

 

When I saw you when I did, I couldn't help but regret that things can't be more than what it is. And all the warning bells sounded like a hollow toll that screams of tidal waves at the cave's mouth. The thing is, it is okay for you to take it to a higher level. I am tempted. Thats where the complication starts. Its knowing I have the liberty to indulge, and I am capable, and you want to -- but I have more sense that that. My senses, however, may be overpowered by my hypothalamus.

 

Its wonderful to know that we feel the same for each other, like you said, "mutual". But at the end of it all, I'll be left holding the bag. I wouldn't want that, but that's what my reality will be if I do let it go beyond what I initially planned.

 

Like I told you, I'd love to but it wont be a smart move because I like you too much. But dang you know I'd love to... because it's not all about sex.. its how we converse, how we kid each other, how our thoughts flow... how we share what has happened in the day.. about people close to us... the willingness to meet our closests friends and make them click together... the touches, the kisses that need not lead to sex. Its the sensitivity... is that care?

 

That's why I should not focus on you, lest I drown. So from hereforth, you are no longer one and only... and I have to tell you, I was just with somebody as wonderful. Knowing myself, two is better than one. Better for both of you. For the three of us. After all, we have no intentions of complicating matters. Not you, not the other, definitely not me.

 

- c

 

 

things change quickly dont they?

[Viola]

I am happy. So far you have been the perfect partner, the perfect boyfriend. I couldn't ask for a more perfect boyfriend. We even talked about that scary 'M' word and i didn't flinch. I could see myself being married to you. I can see myself as your wife. I am happy. Perfectly happy...

 

but why can't i stop thinking about HIM?

[simon b]

u p d h a r m a d o w n

 

2b pencil

smooth paper

great ideas

 

but i keep staring at the windows

looking for you

and your answer

[simon b]

where on earth are you?

[Mobius Stripper]

Be patient, God isn't finished with me yet.

[X]

Does it matter if I do love you still

Can't even move on with my own free will

Doesn't matter how many of beers I gulp down

They can't remove from my face such frown

 

I know, I know, you don't love me anymore

Don't you think that's why I've shown you the door?

No matter, you know that I still feel for you

You are such a bitch if you think it ain't true

 

For crying out loud, baby can't you see

I'd rather be alone than not to be with thee

Yeah I know, my rhymes are starting to suck

but didn't you tell me I was your greatest f u c k?

 

I don't care, my heart beats still for you

Don't give a damn no more, still you haven't a clue

That glitch on my phone, hell I won't believe

That's the last thing on my mind to retrieve

 

So go, go on, get on with your life

I hope you enjoy being someone else's wife

I'll just be here, I'll just be who I am

whatever you do, I just don't give a damn...

[iwalkalone]

Hoy Mayapot! tama na yang kaka random thoughts...baka matuluyan ka! itulog mo na yan!

[preacher]

L,

 

I miss our conversations.

Owing to the fact that our business has gotten the better of our schedules.

Still, I need those shoulders right about now.

Other's may see this as something to go somewhere else.

I'm just glad there's someone out there with the same wavelength.

Right now I'm in it real deep.

Knee high, head first in crap.

 

Where are you?

 

 

J

[Dr_PepPeR]

I hope I'm doing what is best for you. In a few days I will try to clear up what it is between us, that is, if you don't avoid the topic. I can live with this but it's still awkward. We can do this by trial and error but it will take a few spats to end up with a mutually satisfactory modus vivendi.

[naked_angel]

dear one year too late,

 

your psuedo relationship is just that. pseudo. almost but not quite.

 

what if you get too attached? what if you eventually fall in love? you can't even ask him to commit because you're not in a relationship. and worse, you don't even know where you stand in his life. and when the goodbye has finally been said, will the pain be pseudo as well? i know it's better than nothing at all but if you think about it, you can stop settling with this pseudo relationship and wait for the real thing.

 

but then again who am i to tell you this?

 

in laughter and tears,

 

-k

[missmanners]

i saw a picture of you four years ago and couldn't believe it. where did that girl go? the one who had all these dreams? the one who had all these plans? the one who just had to snap her fingers and found not one, not two but three, sometimes four and more at her beck and call? what happened to that girl that said she was going to take over the world? what happened to all her grand dreams? where did the control go?

 

i wish i had the answers for you. god knows you need them now.

[lemon]

you,

 

i uttered the words "ti mo" much too often when i was younger. to me it explained everything i've done that were compellingly too right to me and seemingly too wrong for those around me. and, man, was i consistent! i said it again and again even if it meant the whip, a foregone dinner or both. at one time it even meant an additional foregone meal in the morning and i would've starved myself to death saying that over and over.

 

thru time, i rarely got to use the phrase. maybe because i eventually never gave a hoot at what others would say or simply because those around me knew they couldn't stop me anyway if i really felt strongly about things. :lol: the funny thing is, i have never really heard it used on me and i never thought i'd live to see the day it will be used on me... and you did.

 

for that i sometimes ask myself which is it? you didn't really give a damn or it's something you'd say anyway no matter what i'd say. i guess its not really my place to know. afterall, there's that phrase to say everything that needs to be said.

 

in hind sight, i did suggest it to you when you were making my list so i guess i did use it first. looking back to that, my motives and explanation would have been what it had always been to me when i was younger and i guess i would still starve myself to death saying that over and over.

 

ti mo.

 

[gr82d8]

Dear Snoopy,

 

 

Matagal na kitang kasama, sa hirap at ginhawa.

 

Iwanan man ako ng iba, ikaw andyan lang.

 

Nagbabantay, laging nakatingin.

 

Pag kailangan ko ng kausap nakikinig ka.

 

Wala kang reklamo, walang hinihingi.

 

Lahat alam mo, di na ako mahihiyang magsalita.

 

Kadiri ka na, di na kita mahawakan.

 

Mukha ka nang trapo, pinanglinis ng basurahan.

 

Pumayag ka na sana, papaliguan kita.

 

Dahan dahan lang, para di ka masira.

 

 

 

 

http://i51.photobucket.com/albums/f374/gr82d8/snoopy.jpg

[gr82d8]

Dear cause of psychological impotence,

 

 

I must say you chose well. I picked up our son and went to our used to be bedroom to get some of his clothes. I was surprised to see a sony 6.1 system set-up there. Ah, the perks of hooking up with someone with alot of cash to burn. Too bad the center channel is sitting on top of the tiny 14" tv that I bought with my christmas bonus a couple of years ago. It now looks more pathetic since the speaker is as wide as the tv. Keep on mentioning how ugly it looks so that he gets you a new tv as well. Also saw a tall stack of shoe boxes there, it probably feels good without someone nagging you about spending too much on useless stuff huh? Is that why you were unhappy when we were together? I hope not... I still respect you for who you are, or were. If I was in the same situation I'd probably enjoy myself as well. Yeah I sound bitter, I probably am. Let me know when he gets you a plasma so I can have my tv back.

[naked_angel]

thank you for last night.

 

i am now a firm believer that diplomacy really works

even to a couple as weird as us. you do not stop talking and i, on the other hand, just won't listen.

but we somehow manage to meet halfway. and somewhere in between all our laughs, long talks, stupid fights, and all our jokes, we've gotten to know ourselves and each other better. enough to build a relationship. enough to keep the faith. and i know no matter how many walk outs and evil moments, we'll still have the same 7 words.

 

and yes i will. oh you know i will