Viola

Im a regular member. Im not for hire. 

Soooooo drunk

Kairita. Since i cant rant on my personal socmed, dito na lang.

Went to a salon, had them dye my hair somewhat blonde. Dirty blonde. Now i have brown skin. I love the color on me. It made my face brighter that i can see phantom rosy cheeks.

Then the day after, my older cousin saw me and commented on my hair. "wag ka magpakulay ng ganyan, mukha kang anak dagat." It was 630am in the morning. 

My bf likes it. I like it. My bestfriends like it. Ung cousin ko lang na judger ang may comment. 

At the end of the day, mu bf would be the one grabbing my hair as we play together. So his opinion would be the one that matters. 

Kairita lang. 

After 7yrs, i finally bought a new laptop. So happy, i can now pursue different programming languages that we dont normally use at work. 

Im using work-issued laptop and i cant do anything non-work related on it. So my python, r and other languages are pretty rusty.

You know you are old when you want to go out on a Friday night but stayed home instead because 1) you got nowhere to go, everything is too loud, 2) you are worried about the traffic, 3) you want to be in bed by 8pm. 

At my age, coffee shop na lang ang pwede puntahan. 

Last month, he was watching me sleep. Today, we decided to take a break from each other. This is the first time. It might be the last. He has regressed back to being abusive. 

Him, watching me sleep and waiting patiently for me to wake up is just the sweetest thing.

Lately, ive been feeling overly fatigued and i cant stay up. I end up falling asleep while we are trying to spend time together. 

He used to wake me up, but he knows i am sick and so he just patiently waits for me to wake up. 

So stressed that even the smallest thing can trigger me.