The Mail Box

[Wyld]

Because of YOU

 

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

 

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

 

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

 

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

 

I watched you die

I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

 

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

 

Because of you

Because of you

 

Im takin some time. Bruised and battered.

Respite most welcome.

Im sorry for the mess.

 

[LB]

Friend,

 

You're absolutely right. Unlike you, I'm happy. I wish you the same. Your current state saddens me. It is not because of him. The positive energies I mean. Someone new. I'll let you meet him one of these days. When I'm already sure. Hopefully, soon. Oh well, that is if you want to.

 

Labyah!

 

April

 

PS. Thanks for the gifts.

[wyette]

Chicken thighs/MCdo

 

Where have you been?

 

You came at a time I needed a reason to smile.

 

You touched my life when i I don't need anybody to do it.

 

I warned you.

 

I told you not to pamper me.

 

I told you I am scared of what you have started to do and what you have started making me feel.

 

I confessed to you my past heartaches.

 

I trusted you deeply no matter the distance...and the time we've known each other.

 

You know how small I think of myself. How ugly I think of myself.

 

You know of my feelings. I did not keep it from you though I must admit i have had a hatd time admitting them.

 

You are the reason why I can't sleep tonight.

 

You are the reason why I will and I shall look into my messages tomorrow and the day after.

 

You made me feel special in such a short time.

 

I asked for a sign, and it was granted.

 

I believed the sign or were those signs I am too stubborn to believe?

 

I trusted my heart not to fall....for the wrong person again.

 

I am suppose to be wiser now.

 

I am suppose to be a better person now.

 

But.....

Let's talk okay? We started that way, let's keep it that way.

 

 

By

[bluegreen717]

Some thoughts for your company:

 

Your 7Ss are not aligned. You cannot execute your strategy with such a staff. Remember that you are in a different country where prized employees are given more leeway to implement plans as they please.

 

Heard of best practices? I suggest you read up on that. Please. For your sake.

 

You're a bumbling idiot.

[preacher]

Something I wrote down a long time ago, in a different world....

 

April 2001; I pray to God almighty that she gets to read this.

 

All around us we see couples so happy and content with each other, their gleaming smiles an assurance of a future most fortunate for both of them. But what happens when everything falls apart? What happens when either one of them finds out that the person they loved and cherished the most turn out to be very different from what they had expected? A couple of weeks ago, my beloved left me. For one reason or another, I didn't understand. I DIDN'T WANT TO UNDERSTAND. It was supposed to be our time. 5 years of missing each others marks was no joke. I didn't know what to do with her. She drove me mad when I kept on seeing her with someone else. It makes me crazy every time I don't get to see her or talk to her even. Then it happened: we became a couple. We were starting off so nicely. I introduced her to my family, something that I wasn't able to bring myself to do before she came into my life. Then everything started to change. She said I was always frustrated. I was hard to deal with and that she needed some room. I tried my best to adjust my ways to suit her lifestyle but it just wasn't good enough for her. "This is just the way I am" she'd tell me. It was very difficult. It was very frustrating. And when she left, it hurt like hell. I told myself that I didn't care. That I didn't want to see or even know her. But I was only fooling myself. We talked a couple of times after that. She said that she had to find herself first, that she couldn't be completely happy around me. That we both need to be complete first.

 

What they said about us having to be complete first before we love someone else has some truth to it. But try to think about it for a while. How do we know if we're complete or not? How would we know if we're ready to love again, give everything we've got when deep inside we still feel empty and incomplete? The answer is so simple I almost kicked myself when I got it. The mere fact that you start to love someone again, that you sacrifice a bit of yourself, that you let them know how deeply appreciated they are for everything that they do........ You’ve already extended a part of you to the one you love. Not something that you give that makes you feel DRAINED after, but something better, something more than that. You feel alive by giving it off. It’s pure, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Love that asks for nothing in return. Love that can only come from a person with the purest of intentions. It’s not the kind of love that gets exhausted or used up, or gets drained from you. It’s the kind of loving you "expel", so to speak. It’s your excess. Maybe it was too much, maybe it wasn't enough. I’ll never know. All I know is that I still love her deeply. With all my heart, and with all my good intentions. I wish her the best of everything to come.

 

As for me, its time for me to move on. I don't know how I’ll be able to pull it off, but I’ll give it all I’ve got. Sometimes we just have to let go, no other way around it. We have to face a new day alone and no matter how much we try to make ourselves feel better there will always be a void in the fabric of our being. A sense of longing for the times that we spent with our loved ones. We might even be scared to try again, playing it safe until "the one" comes along and sweeps us off our feet. We’ll just have to risk it, take a chance. And whatever happens, good or bad, the experiences will teach us valuable lessons on how to be human beings of worth.

Edited May 16, 2006 by preacher

[Barenaked-NoMre]

S,

 

As per our exchanges of SMS ... we are that ... really depends on you. Am ok with such an arrangement. ;-)

 

Thanks for your patience.

 

A

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Edited May 19, 2006 by KristinLavransdatr

[sweetpsyche]

dude

 

ang labo mo.

dito nasasabi mo, di ka nahihiya

tapos sa ano, hindi...

 

hayyyyy i know why...

i just hope im wrong.

[sweetpsyche]

why do u still bother?

Edited May 19, 2006 by sweetpsyche

[missmanners]

the cactus is doing its job really well, honey. that metaphor for our relationship is turning quite literal, don't you agree?

 

hideous things. i wish you would throw them away.

[sweetpsyche]

watch out for urself

take care of ur heart

maybe this time

try not to give it all

for u might end up

lossing it all...

[Barenaked-NoMre]

CPO,

 

Thanks for being my movie buddy today.

 

I really cant fathom why you dont textback though ...

 

Hmmm?

 

Anyway, hope you had a good "session". ;-) Good luck w/ your film.

 

I'm always here ... you know how I REALLY feel about you.

 

A

[LostCommand]

Dear Mr Smelly client,

 

I hope you have already received the resumes of our team who will conduct your facility expansion masterplan, initially projected at 17,000,000 USD worth of new facilities. We were surprised that while the team has been in contact with your side for several weeks prior to the kickoff, it is only the very day before the study that you had asked us our resumes. Although we were not prepared for this, we hope to have delivered such resumes to your satisfaction, such that we can now resume the work?

 

We understand that perhaps the consultancy rates we charge, appraching close to ten thousand USD per day for the combined effort, looked a bit steep to you. But it was your side that approached us, we did not ask for this work. And you had approached us precisely because other consulting engineers have failed. We were probably your last resort. We have seen that happen before.

 

So we charge you our price.

 

Although we are of course very polite to all of our clients, big or small, please do not misinterpret this politeness as a sign of our being very accommodating at all times. Of course you and your facility are big shots in your department, the crown jewels perhaps. But some of us have operated and managed facilities 6 times bigger than yours when they were still in their mid-20's and only drawing a poor engineer's pay (until HR f#&kers got over the disciplinary issues).

 

Yes, you overweight overpaid oversmelly client you, at that age when you were still chasing the easy pussies, some of us were already managing staffs (and doing staff reports) triple the number that you are managing even now during your mid-40's. For this whole 17,000,000 USD expansion project, some of us we would not even have bothered with consultants, we would have done it in our spare time, while dodging the excess pussies getting in our way.

 

But of course the likes of you Mr Smelly Client could not do even this relatively small (by our standards) project, otherwise the mental agony of trying to conceptualise a rock-solid yet low-cost expansion plan would have made your stinky armpits burn a hole through your fancy shirt and green silk tie.

 

So you come to us. And so you will pay our price.

 

Read the resumes yet? Every extra day you delay fidgeting over our resumes would is costing you half of a brand new Altis...

 

Enjoy!

 

LC

Edited May 23, 2006 by LostCommand

[bluegreen717]

B,

 

Do not disarm your subjects, lest you decide to resort to mercenaries.

 

Chapter 20.

[bluegreen717]

B,

 

Can't help myself:

 

Excerpt from Chapter 20.

 

When you disarm your subjects, however, you offend them by showing that, either from cowardliness or lack of faith, you distrust them; and either conclusion will induce them to hate you. Moreover, since it is impossible for you to remain unarmed, you would have to resort to mercenaries, whose limitations have already been discussed.

 

Please, please, please. That was the last hygiene factor.