Writings of the Heart

[goodsideof me]

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should've let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.

Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

[BettyConfidential]

10 months is specific.

It’s not infinite.

It’s a long shot to forever.

 

They say there is no such thing. But I dissent. There exist a good music that you could listen to over and over, a classic movie that could make you cry every time, a great book that has lessons that linger, or a fine memory that you could take out and unfold in your darkest times.

 

And then there is YOU.

 

It’s ten and it’s not the end.

[diladede]

i never asked myself why,i'm so inlove with you, what i know is that love would have no meaning if it's not you...

[charmingcindy26]

I'm willing to wait for you to love me. But if the time to give up comes, it only means one thing... I've already accepted the fact that you can't love me back.

[lexiepurr]

The long drive i did, the hot coffee i dropped, the surprised face you wore, the girl that covered up her ass and the stupidity that cemented my insanity for you. Everything i thought that we were just crumbled before my very eyes. The walls came up as quickly as it fell before. I had to close my eyes and ignore slow burn inside my heart that is ripping me in pieces.

 

I smiled before i turned around and close that door.

 

3 years after, your mom handed me a box. She had a hard time looking for me since i moved out of the country. You killed yourself with drugs and alcohol.

 

Took me another year of grieving before i opened the box and found your letter for me. It was written two days before your death.

Ellie,

 

I miss you. Please forgive me. I love you.

 

*

 

I miss you everyday too.

And i never stopped loving you.

[goodsideof me]

Shsss,

i am here,. because you where there for me....

D

[RED2018]

I have had a really bad day and it always makes me feel better to see a pretty girl smile. So, would you smile for me?

[ConsistentlyInconsistent]

Dear Stranger,

 

I have long been waiting for the time to come when I get to see you face to face for the first time. After dreaming of you for so long, I long to bask in the moment when our eyes will first meet, the first few seconds of instantaneous recognition that we have arrived in each others lives. I ache for the moment when I will feel something again, apart from the jaded cynicism I have held on to like a lifeline.

 

Don't you know how close I am to giving up on the thought of you?

 

But I believe that someday, our souls will seek each other and find a way to make us whole. The half of this burden I have been lugging will be eased by your broad shoulders, as I am capable of healing all your hurts. Regardless of how many things we were able to endure prior to our moments together, I believe that those are essential and imperative, so we can correct previous mistakes and start on a pristine slate.

 

Stranger, I have been calling out a silent beckoning for you. Long before this night and the nights to come until the moment we stare at each other's eyes. I pray that the Divine Comedian will keep you safe for me, so that I can hold you tight and never let you go once you are in the warm confines of my arms. I would not want to be anywhere far from you when I get you to where you should have been a long time ago: beside me. The thought of you encapsulated me since I was a young naïve girl. And I will continue to nurture the special place I have been saving for you and you alone. I have let others in but only to a superficial degree. I know enough not to let anyone invade your space because the thought of you remains. I wait and I know it's not going to be in vain. You will come eventually, I feel it. And with each second that pass by, I know it's not long before the moment we have both been waiting for finally happens.

 

Keep the faith, Stranger. Someone told me I should not lose that. And I won't. If only for you, so be it. When you feel like giving up, do as I did and write. I am anticipating the delicious moment when I get to see you read this letter. That would mean I am not to spend my life alone because you came and proved me otherwise. Like a true Knight, you will bear the armor that will shield me from the pain others have inflicted. I will no longer feel afraid of what is yet to come because I know you will not let me endure another heartbreak. And this damsel will not distress you, how could I? We have both been through a lot and this time, we will only allow happiness and bliss to encompass our beings.

 

I am weary but I will be here to welcome you, fellow traveler. Our journey may be long but we are meant to meet at the same destination. I often look up and pick the brightest star to wish upon, in the hopes that you are doing the same somewhere in the distance. If we wish hard enough, the Divine Comedian might hear our pleas and throw us in each other's paths sooner rather than later. Until the time comes, the comforting thought that somewhere in the vast universe, a single connection is shared by our two souls.

 

Will you be there on my next coffee break? Have I walked by your seat long before I recognized my yearning for you? Did you once brush my shoulder in your haste to get to me? Where will you be tomorrow? Are you already in my life hiding as a friend?

 

Stranger, I will live. I will live for you and for me. And when we meet, let us establish an us. I am floundering in the emptiness of independence. I need you. My heart is pumping a steady rhythm and it kills me. I am ready for erratic pulses that only you can bring. I want rainbows and butterflies and intense conversations that mean more than physical release.

 

Au revoir.

[bher2]

pasingit po ako ha..

 

Its been 2 years since i found myself doing paper works and reports at the office, never had a chance to get along with someone else but rather with just friends and colleagues. i never thought in just a span of time, someone would turn my life upside down.

 

Im just a person who had given chance that this special girl colored my life and make it meaningful, believing that nothing is impossible if you both wanted to be happy and share every moment of time spending with each together. Telling me that she would spend her life with me and wouldn’t dare to leave me even the bitterest situation.. How blessed I am to be with this girl and I thought this would never end..

 

Time past, things change, and do so we. It seems that life is very unfair as we expected. I didn’t expect that a girl you wish to grow on to suddenly change her mind and wishes to get things fall apart. I know I did my best to give her everything, to make her satisfied, contented and the happiness that she ever wanted; in return all that I ask for her is to love me back.

 

I feel bad because I agree on her decision to let her go, because I love her so much. If being separated on each other ways would find her true happiness, there’s nothing I could do but to respect and support her..

 

Now I’m starting all over, picking up the broken pieces of me to make it whole again. I believe it’s not late for me to find someone who could love me as I am despite of everything and not who loves me because of something…

[bher2]

if i will be given a chance to be with you again, i will surely accept you..

but how will i have the strength to carry on if you would still leave me?

I love you, and as far as i know it will be forever..

[deejaybaby69]

dearest rfj,

 

we were still young when i first felt this feeling for you...who would imagine that when we were in grades 3 and 4 as classmates, i already kept this strong admiration for you. when we moved out of mandaluyong, i still kept an eye for you...even wanting to see when we were on highschool. strange feelings but this is true. i even named my eldest son on your name.....then after 33 years i finally found you again...do you think i will let you go?...no...this time i wont..let me love you...if this is a dream i dont want to be awake again....

 

luisa

[UncleFrancy]

The more I drink the better you look....

[erato]

A foolish smile is painted on my face

as I step out of the courier's

I strongly resisted the urge to camp out there

finish reading the books---

well the Woody, at least.

 

I laughed when I saw the Theroux

I don't know you'd send me that particular one

Funny because I'd just gotten you Zephyr

Where Theroux was mentioned on page 7

[he was described a cranky traveler, ha!]

I am unsure whether I can read minds

Or you can look into the future.

 

Took the Woody out

And the smell of yellowing pages

filled the air, along with a faint smell of you.

I put it right back, careful lest the dust from whence it came

tucked between the pages, flies off to nothingness.

 

Cello doubled by a double bass was last night's fare

I fondly recall that as the Reed video sat on my lap

A cellist among rockstars?

Something I need to see.

 

Half moon and full moon---

I was snickering by then,

Amused and impressed by your choice of titles

The moon cycle will be off this April

'coz you've gone and boxed two of its faces to me.

 

Ah, all this (attempted) poetry from just a trip to the courier

And I'd not even read a word or heard a note.

Wonderful.

Edited April 24, 2011 by erato

[ConsistentlyInconsistent]

Dear L,

 

The thought of you makes me smile. I have never imagined myself in this situation again. But there you are. Out of the blue, you reached out and touched my vulnerable and weak heart. And you never took advantage. You respected me enough to reject my recklessness. Because you knew it will not help me.

 

L, initially, I thought you were just another pain in the ass. But knowing you as each day pass us by, I have come to see the true you.

 

You are wonderful.

 

And I'm just happy to have someone like you in my life.

 

Please forgive me for not telling you everything at the onset. Understand that I am only protecting my daughter as I try to heal my broken self. Now I understand why you choose to deprive yourself of something that you know you can have anytime. Because you do not want to inflict pain. Someday, I'll show you this link so you'll know that my intentions are also good. I want to protect myself too. And now, I am wondering how I can protect you from anything I might inevitable cause.

 

I do not wish to become "just a friend" nor would I wish to become friends with you forever. I want to risk finding out if what we have is enough to sustain the feeling, the moment, this time where everything is just interesting and carefree.

 

I want to know if you are who you say you are, what you say you are. If not, then I'll accept the fact that you're still not the one for me, as you do the same and accept that I am not the right "Yin" for your "Yang".

 

I feel myself on the verge of wanting to fall in love. But I will not entertain the thought again unless I am certain that you are aware of all the things that you need to know.

 

Thank you, L. You are simply wonderful. You make me want to be a better person.

 

Sincerely,

L

[RED2018]

PANGUNGULILA

 

Sa ilog na nagiging bato ang anumang mahulog;

hayaan mong umagos ang pag-ibig na lubos.

Sa mga punong hindi kailanman yayabong;

yakapin mo ako katulad ng mga sanga nito.

Sa kalangitang nagbabadya ng ulan;

turuan mong lumipad ng maluwalhati ang diwa.

Sa mga bundok na walang pumapasok;

sabayan mo akong hanapin ang kapalaran.

Sa mga nanunuyo't nalalantang bulaklak;

halikan mo ang nauuhaw kong puso.

At sa bawat pagsikat ng araw sa Silangan;

isayaw mo ko sa lumulubog na buwan.