pussycatdoll

ahem sis, parang kakapost ko lang niyan sa mail box nung isang araw a.

at para hindi off topic, will repost another poem that i posted in the mail box here. this is one of my all time favorites, and one that i feel embodies the sentiments of most women i know at the beginning of a relationship. enjoy!

++++++++++++++

Kung Ibig Mo Akong Makilala

tula ni Ruth Elynia Mabanglo

Kung ibig mo akong makilala,

lampasan mo ang guhit ng mahugis na balat,

ang titig kong dagat --

yumayapos nang mahigpit sa bawat saglit

ng kahapon ko't bukas.

Kung ibig mo akong makilala,

sunduin mo ako sa himlayang dilim

at sa madlang pagsukol ng inunang hilahil,

ibangon ako at saka palayain.

Isang pag-ibig na lipos ng lingap,

tahanang malaya sa pangamba at sumbat

may suhay ng tuwa't ang kaluwalhatia'y

walang takda --

ialay mong lahat ito sa akin

kung mahal mo ako't ibig kilalanin.

Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin,

sisirin mo ako hanggang buto,

liparin mo ako hanggang utak,

umilanglang ka hanggang kaluluwa --

hubad ako roon: mula ulo hanggang paa.

para sa iyo:

ginawaan kita ng isang mahabang tula, kaya lang nawalan ng kuryente at nabura lahat ng pinagpaguran ko, kaya ito na lang muna ang alay ko sa iyo. sana maintindihan mo.

-- m.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Kung Ibig Mo Akong Makilala

tula ni Ruth Elynia Mabanglo

Kung ibig mo akong makilala,

lampasan mo ang guhit ng mahugis na balat,

ang titig kong dagat --

yumayapos nang mahigpit sa bawat saglit

ng kahapon ko't bukas.

Kung ibig mo akong makilala,

sunduin mo ako sa himlayang dilim

at sa madlang pagsukol ng inunang hilahil,

ibangon ako at saka palayain.

Isang pag-ibig na lipos ng lingap,

tahanang malaya sa pangamba at sumbat

may suhay ng tuwa't ang kaluwalhatia'y

walang takda --

ialay mong lahat ito sa akin

kung mahal mo ako't ibig kilalanin.

Kung ibig mo akong kilalanin,

sisirin mo ako hanggang buto,

liparin mo ako hanggang utak,

umilanglang ka hanggang kaluluwa --

hubad ako roon: mula ulo hanggang paa.

if only my angel would love me back, i'd be the happiest woman on earth right now. *sigh*

if only he knew. hahahahahahahahaha!

dear mom,

i miss you. i hate sleeping in our room now because it feels like there's a rip in the space-time continuum whenever i look over at your bed. still, i know that you're happy now and you're in a place where there is no more sickness, no dialysis, no more medications and doctors forever piercing your skin with needles, needles, and more needles. it helps to remember these things whenever i get tired of pretending that i'm strong.

hey mom, don't forget what you promised me you would do for me, okay? i'm still waiting for that special person you said you would pick out for me. siguraduhin mong mabait, ha? ayaw ko ng laging may kaaway.

have the time of your life in heaven, mom, and say hi to lolo, lola, and the kiddies for me. save me a space at the table for when we meet again.

love you.

-- m.

para kay ***:

You Who Never Arrived

Rainer Maria Rilke

You who never arrived

in my arms, Beloved, who were lost

from the start,

I don't even know what songs

would please you. I have given up trying

to recognize you in the surging wave of the next

moment. All the immense

images in me-- the far-off, deeply-felt landscape,

cities, towers, and bridges, and unsuspected

turns in the path,

and those powerful lands that were once

pulsing with the life of the gods-

all rise within me to mean

you, who forever elude me.

You, Beloved, who are all

the gardens I have ever gazed at,

longing. An open window

in a country house--, and you almost

stepped out, pensive, to meet me.

Streets that I chanced upon,--

you had just walked down them and vanished.

And sometimes, in a shop, the mirrors

were still dizzy with your presence and, startled,

gave back my too-sudden image. Who knows?

perhaps the same bird echoed through both of us

yesterday, seperate, in the evening...

uy, may thread pala ang probinsya ko dito! punta kayo sa amin, maganda doon!

cut clean and cut quick. if i was able to quit cigarettes cold turkey, kaya ko rin siyang kalimutan.

sana.

somebody to love -- the anne hathaway version

to you --

why??? all this time and i still don't understand any of it.

i'm so tired. tired of being strong, of being the one that people lean on all the time, tired of being the problem solver, just tired. so f#&king tired. tired like you wouldn't believe.

of course, in my foolishness, i thought that you would be my rock, my ballast, my help in times of weakness. stupid to think that you could possibly be up to that task, stupid to even begin to think that you would be my partner, my equal, my strength and my hope. stupid, stupid, stupid to the nth degree.

and now here i am, beginning the cycle yet again, the seemingly endless cycle of meeting and falling and dreaming and getting up bruised and beaten from yet another man, another affair of the heart that crashed and burned almost before it got off the ground. is there no end to this?

one day, when you least expect it, i will be here, waiting for you, and things will finally be settled between us. maybe then you and i will finally find the peace and love that i still believe we truly deserve.

good luck to the both of us.

- m.

if only we could be together, really together

I Can't Make You Love Me

Bonnie Raitt/George Michael

Turn down the lights

Turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies

Just hold me close, don't patronize

Don't patronize me.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see

The love you don't feel when you're holdin me

Mornin will come and I'll do what's right

Just give me till then to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight.

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark, in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't.

separate lives -- phil collins and marilyn martin

"you have no right to ask me how i feel/you have no right to speak to me so kind"

say what you want -- texas

"What I am is what you want of me/Now that I'm not there/Took the tables away from you/It's turned that I don't care/And when I get that feeling/I can no longer slide I can no longer run/And when I get that feeling/I can no longer hide for it's no longer fun /Well, you can say what you want/But it won't change my mind/I'll feel the same about you/And you can tell me your reasons/But it won't change my feelings/I'll feel the same about you"

i can see clearly now -- holly cole trio

"i can see clearly now/the rain has gone"

still haven't found what i'm looking for -- u2

(self explanatory)

cheers, all!

That sometimes kahit binigay mo na lahat sa taong mahal mo.... na minahal mo sya at sya lang ang lalake sa buhay mo... di parin sapat un... kung di ka rin nya kasing mahal ng gaya ng pag mamahal mo

 

If you love someone, mag tira ka ng konting pagmamahal sa sarili mo... sa 100% eh magtira ka kahit mga 10% for yourself... para pag iniwan ka na nya... meron ka pang 10% nga sarili mo... at makakapag simula ka ulit.

na kahit handa ka na magseryso, kung ung taong mahal mo naman eh di seryoso sayo, baliwala rin

 

mahirap umasa sa isang bagay na di ka sigurado. pero kahit di mo gusto at dahil mahal mo sya, tuloy ka parin. kahit alam mo sa huli... ikaw din ang iiyak

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

tama ka po. well said. tinamaan ako dito.

 

So what was supposed to be our happiest day, I broke up with him instead. But after a couple of days, he managed to kidnapped me and marry me at the nearest courthouse. He is the only one that's ever worked so relentlessly to break down the wall I've built around my heart. So in the end, I couldn't stay away from him. 

<{POST_SNAPBACK}>

wow, ms. hottlipss, what a story! ang galing naman ninyong dalawa! :thumbsupsmiley:

hay... how to stay away from someone you love so much? stay away from the phone, i-silent mo ang cell mo, stay away from yahoo messenger and always pretend you're too busy to talk on the rare occassions his calls get through. keep yourself busy with work and your old friends, take a class, pick up a new hobby, anything to keep your mind occupied. eventually you'll get over him/her. yun nga lang, di ko lang alam kung gaano katagal ang "eventually" para sa 'yo. i know some people who are over their loves within weeks, samantalang yung iba naman taon na ang binibilang ay in love pa rin sa mga ex nila.

That it hurts when you find out that the one you love doesn't really love you back after being with them for almost a year.

1. Why aren't you married yet? (Because I don't want to end up miserable and cheating on my partner like you do.)

2. Follow up to #1: Ilang taon ka na ba? (Grr...)

3. Musta lovelife? (Sabay iyak tapos sagot ng, "Kakabreak lang namin kahapon!")

4. Did you come? (I agree, if you have to ask, malamang hindi, di ba? )

5. Okay ka bang makipag-(insert illicit activity here)? (Hay naku!)

:thumbsdownsmiley:

Tiger din po! Taurean tiger, with a Scorpion moon. Napuruhan! :upside: