Edmund Dantes

The good memories

The feeling of being complete

The dreams we built together that all of a sudden just went down in flames

The great sex that was so good, wala na akong dahilan pa para maghanap ng iba

Then it had to happen. And what sucks about it was that, parang nagiba yung pagkakakilala nya sakin. The things you said and did that meant a lot back then, now are the things that irritate her. The person I loved so much, cared for, protected and adored was completely becoming someone else

And of course, there was the pain that wont leave you. Its with you even when you sleep. Waking up with this awful chest pain. I still do

Drink! Its what I do every night. Get myself drunk, take pain pills in the morning, and show up for work like I am fine when Im all dead inside.

I guess, my work is the only productive thing I do. And I have to, how can I afford to have a bottle of whiskey beside my couch every night. Lol.

Pagod na ako kakatanong sa dyos eh. Di na rin naman yata sya nakikinig, kaya minsan hinahamon ko na lang sya ng suntukan.

Masakit sobra.

Sariwa pa kasi sugat noon. Tsaka para sakin at least wala pang closure. Di ko pa tanggap maraming bagay.

Ang pinakamasakit pa sa lahat, yung pumalit ay isang gago na dati pang nangungulit sa kanya, na noon ni ayaw nya tignan. Tapos ngayon maririnig ko pa how much of a "gentleman" he is as if I was a pig. Damn ang sakit!