knoll1234

water bill

i am a chronic sufferer of sleepless nights, I've done almost all the advices or comments of people here, watch tv, drink wine, cuddle someone you love after a bath, meditate, read a book, sleep aide medications like sleepasil, sometimes the above works in combination or by itself.

john holmes

at my brother's place last night

....is when one makes a tense situation at ease and the antagonistic attitude diffused....now that's cool!!!!!

one of my nephew was in okinawa for 5 years and I visited him there. Looks like the okinawans and the japanese mainlanders have some racial discriminations on each other!!!.

tee shirt, maong pants and sneakers.

age is just a number and is a state of mind!!!

My love is leavin', by fourplay

pack er

the cure for a boring evening. watched some episodes. nice

I went online to reserve a booking for their hongkong/manila round trip route, hoping to get their specials for 3,500.00Pesos. Lo and behold when I pressed the button to confirm and after paying for by credit card, the damned reservation would not confirm. I did it twice. nothing happened. Called their phone line . After a few minutes of button pushing, the voice on the end of the line, uttered, 'it's no longer available'!!!!!, convenient, very convenient!!!!!! I booked cathay pacific higher fare, higher standard and higher satisfaction.

fishballs

taho

cotton candy

milo

block cheese with ketchup

china phone, sciphone 2010

oliver

be careful with the introductory rate and the no interest. I forgot to pay the whole amount in 12 months.....they slammed me with the accrued 12 months of interests on the 13th month I paid... Partly my fault for not reading the fine prints carefully and forgetting the intro period altogether. There was no alarm sounding warning me that the next payment should be for the whole amount.

Gambling, I am hoping to chase my winnings?!!!!!

Were you bullied in school or were you a bully?

pahiram psp ( not the person).

i am listening to a CD called the segovia collection. By andres segovia. i'm on the tract , weiss: lute fantasia...just relaxing , just peaceful

my fav internet radio stations:

Jazz --- uptempo smooth jazz 64kbps

hip-hop -beat basement

hard rock/metal- 525 powertracks

the vast array of streaming audio and radio stations online are the best nowadays, they are free and free of commercials.

an old song called metro by berlin, like the 80's

...im seeking for advice for i think a complicated relationship. T_T

 

I came back from abroad as OFW and decided to finish my studies. I enrolled in a school where i met him, the man who believes and supported me all the way, academically and motivated me to study well. He treated me very much well. He also work before abroad and we have the same career. Though we have the same professional stand but present status, he was my mentor and i am his student.

 

He showed this unusual support for me and he easily gets affected to things that he wasn't suppose to interfere. Like small internal class issues. I already beg one time because jealousy between classes increases because he always in favor in my class. He even help us for our extra class activities and dared to joined us or participated in our role play, which becomes a big issues again.

 

Before ending the semester, he calls and even open up his own issues in school and even his outside matters like extra work or his part-time jobs. Even his past issues, he open up with me. which shocked me a lot, coz hello... "I'm a student too" ... at that point. i dont have any feelings towards him.

 

Then, i transferred school...funny, coz he too resigned and transferred to the school where i was... we became more closed, we eat together, go out and shop together. Realizing I fallen for him...its like I always wanted to see him around, but im praying that he wouldn't be my instructor to any of my subjects...thank God he didn't...

 

 

He told me one time 3 years is just a short time to wait. and I agreed with him. I promised myself that i will study well and participate more in school activities...and i did reach it. And he was so much proud of me.

 

This month, his mother past away, though he let me talk to her before that. His mother told me that he (his son) love me too much and I should take good care of her son. He went back to his hometown for a week....he never call nor text. He has 2 mobile nos. and he told me not to call or text him in the other one. I just followed...he came back like his not the same guy, he was pale and very sad...he didn't talked to me that day, I do understand because i know his in the midst of his mom's death... everyone asking him what's wrong, but he only says nothing. The next day, at our school his wife and son came and he just introduced them to his colleagues. And i was just standing there like he didn't see me...well im just his student... but i observed...he never had a smile in his face...one thing i was so fond about him...he always smiles too me...I never knew he was married and has a son. We even have visited his house and no trace of a child with him. Nor his photoalbum, nothing.

 

Now, he admit to me he was married 3 years already. His son doesnt live with him but with his in-laws, his wife is not here but abroad. But i didn't see any trace of happiness when we spoke about his wife, except when we spoke about his son...

 

After this revelation, he just like changed...he never send me messages nor call. At school, we never talk, we just like strangers again. My heart is paining now loving him... and I can't concentrate on my studies seeing him becoming pale and thin everytime...our situation as student - teacher already complicated now knowing he is married its become more complicated than ever

It is just a shame that we first hide our intentions and reveal later. If I were the man being loved in here, I would straighten things out by facing the issues . Not ignoring it. I will have to face the music and take the consequence. That is why If one enters into a relationship, lay all the cards on the table and then work on the ulterior motive. But then again In your case it is not easy to delete things just like that cause you are in love, ultimately, it is you who will decide and nobody else can deter you from that decision. good luck and God bless.

sayote with chicken and gata. tanghalian.