BlackDiamond

Servitude

On 11/8/2023 at 11:20 AM, AngGwapo said:

@BlackDiamond

Actually, it will never go out from my end because I swore to never tell anyone.

Respect brother 🤙

Mine's permission based, i tell my side of the story only if the other party allows me to share it. 

Otherwise, it's not my story to tell.

2 hours ago, Nicole of Oasis said:

 

Updated na soundtrack ng buhay mo? 😁

On 3/25/2023 at 11:19 AM, MartinDomingo said:

sana mag ka war na or mag ka zombie apocalypse na

sobrang sad ako

just 1 month ago
I was able to earn 11,700,000 plus may butal

imagine, never in my entire life would i have imagined na mananalo ako ng ganyan kalaki. sipag at tiyaga at aral ng games

nagboracay ako. linibre ko mga friends ko. tapos thats when i started doing a downfall. isipin mo from 11,700,000 .i lost 700k

gusto ko bumawi . i bet big again. until naging 8m .then naging 5m

then naging 2m

then zero

nakaka depress.

now im losing and regression ulit

siguro mga 3m natalo ko sa own money ko

nakakasad

sana swertehin ulit ako

please universe

make me win big
 

I hope you find your peace.

This is the gambler's fallacy, na sonce minalas ka, you are due for a win.

If you were not satisfied at 11M, im not sure what will make you do so. 😊

I pray for you to receive what is due for you brother. 

Predestination vs. Free will is a lways a debate.. but personally, i believe that there is a universal design that is too complex for the human brain to process.

Pass daw sa maraming issues. 😅

Virgo

Cat sand 😅

Tired

3 hours ago, AngGwapo said:

Bro, @Prinsloodon't get me started. I have so many REAL stories this year. As in...

But I cannot divulge ATM. Maybe in several years. Maybe never.

I am true to my word na keeper of secrets kasi.

This is what respect means.

The story may or may never be told.. 

What happens between you and another person only gets out based on permission.

6 minutes ago, Mang Ricky said:

Salamat sa share. Gandang experience.

Ang realtalk no?

17 minutes ago, Kryte said:

Exactly Sir.  At some point kasi we’re all addicted to something and or someone that takes the pain away.  We choose our own poison. 

Regardless yan kung ano gustuhin mong gawin, Binahagi ko lang past experience ko pero it may be hella different from your experience lalong lalo na yung outcome. 
 

P.S. I want Lason din ee 🥹👉🏽👈🏽

Have a great day Mga Sir.  @BlackDiamond

@dominickcruise

Di ba? Pick your own poison. 😁

Cheers! 

5 minutes ago, dominickcruise said:

tama ka dito sir, it's just a matter of expanding your circle of acquaintances..

thanks sir kaya I always try to treat it as a transaction nothing more and nothing less though I think there is someone whom I am falling for because of the overall experience.

have a safe day sir @BlackDiamond

@dominickcruise sarap kasi iii. 🤭

I think an explanation from a line in shakespeare's romeo and juliet fits perfectly..

"Both teenagers, they do not have the experience to handle what has happened to them. Their situation is particuarly aggravated by their being members of the two opposing families in an ancient Veronian feud. Even just to be found talking to each other would be dangerous. They do talk though, and foolishly agree to be married in secret the next day, if the local clergyman, Friar Lawrence, will agree to it.

He does, and while they are waiting for the fourteen year-old Juliet to arrive at Friar Lawrence’s cell, the friar says he hopes they are not going to regret this later. Romeo says it doesn’t matter – if anything bad happens it won’t cancel out the joy he gets just from one moment of seeing her.

Friar Lawrence shakes his head and says ‘These violent delights have violent ends’, which means such extreme emotions about that kind of pleasure often end in disaster. He goes on to warn him that even the taste of honey can become sickly, precisely because it’s so sweet, so that eventually you go right off it. So take it easy. If you go too fast there’s even more chance of failure than if you go too slowly."

4 hours ago, dominickcruise said:

@BlackDiamond the lines of being a genuine person sa iyo (and only you) are blurred kasi siguro nagustuhan ka din niya or she kinda likes you a bit that's why you hear mas mataas mileage mo kaysa sa ibang guest (maybe sa ibang regulars niya) but what's your take on this boss? thank u

of course, I don't want to assume na ganun lang siya sa akin and who knows, maybe there are other silent guests na sobra sobra ang treatment nila (specially those who have deep pockets)

Actually, walang safe assumption e. 

Parang laban lang to, "protect yourself at all times" may it be physically or emotionally.

You're right, di natin alam. 

But at the end of the day, ikaw ang nagdedecide what type of meaning you want to place in it. 

Sabi mga ni @Kryte,

Kapag nadale ka ng feeling mo you are "special".. delikado na.. albeit thays the dopamine hit that makes people addicted to "falling".. yung nakakagawa ka ng mga bagay na di mo usually ginagawa 🤭.

4 hours ago, Lord Immortalis said:

Definitely agree sir, somehow naging immune na rin emotions ko when dealing with attendants and theras non deed wise.

I've just set my defensive walls no matter kahit anong paawa effect ng mga kwento ng attendant or should I say lies / deception. I just keep reminding my self pera lang gusto saken ng taong to kung wala akong mabibigay sa kanya who you nako sa paningin niya

Kahit gaano pa ka sweet at kabait ang mga yan at the end of the day pera pera lang ang habol nila sayo. 

I mean in general naman, kahit hindi thera, it's a very defensive mindset na pera lang ang habol kahit 98% true. 

Id rather come from thinking na pera ang trigger, what happens in between booking and payment, pwedeng may katotohanan, pwedeng puro kasinungalingan.. and for the moat part, i hope that they get to feel some sort of understanding and appreciation sa ginagawa nila. Not every GM is an ass, and not every thera is a cold hearted bitch. 

Its just a messed up scene this industry is.

Parang trabaho lang natin din yan, whether we love it or not, it pays the bills. May days na isinusuka mo work mo, may days na you feel thankful.

Respect

7 hours ago, Kryte said:

Una mag aapologize na agad ako. marupok at assuming eh HAHAHAH . Eto, Share ko na experience ko before.

I fell for my thera before. Nagtrabaho kasi ako sa ibang bansa for 2 years.  so paguwi ko, typical na ilabas parents inom kasama mga tropa, catching up ba. Tas ayun naalala ko MTC. kaya nagbukas ako, Hanap hanap. Pm dito pm doon. Gang may tugma sa trip ko. Usap and book.

Nung una kasi naming session, parang nabigla ako na may nagcacare kasi wala naman akong jowa for a long time e. Kahit sabihin mong natural sa script yung ganyang galawan. Na enjoy ko moments kasi outcall kami after ng bakbakan, kwentuhan at tinanong ko kung what time siya aalis. wala pa naman daw siyang client after.

so niyaya ko kumain since malapit lang naman kami sa gateway. Habang naglalakad kami and papuntang gateway, may sense pala kausap. Makwento akong tao at Nalaman ko storya nya and all. Every now and then tinatanong ko baka may lakad na siya and more than free to go siya since tapos naman na session namin an hour ago. Wala pa naman daw, so tuloy lang tas niyaya ko na mag tea or kape kasi tinatamad pa ko umuwi, pero technically nageenjoy pa naman ako tinatamad tamad pa ko bumyahe pauwi non kasi pagod din. Nabanggit nya lang na baka naman daw maningil ako in terms of service 🤣 sabi ko hindi naman. Pero kung iisa pa, bakit hindi? kaya naman e. tawa lang siya sabay tanong ng weh? tara na. Hayok din dahil panay trabaho ako for the past 2 years e.

Gang nasundan naman ng outcall 3 days after. Typical deed tapos chill sa room na nga lang tas umorder nalang ng food. Kwentuhan, Hanggang sa nagsheshare na siya ng problems niya. Tas maya maya nagpart ways na kami kasi may bisita akong dadating sa bahay e.

After a week outcall ulit. Same thing, nuod naman sine naging trip after. Kaso napapansin ko na sa sarili ko na parang gusto ko lagi kausap yung tao 😩😩 Naiirita na ko pag antagal sumagot sa reply. Kaya ayun, nung nag deed talagang performance level. Tas nung naliligo na siya, kasi babalik na sa place nila. nalungkot ako. napansin niya na parang nagiba mood ko at sabi ko wala problema hehe. Kaya tinanong kung bitin daw ba ko. Sabi ko nalang oo. kaya nag oral pambawi daw.

 

Pag kauwi ko, nag mesage lang ako ng thank you for her time today. Tas di na ko nagmessage. Naghanap nalang ako libangan which is yung oto ko nga. After a few days may message na ngangamusta. From time to time nangangamusta din, kaso alam mong di dahil sa kaya mong iprovide na presence kundi dahil easy money ka sakanya. I don’t blame her ha, worth every peso yung services nya. Assuming lang talaga ako na may meaning, nagdevelop lang din ako ng feelings na alam ko namang hindi dapat in the first place. Kaya I decided to cut connections for the reasons:

1. kasi di ko mapigilan nararamdaman ko e. Nahuhulog ka para sa service lang naman.

2. I can’t change her whole situation. Temporary solution lang meron ako and wala akong pang dulo-han, atleast not yet nung time na yon (2016)

3. I don’t have it in me to build from scratch. Considering na aalis din ako from time to time  para magwork. Syempre anjan yung possibility na bumalik ng industry yan pag nabored or am I overthinking things. Ewan haha

4. I do not mean to offend or anything lalo na sa mga thera na makakabasa neto, pero what if may nameet kaming former client nya sa labas diba? ano sasabihin/irereact ko sakanya, “client mo pala dati” tas andyan na yung kung ano ano pinag gagawa nyo and I’ll go full on bad mood na sakanya kahit nakilala nya way before sakin yon and di nya naman kasalanan kasi wala naman siyang choice before dahil sa ganong industry ko siya nakilala e. 

5. Siguro kasi andami pang possibility na pwede mangyari noon and I didn’t try. Dont get me wrong ha? Masaya ako sa outcome. 

 

(P.S. Nakita ko siya, and nasa industry padin at present, 2023)

 

Natuwa lang ako sa thread na to kasi naalala ko yung moments a few years ago. HAHAHAH

pero yun na nga, most of the reasons din ng nastate ko is advices din ng iba. If there’s anything I can leave for you guys, probably 80/20 yan. medyo forgiving pa nga yang percentage ko hahah. 80 alanganin, 20 pwede pero it will be hard and tough.  ikaw na makakapagsabi kung worth it ba or hindi. Pero mostly on the losing side ka. 

 

 

I agree.

These are the lies we tell ourselves. 

Imagine mo, thera ka, and you hear the same lines every damn day.. you also get the same lies every damn day.

What is one instance to us, to them,

it's nothing new.

Just another face, just another guy..

Pamatay yung "it's the meaning you put behind the actions" parang maiisip mo

"At least this person sees me as someone important.."

The sad truth may also be on the same line you said.. " it's not your presence, it's the fact that you're easy money.."

And men can also be crazy..

For both sides, i know these words probably are muttered..

"Tell me your sweet lies, so I can forget the pain i'm unable to tell anyone.."

Na sa sandaling magkasama kayo, sana isa o pareho kayong makalimot sa mga mapapait na bagay na di nyo masabi sa iba. 

"Gwaenchana"

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I think im more "me" online than in real life.. 😄

A sh*t ton geeky, nerdy and unapologetically awkward.

When life's situations force you to take on a less than ideal means to earn a living, at times you need to find a way to make sense of things. 

Not everyone can compartmentalize feelings; and when the service you provide is attached to a strong emotion (may it be strong feelings of lust or love)..

It takes a tremendous amount of effort to not be emotionally invested or at least affected.

The service requires some level of genuine-ness to be effective.

So just like any client may "fall" for a thera, it's the same as a thera falling for a client.. in spite of how much each try to rationalize that it's purely physical, 

It is still an interaction between 2 human beings. 

At the end of the day, respect always goes a long way. 

Si "scam" ang crush ko. 🥰

On 9/25/2023 at 7:35 AM, Gregliwag said:

Was a member ages ago, as in desktop with lcd monitor pa lol. Glad that the community is still alive! Kudos to admins and members.

Same 😄

12 hours ago, Nicole of Oasis said:

Chinito na moreno tapos matangkad 😍

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