I have seen it so many times before through some of my MTC friends way back when I was still active as a member of the HB group here, never thought nearly the same thing will happen to me, sa dami ba naman ng pinagdaanan ko sa ganitong larangan. May mga hindi nagtagal at naghiwalay din, negosyanteng nalugi, mga kaibigan na muntik masira ang buhay dahil may ibinahay, kinalokohan at naloko.
There was this new Thera na nakuha ko on her first day dahli may timbre from an insider, started with the usual curiosity until the session came. I have had my fair share of being treated extra special from a typical guest-thera session, but this one hits different, this was also the same time I was stressed out on both work and business. Realizing now that probably I was just vulnerable and needed somebody outside of my circle that I could talk to and just listen..
She was just 19yo. college student, an 18 year gap when we met. She was different from any other thera that I met, in fact she was the type na hindi mo aakalain na mapapasok sa ganon, smart, beauty queen looks and the way she carried herself. it started with me being her regular and she was constantly updating me on her agenda and how her day went, which made me feel that I was really special for her to which she also claims. And then that one time when we went out for a late dinner and drinks, we shared stories both happy and sad. Afterwards, had a very special session, I was hesitant to put money on her bag but I still slid it in there because we had a session and I thought I should pay. Not knowing that she saw it since I never bothered telling her, to my surprise she left it in my car's cup holder before she got out of the car and told me "Medyo naoffend ako pero okay lang, akala ko kasi special night 'to para sa ating dalawa" I was out of words and all I can say was "Sorry" since I did not expect to hear those from her, shocked with a happy heart when I heard it (Paka pogi ko taena!) hahaha. Found myself driving off with a smile on my face and pondering about the words she uttered that night.
The next days were the usual good morning and updating until she started saying I love you, she caught me off guard but I did respond just for the sake of not offending her again. Knowing more about her and her knowing more about me, I just found myself always thinking about what gifts I could give her each time we are going to have our session or us going out on a date. I genuinely wanted to make her happy by spoiling her to a point that I even send gifts for her siblings and parents, she of course never ask for it and was always thankful for every effort I make. I am naturally selfless for those I care about, so part of me is a bit scared of what might happen in the future if this goes on. Few months went on and good thing is I am still level headed and told myself "Lumalalim ah. Ungas, nangyari na yan kay W** at kay J*** tapos gagaya ka pa! kelan ka matatauhan? Pag ubos ka na din?"
She was like a drug, It was so hard for me to stay away from her and cut all our communication but I think it is for the better. I just disappeared without saying a word, changed my number and threw away my old sim so I won't be tempted to contact her. Watching from afar, I wish her well and genuinely happy that she finished her studies and got out of the industry and is now working in a corporate setting. sabi nga ni @Venus of GL "Masama ka sakin, pero masaya ako sayo" and it hit me hard that everything flashed back like it just happened yesterday.
