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me when i was 22... a loser who wrote stuff like this:

Agonizing Resonance of Pain Through the Brain

Tell me what is there to look up to in the morning

while self hangs on a string from a star

no message could be sent with meaning

because groupie is there to thwart.

Locomotion is not an option

while cynical clowns grasp one’s own attention

creating distorted figures

images that shudders the spine.

Local malt stems the chain of thought

leaving a babbling bloke to his desires

jotting down his incoherencies

rambling through most of the wee hours.

Looking for means to escape his own trap

but still ensnared within its confines.

Dreaming of flying a kite in the moon

nothing going but just a plan,

That executes zilch

because fibs are attractive than dawdlers.

hahaha how mushy did you get when yuo were 22 yaers old?

My excuse of a love letter (this is really for you)

Escape; yes escape a very damn hard thing to do. At first I thought that it was an easy thing to do, but when I was there it was then that I realized that it was hard. Not calling or sending an SMS was the key so I won’t endure the pain that I feel whenever I see you, when all that I am is a big brother to you. I will admit, although that is what you feel about me, I still am happy because that is what keeps me inside you, but as a human being who cannot get content with what is given, I gave in. So there goes escape.

I was wondering what it would be like when my faith in relationships is returned?

Well now enough of my ramblings and onto my babblings.

I was a romantic when I was young, but something ugly happened and the young romantic died and in his place a jaded young man emerged, that ugly thing was growing up too fast. I believed in every single love quote and saying about love, but as mentioned earlier those beliefs were buried with the romantic that died.

Now jaded, love is but a hallucination that distracts and offers no refuge for me, as I believe right now. The only thing with the word love that means something to me is unrequited love. Sounds mighty deep, indeed it is and may I add freaking painful, I guess I should know about it because that is what is driving me to write this piece.

Being jaded had its ups, but then again it has its downside which makes one a negative psycho, who in defense always say that it is being practical. I’m getting out of the topic here, so let us end my psycho-analysis of my mind lest I really get out of hand and go berserk.

So there, a short description of what my mind is going through, a short word to describe it is turmoil; my half-baked brain is in turmoil, and I would go bonkers if I don’t say this to you.

Really I’m telling you, after that unexpected meeting I’m having sleepless nights again all because old feelings that I kept locked are flooding right back, and I don’t have the slightest idea on how to tell you about them.

I read something in the internet that said, “Damn if you do, damn if you don’t.” well I think I’d be damned with whatever I do so why not go and just do it eh?

Single by my own choice, that was my front, because of being jaded that was the more practical approach that offers me happiness but no other option. Now I’m eating my words.

I’m not being pretentious when I say that the young romantic is revolting and gives innuendos of love being sweeter the second time around. I guess you’re laughing now because you know me as the type of guy who doesn’t get mushy easily, and would keep things more to himself than tell people about it. But hey, I’m human just like you, and I forgot that I was and thought as a machine for a long time in my life. Well now, I’m here again trying to be human, and feeling a strong human emotion that gets stronger as it is suppressed. Maybe it used the suppression to fuel it, now it is ablaze and the only thing that will stop it is to tell you about it.

I’m a schmuck, I can’t promise you anything big and I’m not the perfect guy, not the sweetest of the lot, not the popular jock, not the handsome dude, not the richest man, and not the coolest star, but I know that I could fake it to make you content.

Maybe now you can see where this is leading to.

I saw a shooting star last night while driving home from the drugstore and, I was just wondering what if we started all over again? I was wondering how wonderful life would be (well that would be in my case, for I know not what you are thinking) with you. I was hoping that you would be the one who would be the answer to my question in the beginning.

But all I can do right now is muse in my thoughts, and say all of this to you nothing more.

Rewind back in time, the time when I asked to hold your hand for you to feel my love for you. Still remember that time? Find it corny today?

If you are laughing now that you’ve remembered it, I guess it is only fair to laugh about it. It was a very old line of teenagers to tell their sweets of their undying love. But now again I am asking to hold that very same hand, to hold mine and accompany me as I hope to earn the owner’s love.

hahahaha no crane kick for him... he may just be training bjj & all that other stuff with blackhouse and sticks with his boxing coach for striking

yep, mali ikot ni jds, modified arm in guillotine nga siya kaso mas naging neck crank sa lapad ni carwin

because they share the same boxing coach..yung legendary brazilian national coach na c Luis Doria..yun na rin yung naging cornerman nila during the fight..i wonder nga rin kung part pa rin b c Cigano ng Blackhouse..kc dun sa countdown at sa fight mismo wla akong nkitang miski isang Blackhouse member..unlyk, when AS, Machida, and the Nogs fight..

 

i also heard nga rin that Guillotine choke cant be successful when the other guy is in side control..but as far as i remember JDS was not in a dominant side control..his back is in the canvass, napunta ata xa dun, when Carwin flipped him or when JDS tried to escape..para xang north-south choke???(like Matt Hughes-Ricardo Almeida) but there back is laying in the canvass..from the replay it seems that JDS is about to tap or he is just trying to push the arm of Carwin knowing that the round will soon end..

could be a ns choke kaso makaka escape kaagad si jds kasi nasa ilalim si shane carwin eh. honga no walang blackhouse member sa corner nya during the fight itself, haven't watched the prelims so can't say anything about it. baka busy sa pag-gawa ng game plan ang mga tiga blackhouse kasama si zen master nico aka steven seagal

I think Carwin is trying a D'Arce choke. That's why he flipped to lie on the back for more pressure.

homeboy had the wrong hold bro, he was using an arm in guillotine maneuver so i don't think it was a brabo choke. tipong choke a la carlos newton vs pat miletich "grab a hold of the neck/head then squeeze as hard as you can choke"

a great card for UFC 131..but there are some poor judging again..one judge scored the Maia-Munoz fight as 30-27??? i dont see how can u give the 1st round to Munoz..that fight is a draw at least.. the same with Florian-Nunez..one judge scored it 30-27??? 1st round is definitely in Diego's favor..

 

though JDS-Carwin didnt end in KO, it is still a good fight..the guillotine in the last seconds by Carwin is very deeeeep IMO..but Im not a BJJ wizard, so I cant really say..

yeah deep from that angle... but can easily be broken kasi JDS was in side control & shane carwin didn't have any hooks in... iba naman ito sa standing guillotine kasi iaangat mo siya kapag nakatayo kayo sir, kaso kapag guillotine from the bottom tapos yung dominant fighter is in side control, nagsasayang ka lang ng lakas ng braso sir. yes sir demian maia got robbed

question though, diba cigano trains with black house? bakit nasa corner niya si maia during his fight?

I noticed the same thing. Napa wtf nga ako e. Maia and Nunes clearly had the upper hand in their respective bouts, yet in some judge's eyes, they lost. Weird

diego nunus sir medyo kinapos siya ng cardio kay ken flo

all in all mas pabor ng judges ang fighter who ends up on top kahit wala mashadong ginagawa... lay n pray kumbaga

dana white

player eh

bet on overroid man...

yeah mayhem is unlikable madaldal mashado

busy ba sir?

^^ both unlikable dudes duking it out now thats awesome! talagang walang talo sa laban na yan para sa atin kasi parehas silang gusto mong makitang basag ang mukha

Randy Couture March 3, 2007 UFC 68 teabagged Tim Sylvia for 5 rounds to win the vacant UFC Heavyweight Championship

he was 43 years old at that time

lesbo scene booya!

yep the more she likes pussy the hotter man hahahaha

^^

bet she likes pussy too bro

hehe..actually naicip ko nga din yan..since Lytle has a reputation of following a "gentleman's agreement"..like he did with Serra..i believe Hardy called out Lytle, kya mejo fishy tong fight na to, considering in a 3 fight losing streak na c Hardy, at ayaw nya na ng wrestlers..

 

on the other news, Lombard again finished his foe in Bellator..Zuffa needs to sign him asap to deepen the thin MW division, before Lombard becomes irrelevant..

lights out lytle will probably stand and bang, he's a technical boxer a la kampmann, but we all know what happens if you try and be a technical boxer in mma... you go to sleep e.g kampmann vs daley

so yeah classic brawler vs technician. hehehe i like dan hardy, he's fukken entertaining, i don't want him outof the ufc kaya this fight favors him in my opinion... he's in for a long night though, and he'd better be careful of those hook-jabs ni lights out lytle

for the interim LW title?? pwede

yes sir! long time coming for the carpenter

I disagree.. Falcao's issues was 9 years ago..other fighters also have their personal probs, like Tito Ortiz, Matt Hughes and of course Chael Sonnen..but they are big name fighters, that's why UFC cant cut them..from there you can clearly see the UFCs favoritism..but its kinda weird, that the Brazilians were the one who demanded to exclude Falcao in UFC Rio..hmmmm..he must have done more than that, to merit the anger in Brazil.

 

UFC on Versus 5 is starting to be a stacked card..and that would definitely Hardy's last fight.

and Lytle will show GSP how to submit the brit..

 

And the UFCs LW division is now very crowded..maybe its time for them to create a tourney to determine the next contender.

nahhh, i think lights out will slug it out with the outlaw, hindi ganun kalaking ww si lytle eh, medyo mahihirapan siguro siya kay hardy, but i'm rooting for another chris lytle triangle armbar hehehe

pettis vs guida na lang sana

crane kick part 2

machida vs bones won't be easy for machida, but it own't be easy for jones to take him down either, superior wrestling or not opponents had a hard time taking down machida. we might be in for a treat next time tipong wooden doll punch naman ala karate kid 3 hahahaha

luck probability parang si longshot sa x-men

crane kick!

smokes

sayang at nag WW na si Nate. Now I wonder who will be given the daunting task to shut Bisping up?

so-en ah este sonnen sir sana

from batangas

do you think Nick Diaz can hang with Anderson? sa Sherdog kc my mga nagpafantasize sa fight na yun..hehe..

 

but, i want to see first Diaz-Mayhem muna..parehas maangas cla, plus their fued in the Nashville brawl, kya mejo hype yung fight na yun..

 

just watched the 2nd episode of TUF 13..boring pa din. pti yung mga fights boring din..hehe..i saw Shogun in the teaser.i believe that is before the Jones fight.

vs anderson silva, medyo malabo pa yan para sa akin sir, kaso maliit na middle weight si diaz kapag nagkataon... kaya siguro hindi matuloy tuloy yung laban nila ni miller kasi ww si diaz tapos si mayhem mw

Nick Diaz can definitely beat any given welterweight in the UFC! Unfortunately for him team mate Jake Shields is already there! Another Cesar Gracie Protege' EL Nino Melendez is IMO best LW in the world right now! He Would destroy FE or Gray Maynard given the chance!

Fedor vs. Hendo @ LHW! I hope Fedor decides to cut weight to LHW! Sakto lng sya sa weight class na yun!

yes sir, kaso para sa akin the greatest lw talaga is bj penn sir, old age just got to him

Nate Marquardt is now a welterweight and will face Anthony "Rumble" Johnson at UFC on Versus in June

ang laking ww ni marquardt ah, kaso sabagay parehas sila ni rumble johnson na malalaking ww sir

captain obvious