Unknown Hunter

Magsarili

excess

After reading all your stories napapa isip din ako. I am in Love with my regular thera. Going XXnth time na ko sa kanya. Got her more than anyone here at MTC and outside of MTC. At first it was all pleasure and companionship until one day it changed. Una she always had her walls up, not telling anything about herself at all, not even her age or even her favorite color. Then the day came when she opened up which surprised me. She was clinging to me, told me that she likes me and wished that we met in a different way then hugging me tightly like she was saying goodbye. She told me how tired she is of her life. Paying off her familys' debts, sending her sibling to school and providing almost everything for them. After hearing that I wanted to help her. Let's say I am in a good position in life and that I can help her settle everything. But I am also afraid what comes next if I do that. I want her dreams to come true, Get her out of the responsibility that was forced on her and live the life she truly deserves. Falling in love is really hard. I want to be with her every single day of my life but I am also afraid of the changes that can occur while we are together. Heart break is one of the most painful things we can experience in this life. One of things I'm really afraid of is that after I help her, ang ending ay mapunta lang sya sa iba. Like that one trend "Binuo mo sya pero para sa iba" or "Binuo mo sya pero para pala sya sa ibang tao" Makes me question myself if I should help her or not? Should I risk it all because I love her? Both choices are painful in a way. Because it might work or it might not. Madaming what ifs na pwede mangyari. Sorry if makalat ako mag kwento and contradicting myself. I just don't know what to do.