The Mail Box

[neville]

Dear Mr. Blonde and Blue-eyed,

 

For the past month or so, you have been actively running in my mind.

 

All for the possibility that we will finally see each other after nine long years.

 

We have done a lot of growing up since that fateful day in 2011.

 

I hope that when we meet again, I am no longer in the friendzone. I hope that what we will have is more.

 

So much more.

 

 

 

 

Me

[StreetWetzfo]

Does this mean MM, after all that spring cleaning and cooking dinners for triple H there will be the sound of little feet, pitter patter very soon on the agenda?

[*Jessie*]

Mom,

 

In a way, it still boils down to him. I got so fed up with all his drama, hurting and his wounds. I got sucked up so hard I cannot fathom the pain and frustration of dealing with him in his most narcissistic stage. I should have walked away way too sooner.

Since then, I did not want to be vulnerable again. I didn't want to be open again. At some point, then, I kind of knew that I wanted to settle down. All it just takes is the right person at the right time whose values align with mine.

Truth to be told, I am not sure if I am really lonely. I haven't spent much time reflecting on it yet. I know I am frustrated because I still haven't met the one. I love my personal space. I love my freedom. But I really want to share it with someone.

I just want to make sure that this person is the one. But only in time, it will unfold. I just need to believe that I will be able to polarize that one person. For I don't need a lot of people to be attracted to me. Just that one. That one person whose timeline falls within mine, whose readiness times with mine. Whose level of willingness to go through the seemingly repetitive and tiring process of getting to know meets the level of mine. Someone who knows that our interest may wane, or the fire may need to be rekindled once in a while because we are human.

Someone who knows that our sex may disappoint sometimes, and our moods go downhill. Someone who knows that we may be in our most horrible state not because we don't love each other but because we can be our truest self and we are willing to show our flaws, and yet we stay. Because we choose to nurture our love to grow bigger than our flaws and bigger than the reasons why most people give up.

To think of it, I don’t know why I'm beating myself up for not having found the one. I missed to celebrate my realization of who I am becoming now. I am becoming ready to give time, to give love, to understand, to be honest. I am becoming open to a lot of things to hopefully please my partner and make him happy. I am learning to forgive and understand and accept the reality of things. I am starting to see that all I can beat myself up for is when I don't follow what I know I should do and not the uncontrollable outcome even if I knew I stayed true to my values.

I don’t have the answers to all questions. But I try to come up with deeply penetrating questions that may lead me to self-discovery. I realized that when I started thinking about what the world must give me, only then I felt lonely. When I was so busy being my best, whether people accepted or not, I always felt full and abundant. Now when I think of what I should receive as a form of my self-serving gratification, the more I felt empty. Life has been great to me in every possible way. Now is when I am so not entitled to any form of emptiness nor even an atomic size of right to complain.

Perhaps I am failing to see how I am becoming a higher value woman. I become calmer and accepting. Warmer and more compassionate. I am more passive not because I give up but because I don’t feel the need to assert my belief or impose my opinion to others. I learned to save my energy for more creative things and just spend it on selected people.

I guess I need to remind myself to focus on being the better version of myself and not beat myself up for the delay of results I was hoping for. I must not lose sight of who I am becoming, how it nourishes soul and lifts my spirit. The external manifestation will always follow as nature takes it course. You keep telling me to be patient, I know it’s not my strong suit.

 

See you soon. Lutuan nyo ako ni papa ng chicharong bulaklak.

Edited October 20, 2019 by *Jessie*

[Lablee]

dearest, let me love you goodbye 😔

[Guest Riveria]

Hello,

 

I know you and I haven't had much time to really connect and get to know each other, and I know that if we got together it wouldn't be for long. I accept that, even embrace it. Hell, just spending time with you is something I look forward to.

 

E

[Guest Riveria]

Z,

 

Remember that adversity is a fact of life. It can't be controlled. What we can control is how we react to it.

 

E

[ZDR]

M.

 

Everything in your life is a reflection of a choice you made.

 

Z.

[lee sawyer]

Dear Ms. G,

 

You were a good teacher but a bad leader.

 

ls

[Guest Riveria]

S,

 

Remember the golden rule: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you

 

 

E

[Guest Riveria]

Mom,

 

For all the things my hands have held, the best by far is you. In my life, you are the sun that never fades and the moon that never wanes.

 

I love you and Happy Mother's Day!

[The Janitor]

M,

 

You can f#&king do this, man. Show 'em.

 

A

[The Janitor]

P,

 

We have reached a point where we cannot back down. We know what the consequences of not being together are and we have made the decision to take separate paths.

Keep in mind that you will always be very important to me. I wish you the best in life.

 

M

[Bratty Princess]

Dear Someone,

 

Where art thou?

[neville]

Manong,

 

I miss you. I really, really miss you. Blame the kitschy romance novels for stirring up my emotions.

 

However, I will still say it: I miss you.

 

Pandemic or no pandemic, I wish I can finally see you.

 

 

 

 

Me

[B.C.]

Hey,

 

I know It's you. Mag DM kana, wag ka ng mahiya.

I've got something important to tell you.