The Mail Box

[wjc-934]

J

 

 

u dont even know that i exist!!!!

 

 

kit

[naked_angel]

Dear Dad,

 

I'm so tired. I'm so tired of having no one to shield me from the hurts and the pains of this damn world. I'm so tired of feeling no one loves me anymore. But your memory is enough to lift my spirits.

 

When you unexpectedly left us 10 years ago, I grew up too fast. I never even had a proper grieving time, Dad. Your little girl had to show everyone she's strong, I did not she'd a tear even when I was the only one left alone to arrange for the funeral, to pick the clothes you were supposed to wear, to pick the coffin, to call mom and my ate's, to explain to my younger brothers why you had to go. At 15, your death taught me how painful it was to be left alone and hurting.

 

There were times, when I wished so hard for mom to get married again. Just so I'll have someone to talk to about school, boys, so someone will be there to see the spark in my eyes when I would begin to tell of my first date, my first year in college. But it never came true Dad, all my wishes remained... wishes.

 

It hurt just to think what my life would have been had you not died. It hurt so much...

 

I know it's a long journey before I could even get to half of what you've achieved in your lifetime, but i'm slowly getting there. Who knows, I might go to med school as you and mom had always wished for all of us... that one, at least even one, be a doctor like you and mom.

 

Now that your little girl is all grown- up and ready to take on the world, I hope you're proud of what I've achieved. It may not be that much... I may not have made all the right decisions in life... but please know that I was thinking of you every step of the way.

 

I still have a lot to say but I know you know my thoughts even before they come to my mind. Don't worry, we'll take care of mom like you would have taken care of her had you been alive.

 

You and I never had a chance to go that far in the father and daughter category but 15 years is good enough, Dad. Don't be sad when you see me cry, that only means I'm strong enough to admit that I have my weaknesses too.

 

Be proud of me Dad, just as I am so proud of you and the legacy you left behind.

 

I love you so much. Someday all my wishes will come true. Someday we will talk about life and boys and how they turned my world upside down and of this particular guy...

 

I love you Dad. I wish I could have told you that but I know you know... I miss you...

[Guest breakdowngirl]

ang tanga ko talga...

 

inisip ko na mamahalin mo rin ako...

 

sabi ng kaibigan ko, 'kala ko sya na,

 

pero basura rin pala'

 

ha ha ha

Edited August 7, 2004 by breakdowngirl

[Mayella]

sweetie,

 

last night was really something. i think we have waited for this the longest time. we deserve this! it's the start of happier times for us and i am soooo excited. i am ecstatic! i really hope to see you soon. miss u already.

 

L

[wjc-934]

j,

 

Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all

If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby

Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything

But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

 

kit

[boy_kokok]

BDG,

 

alam mo na yun!

 

 

-BK

[sweetequila]

My dearest,

 

truly our lives is fast changing....i dont believe in love at first sight...

i don't believe in Knight and shining armour....but i felt deeply in love with you...

it's truly umcomparable...

 

if you think they will try to come our way...well go ahead..this would make us more strong...we believe in each other..together we can make it work...

 

just to answer..that..yes..hold on dearest..we have a lot of dreams to fulfill..this time together...

 

 

you are my happiness...i love you

 

Sweet

[Chito]

On Dreams and the One Dream:

by R. Luis Flores

 

A person creates dreams almost as soon as he gains an awareness of a need to be someone who matters in his circle of concern. In his young life, he accumulates dreams as manifold as the number of sides of a well-polished gem.

 

But as one grows older, some dreams are strengthened, and most others discarded. A shift in one's perspective also occurs when one realizes that a dream of someone special to be cherished always and forever, is just as compelling as a dream of one day making the world a better place to live in. These two dimensions - the individual and the universal - severely complicate the process of discarding and strengthening and discarding again of one's dreams.

 

But the process continues, for there really is no other way to go. The maturing process involves letting go of most of one's dreams in the hope that it would hasten the fulfillment of a very few others. Later on, a crisis will occur when one will be forced to choose just one among his most cherished dreams.

 

(It is, after all, the human way. A single dream fulfilled in one lifetime is all that we are ever entitled to. Two is lucky, three is nearly impossible. But it is also very possible for a person to leave this world with unfulfilled dreams.)

 

And so, a person chooses just one dream - the One Dream. The dream that will consume his very being - the fulfillment of which will determine the way he will live his life henceforth. The One Dream far greater than himself to which he submits to be in the service of for the remainder of his lifetime. A dream so compelling that he is willing to live and die for it.

 

The One Dream varies in form from person to person. From ideas such as power, beauty, freedom and peace ..... to more tangible aspirations such as wealth, expertise and education. Still, for others, the One Dream is a person - God, the Buddha, or even a high school crush.

 

In terms of the One Dream, there is no such thing as that being more worthy or trivial. A person who seeks to fulfill his One Dream, no matter how seemingly trivial it is, is much better off than a person who has accomplished almost everything except choose his One Dream. He will suffer a pointless existence. And even if he had all the comforts the world has to offer, his lack of direction will haunt his subconscious, never giving him peace.

 

Have you found your One Dream? What is it? Who is it? Are you anyone's One Dream?

[sweetequila]

Tonight I Give In

 

 

Somebody walked into my life

And he's right on time

Somebody looked into my eyes

And he read my mind

And its true

I only need to tell you

that it's you

You're every thing

I ever dreamed would come to me

 

Somebody walked into my heart

And to my surprise

Somebody tearing me apart

And it feels just fine

And it's you

I've waited oh so long to say

it's you

You're every thing

I ever dreamed

 

And tonight I give in to the feelings

Tonight I give in to the thrill of loving you

And tonight I give in to believing

I'd hear you say

You'd always stay

 

Somebody turned my life around

And I'm not the same

Suddenly I don't hear a sound

Only your name

And I really need you

 

And tonight I give in to the feelings

Yes tonight I give in to the thrill of loving you

And tonight I give in to believing

You'll always stay in love this way

 

Oh, tonight I give in to the feelings

Yes tonight I give in to them all so hold me

And tonight I give in to believing, darling

You're every thing

I ever dreamed would come to me

[Mayella]

sweetie,

 

i am sooo happy. i can never get tired of saying it. it overwhelms me to have you in my life now. everything seems surreal yet so tangible. thanks for the gift of you.

 

L

[wjc-934]

Wala nang Ulan

 

Dumilim ang langit, bumaba ang lipad ng mga ibon at nagising ang mga bulaklak. Matagal ko nang nakakasalubong ang ulan pero ngayon ko lang nakita ang tunay nitong anyo. Iba-iba ang mukha ng ulan, bawat luha ng ulap, bawat tawa ng hangin, may istoryang tinatago. Ngayon lang ako napatitig sa ulan simula nang nagpaalam ka.

 

Hindi lahat ay gusto ang ulan, at isa na ako dun.

Naalala ko pa nung sinabi mo sa akin na makikita mo ang lalaking mamahalin mo sa ulan. Ironic ‘di ba? Ang lalaking makikita mo sa ulan ay ayaw ng ulan. Kahit ako ay napaniwala sa iyo. Pinilit ko ang aking sarili na patunayan ang mga sinabi mo pero huli na nang nalaman ko na hindi ako ang lalaking iyon.

 

Ilang araw pa lang ang nakalipas pero nami-miss na agad kita. Ikaw lang talaga ang babaing minahal ko nang tunay. Marami ngang isda dyan pero kakaiba ka, ikaw ang isdang gusto ko. Sa mga mata mong ipagpapalit ko sa mga bituin, sa buhok mong tila ang gabi’y maliwanag, at sa ngiting kahit ang mga diyosa’y maiingit.

 

Alam kong hindi ko naparamdam sa iyo ang tunay na pagmamahal. Totoo ngang may kulog at kidlat ang ating relasyon, ang lahat nang iyon ay dahil sa akin. Ginawa mo ang lahat para hindi tayo kumalas sa isa’t-isa. Nagpapasalamat ako kahit nasaktan kita. Sa mga text messages na hindi ko nireplyan at sa mga tawag na aking binaliwala, nagtiyaga ka pa rin.

 

Hindi pa rin ako nawawalan ng pagasa. Alam kong ang mga salitang binitawan mo nung gabing iyon ay bunga ng galit. Hindi dapat kita binitawan, nagpumilit pa dapat ako, nagpaapekto pa dapat ako sa sakit, dinagdagan ko pa sana ang pagmamakaawa. Dahil ngayon ay hindi pa ako kumbinsado wala ka na sa aking mga kamay. Hindi dapat ako ngayon nag-iisa.

 

Natatawa ako ngayon sa aking sarili, saka lang ako naghahabol kung kailan wala ka na. Kung kailan unti-unti nang tumitila ang ulan. Saka ko lamang nalaman ang tunay nitong halaga, kung kailan na ito maglalaho. Tunay ngang nasa huli ang pagsisisi.

 

Ngayong ko lang pinansin ang ulan, ngayon ko lang din ito nagustuhan. Hindi dahil sa walang pasok at sa lamig ng simoy ng hangin, kundi sa mga matatamis na alaala na hatid nito...

[Guest breakdowngirl]

Wala nang Ulan

 

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bakit parati mo akong pinapaiyak sa mga sinusulat mo dito? :cry:

 

o eto bagay sa yo: :*

 

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

Pablo Neruda

 

I do not love you except because I love you;

I go from loving to not loving you,

From waiting to not waiting for you

My heart moves from cold to fire.

 

I love you only because it's you the one I love;

I hate you deeply, and hating you

Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you

Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

 

Maybe January light will consume

My heart with its cruel

Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

 

In this part of the story I am the one who

Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,

Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

Edited August 8, 2004 by breakdowngirl

[Guest breakdowngirl]

On Dreams and the One Dream:

 

Have you found your One Dream? What is it? Who is it? Are you anyone's One Dream?

OT: oo na Chito ako na tong ONE DREAM MO!

[a_ngel]

G

 

Just heard the news,

damn, it hurts

thought I was over you

but damn it hurts.

 

i know I suggested it

but I never thought

you'd actually do it.

 

Damn, it hurts

like fu**ng hell

 

damn, I dont wanna know

coz my heart cant take it anymore.

 

So, when is she coming?

Know what dont tell me, just go.

 

G'bye.

 

W

[Leslie Garcia]

Honey,

 

Im afraid to lose you ... but if it will do good on you i'll make the sacrifice ... I'm willing to go back to where i came from ... lonely and desolate ... you know i will survive whatever happens ... i'll make it just like before .... but then i don't know if i will love again ... maybe not anymore ... i'll just direct my energies with the only treasure that i have .... always remember i love you ....

 

M

Edited August 31, 2004 by Leslie Garcia