The Mail Box

[Wyld]

 

Matatapos na naman ang isang linggo.

Isang linggo na naman ang nadagdag

Sa ating iniipong araw at oras.

 

Walang katapusang paglipas ng oras

Walang katapusang pagmamahalan.

Walang katapusang ikaw.

 

[Barenaked-NoMre]

CPO/FWB,

 

I've had it ... keeping you in my life.

 

Of all days ... yesterday you made me feel bad ... on my birthday of all days!

 

I'm done.

 

Good luck to you and your career plans.

 

A

[ziggyzag]

L,

 

kung ako lang ang papiliin sana hindi na nangyari..

 

pero nandyan na..

 

wala na tayo magagawa pa..

 

kakayanin ko..

 

sana mapasaya kita sa mga munting gagawin ko..

 

sana masuklian kita..

 

ng eksakto..

[Switlass]

Miss you!

[Guest simply_miss]

Tomorrow I walk out

Into my brand new life

I plan to go away

To where I'll find no strife

 

I may be alone

But the pain will soon subside

Please don't look for me

So that I don't have to hide

 

I'm just starting over

Without all the pain

You wanted it all

Well, here's all you had to gain

 

You no longer have to pretend you care for me

 

So now I hope you're happy

You need not explain

Please just let me walk away

And cause me no more pain

 

 

...goodbye...it was nice meeting you

Edited September 3, 2005 by simply_miss

[missmanners]

it seems everyone has the answers i should.

 

and today, everything has been made clear.

 

but, and i probably will regret this, i want to wait to hear you out. what possible explanation could there be this time? because i really really don't think i can take the bite of reality just yet. i think, that if i really really let the truth come out, i probably won't come out of it alive.

 

and i really really don't want to be like all those other bitches i know who've turned cold and cynical and unable to believe in this... whatever this is.

 

self-preservation was never my strong suit. so please. lie to me again.

[sweetpsyche]

bland.. plain.. just so bland...

 

lost... nothingness... simply lost...

 

what to do...

 

what not to do...

[bakedzitiguy]

Hi Bear. Im so glad you passed the boards on your 1st try. Never doubted that you'll pass. Im sure your parents are so proud of you. Me too. I wish I can tell you how happy I am for you. But Im still not strong enough. I know that I contact you, I'll only ask you to come back. That shouldn't happen. And I know you wouldn't anyway. Everyday is a struggle without you Bear. There are good days, but most of the time, it's a bad day. I guess being incommunicado with each other is the best thing to do. I may appear angry. I may appear that I hate you. But the truth is, Im still hoping that one day, we'll be with each other once again. That our time together will come. You just have to see through this facade. I love you so much bear. Continue to make us proud. Goodluck in your USMLE.

[wjc-934]

hi kendz...

 

you told me that you'll be gone for almost a week, where are you going?

 

whats the purpose of your departure? things will not be the same without you.. i'll go home alone again..

 

life... full of unpredicted circumstances...

[KristinLavransdatr]

what have you done again this time? some girl is crying over you. again. you sweet talking mule has done it again. what's with you? can't get enough? the girl not good enough - again? when are you ever going to stop trying on suits and discarding them having left your mark?

 

pathetic! the perfect word for you.

 

Please, tell me,

Are you a god

Trying to present

Heaven as the

Earth that

Takes your

Indellible foot marks

Cruelly stamped?

[missmanners]

i've never tried so hard to understand anyone. if the ex could only see me now, even he would be surprised. that fight or flight mechanism is trying to kick in, leaning towards flying far far away. so i'm fighting extra hard to stay.

 

i think because this time, i should give sticking around a try.

 

i think because this time, you're worth sticking around for.

[Nightwatcher]

I apologize if I again disappeared....

 

I just want to be alone for a while...

 

So many things have happened that I haven't talked to you about...

 

...and it has taken its toll on me...

 

And nobody but myself can correct all the wrongs that has continually tarnished my life...

 

I need to be gone...until when...I'm not sure....

 

I know you'll understand...

[teio]

why do you keep on bugging me?

[Guest simply_miss]

you said it would end at sunset

you always speak before you're sure

you can't tell

in the darkness

neither of us can see

you can't tell

perhaps we'll never know

it's so hard to find

is it over?

you can't tell

let's just give up.

 

[KristinLavransdatr]

P:

 

today is your birthday: you're 27 years old in korea and 26 as far as my calendar is concerned. haven't seen those eyes in 2 years, the close-up smile, the very tall stance. i stopped missing you, though.

 

S:

 

great to hear your voice again. the innuendos. you left me useless here at work. thinking. anticipating.

[Guest globetrotter]

have enough rest,ok?sabi sa yo,sipon at ubo yan eh.take your medicine and drink lots of fruit juices.wag matigas ulo,

[Wyld]

 

Kung may isang bagay ako na dapat ipag pasalamat sa iyo,

Iyon ay ang walang katapusang pasensya at pag mamahal na ibinibigay mo sa akin.

Alam ko na minsan, ay, sige na nga, madalas pala...

Nakakaubos pasensya ang aking kakulitan

Pero, andyan ka pa din at nagmamahal.

Andyan ka pa din at nagpapaalala.

Salamat.

Alam mo na kung sino ka, diba?

 

[Guest globetrotter]

its one of the most romantic cards i received.and i want to thank you for spending time doing this.nice ink by the way.cant wait to receive the next one. it arrived exactly as planned.remember that im always be here for you.just right beside you.holding your hand.making sure that you're always protected and taken cared of.promise.and you know naman that i keep my promises,di ba?

[Zerreit]

You claim to care for me deeply. You claim to love me. I cared for you, too. But it seemed like eons ago. It never crossed my mind that you can hurt me like so...

 

What do you gain from injuring the ones you care for? Must desire always sweep aside good intent?

 

I'm happy now. Please leave me be. Be happy for me. Let me go.

Edited September 9, 2005 by Zerreit

[Z]

Dear B,

 

Thanks for the introduction a while back. To date there has been quite a number of pleasant surprises in spite of the exiguous non-ephemeral moments. You have an inkling of my true intentions and insouciant of them if only to savour our regular discourse. This is also gives me opportunity for another self indulgent soliloquy. All the best with your exam!

 

Warm regards,

 

E

Edited September 12, 2005 by Z

[Guest simply_miss]

on my mind

beneath my soul

through my veins

taking over me

 

screaming inside

fighting to get out

locked away safely

my feelings for him

 

he remains unaware

oblivious to me

my foolsih hopes

crushed by a word

 

a wish on a star

branded on my heart

to be forever

a forged dream

[curian]

hmmmm... i guess its been since we last talked... do you have a new boyfriend now? i do hope that you do, so someone can take care of you like only a guy can... as for me, everything's okay... i'm with a new love of my life... but damn it... i still think of you at times... maybe i just miss the laughs and the excellent conversation... oh well... next lifetime maybe...

[aleena®]

no regrets, baby, no regrets!

[KristinLavransdatr]

at 10 pm you made some subtle noise by the door. unsure you were if i'd let you in. it was raining and sure i'd need some company. i opened the door and let you in and asked if you'd want to stay the night and sleep with me.

 

you bowed your head and went straight to my bed, snuggled yourself close as i read szymborska. 10 minutes later you were asleep. i pulled out more sheets the ones mother kept for you.

 

thank goodness you don't snore.

 

and late into the night i was thinking if my man would allow a dog in our bed.

[silencio]

I called in reality to say I feel bad about what happened, but I ended up saying I felt bad about the money and understandably you were sarcastic. Nothing more to say really. Just that I'm sorry and that I wish you'd give me a chance. A real one this time. One that would not leave me hanging and hurting.

 

I learn the lessons, yet I don't truly learn them because of the hurt and the anger - selfish and immature though as they may seem to you.

 

I don't know anymore. Do you know how it feels like to not know where you stand? To not know how one truly feels about you? Do you know how bad it can be when all the truth and all the anger seem to melt in one big emotion the heart can not help but just break from the tension? Do you know how it feels to just break down everytime? No you don't. You love yourself too much. You don't know how it feels to have your pride broken. To have your heart want something yet your anger just refuses to give. I need you. I need you to smile again. To feel loved and whole and indifferent to the evils of the world. I need you to make me feel that the world is fair. I didn't need anyone until I met you. Until that gloroius day when I fell in love with you.

 

Where are you now? Angry and feeling betrayed. Uncaring and indifferent. I know why. I feel so God damned pathetic hugging this dirty ball to me I don't even know how to begin to explain to myself why I am left all alone for the first time in my life. To need someone when all my life I've lived on my own. You don't understand mayhaps because I don't understand it myself.